by Pearl Cleage
ALSO BY PEARL CLEAGE
FICTION
Seen It All and Done the Rest
Baby Brother’s Blues
Babylon Sisters
Some Things I Never Thought I’d Do
I Wish I Had a Red Dress
What Looks Like Crazy on an Ordinary Day …
NONFICTION
We Speak Your Names: A Celebration
Deals with the Devil and Other Reasons to Riot
Mad at Miles: A Black Woman’s Guide to Truth
For my father, Rev. Albert B. Cleage Jr.,
and for Kay
“Do nothin’ till you hear from me.
Pay no attention to what’s said …”
Do Nothin’ Till You Hear From Me
DUKE ELLINGTON AND BOB RUSSELL
PROLOGUE
WEST END NEWS, NOVEMBER 5, 2008
“WELL, THE FIRST THING THEY GONNA HAVE TO DO,” MR. CHARLES said the morning after the election, “is rethink that whole Black History Month idea.”
Mr. Eddie frowned. “How you figure that?”
“We got a black president now, brother! What do we need with one month? Every month can be Black History Month!”
“Man, you crazy! You not even gonna give the white folks one month like they gave us?”
“They didn’t give us a damn thing,” Mr. Charles said. “We took that month, just like we took the White House!”
“Now you gettin’ carried away.” Mr. Eddie shook his head. “We not the only people who voted for him. A lot of everybody saw the same thing we did. An honest man who could handle the job.”
“Okay, so while he’s handlin’ the job, he can just issue a decree saying from henceforth, every month will be Black History Month, except for one which the white folks can have to focus on their history.”
“How are they supposed to fit all their history into one month? These white folks been around a long time.”
“Now you showin’ your ignorance. We been around a lot longer than they have. We had libraries and museums when they were still swingin’ through the trees and we had to tell it all during one little month, and the shortest month at that!”
“So why can’t we do better than they did and just let history be history?”
Mr. Charles looked disappointed, but his voice was patient. “You not gettin’ into the spirit of things, man. What’s the point of having a black president if you can’t pull rank now and then?”
“You talkin’ about pullin’ rank and the man is trying to figure out how to save the country!”
“He ain’t gonna figure out how to save nothin’ if he don’t pull rank every now and then.”
“He figured out how to get elected, didn’t he?”
ONE
Tacos and Sangria
WHEN THE PHONE RANG AT 5:25 A.M., I WAS ALREADY UP, PRETENDING to meditate. Miss Iona didn’t even wait for me to say hello.
“You have to come home.”
“I am home,” I said.
“That is where you live. This is home and you know it. I called you last night. Where were you?”
“Probably somewhere minding my own business,” I said. “And good morning to you, too.”
Miss Iona Williams had been my parents’ friend for as long as I could remember. On a lot of the nights when my father would be out late at meetings and my mother was defiantly finishing up her graduate studies, it was Miss Iona who came to sit with me and fix me dinner and hear my prayers and tuck me in. When my mom left the Rev and moved to the West Coast, he got custody of Miss Iona. She’s one of the few people he cannot intimidate, although he never stops trying.
Five years ago, at sixty plus, she got married for the first time to Charles Larson, but refused to take his name.
“I’m not trying to make a statement,” she had explained to my mother who tried to offer feminist congratulations at the wedding. “I just don’t see the point.”
Miss Iona wasn’t maternal in the traditional sense of being motherly. She was more like a really great friend who never took any shit from you, but never gave you any either. When my mom was being too ideological and my father was being too omnipotent, I always knew I could trust Miss Iona to give it to me straight.
“Good morning, good morning, good morning! Did I wake you?” she said without waiting for an answer. “I’ve been up for hours, but I was trying to wait for a more civilized hour before I called you.”
She was just trying to be polite. Miss Iona always called very early or very late. Other people’s schedules were of little or no concern to her. She had that in common with the Rev.
“I’m up,” I said. “What’s wrong?”
“Just what I said. You have to come home right away. Your father needs you.”
This was not a crisis. This was a delusion.
“The Rev doesn’t need me,” I said, calling him by the name everybody called him, except my grandmother who died when I was five, and who always called him Dunbar. Even my mother still called him Rev, although she had disavowed the practice in an essay on the patriarchy that won an award in a big-time feminist journal. It was a good piece, too, but after a lifetime of calling him Rev, what was she going to substitute? Sweetie Pie? “He hasn’t even spoken to me in five months.”
“Well, he needs to speak to you now because he has completely lost his mind.”
“There is a difference,” I said, “between insanity and intractability. He’s not crazy. He’s just stubborn.”
“Have you seen yesterday’s paper?”
I haven’t lived in Atlanta in more than a decade, but I knew Miss Iona meant The Atlanta Constitution.
“No, I …”
“That’s why you’re not on a plane down here right now,” she interrupted me. “If you had seen it, that’s where you would be. On your way to talk some sense into him before he undoes the work of his whole lifetime.”
