by Anne Perry
Or even at a very wild extreme, Eustace, to hide Tassie’s affliction? Perhaps she had done something else dreadful before. Could it be to conceal that? But that did not make sense. If Eustace knew Tassie was mad he would hardly seek to marry her to anyone; he would have her locked away, for all their sakes.
Surely it had to be Jack Radley, sitting here two feet away from her, the sun shining on his hair, his shirt dazzling white. She could smell the clean cotton just as she could smell the dust and the sun’s heat on the chair and the tin soldiers.
She avoided his eyes, afraid he would see the fear in her own. If he did see her thoughts and understand them, how would he feel? Hurt, because he cared what she thought of him? Because it was unjust, and he had hoped for better? Angry, because she misjudged him? Or because his plans were failing? How angry? Angry enough to strike out at her?
Or worse, far worse, fearful that she would betray him, become a danger to his safety?
Now she dared not look up. What if he saw all that in her eyes? If he had killed George, then he would now have to kill her too. But he would be caught!
Not if he made it look like suicide. The Marches would be only too glad to accept it and dismiss the whole matter and send the police away, and Thomas would have to go, to accept the obvious. The family would not question it or make an issue-far from it! They would be grateful.
Charlotte would never believe it, of course. But who would take any notice of her? There would be nothing she could do. And even if she could, it would hardly help Emily.
She was sitting in the nursery in the silence and the sun. It was so bright it dazzled her. She felt a little dizzy and the chair was suddenly very hard under her. It seemed to be tilting. This was ridiculous, she must not faint! She was alone here with him, out of hearing of everyone. If he killed her here it could be days before anyone found her-weeks! Not till a maid came again to do a little perfunctory dusting. They would think she had run away-admitting her guilt.
“Emily, are you all right?” His voice sounded anxious. She felt his hand warm on her arm, very strong, tight.
She wanted to pull away violently. A sweat of terror broke out on her skin, wetting the black cloth of her dress and trickling cold down her back. If she tore away from him he would know she was afraid, and he would know why. She would not be able to get up and run away before he could catch her. It was possible she would reach the door behind him, and race along the passage to the steep stairs. It would be so easy to push her, a headlong fall. She could already see her own crumpled body at the foot, hear his voice with the explanation. So simple, so sorry. Another tragic accident-she was beside herself with grief and guilt.
There was only one way: pretend innocence, convince him she had no suspicions, no ideas, no fear of him.
She swallowed hard and gritted her teeth. She forced herself to look up at him, meet his eyes without flinching, speak without biting her tongue or fumbling.
“Yes-yes, thank you. I just felt dizzy for a moment. It’s warmer in here than I expected.”
“I’ll open the window.” He stood up as he said it, reaching for the catch, and lifted the heavy sash. That was it! A fall out of the window! They were three stories up; she would hit the hard walk outside once and that would be the end. Who would hear her if she screamed? No one, up here. That was precisely why it was the nursery, so the cries of the children should not disturb anyone. But if she stayed seated he would find her hard to pick up, a deadweight. It was a little, a very little, but there was nothing she could do but take it a step at a time, searching for the next one.
“Yes. Yes, perhaps that would help,” she agreed.
He turned round, facing her, silhouetted against the sun and the blue dazzle of the leaves and the sky through the window. He walked over and leaned forward a little, taking her hand. He was warm, and she felt with a shudder how strong. She could not possibly get out of the chair now. He was standing almost above her, imprisoning her.
“Emily?” He looked at her face-in fact, he was staring. “Emily, are you afraid of them?”
She was so frightened her body ached and the sweat ran down her back and between her breasts.
“Afraid?” She feigned innocence, trying to look as though she were not sure what he meant.
“Don’t pretend with me.” He was still holding her hand. “Eustace and that fearful old woman are hell-bent on having you blamed for murder. But that’s only so they can get the matter hushed up and the police out of the house. Surely Pitt knows that. Isn’t he your brother-in-law? And I have the opinion that your sister will not let any accusations against you go by without doing her best to tear them to bits, let the pieces fall where they may.”
