PeRdido
PeRdido
Rick Collignon
Unbridled Books
This is a work of fi ction. The names, characters, places andincidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or areused fi ctitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons living or dead,business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Unbridled Books
Copyright © 1997 by Rick Collignon
Originally published in hardcover by MacMurrary & Beck, Inc.
First Unbridled Books trade paperback edition, 2010
Unbridled Books trade paperback ISBN 978-1-60953-028-0
All rights reserved. This book, or parts thereof, may notbe reproduced in any form without permission.
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication DataCollignon, Rick, 1948–
Perdido : a novel / Rick Collignon.
p. cm.
ISBN 1-878448-76-5
I. Title.
PS3553.0474675P4 1997
813'.54—dc21
96-53857
CIP
Printed in the United States of America
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To Octaviana Esquibel
Prologue
“THE NIGGER CAME TO Guadalupe in the summer of the year 1946,” Telesfor Ruiz said. It was hot and dry, and the rains that came each summer to Guadalupe and moved black with speed over the valley had not yet arrived. The fields were wet only with water from the ditches, which ran full from the heavy snows the winter before.
He came to Guadalupe from the south. The road was not paved then, and in the spring, when the ground thawed, it was not a road at all but only mud. On that day in July, with no rain, the man walked loosely on the hard-packed adobe, as though that were all he had ever done. He was tall and thin and carried a worn canvas bag over his shoulder. His dark clothes were baggy on his frame and too heavy for the season. The face shadowed beneath his cap was weathered and thick featured. He stared at the ground as he walked, as if he thought it might have something to say, although he was no longer interested in what that might be. At times, he would swing the bag off his shoulder and carry it in his right hand, as he was doing when the first person in Guadalupe saw him—a young boy named Gilfredo Vigil, who was in a field throwing rocks at his grandfather’s cows. Gilfredo could see that this man’s right arm hung four inches longer than his left and that the skin of his face and hands was black.
Telesfor Ruiz told Will that he remembered the year the nigger came because it was also the year Eduardo Muñoz froze to death near the church and wasn’t found until the snow melted in the spring. Eduardo, an old man whose mind had always been like that of a child, lived with his sister. Each morning, Eduardo would walk the long distance from his sister’s house to Felix’s Café. There, he would sit, drinking coffee by himself, talking to no one, and look out the window at the village. After three cups of coffee, he would rise hurriedly from the table, as though he had heard a voice, and return home. Sometimes, if the café was quiet, Felix García would watch the old man walk down the hill into the valley. Eduardo would walk with his head bent, his arms stiff at his sides, but for an old man, he walked quickly with a purpose no one understood.
On the day Eduardo froze to death, the wind blew harshly from the north. Eduardo stood at the window in his sister’s house dressed in rubber boots, watching the January wind blow the snow sideways. He could feel it touch the back of his hand as it came through the cracks around the frame of the glass. When his sister, Lucinda, came from bed an hour later, she found her house empty. By then, her older brother was already dead.
When Eduardo reached the church, only a few hundred yards from Felix’s Café, his face was burnt red from the wind and his ears were the color of chalk. Although Eduardo’s feet still moved, he was walking in place. The wind inside his clothes pressed on his chest, and his body felt as though it had been taken with fever. He took off his coat and shirt, pulled off his boots, and sat down in the snow. Before him, he could see hundreds of small birds the color of the snow. Each one made a noise just louder than the wind. Eduardo watched them as they hopped onto his legs and sat on his bare feet and crowded together in his lap. After a while, he lay gently on his side, careful not to crush them. He closed his eyes and thought that the sound of these birds was something he had heard before.
Eduardo lay lost in the snow for almost two months. One night in early March, when the weather that winter had finally broken, Father Jerome was returning to the church after visiting Guadalupita García. Guadalupita had been near death for three years and had spent that time praying incessantly in a language not even she knew and summoning the priest to her home. There, Father Jerome would sit by her bed, staring at the white adobe wall and wondering when this old woman, who spoke such strange words, would die and leave him in peace. As he neared the church, he stumbled off the path and into the snow. When he looked up, he saw in the moonlight the half-naked body of Eduardo Munoz, curled about itself. The old man’s eyes were closed, and on his face was a smile.
It was the summer of that year, Telesfor Ruiz told Will, that the nigger came to Guadalupe.
He stayed in Guadalupe for seven years. On the day he arrived, he walked through the village without a glance about him, and just past Felix’s Café he suddenly cut off the road, through the fields to a house near the base of the foothills that had sat empty for more than twenty years. Gilfredo Vigil, distracted from throwing stones at his grandfather’s cows, had followed the stranger through the village, trailing far behind as if this man were an animal that he had never seen before and he were unsure whether it could be trusted. Gilfredo stood in the sagebrush and watched the man push open the door of the house and then lower his head and walk inside. Soon after, Gilfredo saw smoke coming from the stovepipe. Only eleven years old and living with too many older sisters, he thought that this village, which had always been the same to him, had changed in a moment.
