Her face creased with a worried frown. “Alex, do you think we might be able to fashion a pen or cage for him at Raiford
Park? Or perhaps set him free in some forest—”
“He’s too tame to be set free. I have a friend who keeps exotic animals on his estate.” Alex gave the bear, who hardly came
under the category of “exotic,” a dubious glance. He sighed tautly. “With any luck, I might be able to persuade him to give
Pinky a home.”
“Pokey.”
With a speaking look, he swung up on his mount. “Do you have another escapade planned for tomorrow night?” he asked.
“Or is it possible we might have just one quiet evening at home?”
Lily lowered her head meekly and didn’t reply, although she was tempted to point out that she had warned him she wouldn’t be
the usual sort of wife. Glancing sideways at his dark, disheveled form, she tried to suppress the waves of giddy nervousness
that swept over her. She wanted very much to thank him for all he had done, but she was strangely tongue-tied.
“Let’s go,” he said curtly.
She paused, biting her lip. “Alex, I suppose you must already regret having married me.” There was an anxious lilt in her voice.
“I regret that you disobeyed me and placed yourself in danger.”
At any other time, the concept of wifely obedience was something she would have debated hotly. But with the memory of his rescue so fresh in her mind, she answered with uncustomary mildness. “It couldn’t be helped. I had to resolve matters on my own.”
“You didn’t owe the money to Craven,” he said flatly. “You gave the five thousand to someone else.” At her slight nod, his
mouth tightened. “What are you involved in, Lily?”
“I wish you wouldn’t ask,” she whispered miserably. “I don’t want to lie to you.”
His voice was low and grating. “Why not confide in me?”
She wrapped the leather reins around and around her hand, keeping her face turned away.
*
Alex paused with his hand on the brandy bottle, staring through the semidarkness of the library. Lily was upstairs, preparing
for bed. It was obvious she was afraid of something that no amount of time or patience would make her reveal. He didn’t
know how to make her trust him. Each time he looked into her eyes he sensed a shortening of time, a danger that was
drawing her deeper into a coil. He knew the problem wasn’t money. He’d made it clear that she could have any part of his extensive resources, and yet that hadn’t helped. Foolishly he’d hoped that after clearing her debt, the panic that surfaced so often in her gaze would magically disappear. But it was still there. What had happened tonight was not to be dismissed as a charming scrape—it was a wild rebellion against some burden that was dragging her down like a millstone. He knew all the signs of someone trying to escape from grief. He’d spent two years doing the same.
He set the bottle down without pouring a drink, and rubbed his eyes. Suddenly he was still, knowing she was there. His
senses burned in immediate awareness. The soft sound of his name on her lips made his body hard with a ravening appetite.
He turned to face her. She was dressed in thin layers of white cambric nightclothes, her hair an unruly mass of sable curls.
She looked hesitant and small, utterly beguiling. Her dark eyes flickered to the liquor bottles behind him. ”You’re having
a drink?”
“No.” He raked his hand through his hair, his voice threaded with tired impatience. “What do you want?”
Her breath caught in the prelude to a laugh. “It’s our wedding night.”
The statement diverted him, dispelled all thoughts except the need to have her again. He knew the shape of her beneath the delicate cambric, the feel of her body beneath his, the soft clasp of her flesh around him. Excitement shimmered along his
nerves, but he forced himself to stand there with an appearance of indifference. He wanted the words from her, wanted her
to admit why she had sought him out. “So it is,” he said neutrally.
She fidgeted a little, raising a hand to her neck, toying with a curl in a gesture that held an innocent, maddening allure.
“Are you tired, my lord?”
“No.”
Gamely she persisted, though her voice was shadowed with increasing embarrassment. “Do you intend to retire soon?”
He pushed away from the table and approached her. “Do you want me to?”
She lowered her eyes. “I wouldn’t mind if you decided to—”
“Do you want me in bed with you?” He took hold of her, his hands sliding beneath her arms.
