by Allison Lane
Chapter Seven
Elaine remained in her room until after Lady Helen arrived for her first day of lessons, not wanting to distract the girl. At least that was what she told Anne. The real reason was to avoid Lord Bridgeport. If he was trying to seduce her, then she wanted nothing to do with him. Was it to further his schemes that he personally escorted Helen for lessons? With the servant situation at the Manor, Elaine could not be sure, but she settled for prudence.
Once Helen and Anne were ensconced in the parlor, Elaine collected her sketchbook and wandered along the cliff path. Today she was looking for birds. There was a considerable colony of sea birds nesting in the cliffs just beyond Lookout Peak, and many others lived on the moor. It should be easy to find the inspiration she sought. Thornton’s verses danced through her mind as she walked, stimulating pictures she would try to capture with pen and ink.
Intent on the job at hand, she had not intended to take the side trail up the hill, but her feet had other ideas. It was another beautiful spring day, the fourth in a row. But beyond that, she needed time alone – to think, to absorb the shocks of recent days, and above all, to rest. Memories of the appalling confrontation at the squire’s dinner party had kept her awake much of the night. Mrs. Hedges had always been an inquisitive harpy who reveled in judging others, but never before had the lady lost her own control so badly. Elaine could only assume that it was Bridgeport’s title that raised the gossip’s hackles, but whether Mrs. Hedges despised the aristocracy or envied it, Elaine could not say.
Her feet abruptly stopped as she rounded the last outcropping of rock. The Earl of Bridgeport sat on her favorite boulder, apparently engrossed in a book. Before she could gather her wits to retreat down the hill, he turned, an odd wariness creeping into his eyes when he identified her. One hand dropped protectively over the page as if to guard the contents from contamination.
“Good morning, my lord,” she said politely. “Forgive me for intruding.” She turned to leave, but his voice stopped her.
“Stay a while, Miss Thompson. ’Tis a beautiful day. Keeping me company is surely a small price to pay for trespassing.”
She blinked, though in no other way did she betray her chagrin. “The hill is Treselyan property, of course, though the cliff path is, as you know, a public right of way. But aside from the grounds themselves, I fear no one considers ownership. The house has stood empty for decades. Forgive me.”
“Of course. I can see why you might enjoy the view from here, though it is bleak enough. The moor can be quite daunting, all tenantless, save to the crannying wind.”
“Byron’s Childe Harold,” she commented, identifying the volume in his hands. Perhaps his earlier gesture was meant to protect his reputation. Reading poetry – however modish the poet – did not mesh with his image.
“You know it?” he asked in astonishment. “It was published barely a month ago.”
“Sir Jeremiah brought us a copy when he returned from Exeter last week.”
“That carplike bag of bones who was making sheep’s eyes at you last night?”
“You insult us all with your London arrogance,” she snapped. “Shallow minds betray themselves by judging what they do not understand. And you are also wrong about the moor. It is crawling with tenants, as is the sea.” She gestured to a flock of gulls whirling just off the cliffs.
“Birds and beasts there may be in abundance, but they can hardly compare to people,” he said, gesturing to a nearby rock. She paused, then shrugged and took a seat, dropping her bag by her side.
“True,” she agreed. “Animals can offer hours of enjoyment in the watching, and they do not interfere in people’s affairs. One need never fear ridicule or repudiation, and animals never force their children or their friends into untenable lives.” Her voice had taken on a bitter note that surprised her as much as the words. Never had she uttered such sentiments, and she should certainly not have done so to Bridgeport. He was one of the tyrants who had threatened her own contentment. And still did.
Bridgeport was clearly startled, but he chose to ignore the pain she had revealed. “Why do the gulls circle the same spot? Are they playing in the wind?”
“It is possible, but as so many of them are dropping below the cliffs, I suspect there is a carcass bobbing in the surf that they wish to feed on. They are scavengers, you know.”
The earl’s eyes widened. “Carcass?”
Elaine laughed. “Probably a seal or school of fish. Or even a sheep. There have been no deaths recently enough to suspect a man.”
“You sound as if that were common.”
“You are a stranger to this area, Lord Bridgeport. Death at sea is an accepted risk in coastal villages. Survival depends on fishing, and accidents are common. It is not unknown to find victims washed ashore. Life is hard for all but the privileged few.”
“Life offers difficulties for everyone. They merely vary in detail. Nature is not the only scourge of mankind. Man himself can be far more virulent – deceitful words of false-made friends.”
“Thornton. But one must expect envy, jealousy, and toadying in your circle.”
“You know his works?” he asked in surprise.
“Of course. Anne has an impressive library, as do several of our friends. London is not the only place where culture and learning exist. She has broadened my horizons in ways I never envisioned. I owe her much for that alone.”
“You are a bluestocking?” His eyes narrowed.
“I suppose society would feel obligated to attach that very prejudicial label to me, but I enjoy learning about the world in which I live. Curiosity is one of the permanent and certain characteristics of a vigorous mind.”
“Samuel Johnson – not that he was referring to females. I am surprised that his writings have made it to this wild and windswept wilderness.”
