And through it all, Twilight felt again the terrible pain and anger in her own heart, boiling and festering like a sore, a canker that would never heal.
Never would she let herself weep for love. She had known too much treachery for that. It was an aptly named sword she carried, Betrayal, its blade dyed the dusk of stone after the darkness that had bled from her pierced heart into its steel.
Twilight was so lost in her rage that she almost did not notice when Taslin turned in her arms. She did notice, though, when the sun elf bent in and pressed her lips to her own. For a single, stunned breath, Twilight did nothing but let Taslin kiss her.
Then hot blood flowed through her veins. She looked into green-gold eyes and saw there the light and hope she wanted-desperately needed. Her hands clasped both sides of the priestess's face and pulled her deeper into the embrace. As though Taslin suddenly realized what was happening, she tried to break the kiss, but Twilight clung to her, pulling her and throwing them both to the stone.
Then the priestess let out a muffled gasp and Twilight felt her surrender. Supple arms wrapped around her back, and she felt nails through her blouse but she was hardly aware of the world outside the kiss.
All of Taslin's fiery passions poured into that kiss-all her wrath and rage about Asson's death, all her determination and love. She kissed hard, violently. Her hands gripped Twilight's arms with white-knuckled force, the nails nearly drawing blood.
Then it was broken. Twilight rolled away to lie beside Taslin, both of them panting heavily in the murky torchlight. The two women looked at each other for many heartbeats, neither speaking. They merely breathed.
Twilight's heart raced so fast it scared her. No, she thought. No!
Then Taslin made a sound that made Twilight's heart fall back into shadow. It was a mere giggle at first, but soon it became an outright laugh.
She laughed alone.
How much the mirth stung startled her. Twilight felt like weeping, for she had been wrong about Taslin, but no-no tears. Instead, she bound that hurt deep inside.
While the priestess seemed capable of letting it pass, Erevan's servant was not so carefree. Perhaps the Maid was toying with her again, or even the Trickster himself. He had ruined everything else in her life, why not this?
"My thanks," the priestess said. "Perhaps there is more to wisdom than holding it all within the heart." Then she smiled innocently, and her eyes softened.
Twilight wanted to agree-she wanted to reassure Taslin, to tell her all would be well. She could see that Taslin needed only those words and her heart would be whole once more. It should have been so easy to give her those, to give her the comfort and love she needed. Even if Taslin did not want her as a lover, Twilight should have been able to take Taslin into her arms and let the sun elf weep on her shoulder, sharing the pain.
But it would've been a lie-an inward lie. She could not tell Taslin that grief had to be entrusted to others-she did not believe in trusting others. And the priestess, much as she possessed the warmth Twilight's cold heart craved, did trust, and that made her a fool. More than that, she was stupid enough to want Twilight for a friend.
Twilight believed in only three breeds of people in the world: lovers, enemies, and those who were both. That left no room for something so naive as friendship.
All trust and friendship had earned her, in her young life, had been more than her years' worth of heartbreak and loss.
Without a word, Twilight stood and walked away. She didn't look back.
She thought she heard Taslin say something behind her, but the words hurt less than those pained eyes, stabbing into her back.
"May Corellon guide you," the sun elf said. "And may you accept his hand."
CHAPTER TWELVE
Liet breathed a sigh of relief when Davoren returned. His demeanor showed no aggression or wrath, surprisingly, and his eyes darted nervously. Liet wondered, with no small shiver, what could make the invincible warlock afraid.
A short time later, Liet saw Twilight gliding from the tunnel in the direction that Taslin had gone several bells earlier. "Take this night for mourning if you wish, rest if you do not." Her tone made it clear she addressed them all.
Taslin, nude but for the cloak they had found for her, followed not far behind, and Liet had to look at her twice. He glanced at Twilight, wide-eyed, but she didn't return it.
Twilight continued. Her voice sounded tired. "Tomorrow, we head south-circling back to the rising tunnel Slip found."
They nodded solemnly. Gargan was the only one who made a sound.
"Goli lenamaka nae," he said. Then he separated from the others, hand on the hilt of the sword he had taken, and disappeared into the tunnels.
