by Sophia Sharp
“Dry twigs,” I say. “Got it. How many do we need?”
“If you can get an armload it should be enough. I’ll show you what to look for.”
I follow him back into the trees. We act like nothing has happened.
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Half an hour later, there are two armfuls of dry tinder by the fire pit. I sit on a nearby log and rub my hands together for warmth, watching Rich. He’s going through all the wood we’ve collected with meticulous care, examining each and every piece before either tossing it over his shoulder or carefully setting it down into the pit.
I’m fascinated by the process. I’ve never seen anyone build a fire before. It’s dark, unfortunately, so the most I can see is Rich’s shadowed figure. Every once in a while, though, he goes still, and I can feel his eyes on me. Every time, the moment passes before I can say anything.
Abruptly, a tiny spark flashes. Moments later, a little flame flickers to life in the middle of the fort Rich has built. I gasp, delighted. The flame spreads, lighting up the area around the pit.
“That’s amazing,” I exclaim. “How did you do that?”
“The Zippo helped.” Rich flicks it on and off in his hands with a smile. “But the trick is to get the right type of wood. Not everything will kindle right away.” He waves a hand over the discarded pile of twigs. At least three quarters of what we’d collected must be there. “The hardest part comes next. We have to feed the fire slowly so it doesn’t snuff out.”
“How?”
“Come here.”
I walk over and crouch down beside him. The fire barely reaches halfway to my knees. It gives off only a little warmth.
“Here.” Rich hands me a long, scrawny stick. It doesn’t look any different from the ones in the fire. “Hold the thin end just above the flame. Like this.” Rich takes my wrist and directs my arm as he leans close to me. “And then you wait…” he whispers in my ear, “…for the flames to catch.”
“Like this?” Rich’s proximity is a very welcome feeling in the night.
“Yes,” he says, pressing himself closer to me. “Now, rotate it to spread the heat around.” Something about the way he says “heat” sends shivers down my spine. I try to focus on the fire in front of me—not the one that threatens to ignite inside from having Rich so close.
“Now what?” I ask, trying to shake off the feelings that are forming within me.
“Now,” Rich says softly, “you wait for the ‘pop’.”
As if on command, the stick in my hand cracks. A flame springs to life at the end. I laugh.
“Now put it in there, quickly,” Rich urges me. “In line with the rest. You want to form a pyramid out of them.”
I lower my stick into the fire. The rest of it is absorbed by the flames immediately. “You know, this is kind of fun,” I admit.
Rich steps away from me to gather more firewood from the discarded pile. The loss of his body warmth is uncannily unpleasant. “You’re a pro,” he praises, handing me the next piece of wood. “You don’t even need me to guide you.”
“I had a good teacher.” I smile, and bring the next twig over the fire just like he’d shown me. Rich does the same with another stick beside me. We take turns adding to the fire like that, moving around the pit to make sure everything’s even.
Soon, all the twigs we’ve collected make a solid base for the darting flames. The fire roars all the way up to my waist, offering plenty of heat. In fact, it’s so hot that I have to take off my jacket when I go sit on the nearby log.
Rich settles down beside me. He looks into the flames without saying a word.
Shadows flicker across his face. His eyes seem more intense than I’ve ever seen them. The fire illuminates his hair, turning it a deep, solid red. Not the orangey, soft red of a carrot, but the intense, steady red of a chestnut stallion.
Without warning he turns his head. His eyes bore deep into mine.
“Ahem.” I clear my throat when he doesn’t say anything. For some reason, I feel my cheeks growing warm. “What?”
“What are you thinking about?” Rich asks with serious gravity. The way he says it makes the question seem a lot more loaded than the words alone would entail.
“I was wondering where you learned to make a fire,” I lie, trying to relieve the sudden intensity between us.
He seems surprised. “Really?”
I nod. “Yeah.”