Lily felt herself flush. “Yes,” she managed to whisper in the second before his mouth closed over hers. She gasped softly and relaxed against him, linking her arms around his waist. The yielding promise of her body inflamed him; he wanted to hold her
close, close, until he crushed her. Instead he carried her upstairs and undressed her carefully, and allowed her to help him with
his own clothes. Unfamiliar with a man’s garments, Lily had difficulty in locating the flat, invisible buttons on the inside of his trousers. Gently he showed her how to unfasten them, his breath whisked away as the back of her hand brushed intimately
against him.
Pressing her back to the bed, he covered her body with slow, hot kisses, nudging his face against her downy skin, loving the
pale softness of her breasts and waist and stomach. Lily was more abandoned than she had been the other nights they’d been together, her hands wandering over him more freely, her limbs twining around his. Her cool fingers threaded through his hair, toying languidly in the golden locks, stroking his nape.
The lithe, slender body arching beneath him caused a groan to escape his lips. Breathing hard, he sealed his mouth over hers.
His hand reached down and cupped over her, trapping her damp heat against his palm, momentarily flattening the soft thatch
of curls. Shivering, she parted her knees and pushed upward, craving more of the delicious pressure. His fingers rubbed slowly, and then entered her in a gentle, flexing thrust.
With a helpless moan, Lily hugged herself closer to him, writhing in time to the compelling movement of his fingers. He kissed
her neck and shoulders and withdrew his hand, using his palms to push her thighs apart. “Open your eyes,” he whispered fiercely, staring into her face, holding her knees wide. “Look at me.”
Her dark lashes lifted, and she held his intense gaze. Deliberately he pushed forward. Her eyes dilated as she felt the heavy, stimulating force of him within her. Grasping her hips, he wedged himself deeper, moving in an insistent rhythm. Lily stroked
the smooth surface of his back, and as her pleasure mounted, her fingers dug into the hard plane of muscle. Her face turned against the shaven scrape of his cheek. She heard him whisper to her then, in broken phrases he couldn’t seem to hold back—
how beautiful she was to him, how much he wanted her … that he loved her. Confused, disbelieving, she felt the silken
pleasure explode within her, around her, and she was drowning in feelings she could never have found words for. He drew in
his breath and held it at the moment of climax, his body taut and shaking against hers.
The most pressing silence she had ever known settled over them. Lily kept her eyes closed, though her mind was spinning with questions. I love you … He couldn’t have really said it, she thought. And if he had, he certainly couldn’t have meant it. Her
Aunt Sally had once warned her never to pay heed to the things a man said in passion. At the time, she hadn’t understood the
full significance of the advice.
After a minute, she felt Alex move slightly, as if he intended to roll away from her. Pretending to have fallen asleep, she kept
her arms locked around his neck,
her limbs heavily entangled with his. When he attempted to disengage her, she affected a drowsy murmur and wrapped herself tighter. To her relief, he settled back, his chest rising and falling rapidly beneath her head. She wondered at the reason for his disturbed breathing. He must know what he had said. He must regret it.
But dear Lord … she wanted it to be true.
Alarmed by her own thoughts, she somehow managed to stay relaxed against him. He deserved someone far better than her, someone pure, innocent, untarnished. If he did care for her, it was only because he still didn’t know what she truly was. Once
he knew about her bastard child, he would leave her. And if she allowed herself to fall in love with him, her heart would shatter into a thousand jagged pieces.
*
“You don’t need me to remark on what a hopelessly vulgar mess this is,” Lady Lyon said sternly, regarding the newlywed pair
in the manner of a governess having caught her charge kissing in the corner with an ill-bred peasant. An elegant woman with gleaming silver-white hair and direct blue eyes, she possessed a strong, flawless bone structure that had made her a renowned beauty in her youth.