Slip blinked out of her doze and watched the receding goliath. "Hey!" she called. "Hey, wait!" She got up and ran after him into the darkness. Gargan paused and waited until Slip reached his side, and they disappeared together.
Twilight stared after them. Taslin crossed to her side and laid a hand on her elbow. "He goes to keep watch," she said, pointing to her earring.
Twilight seemed to accept the priestess's words, though she looked decidedly uncomfortable. She shrugged, took up her sword, and wandered toward a tunnel.
"Wait, 'Light," Liet said with a start, but the shadowdancer was already gone into darkness.
"Don't need you," Davoren murmured, huddled against the wall. Blood dripped from his mouth as though he had bit his lip. "Don't need any of you."
"Eh?" Liet said. "What did-?"
"Silence!" Davoren snapped, with more self-loathing than real anger. Still, it was enough to stun Liet. The warlock went back to muttering. "Don't need you-any of you."
The Dalesman bit his lip and suppressed a nervous shudder.
It occurred to him that Davoren was wrong. Each of them needed the others to survive, and not just for protection. They provided one another something else in the darkness: drive, or purpose, perhaps. Slip and Gargan had each other, it seemed, and Taslin had depended on Asson.
He looked at the scarred priestess, who meditated two paces distant. Would she die, now that she had no ally? No. Liet resolved that he would protect her. She had been kind to him, and he felt for her, with Asson gone.
Observing the shuddering warlock, Liet imagined that Davoren lived only because of Twilight's protection. They were not friends, certainly, but allies? The two of them had entered this dungeon together as companions at arms, but was there any true connection between them?
What of Twilight? Who was her protection? Certainly not Davoren, and all the fire seemed to have gone out of Taslin. Gargan was an enigma, and Slip had enough trouble watching out for herself. Perhaps…
A hand fell on his arm, and he jumped. It was Taslin. Her scarred face may have lost some of its beauty, but her eyes had lost none of their intensity. He felt calm, peaceful, in that gaze.
"Go to her," the priestess said. "She craves solitude, but she needs you. You and she are so alike-younger than this world demands."
"What?" Liet asked, dumbfounded.
"Do you not desire her?" Taslin asked. In the corner, Davoren was a thousand leagues away. "You stand close to her, and your hand reaches for hers. You laugh just a touch too loud, and stare a breath too long."
"I don't…"
"Have you never had a woman, young master Liet?"
"Well, ah, um-" She put a finger to his lips. She reminded him of Twilight.
"My heart will mend," she said. "Hers…" She gazed toward the corridor.
Liet hesitated. He wanted with all his being to go after Twilight. What he would say, he had no idea. But he couldn't leave Taslin and Davoren alone, he told himself. Couldn't face the monsters that could be out in the dark…
"Courage," Taslin whispered. "You are older than the boy you act-be the man you are." She kissed his cheek, softly.
He would do it.
Liet got to his feet. "I shall return," he said. "I'll bring her with me."
"Go," Taslin said
peaceably. Her hand snaked out to caress bare stone beside her, though she didn't seem to notice. "I shall be well."
He looked from Taslin to Davoren, a bit nervous to leave them. But he pushed fear away. Liet wasn't convinced, but he didn't care-not more than he did about Twilight.
The passage yawned forbiddingly, but he was determined. He stole after Twilight, quiet without his boots, seeking where she might have gone. He heard the rapier scabbard clicking against the stone ahead, and followed the sounds.
He saw a flicker of movement. "Slip?" he asked, hesitantly. The figure froze, staring, then dashed around a corner. Hand on his sword, Liet hurried after.
He turned the corner and gasped, seeing a light glimmer on the far wall. There was movement. He dropped his hand to his sword and stepped forward, cautiously, straining to see. He couldn't make it out clearly, but it looked like a black hand-he couldn't count the fingers-extending out of the wall itself. As he approached, the hand snaked around and extended its palm toward him. He saw an eye in its midst.
His own eyes widening, Liet hurled himself into the shadows and froze. He had no power, no magic of his own-at least, none that he could use. What could he do against… whatever this thing was?