“Well,” he begins, his eyes taking on a distant look, “I went camping once with my sister and father. I was around eight. Min would have been… four or five. My father brought one of his…” Rich makes a disgusted sound in his throat, “… female friends. They ended up spending the whole trip locked in a tent together, leaving me and Min to fend for ourselves.
“One evening, we wandered off into the woods. We lost track of time. Before we knew it, it started getting dark. Min became scared. She began to cry. I knew we couldn’t find our way back at night. Luckily, I had my backpack, and it had…” Rich flips his Zippo through his fingers, “… this. I’d read a survival book before we went on our trip. I remembered reading a chapter about starting a fire with nothing but flint and steel. I had the Zippo, though.”
Rich sighs. “This was in the summer. I was terrified of setting the whole forest on fire. Believe it or not, I used to be a cautious little kid. But, I was scared for Min even more. I collected a little pile of sticks. I arranged them just like that.” He points to the fire pit. “And I tried my hardest to light it. But, no matter what I did, it just wouldn’t catch. I followed the instructions exactly as I remembered them. But it didn’t work.”
He continues. “Even a silent forest starts to make scary noises in the night. Min and I huddled together in the dark, too frightened to close our eyes. Every sound caused us to jump. Every gust of wind caused her to break into tears. All because I couldn’t take care of her.” Rich’s voice becomes hard. “All because I couldn’t start a damn fire.”
My heart melts. I can hear how much he loves his sister in his words. I would have given anything to have a family member like that when I was growing up.
“…Then what?” I ask when he doesn’t continue.
My voice rouses Rich from his spell. “What? Oh. Nothing, really. The sun rose in the morning. We found our way back. There was nothing scarier out there than whatever we had in our imaginations. But I swore to myself that day I would learn to build a fire.” He shrugs. “When I got home, I did.”
“What about your father?” I ask. “Wasn’t he worried? What did he say when you got back?”
Rich gives a long, bitter laugh. “He didn’t even notice we were gone. The next day, he scolded us for getting our clothes dirty. As if he could expect anything different when you take two kids into the wild.
“Wow,” I say. “I’m sorry.”
Rich grimaces. “For what? I already know my father’s an asshole. I don’t need your sympathy for that.”
“I didn’t mean—”
“I know what you meant, Penny. You think because I have a bad relationship with my father, you can pigeonhole me into one of those wounded male stereotypes.” He snorts. “Don’t bother. Others have tried. Anyway, it’s a lot more complex than that.”
“No,” I say, “That’s not what I meant at all. I see now how much you care for your sister. I’m sorry that you had to get tangled with me, and put her in even more danger because of that.”
“Penny, no.” His voice is full of emotion when he turns to look at me. “I don’t think that way at all.”
“If I were anybody else,” I tell him, “you would have left me with Tam and Victor. You’d be reunited with Min by now. There’d be nobody to hold you back.”
“Penny, you’re not holding me back,” Rich stresses. “The only one here at fault is me. Me, and my stupid emotions. Because of them, I put you in danger. I didn’t have the strength to make you leave when you still had the chance.”
There he goes with that heart-wrenching sincerity again. “Rich?
” I look at him, see the dancing flames reflected in his eyes. I can’t stop the words from coming out of my mouth. “Tell me the truth. Would you have come back for anybody else?”
There is no hesitation in his answer. “No. I came back for you, Penny. No one else.” My heart does a flip in my chest. It becomes a little harder to breathe. “My sister is the most important person in the world to me,” he continues. “She is the only true family I have.” He brushes aside a lock of my hair. “Yet I risked her to be with you.”
I try to swallow the lump in my throat. “Really?”
“Yes.” Rich leans toward me. “Only for you.” He is so close I can feel his hot breath on my skin. So close that there is nothing separating us but the thinnest sliver of air. His nose nuzzles against mine. “Only for you,” he repeats.
Then, he kisses me.
I respond too easily. My mouth opens to him with no hesitation. Rational thought has abandoned me. I kiss him back, forgetting everything I told him before. Ignoring all the things I should be remembering. The heat of the flames beats against one side of my face, but it’s the rest of my body that suddenly feels too hot.
