by Lucy Worsley
Part One: At Stoneton Castle
Chapter 1
Today You Must Become a Woman
Chapter 2
Dignified, Elizabeth!
Chapter 3
The Westmorland Blackbird
Chapter 4
You’ll Meet Your Husband!
Chapter 5
Westmorland House
Chapter 6
Disgrace
Chapter 7
Headstrong Ways
Part Two: At Trumpton Hall
Chapter 8
Welcome to Trumpton Hall!
Chapter 9
Cousins
Chapter 10
In the Maidens’ Chamber
Chapter 11
The Music Lesson
Chapter 12
The Closet, Midnight
Chapter 13
Would You Not Like to Be a Maid of Honour?
Part Three: At Court
Chapter 14
A Cold Welcome
Chapter 15
Trickery and Flirtation
Chapter 16
A Bold Ginger Kitten
Chapter 17
You Can Never Escape
Chapter 18
A Monkey and a Masque
Chapter 19
The New Queen
Chapter 20
No Blood
Chapter 21
Caught
Chapter 22
It’s a Secret We Have to Keep
Chapter 23
The King’s Mistress
Chapter 24
I Cannot Tell You What to Do
Chapter 25
Choice
Chapter 26
Queen No More
Chapter 27
How to Have Fun
Chapter 28
To Marry Again
Chapter 29
Made to Look a Fool
Part Four: To the Tower
Chapter 30
Jaded
Chapter 31
An Enemy in Real Life
Chapter 32
A Baby in Her Belly
Chapter 33
The Good Life I Lead with My Wife
Chapter 34
Just the Queen’s Cousin
Chapter 35
Of Course There’ll Be a Trial
Chapter 36
I Will Do My Duty
Chapter 37
At the Abbey
Chapter 38
Don’t Worry, All Will Be Well!
Chapter 39
Why Would You Run the Risk?
Chapter 40
Courage!
Chapter 41
The Block
Chapter 42
He Needs You
Chapter 43
The New Mistress
Chapter 44
Why Does Everyone Think That I Am in Love?
Epilogue: Why I Wrote This Book
Acknowledgements
I’d always known that my adult life would begin once I was twelve. And that this would mean marriage.
Aunt Margaret had been working hard to prepare me.
“Duty, Elizabeth,” she used to say, thumping her walking cane down with every word, with every step. “It is your duty to be a good daughter and, when your father has arranged a suitable alliance, it is your duty to be an obliging wife. You must be ready.”
Duty. A word as heavy as the thickest featherbed.
I would often lie in bed, wondering about my future husband. A prince? A knight? A duke? A stable boy? Of course, the last was a wicked fancy. Aunt Margaret often said I had the devil in me on account of my wild nature and red hair. I was inordinately proud of my long, red hair. I’d heard it was the same colour as the king’s own and that of his daughter, the Princess Elizabeth. I wondered if they were plagued like me with blotchy freckles across my rather beaky nose.
“Of course you’re not a beauty,” Aunt Margaret used to say, “but it’s the bloodline that counts. Our family is one of the oldest in Derbyshire.” So naturally I couldn’t marry anyone I wanted. My father would make me a match into a family at least equal to ours in dignity and antiquity.
It was all very well to mull over whether I would rather be a princess or a duchess while safely tucked up in bed. But when Henny, my nurse, shook me awake on the November morning of my twelfth birthday, goose pimples spread all over my skin even before she had pulled back the slightly mangy fur coverlet.
“Hurry up, child,” Henny said. “Your father wishes to speak to you.”
I began to yawn and stretch myself, but suddenly the thought of the cold was banished from my mind. “Henny!” I said urgently. “Have you forgotten what day it is?”
“It’s Tuesday, my love,” she said, now with her back to me, pulling down the blanket we pegged over the window to keep out the worst of the draught at night.
“Henny!”
Her shoulders twitched. An instant too late I realised that of course she knew perfectly well that today was my birthday. She turned round with a broad smile.
“Gah!” I said, making a fist and tugging at my long braid. She had caught me out. But I could not help grinning back. A new thought struck me as I tossed my messy plait back over my shoulder. “Henny, does my father want to give me a present?”
“I don’t think so, not at this hour.” My father wasn’t very good at remembering things like presents anyway. But Henny could be relied upon to have got me a sugar mouse or a new pair of velvet slippers.
“Well, what then?”
“What a question! As if his lordship would discuss such a thing with me.”
I laughed. “Oh, Henny, he knows you’re one of our family!”
“Nonsense, child. Now hurry.” She turned away quickly as if to stir up the miserable little fire in our great, gaping stone hearth. But she was too late and I’d detected that she was beaming.