The arm twisted back toward the wall and searched along its surface. Then, as Liet watched, it dipped its fingers into the stone as though into pudding and reshaped it. The hand simply tore a gash in the wall, revealing a new passage. The stone bled drops of black onto the floor. Liet's stomach rose. He looked back, fearful, wondering whether Taslin or Davoren could arrive soon enough to save him.
Clutching himself tightly, Liet massaged his arms and winced at the sudden burning pain. Why did they hurt now?
Then the hand was gone, snaking back into that shimmer, which winked out, leaving him in blackness-blackness that was complete except for the torchlight flickering from the new passage. He crept up to it, wary that the hand would reappear, and looked in. More sewers beckoned that they had never been in before.
" 'Light," Liet said. He needed to tell her of this. " 'Light!"
In the darkness-less than a pace from where the useless one hid-Gestal took careful note of the hand from the wall. It did not please Lord Divergence, being this far into the lower domain. Certain forces would not welcome his presence.
The eyes turned back down the passage whence the useless one had come. Yes.
Gestal had an appointment to keep.
He found her after only a few breaths-silent, still, in the middle of the corridor. Twilight's head was bowed as though she were praying. Liet's heart hammered in his throat. He opened his mouth but forgot whatever he had been about to say. As he tried to remember, his thought slipped away.
Liet was about to speak when Twilight's hand shot out and grasped his collar. Before he could say a word, she slammed him against the wall and put a thin, sharp knife to his throat. Liet squeaked, and she withdrew the blade and sighed.
"Torm's name!" he cried. "You can't just say 'well met'-like a sane lady?"
"You can't just approach from the light, spouting poetry, like a conventional suitor?" Twilight put the knife away.
Heat shot into his face. "I, ah, I guess I'm sneakier than I thought." His eyes widened. "I'm-I'm really not trying to sneak up on you!"
The elf smiled halfway. "A lass can never be too cautious," she said. "Strange men, creeping about dark corners, watching lasses from hiding, carrying sharp steel?"
"I see your aim," said Liet. "I'd have spoken, but I reasoned you'd hear…"
"And you were correct," said Twilight. "Just here to gawk as I take my rest, or do you have a purpose?" As she spoke, she slipped out of her breeches and blouse, shaking them out. Liet gulped, and though his mouth opened, he had no words, only shock.
After a moment, Twilight raised an eyebrow, and his flush only deepened. He finally thought to whirl around just as she wrapped a dark cloak around her bare body.
"Little point now," she said. "So speak. I have little enough time for wandering lads who fancy watching lasses more than a century their senior strip bare."
Liet turned about, hesitantly. "Ah," he said. "Well…"
"Now there's a deep thought," the elf observed.
"I need to tell you, ah…" Liet trailed off.
"Are all men of the Dales this eloquent?" Twilight's face contorted. "Out with it! Did you come to berate me for letting Asson die? Or question my methods with Davoren and Taslin?" She eyed him fiercely. "Or perhaps just a quick tumble on the stone here? It's been a long day. I could certainly use some vigorous comforting, how about you?"
"I'd settle for a vigorous handclasp," murmured Liet, not thinking. Then he froze.
Twilight blinked. "What?"
In an instant, the angry gleam in her eyes took on a new tone.
"Uh, ah, that is, I-"
"What did you say?" she asked softly.
"Ah," Liet said. "I merely wanted to-make sure you're well, after ah, today."
Twilight looked at him as if no one had ever said such a thing to her before. "Why?" she asked finally.
It was Liet's turn to be speechless. "I just, ah-just concerned, that's all." Hadn't he wanted to tell her something? Something important?
"You're not breaking one of my rules, are you?" Twilight asked with a wry smile.
"Most maids would call me chivalrous," said Liet, "and not accuse me of-"
"Do you know how to please an elf, manling?" Twilight's eyes narrowed dangerously. "A kiss upon the tip of the ear or a lick on the palm of the hand is quite a thing."
"Uh, 'tisnt, ah, why I'm here," Liet managed.