Rich’s hand finds the small of my back. He tugs me close. I let out a little gasp as our hips collide. A cool rush of air runs along my swollen lips where Rich’s mouth had just been.
With a start, I remember myself. When Rich tries to come in and kiss me again, I turn away.
“Penny,” he says, “is everything all right?”
“This is wrong,” I tell him. “We shouldn’t be doing this.”
Rich reaches up to cup my chin with two fingers. Gently, he turns my face to his. “Don’t tell me it’s wrong,” he whispers, “when we both know it feels so right.”
He kisses me again. This time, I’m determined not to fold so easily. I clamp my lips together, refusing to allow him in, no matter how much I want to. But Rich stays determined. His tongue presses into my mouth. His hand comes up and winds in my hair.
He’s so big and strong he could easily have his way with me. I know this. But I also know the difference between persistence and force. Even though Rich is trying to get me to kiss him back, not once do I feel pressured or scared. His hand is caught in my hair, and while he could use his other to hold me down, he does not. It’s lying still on his lap.
He’s giving me an escape route if I need to take it.
I don’t. I can’t keep the arousal from stirring up inside me. I can’t deny how badly I want to kiss him back. So, I do.
I open my mouth to his, letting the swell of passion overcome me. As soon as he senses my acceptance, both his hands are on me. He lifts me by the waist and settles me on his lap. Waves of heat beat against my back. Waves of desire crash within my body.
My hands tangle in his hair, bringing him closer. I let the taste and smell of Rich guide me. He moans as I kiss him hard, unleashing the torrent of emotions that have been boiling inside me. I’m swept off my feet by him—his smell, his taste, his touch. I want to bury myself deep in his essence.
His hands run down the sides of my body. They brush along the outside of my breasts, teasing me with their touch. I can feel his fingers pressing deep into the flesh of my waist. My need for him is overwhelming. The way Rich keeps kissing me turns me into a hot, aroused mess. His kiss leaves me breathless.
I can’t hold it in anymore. I need to lose control. I need… Rich!
I gasp his name and tear away from his kiss to rip his shirt off. His eyes shine in the night as he lifts his arms. The top flies off and my hands devour his body in the dark. He groans as I dance my fingers over his shoulders, up and down his hard arms. He pulls me in to kiss me harder.
Exhilaration fills me. I can tell how much he wants me. So help me God, I want him even more. The desire is so strong it’s unnatural. It can’t be normal. It can’t be healthy.
I press my body into his, nearly toppling both of us backward off the log. My nipples tighten under my bra as I’m surrounded by Rich’s dense, masculine strength.
The next thing I know, his hands are at the hem of my sweater, lifting it off. I help him eagerly. It’s entirely too hot with it on. I want to feel my naked body pressed tight against his. I want my skin to mold to his shape. I want his arms wrapped around me, holding me close. I want—
I gasp as he snaps open the clasp of my bra with one expert hand. Chilly air runs over my hardened nipples as the straps fall from my shoulders.
Rich inhales a reverent breath. “My God, Penny,” he whispers. “I forgot how beautiful you are.”
His words reach right into my heart. In the one place I’ve kept locked tight since that fateful day in high school. The feeling scares me, so I try to play it off. I slap him on the arm and laugh. “Don’t tease.”
“I’m serious,” he says. I can feel his eyes burning on my chest, then up and down my exposed body. “Hold still. Let me have a look at you. Wow…”
He’s becoming way too sentimental for my liking.
“Just kiss me, you fool.”
Chapter Fourteen
Rich complies without hesitation. He kisses me so well, so thoroughly, that I could die right now and be the most content woman on earth.
But this isn’t junior high. The scorching need I feel throbbing between my legs tells me that. The hard-on I feel pressing into me tells me that. Rich’s kiss alone leaves me breathless, but I’m greedy. I want way, way more.