“The typical London view – arrogant and insular. There is more to life than society shallowness and rakish pleasures.”
“You intrigue me. Most women have no character at all."
“Pope. But he also noted that all looks yellow to the jaundiced eye. Perhaps you have limited your acquaintance to the wrong sorts of women.”
Bridgeport laughed. “Perhaps, but I have no intention of discussing my friends with you.”
“Most improper,” she agreed, and he laughed even harder.
“Why did I never discover your intelligence earlier?” he asked, almost to himself. “Of course, in town you adhered quite strongly to the image of a shy young lady.”
“Not at all, my lord,” she replied, frowning at the disturbing memories his words raised. “I neither adopted attitudes different from my own, nor did I conform to what was expected. It was the most unpleasant experience of my life, and I can only agree with Shelley that Hell is a city much like London, though he objects only to the press of humanity and eternal smoky grime.”
Mark sat silent for several minutes, trying to reconcile his memories of Mary Thompson to the needle-witted, confident – and pretty – woman sitting before him. How had she changed so drastically? And why had he never suspected that she could? Even at five-and-twenty he had acquired a well-deserved reputation for judging others to the inch. He finally succumbed to a pressing desire to learn what had happened all those years ago. Was it actually London she had rejected rather than himself? “Is that why you jilted me?” he asked softly.
She shrugged. “Not really. I despised the life you offered, but the alternative would have been worse, so I had no choice but to go along with it. Until that last day. I discovered a third option that was more attractive than either.”
“Why did you accept me if you disliked my offer?” he demanded incredulously.
“I didn’t.” Seeing his eyes widen, she continued. “I spent five years in the care of an aunt whose teachings mirrored my father’s – absolute obedience to anyone in authority, and at least four hours a day spent in prayer and atonement for my sins.” She ignored his gasp of horror. “I arrived home on my seve
nteenth birthday, to be informed that Father had arranged a marriage to you. There was no discussion. I left for town two days later. London was a nightmare.”
“What?” He stared in shock. Her words contradicted his memories. His mother had arranged the match, of course. In the letter that accepted Mark’s formal proposal, Grimfield had stated that his daughter was honored by his magnanimity and had dedicated herself to upholding the dignity of her position and to carrying out her responsibilities with enthusiasm. That missive had been dated fully three months before Miss Thompson arrived in town.
She had misinterpreted his surprise. “Think, my lord. How could I possibly enjoy town? I was snubbed or ridiculed wherever I went. Only your mother’s consequence prevented direct cuts. But I could hardly blame them. My father never wasted a groat. With a betrothal in hand, he saw no reason to throw money in my direction. I was cursed with a ghastly wardrobe and had nothing in common with anyone I met, not even the training in manners and deportment that is expected of even the lowliest females. When I learned that I would remain permanently in the country, I relaxed, assuming all would be well.”
“Then why did you leave?” His anger burned brighter than ever.
“It rapidly became clear that I would be living with your parents. Your mother left no doubt about who would rule both the house and the nurseries. I was nought but a brood mare whose role would be reduced to that of her slave once the succession was assured. Still, it was a better future than I would have faced at home.”
“Which was?”
“A lifetime of incarceration on bread and water, my lord,” she stated calmly.
“You exaggerate.”
“You must not know my father. Disobedience is a sin. Sins must be punished. Repudiating a betrothal would leave me unmarriageable, demanding a lifelong punishment as I would be on his hands that long.”
“You would not have spent a day under my mother’s roof,” he told her coldly. “I would have taken you to Westron Manor in Yorkshire.”
“Oh?” She shrugged. “You never mentioned such a possibility, of course. And your mother claimed you had no resources.”
“She didn’t know.”
“It doesn’t matter, my lord. I’ve a more fulfilling life now than I would ever have achieved as your wife.”
“Retiring to this desolate spot?” he choked out, insulted. “Even if true, you could have at least shown me the courtesy of telling me that you were leaving.”
“I had no choice. Anne wrote to say that she had inherited a competence that would allow her to lease a small cottage in the country. She expressed a wish to see me again and mentioned that she was suffering from a debilitating bout of influenza. I left immediately.”
“Leaving me standing at the altar. You could have at least sent round a note.” His anger was unmistakable.
Elaine straightened in shock. “I had no idea! I mean, I had heard that expression, but I never thought for a moment that it was literal. Surely my father informed you when he found me gone in the morning!”
“Oh, I was informed, all right – at quarter past eleven.” Her gasp intensified his glare. “And you know very well where I was by then – standing in front of five hundred witnesses. I assume the note was from your father, though there was no signature. It contained exactly three scrawled words – Mary has bolted."
“Dear God! I must certainly apologize – belatedly, I admit – for the embarrassment that caused. I had not dared leave word for fear he would find out.”
“I would not have told him.” He again sounded affronted.
Elaine lost her temper. “How was I to know that, my lord? Everything I knew about you came from popular report or your mother’s claims. You know very well that you spent as little time with me as possible. Did we exchange a single comment beyond agreement on the state of the weather or the extent of the current crush? Your image was that of a rake, a gamester, and a weakling who was firmly under your mother’s thumb. Yet you have the nerve to berate me for not trusting my future to your hands!”
