It all made sense to Gershon. It would be low cost, low development risk, low operational risk. It’s all I need, to land on Mars. And you could have the thing flying in a few years.
“JK, you ought to put in a bid. I’m serious.”
Lee just laughed.
He waved ahead, gesturing with his can. “Look out there.”
Gershon saw that the desert there was a flat, pale white crust in the starlight. Salt flats. And, on the horizon, a row of lights appeared out of nowhere, like a city in the desert.
“Edwards,” Lee said. “Where I came with Stormy Storms to watch the X-15 fly. Christ, they were the good days.” He took another pull of his beer, then threw the can out of the car.
Gershon handed him another can, and the T-bird sped on, as the giant hangars of the Air Force base loomed out of the darkness around them.
Monday, August 7, 1978
LYNDON B. JOHNSON SPACE CENTER, HOUSTON
She was held up for an hour at Building 110, the security office of the JSC campus.
How are you supposed to present yourself, if you’re a rookie astronaut reporting for your first morning’s work? You have no identification badge on your shirt pocket, because on that first day, you have to enter the space center grounds to have the badge issued…
Strictly speaking, of course, York thought, it was an infinite regress, a paradox. It was logically impossible ever to enter JSC. She tried to explain it to the receptionist.
The receptionist, her broad, fleshy face a puddle of sweat, just looked at her and turned to deal with the press people queuing behind her. After a while York shut up and sat in the poky little building, trying to stop her hands folding over themselves.
Finally a secretary, tottering on heels, came out to collect her.
The secretary led her across the spiky grass of the campus. The woman was around thirty. She trailed a cloud of cosmetic fumes — perfumes and face powder and hair spray — that made York’s eyes sting. She looked oddly at York, and York could see the woman considering giving her girl-to-girl tips about where to get something done about that hair.
York clutched her empty briefcase and wondered what the hell she was doing there.
The secretary took her to Building 4, and told her she was expected to attend the regular pilots’ meeting straightaway. Every second Monday morning, at eight: she was already late.
She slipped into the meeting room, at the back.
There were maybe fifty people sitting around in the room: all men, clean-cut, close-shaven, crew-cut, wearing sport shirts and slacks. There was a lot of wisecracking, and deep, throaty laughter that rumbled around the room.
Chuck Jones, chief astronaut, stood at the front of the room, hands on hips. Jones was talking about some technical detail of the T-38 training aircraft.
York spotted an empty seat, not far from the door, and with muttered apologies she squeezed past a few sets of knees toward it. The astronauts made way for her politely enough, but she was aware of their gaze on her, curious, speculative, checking out her figure, studying her un-made-up face. What the hell’s this? Is it female? Are you here to take notes, baby? Make mine decaffeinated…
She spotted Ben Priest, sitting up front with his arms folded, looking the part.
“Now,” Jones said from the front of the room, “I’ve had reports from Ellington that some of you guys aren’t checking out your equipment before flying the T-38.”
There were groans. “Christ, Chuck, do we have to go through all this again?”
“We want to keep the privilege of flying the T-38s. But it’s a privilege that can be rescinded any time. You may be astronauts, but you aren’t free from the routine responsibilities of checking out what you fly. All I’m asking for is a little more effort, to keep those guys at Ellington sweet…”
Jones started going through assignments for the next two weeks. “Okay, we have Bleeker, Dana, and Stone to the Cape Tuesday to Friday. Gershon to Downey, all week. Curval and Priest to Los Angeles.”
Someone spoke up from the floor. “Hey, Chuck. I thought you were coming with us to L.A.”
“No, I changed my mind. I’m going to the Cape. I want to go through the new CM sim they’re building out there.”
“Don’t you like us anymore, Chuck?”
“You guys go west and I’ll go east anytime…”
That kind of bullshit went on for half an hour. By the end of it, York was feeling restless, baffled by the barrage of jargon, bemused by the slowness and apparent waste of time. It was like, she imagined, being inside an unusually clean men’s locker room.