Alex shrugged apologetically. “But Aunt, the truth is—”
“Don’t attempt to tell me the truth, you impetuous boy! I’ve heard the rumors, and that is quite enough.”
“Yes, Aunt Mildred,” Alex replied humbly for the tenth time, sliding a sideways glance at his wife. They were in the gold and green parlor of Lord Hampton Lyon’s mansion on Brook Street. Lily was huddled in a nearby chair, her gaze fixed on her
folded hands. He struggled to suppress a grin, never having seen her look so chastened. He had warned her what to expect.
True to his predictions, his elderly aunt had lectured them in her imperious way for at least a quarter-hour.
“Gambling, nudity, promiscuity, and the merciful Lord knows what else,” Lady Lyon continued sharply, “all carried out in the
public forum, which places the two of you quite beyond redemption. I hold you just as accountable as your wife, Alexander.
Your part in this is no less reprehensible. In fact, it is more so. How dare you wantonly cast aside your sterling reputation and
sully the family name in such a manner?” She shook her head and regarded them severely. “The only wise step you have taken
is to come to me with this. Although I can’t help but think it is too late to pluck the two of you from the jaws of social ruin. It
will be the greatest challenge of my life, gaining you entree.”
“We have absolute faith in you, Aunt Mildred,” Alex said in a penitent murmur. “If anyone can accomplish it, you can.”
“Indeed,” Lady Lyon replied sourly.
Lily raised a hand to her lips, wiping away the twitch of a smile. She relished the picture of her husband being scolded like a troublesome schoolboy. In spite of the old lady’s enthusiastic dressing-down, it was clear she adored Alex.
Lady Lyon regarded her suspiciously. “I fail to understand why my nephew married you,” she announced. “He should have wedded that well-behaved sister of yours, and made you his paramour.”
“I couldn’t agree more,” Lily said, speaking up for the first time. “I was perfectly willing to be his mistress. It would have been
a far more sensible arrangement.” Smiling sweetly at Alex, she ignored his sardonic stare. “I believe he compelled me to marry him out of some mistaken idea that it was possible to reform me.” She rolled her eyes dramatically. “Heaven knows where he
got that notion.”
Lady Lyon regarded her with new interest. “Hmm. Now I begin to understand the attraction. You’re a spirited chit. And I
don’t doubt you’ve a quick wit. But all the same—”
“Thank you,” Lily said demurely, interrupting before another round of scolding began. “Lady Lyon, I appreciate your willingness
to exert your influence on our behalf. But gaining us admittance into respectable circles …” She shook her head decisively.
“It can’t be done.”
“Indeed,” the elderly woman said frostily. “Then let me inform you, my impertinent miss, that it can and will be done. Provided
you manage to keep from making any further scandalous exhibitions of yourself!”
“She won’t,” Alex said hastily. “And neither will I, Aunt Mildred.”
“Very well.” Lady Lyon gestured for a housemaid to bring her lap desk. “I shall begin my campaign,” she said, in a tone that
must have resembled Wellington’s at Waterloo. “And you, of course, will follow my instructions to the letter.”
Alex strode to his aunt and kissed her wrinkled brow. “I knew I could depend on you, Aunt Mildred.”
“Fustian,” she replied rudely, gesturing for Lily to approach her. “You may kiss me, child.”
Obediently Lily pressed her lips to the old woman’s proffered cheek.
“Now that I’ve had a look at you,” Lady Lyon continued, “I am assured that all of the rumors about you can’t be true. Decadent living always shows in the face, and you look far less degenerate than I expected.” Her blue eyes narrowed. “In the right clothes,
I suppose we could pass you off as a woman of reasonably good character.”
Lily gave her a small curtsey. “Thank you,” she said with a meekness that bordered on burlesque.
“We’ll have a problem with the eyes,” Lady Lyon said disapprovingly. “Dark, heathenish, full of mischief. Perhaps you could
find some way to restrain the expression in them—”
Alex interrupted with a protest, sliding his arm around Lily’s waist. “No more talk about her eyes, Aunt. They’re her best
feature.” He glanced down at his wife caressingly. “I’m rather partial to them.”
