by Andy McNab
I immediately put on another brew of hot chocolate.
"Look at all that bloody steam," said Dinger. "I might as well have a smoke."
It was pathetic to watch him trying to light the cigarette. His hands were shaking so badly that he couldn't get it in his mouth, and when he did it was soggy because his hands had been wet. He persisted, and five minutes later was inhaling contentedly, blowing the smoke into his smock to hide it.
By the time the hot chocolate came around everybody was shaking and gibbering again. The hot drink didn't move us too many notches up the temperature chart, but it was better than a kick in the tits. Without a doubt, it had made the difference between life and death.
Come midday, vehicles were still passing. We couldn't always see them but that didn't matter. We'd hear them if they stopped. We tried to change around so that people on the outside who were exposed to the wind and snow had the chance to be surrounded by the others and get some body warmth. As our body core temperatures continued to drop, I realized that my speech was slurring and I was feeling very lightheaded. I was suffering from the first stages of hypothermia.
At about 1400 Mark realized that he was in deep trouble. "We'll have to get going in a minute," he blurted. "I'm starting to go down here."
He was wearing less than the rest of us. All he had on his chest was his smock, shirt, and jumper, and those were soaking wet. We got around him and tried to give him our body heat. A decision had to be made, and we all had to be in on it because it affected us all: did we move in daylight to help Mark survive but risk a compromise? There were hours of daylight and we didn't know what was out there. Or did we wait until the very last moment, when he thought he simply couldn't take any more?
I tried to encourage him to hold on. "If we've got to move in half an hour, fine, but let's try and stay here as long as we can."
If he had shaken his head and said he needed to move, I would have got up without a murmur, but he nodded his assent.
By the time another two hours had elapsed it wasn't just Mark who needed help. All of us were in a desperate state. If we stayed static, we'd be dead by the evening.
I peered over the wall. There was only about an hour and a half of daylight left; the cloud cover and snow would make it dark earlier. It was still snowing hard. I couldn't see or hear anything, apart from the sight of a typically arid desert scene, covered in a blanket of thick snow.
"Let's go," I said.
We put in a deception plan because we would be leaving a lot of sign in the snow, though hopefully it would snow or rain during the night and destroy our trail. We headed east, then did a loop to end up going towards the northwest. The deception plan proved to be a good move because we were no more than a half mile off the position when we heard hooting and hollering behind us. We turned and saw lights. Vehicles were in and around our position.
"Shit!" Legs said. "All they've got to do now is follow the sign."
But it was starting to get dark, and the tracks and footprints of the Iraqis must have got mixed up with ours and confused them.
The plan had been to head northwest after crossing the meta led road, then take the shortest route to the Syrian border. If we'd started to head northwest this side of the road, the chances were that we'd be compromised because of the movement we had seen during the day. But now the plan had to change. Water was going to be a problem soon. We'd filled up our bottles with snow, but even in the best of circumstances it takes a long time to melt and produces little water anyway. In our case, the weather was so cold that it stayed as snow and ice. You can't eat snow. Not only does it waste crucial body heat melting in your mouth, but it cools the body from the inside, chilling the vital organs in the body core. We didn't know where and when we'd be able to get water again. We had to get to the border as soon as possible.
The second, and more important, consideration behind our change of plan was the weather. We were on high ground, about 900 feet above sea level, and to the northwest it got higher still. The wind chill factor in these conditions was horrendous. The temperature was low anyway, but the wind took it bitterly, freezingly lower. We needed to get out of the wind, and we needed to get off the snowline. However, the chances of getting out of the wind were slim because the ground afforded no cover.
Like all water systems the Euphrates follows the low ground. The river was 400 or 500 feet lower than we were, so if we headed north towards it we would not only come off the snowline but hopefully also find protection from the wind.
We headed north. We could worry about the west a bit later; it was just imperative that we got off this high ground or we'd die.
A mile and a half from our stone-wall LUP we came off the snowline. I was horrendously pissed off. If only we could have made the extra bit of distance that morning, we wouldn't have spent the entire day lying in snow. We still had a desperate problem with wind chill I had my shamag wrapped around my head and the compass in front of me as we marched on a bearing. My left hand was crooked with my thumb over the luminous part of the compass and my smock pulled over my hand as much as I could to keep out the cold. I cradled my weapon in my right arm. I looked down and saw that my smock had frozen solid. It was iced over like a pond.
The shamag, too, was solid around my face. I wanted to adjust it, but it was as stiff as a board.
I daren't move my hands because that let the cold in. We had to move as fast as we could to generate body warmth. It was desolate, no ambient light, just the sound of the wind. It was as if we were on a different planet, and the only people on it.
We pressed northwards, heads down and faces blue with cold. Vehicle lights moved now and again in the distance, indicating the meta led road. The ground started to change again, from hard sand to bedrock with shale. All round the area there were tank berms where bulldozers had made trenches for tanks to get into the "hull down" position. They were filled with water and ice; they weren't new.