She felt intimidated and out of place. How can I make a mark in an environment like this?
She met the rest of the cadre she’d been recruited into: eight others, all men, mostly with flying experience. They looked bright, eager, young, alert. Christ, three of them are already wearing astronaut-issue sport shirts! How had they known?
Chuck Jones took the new rookies on a tour of the Center.
She peered through doorways into the empty offices of senior astronauts. All the rooms looked the same, neat and spruce and barely lived-in, with pictures of spacecraft and airplanes on the walls. On the desks were boys’ toys: aircraft and lunar modules, and models of the new Saturn VB, with solid rocket boosters you could snap on and off.
She half expected to see spare sport shirts hanging behind the veneered doors.
Everywhere they walked, people deferred to Jones, as if he was some kind of king. He didn’t seem to notice. My God, York thought. There are going to be some monumental egos around here.
Jones led the nine of them into his big office in Building 30 and gave them coffee. He walked them through their induction program. For her first year York would be an “ascan” — an astronaut candidate. She’d go through six months of classroom lectures on astronomy, aerodynamics, physiology, spacecraft systems, interplanetary navigation, upper atmosphere physics… Back to school. There would be visits to Kennedy, Marshall, Langley, and other NASA centers.
They’d be “smoothed,” as Jones put it; the instructors would try to ensure that they all emerged with a certain base level of skills in every discipline, regardless of their background. That was partly for PR purposes, York gathered, so they could talk intelligently on every aspect of their future missions.
There would be some physical training, in simulators and centrifuges and the like. There would be some compulsory flight experience, in the back of a T-38, but, unlike previous cadres of scientist-astronauts, this group would not have to attend flight school.
It was a break from tradition. They’re letting in astronauts who aren’t pilots! Chuck Jones looked as if he were chewing nails as he forced the news out, and some of the more bushy-tailed guys looked disappointed; one even asked if he could volunteer for flight school.
After their ascan year, the candidates would be put on the active roster and would be considered for assignment to flights. Then, maybe two years before a flight, mission-specific training would begin…
“In theory,” Jones said.
Someone spoke up. “In theory, sir?”
Jones said bluntly, “I might as well just tell you guys straight out. You’re not going to be seeing any action for a while. None of you is dumb, so you know what the funding situation is like up on the Hill.
“Even if we get to Mars, and even if — if — a scientist is selected,” and Jones’s tone of voice made his feelings about that clear enough, “there are too many people in line ahead of you new guys. Including previous batches of scientists, some of whom have been here for years and haven’t gotten to fly yet. It’s even worse than with Apollo. At least with Apollo several Moon flights were planned. For Mars only a single flight has been inked in, and competition for places on that flight is going to be ferocious.”
Jones swiveled his cold black eyes, and York found it difficult to withstand the pressure of that gaze, as if his vision had contained some sizzling, hostile radar energy. “You
’re looking at long delays, and maybe no flights, ever. We don’t need you around here. I’m saying this just so you’ll understand.”
Ben Priest took her out to lunch at the Nassau Bay Hilton.
She surveyed the menu. “Steak. Seafood. Salad. Potato. More steak. Jesus, Ben.”
He grinned as he sipped at a Coke. “Welcome to Houston.”
“How does a civilized man like you stand it here, Ben?”
“Now, don’t be a snob, Natalie.”
York ordered chicken-fried steak. When it arrived, it was a great plate-sized slab of meat, heavily fried and coated in batter. The first few mouthfuls tasted good, but the meat was tough, and her jaws soon started to ache.
Oh, how I am going to love Houston. A home away from home.
“So tell me,” Priest said. “What do you think of the astronauts, now that you’ve seen them en masse?”
“Oh, God. Football captains and class presidents. Straight out of Smallville.”
He laughed. “Maybe. Well, that describes me, too. Round here I’m just a ‘bug-eye’ from Ohio.”