Henny was my nurse, but really I was far too grown-up to need one. I called her instead my “tiring woman,” who helped me to get dressed or attired. Unfortunately, Henny herself kept forgetting about her new status, and when I reminded her, she would usually say that I was the tiring one, and that I quite wore her out with my questions, my constant demands for new stories (“not that one, we had it last week”), and the mess that I made of my clothes.
Despite Henny’s efforts with the fire, it was so cold that the tiny glass panes of my window were beaded with moisture. I snatched my toes back from the freezing floor and burrowed round in my bed for a pair of woollen stockings I had taken off last night. It had been too chilly to get out of my bed to return them to their proper place in the chest. As I threw off the coverlet and the rather threadbare linen sheets, Henny handed me my heavy velvet robe with the fur trim. It was a sumptuous garment that was sadly disfigured by a great stain down the front. Nothing in our house, Stoneton — a snake of ancient grey towers running along the top of a hill — was quite as grand as it seemed at first.
I did up my robe as quickly as I could. Catching a glimpse of freezing fog outside the window, I grabbed a shawl to go on top. I had hardly finished swathing myself in fabric when Henny prodded me towards the door. “All right, all right!” I grumbled. There was never usually this level of urgency in our early morning routine, even on a birthday.
Henny shooed me down the uneven floor of the long gallery, and we passed by the door to the best bedchamber. It always stood empty, being saved for important guests who never came. Next to it hung a tapestry showing a forest in full leaf, which actually concealed a tiny little hidden door. This led to the sally port, the secret staircase, and my favourite part of our house. The winding steps led upwards to the walkway that led around the high defensive walls, and downwards they took y
ou to the hidden entrance from the garden. I would often steal away to the secret stairs myself, looking for a place to hide when my father was in a bad temper. Henny spotted my hesitation by the secret door.
“You’re not in trouble this morning, you know,” she said, giving my shoulder a little squeeze.
I shook her off impatiently. I quite often was in trouble, for making a smart answer or failing to keep my things tidy, and then the sally port became my refuge. Running down those stairs, I would pretend I was a knight like Prince Arthur of old, clanking in my spurs, ready to repel invaders. Running up them, I liked to reach the wall walk, and then climb to the top of our highest tower, imagining that all the land in every direction was my own.
It would have been, once upon a time, but the farms had been sold and forests felled. Indeed, in the middle of what should have been our finest hunting park, a trembling column of grey smoke arose from the lead smelting concern that my father had set up with capital he could ill afford, and which had yet to produce any of the money we desperately needed.
Aunt Margaret constantly complained that we never had the kind of feasts and balls that she and my father had enjoyed in their youth. This was because of the Great Forfeit, which had been paid by my father’s long-dead elder brother, the traitor Baron Camperdowne. But if I ever asked about him, she told me for the hundredth time that a maid should be seen and not heard.
The early hour, the unexpected summons, and Henny’s brusque kindness gave me a disturbing sense that something important was about to happen. I felt a little hollow inside. It had been a long time since last night’s pottage and bread, and that had hardly been a feast. I dug my fingers into my palms to keep my hands from twitching with nerves. At Henny’s nod, I knocked on the door to the Great Chamber.
Inside were huge windows cut into walls hung with faded tapestries. Along one side of the room ran black-stained wooden panelling, from which the white painted faces of our ancestors peered down. I knew that they were watching and judging me. My grandfather was there in the line-up, and my mother, but one portrait was missing. There was a blank patch in the corner where Aunt Margaret had had a picture removed. My traitor uncle.
My father was standing at the window when I entered, his warm breath misting the glass.
His name was Lord Anthony Camperdowne, and he was the Baron of Stone. It was because he had no sons that Aunt Margaret was constantly drumming it into me that one day I would have to take on the responsibility for our great grey house of Stoneton. I knew that it was a very old and very important house, and that our family was very old and important too. But my father did not look important. He was a thin, wiry, short man, with a pointed little ginger beard and baggy breeches. He sometimes reminded me of a fox, his head constantly swivelling round in search of danger or opportunity. Now he swivelled it towards me and smiled.
“Elizabeth,” he said, gesturing to me to join him near the window.
As I crossed the rush matting, I looked at him carefully. His face was creased and worried. He often looked like that in the morning when he had played cards all night with our very rare visitors to Stoneton. It was a warning to me that he might be in the mood when even a simple question would meet a barked demand for silence.
“Father, are you well?” I asked cautiously, not daring to mention my birthday.
“Quite well, thank you. This is a great day.” Despite his cheerful words, I noticed a catch in his voice, and he turned back to look out of the window. I thought that he must be observing the broken pane in the corner, where the wind whistled in, but then I saw that his gaze had drifted out farther over to the fields in the distance. “Today you must become a woman.”