We'd dropped about 200 feet in elevation. All of us were suffering badly. I looked out from behind my shamag and thought: If the weather doesn't improve soon, we're going to die.
We had marched about a mile and a half over the road when I decided we should turn back. Windchill was going to kill us. We were stumbling, shivering violently, starting to switch off, our minds wandering. If we didn't act now, they were the last symptoms that we would recognize. The next stage was coma. We'd get back across the meta led road and retreat for another mile to a dried-up riverbed I remembered which ran more or less parallel with the road. It was the only place we had found that night that was out of the wind. If we didn't get back there and sort ourselves out, there'd be no selves to sort out.
We turned back, tactics thrown literally to the wind. Stealth was irrelevant now. All we wanted to do now was save our lives. We stumbled into the ditch and huddled together. Mark was the worst affected, but we all needed help. Bob and I jumped on top of him and gave him body heat. Dinger and Legs did the same together and got a brew on. It's an outrageous big no-no, making brews at night, but so what? If you're dead, that's it. Better to take the chance and live to fight another day. If we didn't get compromised, we would hopefully start to recover. If we did, we would either get away with it or die.
If we didn't do it, we could die anyway.
They got two brews on, one after the other, and passed them around. We got some hot food down Mark. He was slurring his words good style, definitely on his way out. I seriously thought we were all going to die.
We were there a couple of hours, just trying to get warm in a big huddle. We got a slight improvement. I didn't really want to make a move because we were still freezing and soaking. But we all knew we had to get going or we were never going to make any headway. After all, the aim was to evade capture.
We had three factors to worry about: the weather, our physical condition, and the enemy. Because of the terrain it was very unlikely that we would avoid the wind that was giving us so much trouble. No matter where we went or what we did
it would be there. Our physical condition could have been worse, but not much. The ideal would have been to stay there out of the wind until it stopped or the weather improved. But how long would that be? Water would be of concern sooner or later as well. The longer we went without it, the greater the problem would become.
There were far more enemy in the area than we had been told. Something was wrong somewhere. If we were compromised, action could be taken quicker because the troops were there on the ground. Would they now know that we were in the area after moving onto our LUP?
We had to move, but in which direction? In favor of going north then west was the fact that we would keep off the snowline. Against, that we would be exposed to the wind for longer and closer to the river, closer to habitation, and concealment would be difficult. Heading northwest would take us back on to the snowline, but it would be quicker, and the chances of concealment would be better. The height was approximately 1,100-1,200 feet, but once we were over that we would be down to around 600 feet all the way to the border. We could also do it in one night as long as our physical condition didn't get any worse.
Whatever direction we went, the wind was going to get us. So it was best not to waste time. If we couldn't make it, we would just have to come down again and rethink. It got to the stage where, if we didn't move now, there wouldn't be enough time. The longer we left it, the less darkness we had to get over this high ground. We would have to cover a good 12-15 miles, so we needed to get our arses into gear and get away.
The riverbed ran northwest, and we decided to make use of it for two reasons. One, it gave us tactical cover; two, it gave us a certain amount of protection from the wind. The only disadvantage was if we were approaching any military installations. The ditch was a good approach route if anybody was going to attack, so the chances were that it would be covered by fire and observation. However, we would take the chance.
It was about midnight, and we'd been moving for about two hours, patrolling tactically because of the amount of vehicles we'd seen coming from this direction. Moving so slowly is bad because you can't keep as warm as you'd like to; however, it prevents you stumbling into something you may not be able to get out of.
Legs was in front as scout. I was behind him, then Bob, Mark, and Dinger. As we moved along the riverbed, I checked our navigation with the compass to make sure the ditch was leading us in more or less the right direction. The rest of the lads were covering the arcs. It was still freezing, but because we were moving tactically, we had something else to think about.
The ground started to change back to bedrock with shale. That was an added pain in the arse because of the noise, but for once the howling wind worked in our favor. It was a clear sky, with a three-quarter moon set in the west, a plus for navigation but not for concealment. The clouds were now gone, but this only made it colder.
The landscape was starting to change. The area had been generally flat, but from time to time now the ground gently rolled up into a mound which lasted for 1,000-1,250 feet. Undulating ground is good for concealment, and we started to feel better about our predicament. At last this desolate flatness was changing in our favor as the high ground started.
The distance between patrol members was dictated by the light. Ideally you want as much distance as possible so that if you come under fire, not everybody is caught in the same area and hosed down all at once. But it's a compromise between that and actually seeing what's going on with the bloke in front. We were patrolling with about four meters between each man.
There was no talking. You communicate by hand signal or by duplicating the scout's movements. If the scout stops, the bloke behind him does the same, and it reverberates all the way down. If the scout kneels down, you all kneel down. Everything's done very slowly and very deliberately, or you create movement, you create noise.
Legs suddenly froze.