The nigger’s name was Madewell Brown, and he moved into the house that had once belonged to Antonio Montoya, who had long ago left the village. No one in Guadalupe knew how Madewell had come to choose this house, and since he kept to himself and also because most people were uneasy in his presence, this was a question never asked. He lived there as though it were his.
Horacio Medina, who owned many head of cattle and much of the better pasture land in Guadalupe, was the only person to try to start trouble with Madewell Brown. He went to Tito’s bar one night in August and bought whiskey for everyone, a thing he was never known to do. Then he said that this village was not a place for someone, especially a nigger, who had appeared from nowhere and moved into the Montoya house as if he owned it, which he didn’t. Horacio bought some more whiskey and said that what they should do was walk to Madewell Brown’s house and show him what was what.
Alfonso Vigil, who had been in the bar since the day before celebrating the birth of his fourteenth granddaughter, raised his head and in a voice like gravel and with eyes that had turned bleary and red said that if anyone’s house should be burned, it should be Horacio Medina’s, as it was he who had cheated the people of Guadalupe whenever given the opportunity. And besides, Alfonso went on, it was too late in the evening to go to the nigger’s house; they would only disturb him.
In the years that Madewell Brown lived in Guadalupe, the only person to come to know him at all was Felix García. On the first of every month, before dawn, Madewell would walk to the back door of the café and Felix would sell him beans and flour and meat. As Felix too was a man who kept to himself, much of their dealings were done in silence. But on days when the weather was poor, Made-well would duck his head and step inside. Felix would look at this man and wonder how someone like him had come to this place.
Madewell told Felix that although he once had a family, it was now scattered about as if blown. One day he had packed his belongings in his bag and begun walking. He said he had spent his life always moving with others like himself and that, in the end, it had come to nothing. He said he had stopped in Guadalupe because when he first saw the village he thought that it had the feel of having been here forever and would look no different in a hundred years. And also, when he walked down the hill, he could see a small boy in a field running about as if being chased and throwing rocks at cows. Felix, who knew Gilfredo Vigil threw stones at everything from chickens to open windows to his older sisters, thought that if he had seen someone like Gilfredo, it would have been a good reason to keep on walking, not to stop. If it occurred to Felix to ask why Madewell had moved into the house that had once belonged to Antonio Montoya, he never asked. Felix took Madewell’s money and gave him food in return, and they stood outside the café each month as though it were something the two of them had done forever.
Madewell Brown became like a shadow living in the village, someone who had moved into its midst from the outside and then closed himself away. He hauled water from the ditch that ran through the field next to his house, and in the winter, he melted snow. Sometimes he would be seen gathering firewood, branches of piñon and cedar, in the foothills. Those who saw him would think of a wild animal that had grown old and moved slowly, no longer concerned about whether it were seen. But for the most part, he stayed inside his house doing no one knew what.
One morning when Madewell Brown came to Felix’s Café, he carried his canvas bag and was dressed in the same clothes he had worn when he arrived years ago. It was summer, and the sun had not yet risen. The sky was only pale to the east. When Felix saw him, he knew that this man was leaving Guadalupe and that although he had met with him every month for years, he knew almost nothing about him.
For a moment, neither man spoke. Then Felix, a quiet man with little sense of humor, said he had always thought Madewell was too sensible to take a walk on a day that promised to be so hot. Madewell leaned close to Felix and said he had once been the father of six children who had all come to nothing like himself. He knew their names and their faces, but that was all. He told Felix that when he was born, his father, who worked with his hands and his back and died too early, had given him the name he carried so that what he did in life would go well. Then Madewell Brown said he was leaving Guadalupe now because there was no longer anything here for him. He also said he had left something in his house that he wished Felix to see.
Gilfredo Vigil was the last person in Guadalupe to see Madewell Brown. He was in his grandfather’s field irrigating, and he was no longer a young boy but a young man. As he worked the shovel, he watched Madewell walk through the village, up the hill, and out of his sight. Gilfredo thought that this man looked and moved no differently from the first time he had seen him. He could see again how much longer one of Madewell’s arms was than the other and thought that he should drop his shovel and run after him and ask why this was so. But he didn’t. It wasn’t until Gilfredo himself was approaching old age that he woke suddenly one morning with the nigger in his mind and realized that Madewell Brown had spent his life throwing rocks.
After the café closed that day, Felix cleaned the kitchen and wiped the tables. Then he walked up the hill to the house where Madewell had lived. The sun had set, and Felix could feel his shirt, which was moist from the heat in the kitchen, cool against his back. He looked at the house and thought it already felt empty. Felix pushed the door open and stepped inside.
The mud plaster on the walls inside had been painted white, and over that were drawn so many pictures that for a second Felix felt as though the room were crowded. He shut his eyes, and a soft wave of dizziness washed over him. When he opened them again, he began to turn slowly in a circle. All about him were thousands of paintings. They ran from one wall to the other, even across the surface of the door and above the archway that led into another room. They were painted in black, red, yellow, green, and in colors Felix had never seen. In each painting were six children, and from one wall to the next they aged, and as there were so many of these paintings, they seemed to grow old together by the moment.