Did he have any idea what she was thinking? Could he smell her fear? Surely he would know it was immediate and physical, nothing so remote as the Marches’ suspicions. It was an obvious, compelling step from that to the knowledge that she thought he had killed George, and why.
“I find it very uncomfortable,” she said with a dry little swallow, her face hot. “Of course, it isn’t pleasant to have people, even someone like Mrs. March, imagine such a thing of you. But I know it’s because she’s afraid for her own.”
“Her own?” He sounded surprised, but she did not look at him.
“I think it would be better if I did not discuss it,” she said quietly. “But there are certain things … in the family-”
“Who? Tassie?” There was disbelief in his voice now.
“Really, Mr. Radley, I would very much rather not talk about it. I don’t suppose it was anything to do with her, but Mrs. March may be very anxious.” She made her move at last, praying he would step back and allow her to stand. She was weak with relief when he did.
“But you think it was Tassie?” he pressed on, but she refused to look at him. Carefully, breath tight in her throat, she moved past him towards the door.
“No-probably because I don’t want to. I don’t want to think it of anyone, but I cannot avoid it.” She was in the night nursery now, and he was close behind her. “There was as good a reason for William to have done it as for me.” It was a miserable thing to say, but all she could think of was escaping, reaching the stairs and getting down them to the main landing where there would be people.
“Of course,” He was still beside her, very close, ready to catch her if she felt faint again. “If he cared. I never saw any sign that he did. And George was certainly not the first man to be besotted with Sybilla, you know.”
“I can imagine, but that doesn’t mean he didn’t mind!” She was walking rapidly now, too rapidly. The thought of safety only yards away was too sweet; relief welled up inside her, tightening her throat. She must just get down the stairs ahead of him, where he could not push or trip her. She wanted to run, to make sure of it now.
Then with almost unbearable horror she felt his hand close over her elbow. She wanted to wrench away, call out, scream. But there might be no one else, even beyond that flight of steps. Then she would have betrayed her fear and be left alone with him. She froze.
“Emily,” he said urgently. “Be careful!”
Was it a threat? At last she looked at him, almost involuntarily. But she had to know.
“Be careful of William,” he said earnestly. “If it was William, and he realizes you know, he might hurt you-even if only by trying to incriminate you somehow.”
“I will. In fact I shall try not to discuss it, if I can.”
He laughed without pleasure. “I mean it, Emily.”
“Thank you.” She gulped and all but choked. They were at the top of the stairs. She could not stay here; he would know she expected him to push her-and that knowledge would be enough to bring it about. He could not dare let her live, and he would never have a better chance than this. A simple slip of the foot and she would pitch down, breaking her back, or her neck. Her feet were already on the second step. She forced herself, shaking, knees weak-the third, the fourth. He was behind her; it was too narrow
to come beside. The seventh step, the eighth-she tried not to hurry. With every second she was nearer. At last she was at the bottom-safe! For now.
She took an enormous breath, scuffed her shoes with the clumsiness of relief, and hurried across the landing towards the main stairs.
8
Pitt attended the funeral, but at such a discreet distance that he was sure none of the family saw him. Afterwards he followed them back to Cardington Crescent and this time entered through the kitchen, taking Stripe with him. They had gone over and over the meager evidence, pursued the few threads of conversations overheard, impressions formed, hoping to surprise an unguarded revelation, but nothing had stayed in his mind sharper than the rest, nothing led him more clearly through the maze.
He left Stripe to question the servants one more time, on the chance that in repetition a fragment would be remembered, that some flash of new recollection would rise to the surface of the mind.
He wanted to see Charlotte. No absorption in this case, the Bloomsbury one, or any other, could drown out the loneliness in the evenings when he returned home, often close to midnight, and found only the night-light burning in the hall, the kitchen empty and tidy, everything put away but for the supper Gracie had carefully prepared and left on the table for him.