Everybody behind him froze too. We all covered our arcs, looked around, waiting to see what he had seen. There was a plantation to our right-we could just see the tips of the trees. There were no lights or movement. There was high ground forward to the left, less than 350 feet away. Slowly coming into view as they got to the top of the hill were the silhouettes of two men. Both had "longs"-long weapons.
Legs started to kneel down very slowly, to get into the lip of the riverbed itself. We had the cover of the wind and the cover of them making noise. But spotting two men didn't mean there weren't two hundred about. We just didn't know. Slowly and deliberately we started to get into cover.
Could it be two of our missing patrol members? The wind carried brief bits of chat in our direction, and I tried hard to hear a voice or word I recognized. But surely Vince, Stan, or Chris would never let themselves be sky lined like that, let alone walk around chatting? It was very frustrating. I was hoping so much that it was them and we'd be able to grab hold of them in some way.
They stopped and looked all around. I hoped they didn't have night-viewing aids. If they did, we'd have to go for it good style if they saw us from such a distance. Then I had the mad thought: Chris has got our set of NVG; if we show ourselves, he'll be able to see us. No, I really wasn't going to do that. He'd look and just see bodies: he wouldn't be able to identify us. In reality, the chances of us making a union were going to be quite slim.
They were still too far away for us to ID them. They started moving again, and I watched as they came down from the high ground and walked across in front of us. We got right down, moving very slowly, very deliberately. Even if one of the blokes at the back of the patrol hadn't seen the two figures on the skyline, he'd have known there was a drama. It would be tactically imprudent to tell him what was happening because that would involve movement and speech.
We were there for what seemed an eternity, just staring at these characters and looking around to see if there was anybody else. They got to our riverbed and started walking along the edge towards us. This was a severe drama. We were going to get compromised by these dickheads. We would have to keep covert as long as possible, but then go overt the moment they saw us. Everybody had made the same appreciation.
I saw Legs rest his 203 very gently on the ground and slowly, slowly reach for the fighting knife in its leather sheath. The weapon is housed this way precisely so that it makes no noise when extracted. They were very slow, very deliberate movements. Bob was right up on my shoulder by this stage, and he was very slowly taking the sling of the Minimi off his shoulder. He didn't have a fighting knife. He had an Ml 6 bayonet, which is stored in a plastic and metal sheath. The bayonet makes a scraping sound as it is pulled out, so Bob just put his hand on the handle and pulled it out a little way. He'd fully extract it at the last minute.
We couldn't take the risk of them shouting a warning. We'd have to kill them as soon as they came within range. In films, the attacker puts his hand over his target's mouth and with one smooth motion runs a knife into his heart or along his neck and the boy just drops. Unfortunately it doesn't work quite like that. The chances of getting one smooth stab into the heart are very remote and not even worth the effort. He might have a greatcoat on, and there could be webbing underneath. You'd do your neat stab, and he'd just turn around and ask you not to. If you're 5 feet 10" and he's 6'5" and weighs seventeen stone, you're going to be in the shit. Even if you cut the boy's jugular, you're going to get a minute or so of screaming and shouting out of him. In reality, you have to get hold of his head, hoik it back as you would with a sheep, and just keep on cutting until you've gone right through the windpipe and the head has just about come away in your hands. That way he's not going to breathe any more or have any means of shouting out.
Legs and Bob were ready. The rest of us would be up also to help with the killing by covering their mouths to stop the screaming. They'd have to get out of the riverbed very swiftly and up and on top of them, check they weren't two of ours, and do the business. The ideal would have been to ID them before they could see us, but it was all going to happen together. If the two ch
aracters were ours, there was a chance of them taking us for Iraqis in the sudden attack, and we'd have a nasty "blue on blue." It happened in the Falklands, when a Regiment patrol got into a contact with a Special Boat Squadron patrol.
They were within 60 feet of us. I crouched against the bank of the riverbed and looked up. Ten or fifteen more paces, I reckoned, and there would be an explosion of movement from in front of and behind me-and then, either a reunion with our lost blokes or two more statistics.
I held my breath. All thoughts of wind chill and exposure were banished now. My mind was concentrated 100 percent on every single little movement that was going on. And these blokes didn't have a clue they were about to get their throats done.
They stopped.
Had they seen something? They were close enough for me to see that the longs were AKs. They jumped down into the riverbed no more than 20-25 feet in front of us and ambled across to the other side. They scrambled up the other side and walked off towards the plantation, the two luckiest men in Iraq. I almost laughed. I would have enjoyed seeing Bob leap up and do the business, little midget that he was.
We stayed where we were for about a quarter of an hour, tuning in all over again. We were all right, we were in cover, we weren't making any noise. All we had to do was take our time and make sure we weren't going to blunder into anything.
We "closed in." We didn't know what was on the other side of the high ground that the two Iraqis had come from. They might just have been two blokes who lived at the plantation, or we might be walking into a major drama. Better to stop, take our time, use concealment.
