EPIGRAPH
The time is coming when man will give birth to no more stars.
—FRIEDRICH NIETZSCHE
CONTENTS
Epigraph
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
About the Author
Also by Oliver Harris
Further Reading
Copyright
About the Publisher
1
THEY’D CUT THE ELECTRICITY. Mid-morning the sun hit the CID office, sliced by the window’s metal screen into planes of tobacco smoke and dust. By 3 p.m. it reached the back of the building: Belsey liked to open the doors on the first-floor corridor so light stretched from the kitchen to the interview rooms. Long lozenges of gold slipped across the chipped walls, made the place feel less abandoned. It created a sundial around him. He sat on the floor and watched it all. Caught in the bars of light, the dust seemed frenzied, directionless. His smoke rolled through it. He used the clocks as ashtrays.
Hampstead police station had closed three weeks ago, one of six across London disposed of in cost-cutting measures. Most staff had been reassigned at the end of last year. Belsey had expected to go to Holborn, but nothing happened. The DI at Holborn said they’d tried to get him only to be told he was blocked. Then, ten days after the station closed, he was informed he’d been officially suspended pending a hearing over allegations of gross misconduct. No details. A few hours after that, he got a call from a man who wouldn’t give his name but told him he was under surveillance: the Independent Police Complaints Commission were collecting ammo, approaching everyone from Belsey’s exes to his past informers, putting obs on his car, his local, his current landlord. They were bracing themselves for a shit-storm. Stay safe, the caller said, and hung up. An hour later Belsey withdrew the contents of his current account, bought a gas stove, three bottles of Havana Club and a book – Teach Yourself Spanish. He broke into his old place of work, changed the locks. It was, he felt, the last place they’d look for him.
Eleven days ago.
It had been an odd stretch of time. Sometimes he found himself following patterns of an old routine, standing in the CID kitchen at 10.30 making a tea; lying on the floor of the old meeting room watching the wiring exposed by missing ceiling panels. He’d wander the station. The building dated to 1913, a labyrinthine relic with adjoining courthouse and cells. Most of it had been disused for decades. But in the process of clearing out, older areas had been unlocked: the abandoned station had grown, extending itself back into the past. Belsey walked through the magistrate’s court to an Edwardian custody suite, past old fuse switches to cells that had become carpeted in handwritten reports from the 1950s and ’60s: loose, yellowed papers, notebooks with cracked leather covers like shells. They had spilled from rat-chewed cardboard boxes, an infestation, filled with the handwriting of dead policemen. Sometimes he’d skim through old cases to keep his mind occupied. There were unnerving moments, once or twice a day, when it felt as if he was meant to be here after all, assigned for reasons that had faded. The thick old glass made the place feel submarine. His kingdom until ten minutes ago, when someone had started knocking on the front door.
The steady insistence of the knocks was troubling. Ceremonious. A ceremony he was failing to perform: the coming of reality. He knew that this last misdemeanour, like the rest, had been a taunt, the gambler’s desire to suspend the moment of reckoning, to conjure options from nothing. The knocking was at the main entrance, directly beneath the CID office. Belsey looked down through the shutters but the angle was too tight. The sign down there was clear enough: HAMPSTEAD POLICE STATION IS NOW CLOSED. YOUR NEAREST STATION IS KENTISH TOWN. No one knew where he’d chosen to lie low. But the knocking felt like the return of something he’d forgotten: a debt, an arrangement, a plan of action.
Belsey walked down to the wood-panelled shadows of the old magistrate’s court. He took a clean shirt from the line of phone cable he had strung above the pews. He picked up a heavy overcoat with metal buttons and white thread where the sergeant’s stripes had been. The pockets contained his phone charger, passport, bank card and £220 in cash. Next to the coat was a foot of copper piping he’d picked up from the basement just in case. He put the coat on, slipped the piping up the sleeve, ran a hand over his eleven-day beard and took a breath. He unlocked the door at the back of the court and stepped out.
The day seemed unnaturally bright. Forty-eight hours since he’d been directly beneath the sky. Belsey climbed over the fence and dropped, silently, to the pavement. He walked to the corner and watched: a woman with shoulder-length white hair glancing up at the shuttered windows. Torn, mauve jacket. Feet in socks and sandals. Belsey stepped out.
‘Are you OK?’ he asked.
‘I need the police,’ she said.
‘This station’s closed. Want me to call them for you?’
‘Closed?’
‘Since last month.’
Belsey looked around. Hampstead’s boutiques had their awnings unrolled, couture on display. Nothing had changed. It was the afternoon, but not school run yet. The lull between lunch and rush hour.
‘Are you a policeman?’ the woman asked. She had pale eyes with fear frozen into them.
‘Not really,’ Belsey said. ‘Nearest police station is Kentish Town. Lots of police there.’ He gestured towards the phone box. ‘I can dial the number; you can tell the police what happened.’
‘I was told to come here.’
‘Well, someone made a mistake.’
She nodded, as if she’d suspected as much all along. ‘Would I find Detective Nick Belsey at Kentish Town?’ she asked.