He turned his head to gaze pensively over the moor, leaving his face in profile. Silence descended, broken only by the cry of gulls. She was near enough to see that he had changed since London. Fine lines clustered around the corners of his eyes, noticeable now that he was deep in thought. His clothes displayed a more casual look than during their betrothal – unless he was dressing down for the country.
“I see,” he said at last, turning back to face her and catching her staring.
“It never occurred to me that Father would leave it so late,” she continued in a more subdued voice. “I had expected him to haul me out for morning prayers by six. My only prayer that day was that I would be far enough away to be safe. Once I had successfully escaped, I knew he would never follow.”
“I don’t see why.”
“He is a misogynist, my lord. As is my brother – did you never wonder why he could not be bothered to attend the wedding of his only sister? Hating all women, their sole concern was to be rid of me. Once I successfully escaped the house, Papa would have no reason to follow. And I refuse to believe that you are truly angry over my decision, for you must agree that we would never have suited.”
“I knew that even before offering for you. But as I would not have laid eyes on you again once you produced an heir, it did not matter.”
She raised her brows. “Like Helen? We certainly would not have suited, my lord. I am not the meek, biddable miss you took me for.”
“True. Your father badly misled me on that score. He claimed you were enthusiastic and would perform all duties willingly and with dignity.”
“And you believed him? Anyone who buys a pig in a poke forfeits all right to complain about the merchandise,” she scolded him. “But to be honest, he knew nothing of me either. From the day of my birth, he had demanded absolute obedience and silence unless spoken to. I was allowed neither education nor the freedom to make even the simplest decision. While ignorance might have made me seem conformable, if you had left me to my own devices, that would certainly have changed.”
“That is the second time you have mentioned an inferior education, Miss Thompson. How did that happen?”
“I have already described my father. My mother made no attempt to counter his will, having learned the consequences early on. She was my sole companion and teacher until her death just after I turned eleven.”
“Besides the servants, of course,” he murmured.
“What servants? All females are servants, so we were expected to see after our own needs as well as care for the house. My education consisted of selected Biblical readings and exhortations on duty and obedience. When Mama died, Father was forced to hire a governess. Miss Becklin was the daughter of a very moral clergyman who should have understood a woman’s place in a Christian household. But Anne proved to be a shocking disappointment. In fact, her lessons were so vile and her example so sinful, that she was turned off without a reference. I was thankful she inherited when she did, for the only position she could find after that was very bad.”
“Turned off? My God, what did she do?”
“She encouraged me to think for myself and to ask questions – a most inappropriate activity for a mere female. She allowed me to pray while comfortably seated in a warm room. She permitted me to fritter away a whole hour each day on art, music, and embroidery. But what got her the sack was forcing me to read that lewd and ungodly work, A Midsummer Night’s Dream.”
“You jest!”
“Not in the least. Having lost all faith in unknown governesses, however strong their recommendations, he sent me to his sister. After that I saw him briefly once a year when he came to make sure that I was comporting myself properly. Since she shared his ideas to the letter – including his disdain of all females – he was always satisfied.”
“Are you saying that she taught you nothing a young lady of society should know?”
“Of course. Why should she encourage moral turpitude? You
must know what a Godless place London is. One cannot go anywhere without being subjected to vulgar behavior or tempted into such sinful acts as gaming and dancing, to say nothing of those dens of iniquity, the theaters. And of course, all of society flaunts itself shamelessly before the world. The posing and strutting in Hyde Park is but the tip of the iceberg. Think of the scandalous way women expose their bodies! Jezebel cannot begin to compare.”
Bridgeport was choking with laughter, raising an answering glimmer in Elaine’s eyes.
She continued. “Father solemnly decried the heavy burdens suffered by good Christians in these decadent times – this was in our one interview on my seventeenth birthday; it was the only time we ever met that he was not censuring my behavior. It seems that having raised me so properly, he was left with the nearly insurmountable problem of finding me a husband. Not all gentlemen have seen the light of true redemption, you must agree. Poor Papa. He grudgingly accepted the existence of women only because he had found no other way to obey God’s command to multiply. But that marginal tolerance for his wife did not extend to a useless daughter. He wanted me off his hands as soon as possible, but was unwilling to spend a groat to do so. When your mother made her interest known, he jumped at the chance.”
“Why did you never mention this before?”
“You haven’t been listening, my lord. Given the reality of eight years ago, you are the last person I would have told. You were a bad-tempered stranger with no more interest in me than my father had, and I had been taught to remain silent when in the presence of men to acknowledge their supposedly superior status, speaking only in response to a direct question. I had not yet learned that Grimfield’s view of the world was far from universal – in fact, it was downright idiotic. But enough of ancient history. I am sorry to have disturbed your peace this morning. If you will excuse me, I must be going.”
“You mean to stay locked away in this wild corner of the land for the rest of your life then? You will never find a husband here.”