I was a woman already, I reminded myself, two years into double figures, and with a tiring woman of my own. I felt a little indignant that he had forgotten and threw back my shoulders. At the same time, though, a pinprick of anxiety and curiosity had started up in my empty stomach. My father was still staring out the window, and the silence began to drag. I opened my mouth to ask him what he meant but thought the better of it.
“This day,” he said at last, “I will accept the Earl of Westmorland’s offer. You are to be wed to his son. Does that make you happy?”
For a second or two, I could not think what I ought to say. My hands seemed to have crept of their own accord across my belly to comfort each other. Then it came to me.
“Of course, Father,” I said. I lifted the skirt of my gown, bobbing down and bowing my head submissively, just as Aunt Margaret had taught me. Inside, though, my stomach felt wobbly. I knew that I would have to marry, for the good of my family, but I hadn’t realised it would be quite so soon.
“Happy? What has happiness got to do with it?”
The voice came from the doorway. I turned and saw Aunt Margaret standing there, black as a crow against the daylight from the gallery beyond. “She understands her duty. I have made sure of that.”
“Leave us, Margaret,” my father snapped. His eyes were straying again, out the window and across the sodden meadows beneath the castle keep. My aunt gave a loud tut. She swooped out of the room in a whoosh of black skirts and tapping cane.
Once she had gone and the door was shut, my father seemed to notice the shaking of my legs. He sat me down on the window seat and took my hand.
“Rosebud,” he said quietly, using his private name for me. “Your mother would have been so proud of you.”
The lady Rose, my mother, died when I was just four, and my recollection of her was no more than the scent of the rose petals that she used to dry and bring into my nursery to make it smell sweet. I had no memory of her beyond the narrow, mournful face with dark eyes in the portrait above our heads. But I did have a great sense of loss, a loss that my quicksilver, unreliable father could hardly fill. This mention of my mother, however, of whom he almost never spoke, dented the armour of my adulthood. I felt tears cloud my vision. This time I dipped my head so my father wouldn’t see.
“You do understand, don’t you?” There was an almost pleading note in his voice.
I thought that grown-ups never cried. Aunt Margaret had certainly told me that fine ladies always controlled themselves. But now I could have sworn that my father, even though he was fully grown and a baron as well, had a tear in his eye.
“Yes, Father,” I said, tightening myself up inside just as Henny tightened the strings on my stays when she dressed me in fine clothes. “I know my duty.”
My father called for Henny, and she came in through the gallery door very quickly, just as if she’d had her ear to the door. She seemed curiously red around the eyes and was blinking hard.
“Take her and prepare her,” my father said, then turned abruptly away. Henny took my hand. Although I really was too old to need to hold hands, there was something comforting about her rough grip today.
We made our curtseys, although my father seemed barely to notice, and Henny took me back along the gallery and away to our own rooms. The floors below were full of the sound of scuffing boots and laughter. Clearly, there were visitors downstairs in the belly of the house. I could hear our own servants talking, but there were also the loud voices of strange men. I turned to Henny to ask her who they were. But even I could tell, from the sight of her set face, that this was not a good time for questions.
Back in our chamber, Henny showed me a marvel — a new dress. On a normal dull day, I would have given all the hair of my head for a dress like this. But it just seemed part of the morning’s general strangeness. Bewildered, I touched the stiff gold tissue of the overskirt and the sequins on the bodice with tentative fingers. “Yes, it is for you,” said Henny, when she saw what I was doing, “and yes, you are going to wear it today.” Henny washed my face in cold water, put me into a clean shift, shoved me forcefully into my farthingale, and popped the dress over my head. She did it up with an expression of fierce concentration.
“What are you doing?” I yelped, as she next untied my braid and began to pull a comb t
hrough the tangles of my hair.
“Today you are a bride,” said Henny hoarsely, “and brides must wear their hair long, over their shoulders. When you are married, you will be old enough to put it up.”
“Sit still and stop squirming!”
It was Aunt Margaret creeping up on us once again in her usual sinister fashion. I hardly heard her words. I was so used to her constant stream of instructions and complaints about my inability to sit still and my habit of running instead of walking that her voice washed over me like water, leaving nothing behind.
I don’t think, however, that she intended me to hear what she had said to Henny one day when I was playing behind the tapestries hung on the walls of my bedchamber. She’d said that I was as skinny as a broomstick and like a witch’s cat with my squinty green eyes. Her words got me thinking that I would quite like to own a magical cat myself, but on balance I think I would rather not have heard.