Belsey stopped. His mind tracked through possible explanations.
‘Why do you want Nick Belsey?’
‘I was told he could help.’
‘With what?’
‘My son. He’s disappeared.’
‘Who told you to come here?’
‘A man – he phoned the house.’
‘Who was he?’
‘I can’t remember his name. I wrote it down. It’s not on me.’
She looked desperate. The day turned a little colder.
‘Your son went missing and a man called and said you should come here?’
‘Yes.’
‘What else did he say?’
‘Just that I should try to find Mark, urgently.’
‘Mark’s your son?’
‘Yes.’
‘What’s his surname?’
‘Doughty.’
It was no one Belsey knew. ‘How long’s he been missing?’
‘Almost two days.’
‘How old is he?’
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�Forty-one.’
This didn’t seem to lower the urgency – she reached for the railings to support herself, looked unsteady. Belsey helped her down to sit on the front steps. He took a seat beside her.
‘I’m Nick Belsey,’ he said.
She glanced at him with her scared eyes, chest rising and falling. He wasn’t sure she’d taken it in.
‘I know you must be very busy,’ she said, when she had her breath.
‘What’s your name?’
‘Maureen.’
‘Try and breathe, Maureen. Nice and calmly.’
Belsey leaned back, shut his eyes, felt the sun on his face. Life sought you out. The sun rose, people knocked. He let the piping slip out of his sleeve and placed it on the step. There were plenty of old acquaintances who might recommend him, plenty oblivious to his predicament. What difference did any of it make? He imagined a distress flare penetrating the roof of his mouth and igniting in his brain.
When he opened his eyes Maureen Doughty was studying his face. He smiled, got to his feet and helped her up. ‘What day is it?’ he asked.
‘Monday.’
‘Monday,’ he repeated. They stood there for a moment, Belsey with a hand beneath her arm, Maureen watching each car that passed, as if it might contain her son. He didn’t want to be outside. He wanted to return to the dust and continue entertaining the idea that he had options. She clutched the railings again. ‘Let’s get you home,’ Belsey said.
2
THEY CAUGHT THE 46 BUS. Belsey ignored the stares of his fellow citizens: on his coat, his beard. At Queen’s Crescent, Maureen pressed the bell and they disembarked. She led the way to a ground-floor flat in one of the low council blocks behind the high street.
The key shook in her hand as she unlocked the front door.
They stepped over carrier bags into the hall. The house smelt of damp and soil. It was cold. Off the hall was a living room cluttered with pot plants and bound piles of Christian pamphlets. A bed had been made up on a floral sofa. Belsey hadn’t been in someone’s home for a while. Not an aspect of the job he missed: the underwear on the clothes horse, the halos of grease up the wall behind the armchairs. Pill bottles crowded the coffee table like pieces for a game: donepezil, which meant Alzheimer’s or dementia; ketoprofen, for arthritis; heavy-duty painkillers.
Nothing happened when he tried the light switches. In the kitchen, the microwave display was off; same with the radio. Stacks of plates crusted with old food, a back door into a cramped concrete courtyard. Someone had kicked in the cat flap leaving an empty frame of plastic. The glass was cracked.
Maureen filled the kettle.
‘You’ve got no power, Maureen. It won’t work.’
‘Oh yes.’ She stood with the kettle for a moment, then poured the water into the sink.
‘How long’s the electricity been off?’
‘I’m not sure. Mark does it.’
Belsey checked the fuse box. Then he found the meter flashing in a cupboard by the front door. She needed to top up a power key.
‘This is him,’ she called from the living room. He returned to find her tapping a framed photo on the living room’s chest of drawers. It was a school photo. Mark Doughty’s twelve-year-old face had been propped between a school prize and a prayer card. She picked it up and gave it to Belsey. Mark had been a striking child, paper-white skin, eyes small and bright, hair neatly combed. In the uniform of a local private school. A scholarship boy, Belsey imagined, who never quite fitted in.
‘He’s a bit older than this now, isn’t he?’ Belsey said.
‘Yes.’
‘Do you have any more recent photos, Maureen?’
‘I’m not sure.’ She looked troubled by this and began casting about the room. The fear in her eyes was permanent, he saw. But she wasn’t mad. He knew from experience how hard it was to gauge sanity. Beyond a modest dose of fear and disorientation she seemed sharp enough.
‘Does Mark work at all?’
‘He can’t work. He looks after me.’ She eased herself down onto the sofa.
‘Have you told any other police?’
‘They say there’s nothing they can do. He hasn’t been missing long enough.’
‘What happens when you try to call him?’
‘It’s the recorded message.’
There was a small room on the ground floor that she used as a bedroom. Belsey climbed the stairs. At the end of the landing was a very pink bathroom, beside a spare room with a washing machine and cupboards of her old clothes. Also off the landing, a closed door. Locked.
‘Is this where Mark sleeps?’ he called down. ‘The locked door?’
‘Yes.’
He crouched and checked the keyhole. No key in the lock; darkness on the other side.