Every night he ate silently by the remains of the fire in the stove; then he took his boots off and tiptoed up the stairs, looking in first at the small, motionless forms of Jemima and Daniel in the nursery before going on to his own bed. He was tired enough to sleep within a few minutes, but he woke in the morning aware of an incompleteness, and sometimes he was actually physically cold.
In the mornings Gracie reported to him the events of the previous day that she considered important, but it was a shy, bare account-nothing like Charlotte’s, full of opinion, detail, and drama. He used to think her incessant talking through breakfast an intrusion, one of the penalties men invariably pay for marriage. But without it he found himself unable to concentrate on the newspaper and taking little pleasure in it.
Now he inquired of the footman where she was, and was shown into the overcrowded boudoir, close as a hothouse, and requested to wait. It was less than five minutes before Charlotte came in and, pushing the door closed sharply behind her, threw her arms round him and clung to him fiercely. She made no sound, but he could feel that she was weeping, a tired, slow letting go of tears.
Presently he kissed her-her hair, her brow, her cheek-then he passed her his only decent handkerchief, waiting while she blew her nose savagely, twice.
“How are the children?” she asked, swallowing and looking up at him. “Has Daniel cut that tooth yet? I thought he was getting a bit feverish-”
“He’s perfectly all right,” he assured her. “You’ve only been gone a couple of days.”
But she was not satisfied. “What about the tooth? Are you sure he isn’t feverish?”
“Yes, I’m quite sure. Gracie says he’s fine, and eating all his meals.”
“He won’t eat cabbage. She knows that.”
“May I have my handkerchief back? It’s the only one I’ve got.”
“I’ll get you one of-of George’s. Why haven’t you got any handkerchiefs? Isn’t Gracie doing the laundry?”
“Of course she is. I just forgot.”
“She should put it in your pocket for you. Are you all right, Thomas?”
“Yes. Thank you.”
“I’m glad.” But her voice was doubtful. She sniffed, and then changed her mind and blew her nose again. “I suppose you don’t know anything about George yet. I don’t. The more I watch the less I seem to see.”
He put his hand on her shoulder gently, feeling her warm beneath his touch.
“We will,” he said with more conviction than he had any grounds for. “It’s too soon yet. How is Emily?”
“Feeling ill, and frightened. I–I think she found letting Edward go back with Mrs. Stevenson the hardest thing. He’s so awfully young-he doesn’t understand. But he will, soon. He’ll-”
“Let’s solve today’s problems first,” he interrupted. “We’ll help with Edward after-”
“Yes, of course.” She swallowed again and unconsciously rubbed her hands over her skirt. “We must know more about the Marches. It was one of them, or … or Jack Radley.”
“Why do you hesitate before you mention him?”
She looked down, avoiding his eyes. “I suppose-” She stopped.
“Are you afraid Emily encouraged him?” he asked, hating to say it. But if he did not it would still hang between them; they knew each other too well to lie, even by silence.
“No!” But she knew he did not believe her. It was the answer of loyalty, not conviction. “I don’t know,” she added, trying to find something closer to the truth. “I don’t think she meant to.” She took a deep breath. “How are you getting on with the Bloomsbury case? You must be busy with that as well.”
“I’m not.” He felt a heaviness as he said it. He had no hope of solving that, and no solution would show anything more than a common tragedy he was incapable of preventing again. It was only the grotesqueness of the corpse that marked it in the public mind.
She was looking at him; puzzlement gave way to understanding. “Isn’t there anything? Can’t you even find out who she was?”
“Not yet. But we’re still trying. She could have come from anywhere in a dozen directions. If she was a parlormaid dismissed for immoral conduct, or even because the master of the house made advances to her and the mistress found out, then she could have taken to the streets to earn a living, and been killed by a customer, a pimp, a thief-anyone.”