“Look, I’m serious, Ben. Maybe this is what’s wrong with NASA. These guys have had it easy.”
“Easy?”
“Sure. For all their great achievements. Every day of their lives the astronauts are handed single, easily visualized objectives; all they have to do is go ahead and achieve. Unlike the rest of mankind.”
He grunted and cut into his steak, a big T-bone. “Well, one thing’s for sure,” he said.
“What?”
“Whether you’re right about this colony of Eagle Scouts, or whether it’s just your perception we’re talking about here, you’re going to have one hell of a job trying to find a niche.”
He was right, she felt. Flying to Mars could turn out to be the easy part.
After lunch, Priest took her sight-seeing and apartment hunting.
Sitting in the familiar comfort of Ben’s Corvette, she felt a great relief when they got away from the JSC area. And it was a relief to be with Ben.
She turned to him. He drove steadily, not speaking. If he reached out to her -
But he didn’t. He sat stiffly, as if unaware of her. Hell, he probably doesn’t know how to handle this any better than I do.
Her relationship with Ben was an odd thing, she thought. Almost as odd as her long-running relationship with Mike Conlig. Sure. So what’s the common factor, York?
When she and Ben came closer, physically, they talked a lot less. And when they did it was about superficials. Ben didn’t seem able even to contemplate leaving Karen, and as for York, her on-off relationship with Mike Conlig continued its stuttering course, accreting a kind of emotional mass the longer it lasted. Are Ben and I having an affair, then? Just the occasional jump in the sack?
It was as if their two bipolar relationships drew the two of them, Ben and York, apart every time they got close.
She was sure of one thing, though. If her first morning at JSC was anything to go by, she was going to need Ben’s patient company just to keep her sane.
Houston dismayed her. The place sweltered under a layer of air that was hot, laden with humidity, and thick with smog. The land was flat and at sea level, without a hill for a hundred miles, and crisscrossed by muddy rivers and swamps. Out of town, the soil was a gluey mixture the locals called “gumbo,” a mess of mud, clay, and oyster shells; pines and snarled oaks thrust reluctantly out of fields of stiff, bristly grass.
Ben drove her out to the San Jacinto monument, a grandiose 1930s obelisk topped by a Texas star, celebrating the victory of General Sam Houston over the Mexicans. They rode to the observation deck at the top. Around the monument’s landscaped park, square miles of oil refineries stretched away. From here, JSC might not have existed; the oil-price fluctuations of the 1970s had been good to Houston, and to York, looking down at the great spaghetti bowl of pipelines below, it was obvious that Houston was built on oil money, and the space program was no more than just another local employer.
Around the base of the monument, there was a faint reek of petrochemicals.
To find an apartment, Ben drove her back to the NASA-Clear Lake area, southeast of downtown. Clear Lake, as Ben pointed out in what was evidently a standard JSC joke, was neither clear nor a lake, but actually a sluggish inlet of Galveston Bay. NASA Road One, the road from JSC, ran parallel to the coast of the lake, and there were big communities of modern housing developments — Nassau Bay, El Lago — set between aging coastal resorts. The resort areas were old-fashioned, strange to find so close to the space center: faded, shabby, a little sinister, eroded by the sea and sun. York thought it must have been a hell of a shock to the locals when NASA had landed here, by Presidential decree, twenty years earlier.
The developments were all ranch houses, cute little bungalows with tiny private docks. Everything was green, prosperous, well maintained.
York grunted. “My God. The American dream, vintage 1962. The little home, the mom and two kids, the barbecues and the sailing. We’re in The Dick Van Dyke Show.”
“No.” Priest smiled behind his sunglasses. “This is astronaut country, remember. You’re thinking of I Dream of Jeannie. Anyhow, you’re not giving the place much of a chance, Natalie.”
“No?”
“No. Clear Lake is a kind of academic community. That’s because of JSC, and also the chemical industry in the area. It’s got more Ph.D.s per square yard than most places outside of the university towns. I figure you might feel at home here.”