Miss Iona was known for her unflappability, but she was really getting wound up. The Rev must really have put his foot in his mouth.
“What did he say?”
“What did he say? How about when they asked him about those signs Reverend Patterson put up at the church …”
“What signs?”
“Bilingual signs. You know, first in English, then in Spanish right under it. We’ve got a lot of Mexican families coming on Sundays now, nicest people you ever want to meet, but a lot of them don’t speak much English yet and Reverend Patterson thought the signs would make them feel welcome.”
Reverend Patterson had become the senior pastor at the Rock of Faith Community Church last year after my father retired and the Rev had always been supportive.
“So what’s wrong with that?”
“Nothing!” Miss Iona said. “That’s the whole point, but not according to your father.”
I could hear the paper rustling while she found the part of the article she wanted to quote exactly.
“The Rev said, and I quote, ‘you can go overboard with this multicultural thing. Next thing you know, we’ll be offering tacos and sangria for communion Sunday.’”
“What?!” My father was a champion of diversity. This had to be a misquote.
“It gets worse. ‘Before they start worrying about teaching these kids to speak Spanish, somebody needs to teach them how to speak English. That’s why they can’t get decent jobs. Our president is content to bask in his own rhetorical flourishes without acknowledging that most of our kids can’t even speak their own mother tongue, much less read it. And that doesn’t have anything to do with white folks. That has to do with being sorry. Why doesn’t Barack Obama talk about that?’”
I closed my eyes and felt a familiar throb behind my right eyeball.
My father’s relationship or lack of relationship with President Obama was the reason I was up at five o’clock in the morning trying to calm my ass down in the first place. My father once had been a big supporter of then-candidate Obama and had spearheaded an independent voter registration drive that put 100,000 new names on Georgia’s books. From my position inside the campaign, I let people know that my father had offered access to this list of enthusiastic new voters in a state where Republicans were expected to make a clean sweep everywhere but the city of Atlanta, where, of course, Obama was expected to cream all comers.
The Rev’s voters, already organized and easily targeted, had been gathered from one hundred churches spread throughout the state who had participated in a program called One Hundred Percenters. Each church pledged to register 100 percent of the eligible voters in the congregation and make sure those voters got to the polls. Nobody thought they could do it, but they did. Access to that list would have given our campaign a huge leg up on the competition. His timely offer would also improve both my father’s access to the candidate and my own currency as a bright, energetic, but undeniably mid-level staffer. Enter the Rev. Jeremiah Wright.
Reverend Wright and my dad shared a belief in the Black Liberation Theology that had always been a strong strain in the African American religious tradition, but had remained largely unknown to most white Americans who first encountered its passionate, prophetic cadences when a thirty-second video of Reverend Wright surfaced on the Internet. His fiery declaration that rather than saying “God bless America,” his parishioners ought to “Goddamn America,” for her long history of racial crimes, set off a storm of outrage that led to the candidate’s decision to craft and deliver as eloquent and unapologetic a treatise on race as has ever been heard anywhere. Rejecting the sound bite, but refusing to jettison Wright, Obama’s support for his pastor went too far for some, but not nearly far enough for some radical clergymen who leaped to Wright’s defense, charging the media with racism and ignorance and candidate Obama with abandoning a man who had been his pastor for more than twenty years. My father planted himself firmly in the latter camp and stayed there throughout those long, strange weeks when the full weirdness of American race relations was on display for all the world to see.
Jeremiah Wright scared the hell out of those of us who were spending every waking hour working to send Barack Obama to the White House. Trying to explain Liberation Theology to people whose only other exposure to black preaching is Martin Luther King Jr.’s “I Have a Dream” speech is like trying to explain classical ballet to a group of wiggly eight-year-olds in tutus; a thankless task. By the time the smoke cleared, my father had reneged on his promise to share 100,000 new voter names and the campaign had decided I wasn’t the rising star they thought I was.
I’m not saying it’s the Rev’s fault that my dream job hasn’t materialized yet, but I don’t think his unwavering support of Rev. Wright, even after the man’s disastrous visit to the Washington Press Club, did me a whole lot of good either. Our last conversation before we mutually cut off communication with each other was a terrible exchange of defiance (him) and desperation (me), where we both said things we shouldn’t have. But you know what they say: shoulda, coulda, woulda.
“He’s not plugged in anywhere,” Miss Iona was saying urgently, trying to make me understand. “Nobody’s asking his opinion on anything and you know that man needs to give his opinion!”
At least we could agree on that. “Go on.”
“You should have seen him on election night,” she said. “Me and Charlie had some folks over, but the Rev was just in a funk all night. He wanted to be somewhere with a little more light shinin’ on it, but nobody invited him but us.”
I sighed. This is exactly what I had warned him about. “Do the Obama people really have that much to say about what happens in Atlanta?”
“It appears they do. Precious Hargrove had a big party at the Regency and your father’s name was nowhere on the guest list.”