“Poor woman,” Charlotte said softly. “Then it’s hopeless.”
“Probably. But we’ll keep on a little longer.”
She stared at him fiercely. “But this isn’t hopeless here! Whoever killed George is one of us in this house right now. It’s Jack Radley, or one of the Marches.” She frowned, fighting with herself for a moment and then coming to some decision. “Thomas, I have something very-very ugly to tell you.” And without stopping to watch his face or allow interruption, she recounted exactly what she had seen at the head of the stairs in the middle of the night.
He was confused. Had she been dreaming? She had certainly had enough cause for nightmare in the last few days. Even if she had been awake and really gone to the landing, might not the abrupt arousal from sleep, the flickering of the dim gas night-light, have misled her vision, caused her to imagine blood where there were only shadows?
Now she was staring at him, waiting, looking in his face for an answering horror.
He tried to mask doubt with amazement. “Nobody’s been stabbed,” he said aloud.
“I know that!” Now she was angry, because she was frightened, and she knew he disbelieved her. “But why does anyone creep up the stairs in the small hours reeking of blood? If it was innocent, why has nothing been said? She was perfectly normal this morning. And she wasn’t distressed, Thomas! I swear she was happy!”
“Say nothing,” he warned. “We won’t learn anything by attacking openly. If you are right, then there is something very evil indeed in this house-in this family. For God’s sake, Charlotte, be careful.” He took her by the shoulders. “Perhaps Emily’d better go home, and you go with her.”
“No!” She resisted him, pulling away, her head coming up. “If we don’t find out who it is, and prove it, Emily could be hanged, or at best have the doubt stain her all her life, have people remember and whisper to each other that she might have killed her husband. And even if that were bearable for Emily, it’s not for Edward!”
“I’ll find out without you,” he began grimly, but her face was tight and her eyes hot.
“Maybe. But I can watch and listen in a way you never can, not in this house. Emily is my sister, and I’m going to stay. It would be wrong to run away, and you wouldn’t argue with me about that. And you wouldn’t run.”
He weighed it for a moment. What would
happen if he tried to order her home? She would not go; her loyalty to Emily at this moment was greater, rightly so. All his emotion strained backwards, wanting, demanding that she run from the danger; his reason knew it was cowardice, fear for his own pain should anything happen to her. But if he failed to solve this crime, if Emily were hanged, then he would have lost all in his relationship with Charlotte that gave it fire and value.
“All right,” he said at last. “But for the love of heaven, be careful! Someone in this house is murderous-maybe more than one!”
“I know,” she said very quietly. “I know, Thomas.”
Later in the afternoon, Eustace sent for Pitt to come to him in the morning room. He was standing, hands in his pockets, in front of the unlit fireplace, still in the clothes he had worn at the funeral.
“Well, Mr. Pitt?” he began as soon as the door was closed. “How are you proceeding? Have you learned anything of value?”
Pitt was unprepared to commit himself, least of all to say anything about Charlotte’s story of Tassie on the stairs.
“A great deal,” he replied levelly. “But I am not yet sure as to its value.”
“No arrest?” Eustace persisted, his face brightening and his broad shoulders relaxing, making the well-cut jacket sit more evenly without the tensions in the weave. “You don’t surprise me. Domestic tragedy. Told you so in the first place. I daresay a nursing home can be found. There will be no shortage of means, and she can be made very comfortable. Best for all of us. Nothing proved. Not possible. No blame attached to you, my dear fellow. Invidious position for you.”
So he was already preparing to have the case closed and all investigation effectively prevented. It would be so easy for the Marches to protect themselves by blaming Emily. They had barely waited till the body was in the ground before beginning, with a small lie here or there, a very discreet conspiracy, for the sake of them all. They might even convince themselves-all but one-that it really had been Emily who murdered George, in a fit of jealousy. And that one would be the keenest of all, whether they betrayed it or not, to have Emily disposed of quietly and the guilt forever apportioned, the case closed.