“Stop trying to cheer me up, damn it, Ben.”
“I’m not! Believe me. Anyhow things could be a hell of a lot worse. Starry Town in Moscow, where the cosmonauts have to live, is more like a military barracks…”
The apartment complexes Ben showed her were called The Cove and El Dorado and Lakeshire Place and The Leeward. A lot of them looked good, and the more expensive had access to the water. But they were all depressingly similar within: boxy, with inefficient air-conditioning, plainly furnished, and with unimaginative prints hanging on the walls.
She settled on a place called The Portofпno. The architecture was as dull as everywhere else, but it did have a large, clean-looking swimming pool which she was anxious to try out.
When she’d settled terms, the landlady — a compact, knowing woman with an incomprehensibly thick Texas accent, and wearing a T-shirt saying “Kiss Me, I Don’t Smoke” — left the two of them alone in the apartment.
York sensed Ben move away from her, subtly.
She went to the window. The air was so thick it was hard to breathe. There were thick gray clouds overhead, threatening rain and trapping even more of the heat.
She felt a dumb misery envelop her, as dense as the air. What am I doing here, in this lousy apartment, working in this goddamn Boys’ Town?
Out back of the apartment building, she spotted a car that had gotten mildewed from the moisture in the air.
Friday, December 8, 1978
WASATCH, UTAH
As he flew into Salt Lake City Gregory Dana got a spectacular view of the lake. Feeder streams glistened like snail tracks, and human settlements were misty gray patches spread along ribbons of road. The morning was bright and clear, the sky huge and transparent and appearing to reach all the way down to the desert surface far below the plane.
Dana allowed himself briefly to imagine that he was landing on some foreign planet, a world of parched desert and high, isolated inland seas.
To most people, he reflected, the complex world of human society was the entire universe, somehow disengaged from the physical underpinning of things. Most people never formed any sense of perspective: the understanding that the whole of their lives was contained in a thin slice of air coating a small, spinning ball of rock, that their awareness was confined to a thin flashbulb slice of geological time, that they inhabited a universe which had emerged from, and was inexorably descending into, conditions unimaginably different from those with which they were familiar.
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Even the view of the air traveler gave a perspective that hadn’t been available to any of the generations who went before. If spaceflight gives us nothing else than an awareness of our true nature, he thought, then that alone will justify its cost.
He glanced back into the cabin. Most of his fellow passengers — even those attached to NASA and the space program, as he was — had their faces buried in documents, or books, or newspapers.
Morton Thiokol sent a car to meet him at the airport. The driver — young, breezy, anonymous behind mirrored sunglasses — introduced himself as Jack, and loaded Dana’s bags into the trunk, although Dana kept his briefcase with him.
Jack drove onto the freeway heading north, toward Brigham City. The driver told him that he was to be taken straight to the first test firing of the SRB, the new Saturn VB-class Solid Rocket Booster.
Dana grumbled, but saw no option but to submit.
Dana had been asked by Bert Seger to participate in the Critical Design Review of the new SRB, the formal checkpoint that marked the end of that phase of the rocket’s development. The use of solid rockets in a man-rated booster stack was one of the most controversial elements of the whole Saturn upgrade program, and it was one on which NASA was determined to be seen to be absolutely clean.
But Dana had been uncertain about working with Udet, about his own ability to get the Marshall people to listen to him. And anyway, such an assignment was well outside his own area of competence.
Seger had insisted: “You can inspect what you like, and recommend what you like, and I’ll make sure you get a hearing. We have to get this right, Dr. Dana…”
But what was he to learn from viewing a test firing? It was a stunt, obviously, designed to impress and overwhelm him. It was typical of Hans Udet; Dana felt immediately irritated at the waste of time.
He opened up his briefcase with a snap; as if in revenge he turned away from the landscape unrolling beyond the car windows and buried his attention in technical documentation.
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