State Senator Precious Hargrove was a strong contender in the upcoming Georgia governor’s race. She had been a member of Rock of Faith as long as I had known her and the Rev had been the one who first encouraged her to go into politics when she was a young mother, newly arrived in West End, struggling to raise her son alone and make her way in the world.
“Now he’s going all over the state, bad-mouthing her.”
“Bad-mouthing her about what?”
“About supporting the president is what I’m trying to tell you! He called her a … wait a minute. Let me get it right. He called her ‘a card carrying member of the Ladies for Obama fan club who can be counted on to follow their handsome hero wherever he may lead them.’”
This was awful. I had never heard the Rev talk like that to anybody, much less a reporter from The Atlanta Constitution. His comments to the guy were bigoted and sexist, bitter and petty.
“Do you think he’s having some kind of breakdown?”
“I don’t know what he’s having,” she said. “He called a press conference last week and nobody came, so he read The Constitution’s editor the riot act until they promised to do a big feature story on him. He spent the day talking to the reporter and this, this, is the article that came out of it.”
“What’s the headline?” I said.
“Angry Icon Blasts Obama.”
I took a deep, meditative breath. Calm down, I said to myself. This doesn’t have anything to do with you.
“I don’t know what you think I can do.”
“Talk to him!” she said. “Tell him he’s making a complete fool of himself.”
That was not going to happen. The very idea of judging my father and then offering him my opinion was not within the realm of possibility.
“I’d like to live to see my thirty-fifth birthday, if it’s all the same to you,” I said. “What about Mr. Eddie?”
Miss Iona snorted. “You know Ed Harper is not gonna tell the Rev nothin’ he don’t want to hear. That’s why they been friends so long.”
“Why don’t you tell him?”
“I have told him! He’s not paying me a bit of attention. He doesn’t think I know anything about politics.”
“This isn’t about politics. This is about bad judgment.”
“Exactly what I said. So will you come home and talk to him?”
I walked over to the window and looked outside. It was still dark and quiet, but a few miles away the D.C. rush hour was already shaping up. I couldn’t see it from this tree-lined Georgetown street where I was renting a tiny garage apartment from the parents of a well-connected friend, but I could feel it. If you’re addicted to politics, and I stand accused, this is the town that manufactures your drug of choice. The fact that the Rev’s craziness was splashing over into my life here was infuriating. I took another deep breath.
“Will you come?”
“For what? He’s not even speaking to me. You know that.”
“Are you speaking to him?”
Miss Iona knew all the gory details of our feud so she was not really asking for information. She was building a case. I had to choose my words carefully.
“We have not spoken to each other since before the election.”
Good job, I said to myself. Stick to the facts.
“So if he was ready to speak to you, you would be ready to speak to him?”
“He’s the one who started it!” It never helps your argument to sound like a whiny six-year-old. Miss Iona heard her advantage and took it.
“Listen to yourself, Ida B,” she said.
In a rare confluence of his black nationalism and her incipient feminism, my parents named me after Ida B. Wells Barnett, pioneering journalist and tireless anti-lynching activist. Although I’m just Ida in the outside world, everybody in West End, which is a world of its own, still calls me Ida B.
“I’m sorry,” I said, “but I can’t just come down there, walk into the house, and say, ‘I know we’ve been out of touch recently, bu
t what’s going on with you? That article in the paper made you sound like an angry, bitter old man. Say it ain’t so, Rev. Say it ain’t so!’”
“You’re being sarcastic, but why not? That would be perfect!”
“No, that would be crazy. Listen, Miss Iona, the Rev did a terrible thing. He let his ego make him refuse to help in the most important election of our lifetime.”
“He was being loyal to a friend.”
“There’s a limit to loyalty.”
She let that lie there for a minute, too. An unfortunate choice of words. Unconditional support is the essence of loyalty. Limits ain’t in it.
“Let me ask you something,” she said finally. “Have I tried to insert myself into this difference of opinion between you and your father?”
“It’s a little more serious than a difference of opinion,” I said, going for highly offended and sounding peevish instead.
“Granted. But have I ever?”
“No,” I said. “You have stayed remarkably neutral.”
“Have I ever asked you to come home?”
She had me there. In all the years and through a dizzying variety of crises, she had never called and demanded that I get my ass on a plane and get down there posthaste. “No, you never have.”
“No,” she said, repeating my words for emphasis. “No, I never have, so I would think the unique nature of this conversation would at least make you consider my request before dismissing it out of hand.”
She was right, of course, but I didn’t want to go to Atlanta. My feelings were still hurt, and besides, I had other things to do, like finding a job. D.C. was the place where I needed to put my focus. I had to look out for myself first. The Rev would have to wait.
“Even if I wanted to come,” I said, “it’s just not a good time. I’ve got so much to do here …”
“Look, I know you’re going to work at the White House and everything,” she said. “I know you’re busy, but you haven’t started yet, have you?”