"Really? You're certain you're"-she slid up to him and pressed herself against his chest, using her lithe curves to full effect-"not breaking"-Liet stiffened, but only from surprise, as she traced her fingers down many days' stubble-"rule number"-she finished, pressing her nose against his, caressing his lips with her own-"four?"
"And what-what if I am?" Liet was almost breathless.
With a little laugh, Twilight shoved him away.
"I could make an attempt at poetry," Liet said. "If that's what y-"
He instantly regretted it. In her face, in her stance, he saw that whatever fire had been lit had vanished. He felt like a child.
"Go to your rest, boy," she said. "I present far too wild a beast for you to tackle, this night or any night. You do not wish to try."
He sniffed. "Is that not my choice?"
When Twilight raised an eyebrow, he cursed inwardly again. Why must she be so clever?
"Ah, I mean, not whether I tackle you-uh, but whether I wish to, ah, try?"
"Go to your rest," she repeated. "And that's the end."
Liet turned away, defeated. Then he caught himself on the wall and looked back. He was tired of being treated like a child, so he decided to say something not boyish. Of course, as soon as it came out of his mouth, it sounded quite juvenile. "I'm not afraid of you, Twilight."
Her reception, however, was not what he expected. She stared at him, her skin white, as though he'd said something quite mature. "You're certain?"
"Aye," said the man Liet had suddenly become. "The question is, are you so certain you're not?"
She did not answer, but merely stared at him until-a little more confident-he went back to his blankets.
Twilight awoke the following morning to screams. Cursing, she fumbled out of her cloak and grabbed Betrayal. She ran down the tunnel to her companions.
Taslin sat in the middle of the room, screaming and moaning, rocking back and forth. There was something red on the floor in front of her. Gargan stood over Davoren, axe ready, and Slip huddled behind him. Liet had his short sword at the warlock's throat.
"Hold!" Twilight shouted. "What is this?"
"He… he did something," Liet stammered, "to Taslin."
"You saw him?" Twilight demanded. "What was it?"
"N-no," Liet said. "But he did something!"
"Not I," the warlock said. Liet put pressure on
the sword and Davoren fell silent.
Wary, Twilight walked to Taslin. A rag-wrapped bundle lay beside her, the size of a loaf of bread, perhaps. The rags were simple roughspun, and were soaked red. "Taslin?"
The sun elf shook her head violently.
Twilight prodded the bundle with Betrayal. No reaction. She knelt to examine it, moving the swaddling aside with her steel. Then she flinched back with a curse.
A pair of red buttons stared out of a rag face. The doll wore rough, tattered robes dyed with what looked like blood. It was flattened, its stuffing leaking out from a hole in its chin. It looked like a scraggly beard.
"Someone has done this," Taslin said. "I will have blood." Taslin glared at her. "Someone…" Then she trailed off, staring at Twilight's face.
Twilight looked around, moving only her eyes. All of them looked far too horrified. Trying her best not to tremble, Twilight lifted her fingers and felt sticky wetness on her cheek. She did not need a mirror to know what must be there-a mark of some kind, traced in blood. She turned and wiped it away.
"From now on," Twilight said, slowly and calmly, "no one wanders away from the others. We stay together. Understood?"
Agreeing silence answered, but the eyes she felt on her back lost no suspicion.
"Down!" Twilight hissed.
Liet fell behind a pile of rubble, landing hard. Gargan ducked with them, hiding Taslin and Davoren around the corner.
Liet rubbed his bottom. "What did-"
Fingers fell on his lips, silencing him. Twilight gestured over the rubble with her eyes. Liet's blood ran cold and he couldn't bring himself to look.
"Tsch," Davoren said from the corner. "Simple primitives, hardly worth a moment." He did not walk into the open, though.
"Agreed," hissed Taslin. She scared Liet-since that morning, her eyes had shone with troubling intensity. "Let us slay the rabble-they block our path." She did not move.
Twilight gestured to Liet to look. He peeked over the stone, as low as he could.
A score of creatures covered in black and red scales ambled about the wide cavern, illuminated by the torches on the walls. Their faces were slack-jawed and they wore simple dark loincloths for clothing, but there, the resemblance to primitives ended.
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