They were drawn at birth, Telesfor said, lying closely together under one blanket. Their faces were clear and smooth, their eyes wide and surprised. Above them was a black sky with stars and a yellow moon. Felix watched them begin to crawl and then walk clumsily, falling into each other. He saw them in trees and in dry arroyos and in groves of scrub oak, always together, and in a boat on a river that flowed flat and was only water. He saw them kiss each other and wrestle in the dirt and throw rocks at cows and start fires that grew too big. He watched them asleep at dawn and in the rain and in snow without coats or shoes. And at the end, with age, the six of them sat looking out at the person who had drawn them. Felix saw that in this house Madewell Brown had raised his family and that when he left, he left them behind.
It took Telesfor Ruiz a long time to tell this story to Will. By the end, the night had grown dark and Telesfor’s voice sounded like air. Will asked him if he had ever seen the paintings and where in Guadalupe this house was. Telesfor answered that he had seen them just once, but he had never gone back because the sight of them alone in the house made him too sad. He told Will that the house Madewell Brown had lived in was no longer standing. A few years after Madewell left, Horacio Medina bought the land for back taxes. Not long after that, he sold it to the mine, which tore the house down. All that remained now were some old fenceposts and broken glass and pieces of adobe with paint.
One
ONE WINTER, WILL Sawyer found buried in his wall the carved figure of a Lady. He found her by accident. He was driving a nail into the adobe wall beside the kitchen stove when the head of the hammer broke through the thin layer of mud into air. The hole she stood in was not much larger than she, narrow and a little over a foot high. She was coated with dust and mud and woven with spiderwebs as if tied in place. Her hands came together at her chest; her eyes looked straight ahead. Her mouth was full and without a smile. The base she stood upon was a piece of flat cottonwood. Much of the paint on her gown and on the robe that fell from her head to her feet had peeled away. Will didn’t know who had hidden her in the wall, only that she had stood there for a long time.
He never told anyone about her, not Felipe, not even Lisa, and on days like this one he would take her from her hiding place and stand her on the kitchen table. They would stay there together without talking, or at least she wouldn’t, and look out the open door. Today, all they could see was rain and the clouds hanging low on the foothills.
Will had left early that morning with Felipe, an hour or so before dawn, rain falling so softly that they both thought it wouldn’t keep up much past sunrise. Felipe drove, their tools in the box in the bed of the pickup, the ladders vibrating on the rack above the cab. The radio was tuned to a Spanish station, and the reception was so poor that to Will it sounded as though the voices came from another world.
They drove through Guadalupe, heading north. Most of the houses were still dark, and this early there wasn’t even a sign of life in Felix’s Café. The narrow, two-lane highway was empty except for the occasional trucker hauling hay and dragging clouds of vapor in his wake. The rain seemed to be falling harder.
“This might be a bad idea,” Felipe said.
Will leaned forward and wiped the fog off the windshield. “How can you even see?” he said. “Maybe if you put on the wipers, we won’t hit a cow.” Felipe grunted and hit the switch, and the wipers clacked back and forth. “All we got to do,” Will went on, “is get some measurements.”
“This was your stupid idea to take a job so far away.”
“It won’t take long,” Will said. “We’ll give her a price and come home.”
“It’s a five-hour drive,” Felipe said. “Besides, who’s going to crawl around her roof in the rain?”
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��You think it’ll rain all day?”
“It rained all night,” Felipe said, as if that had something to do with now. “Even if it doesn’t, the roof’ll be slick.”
Twenty miles north, they turned east onto a gravel road that would take them across the valley and over the Rio Grande. From the river, they still had another good hour of driving. Will leaned back low in the seat and lit a cigarette. He cracked open the window and watched the draft pull the smoke from the cab. He thought that since coming to New Mexico, he had spent half his life in the cab of a truck.
Felipe took his eyes off the road. He could see that Will’s head moved with the motion of the truck and that his eyes were closed. “When we get to the bridge,” he said, “if it’s still raining, we’re turning back.”
“I’d hate to have to do this again tomorrow,” Will said, his eyes still shut.
Felipe grunted and looked back at the road. It was raining harder. “Don’t think you’re going to sleep on this ride either, jodido,” he said.
They had worked together for nine years. For a little while, at the beginning, they had been polite and careful with each other. But now, after so long, it seemed that all they did was argue like viejas. Felipe knew that this was not his doing and wondered how someone as even-tempered as he had come to have two wives who each took a great deal of pleasure in telling him what to do.
“You know why this lady wants a price?” he said. “So she can get her brother or her tio or some other relative to do it for less.”
The sky became gray, light enough now that they could see the flatness of the land stretched out between the two mountain ranges, the Sangre de Cristos behind them and to the west the low, barren hills of the San Juans. They drove by some old fence lines and a ruin that was no more than a stone foundation and a pile of rocks that had once been a chimney. Felipe wondered why anyone would choose to live out here, where winter was too long and the wind always blew and nothing grew but sagebrush and sparse grass cropped short by generations of cattle. The road was beginning to rise gradually, and Felipe knew that just over the next hill it would dip down to the river. “Finally,” he thought.
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