‘Do you have a key?’
‘No.’
Was Mark Doughty in there? he wondered. Was she sure he wasn’t? Two days. No flies, only a slight smell that seemed general to the place. Belsey took a wire coat hanger from the wardrobe in the utility room, uncoiled it, bent the end until he had a loop. It was an easy lock. He felt the click, paused, turned the handle slowly and walked through.
‘Christ.’
The room was an explosion. Books and clothes covered the floor. Cans of energy drink and takeaway packaging. Magazine pages taped up across walls and cupboard doors.
Belsey stepped over the mounds of stale clothes and opened the curtains. He turned and admired the décor again. Celebrities – singers, actresses: glossy pages of eyes and teeth and brightly coloured dresses like frigid pornography. Gowns spilled over red carpets, bikinis emerged from turquoise water. The A-list gazed out over a double bed with a coverless duvet, opened packets of biscuits, disposable razors. Mugs had grown mould, shelves were crowded with tattered books that looked like they’d been rescued from a skip. A cupboard with its mirrored door off its hinges added another plane of reflected chaos. There was a smell of urine and unwashed denim.
Rooms like this never boded well, places that had witnessed too much unspent life, had taken on the burden of living themselves; growing septic, choking.
No PC visible, but print-outs, from an internet café or library. Belsey sifted through a few sheets on a desk beneath the window. They were shuffled with other cuttings. Mark Doughty, it seemed, collected interviews, adverts, gossip columns. He cut out diet ideas and had printed an online personality test: ‘What’s stopping you living the life you want to lead? Try this simple survey.’
After twenty years in the police force, Belsey had concluded that not everyone should live the life they wanted to lead.
On the bedside table was a perfume box: Bride: The New Fragrance by Amber Knight. It shimmered in reflective pink. The bottle stood proudly beside it, clear glass in the shape of a diamond. He couldn’t smell any perfume. This bedside nook was a shrine, he realised. On the wall behind the table, all the decorations related to Amber Knight: carefully preserved interviews, photo spreads. Teen Amber, precocious and oblivious. Twenty-one-year-old Amber, dress slashed down to her belly button, seductive eyes heavy with false lashes. Then sophisticated Amber, a year or so later, pale in a silver sheath dress on a red carpet: ‘Stunning in Dior at last night’s Woman of the Year Awards, chart-topping British singer and now Hollywood actress Amber Knight . . .’
As an obsession, Belsey respected Mark’s choice. She was alluring, working a well-tested combination of innocence and newly awoken sexual hunger. And there was something that put her a cut above; eyes that established a pact with you personally, sidestepping the photographer and the sheen of the magazine.
‘You got in.’ Maureen stood uncertainly in the bedroom doorway. She stared at the walls as if she hadn’t seen them for a while.
‘He liked Amber Knight,’ Belsey said, for want of anything better to say. ‘Lots of her.’
‘Oh yes.’
‘He’s got the perfume and everything.’
‘He wasn’t queer.’
‘No.’
She glanced around once more then retreated downstairs. Belsey stepped over the clothes to a dresser: on the top were empty canisters of Lynx, a pouch of tobacco, candle stubs and a pub ashtray filled with the ends of rolled cigarettes. In the drawer of the dresser he found library cards for three boroughs and a dog-eared King’s University ID from 2001. Mark had knifed up the laminate and manually adjusted the date. A student discount was nothing to lose. Mark Doughty stared out, late twenties, early thirties, postgraduate or mature student. The years since school hadn’t added much colour to his cheeks. They’d added wisps of brown beard and lent a certain mug-shot defiance to his eyes: long hair thinning, tucked behind his ears. The clever scholarship twelve-year-old had gone awry. He looked addict-thin. Belsey found a roach in the ashtray, split it with his nail. He sifted the tobacco for powders. Hard to tell. The pouch of tobacco was fresh enough; it contained Rizlas, no other drug. Belsey pocketed it and walked back to the landing. He heard Maureen Doughty talking. Belsey thought she was on the phone, then heard her addressing the Lord. He stood at the top of the stairs and felt a place thick with incestuous madness.
When he went down she was on the sofa, curled over her clasped hands, eyes closed.
‘The man who called – his name. You wrote it down.’
‘Yes. I wrote it down.’ She stopped praying, searched amongst the pill bottles on the coffee table and found a leaflet for the Catholic Medical Association. ‘Here. Look.’ On the back, in shaky writing, was the name ‘Lee’ followed by a mobile number Belsey knew off by heart.
‘Lee Chester.’
‘He didn’t give his full name. Do you know him?’
Every police officer in north London knew Lee Chester. He was senior management in the capital’s flow of proscribed narcotics.
‘What did Lee say? Exactly?’
‘Just that you might help.’
‘He didn’t say Mark owes money? Anything like that?’
‘I’m not sure.’
‘Did he threaten you?’
‘No.’
‘But he didn’t just call, did he, Maureen? The back door – that was him.’
She wouldn’t look up.
Belsey went out to the concrete courtyard and dialled Lee’s number.
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