Rich’s mouth trails down my body. His hot lips run along my neck. Goose bumps erupt on my flesh as he dips his head to my breasts. His scratchy stubble feels like absolute sin on that highly sensitive area. His mouth clasps over one breast and his tongue twirls around my nipple. I let my head fall back and moan. I shudder with immense pleasure when he shifts his attention to the other one. My hands tangle in his hair, holding him tight against me. I never want to let him go.
I feel Rich’s hands move over my legs to unclasp my jeans. I wiggle out of them, stopping only to unglue my mouth from his in the throes of our passion. We’re both burning with the need for each other. My breaths quicken. I want to feel him inside me. I need to feel him inside me.
My hands bolt to his waist. I rip off his belt with the feverish haste only possible when you’ve completely succumbed to the raging desire you feel for another person.
“Wait.” Rich stops me. I can hear the agony in his voice. “Damn, I don’t have protection.”
I quickly count the days in my head. The last birth control pill I’d taken should still be effective. “I don’t care,” I tell him, full of the unabashed courage of youth. “I want you now.”
Such intensity lights his stunning blue eyes that it almost frightens me. My breaths are coming too fast to care. I can see how much Rich wants me. The sort of power I have over him right now thrills me.
“I want you too,” he gasps, the words hoarse and heavy. “Remember, just like last time—you’re in control.”
I bite my lip and nod. I peel away his jeans, then his boxers, to reveal his glorious erection underneath. Rich slides my panties down with his thumbs. His touch leaves scorching trails on the outside of my thighs. He wraps his arms around my back, pulling me close, and shifts us both off the log onto the cold sand.
I can feel it between my toes as I position myself above Rich. I’m slick with arousal. My hand wraps around his dick, my fingers barely long enough to close all the way around his girth.
He moans as I trace my thumb over the tip. “Remember,” he says, his voice threaded with agony. “You can go as slow as you want.”
I know he’s just saying that to make me comfortable. But, I’ve done this with him before. I remember how big he is. How deliciously stretched he made me feel. And how badly I want him now. Going slow? Yeah, totally not an option.
Rich’s heavy moan shatters the quiet of the night. It echoes the gasp that rips from my throat as I slide down his full length. My insides clench at the intrusion, but the feeling is so damn amazing I don’t even care.
Rich holds me by my waist as I start to rock on top of him. He’s thick and hard inside me, filling me to the brim. The heat from the bonfire beats at my back. It’s nothing compared to the heat I feel from his gaze. His face is twisted in the most beautiful type of satisfaction, yet his eyes are open and completely focused on me. I’d be unnerved by that powerful stare were it coming from anybody else.
Not with Rich. All of a sudden, I feel like we’ve been doing this our whole lives. That our bodies knew it before our minds. That we were made for each other.
I feel the tension building inside. A growing tightness emanating from my core. I moan into the blissful rhythm we make together. Despite the cool night air, sweat coats my entire body. The passion Rich stirs inside me boils deep in my blood. My hands go to his shoulders, his chest, his abs as I steady myself on top of him. He kneads my breasts, causing me to moan even more. His breathing becomes ragged. I can tell he’s close to the edge.
So am I.
The tension builds, until I know the wonderful release is just moments away. I cry out his name when the first wave of orgasm washes over me.
“Oh my God, oh my God!” Rich gasps. “Penny!” He bursts inside of me, the sticky warmth filling every crevice of my body. My insides coil and shatter into thousands of tiny fragments. A second wave comes, smaller but no less sweet than the first. I let it take over and soar to unfathomable heights.
I collapse onto Rich, completely spent. All the screwed up emotions I’ve held in my head are gone. I lose myself in the feeling of his strong arms around me and don’t move, letting the link between us linger.
Chapter Fifteen
“Hey.” Rich’s voice rustles in my ear. “You ready for round two?”
“So soon?” I ask, stunned. “You can do that again?”
“Of course.”
I’m struck with disbelief. “You’re a god,” I whisper.