Lily’s silent amusement faded as her gaze was imprisoned by his. She felt a peculiar warmth blossom inside of her, making her warm and unsteady, her heart beating swiftly. Suddenly the hard support of his arm seemed to be all that kept her standing. Conscious of the interested regard of Lady Lyon, Lily tried to look away, but she was unable to do anything except wait
helplessly for him to release her. Finally he gave her waist a squeeze and let go.
Lady Lyon spoke, her voice less sharp than before. “Leave us alone for a moment, Alexander.”
He frowned. “Aunt, I’m afraid we don’t have time for any more talk.”
“Don’t worry,” Lady Lyon said dryly. “This old dragon will not chew your pretty young bride to bits. I merely want to give
her some advice. Come here, child.” She patted the space beside her. Without looking at her husband, Lily seated herself
on the sofa.
Giving his aunt a warning glance, Alex left the room.
Lady Lyon seemed to have been amused by her nephew’s glowering frown. “It’s clear he can’t abide any criticism of you,”
she remarked with a throaty chuckle.
“Unless it’s given by himself.” Lily was surprised by the way the grande dame’s entire manner had softened.
That caused Lady Lyon to laugh again. “My favorite nephew, you know. The most exemplary man the family has ever produced. Far more praiseworthy than my own charming, spoiled, good-for-nothing son Ross. You’ll never fully appreciate your own good fortune in landing Alexander. How you did is a mystery to me.”
“To me also,” Lily said feelingly.
“No matter. You’ve wrought quite a change in him.” Lady Lyon paused reflectively. “I don’t think I’ve seen him so lighthearted since he was a boy, before his parents passed away.”
Unaccountably pleased, Lily lowered her gaze to hide the effects of the elderly woman’s words. “But surely when he and
Caroline Whitmore were affianced—”
“Let me tell you something about that American woman,” the elderly woman interrupted impatiently. “She was a beautiful, carefree creature, prone to romantics and follies. Certai
nly she would have made Alexander an adequate wife. But Miss Whitmore didn’t understand the depth to him, nor did she care to.” Her blue eyes turned soft and thoughtful, almost sad.
“She never would have appreciated the kind of love he is capable of giving. The Raiford men were unique in that regard.”
She paused and added, “They allow their women such terrible power over them. Their love tends toward obsession. My
brother Charles—Alexander’s father—willed himself to death after his wife passed away. The thought of living without her
was intolerable to him. Did you know about that?”
“No, ma’am,” Lily said, startled.
“Alexander is no different. Losing the woman he loves, through death or betrayal, would have the same effect on him.”
Lily’s eyes widened. “Lady Lyon, I think you are exaggerating the case. His feelings for me do not tend to that extreme.
That is, he doesn’t—”
“You are not as sharp-witted as I thought, child, if you haven’t realized that he loves you.”
Caught in the grip of dismay and some deeper, perplexing emotion, Lily stared at her in silent astonishment.
“Young people are far more thickheaded now than in my day,” Lady Lyon observed tartly. “Close your mouth, child, you’ll
catch flies.”
The acerbic tone in Lady Lyon’s voice reminded Lily of Aunt Sally, although Sally had certainly been far more outlandish
than this elegant matron. “Ma’am, you said you have advice for me?”
“Oh, yes.” Lady Lyon pinned Lily in a meaningful stare. “I’ve heard all about you and your wild ways. In truth, you remind me
of myself when I was young. I was a comely, high-spirited girl with quite a good figure. Before my marriage I left a string of broken hearts in my wake, long enough to make my mother exceedingly proud. I felt no pressing urge to accept some man as
my lord and master. Not when I had all of London at my feet. Flowers, poetry, stolen kisses …” She smiled reminiscently. “It
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