by Zane Grey
“And are you going to write a letter on that one?” Susan asked.
“No; I do not write English good, and French very bad. But maybe some one else will use it,” and he laughed boyishly and laid the skull by the fire.
In the depth of the night Susan was wakened by a hand on her shoulder that shook her from a dreamless sleep. She started up with a cry and felt another hand, small and cold on her mouth, and heard a whispering voice at her ear,
“Hush. Don’t make a sound. It’s Lucy.”
She gripped at the figure, felt the clasp of trembling arms, and a cheek chill with the night cold, against her own.
“Lucy,” she gasped, “what’s the matter?”
“I want to speak to you. Be quiet.”
“Has anything happened? Is some one sick?”
“No. It’s not that. I’m going.”
“Going? Going where—” She was not yet fully awake, filaments of sleep clouded her clearness.
“Into the mountains with Zavier.”
The filaments were brushed away in a rough sweep. But her brain refused to accept the message. In the dark, she clutched at the body against her, felt the beat of pulses distinct through the clothing, the trembling of the hands going down through her flesh and muscle to her heart.
“What do you mean? Where?”
“I don’t know, into the mountains somewhere.”
“With Zavier? Why?”
“Because he wants me to and I must.”
“But— Oh, Lucy—” she struggled from the blanket to her knees—“Oh, Lucy!”
Her voice rose high and the hand felt for her mouth. She caught it and held it off, her head bent back straining her eyes for the face above her.
“Running away with him?”
“Yes. I couldn’t go without telling you. I had to say good-by.”
“Going with him forever, not coming back?”
“No, never!”
“But where—where to?”
“I don’t know. In the mountains somewhere. There’s a trail here he knows. It branches off to the north and goes up to the places where they get the skins.”
“I don’t believe you.”
“It’s true. The horses are waiting outside.”
“Lucy, you’ve gone crazy. Don’t—don’t”— She clung to the hand she held, grasped upward at the arm. Both were cold and resistant. Her pleading struck back from the hardness of the mind made up, the irrevocable resolution.
“But he’s not your husband.”
Even at this moment, keyed to an act of lawlessness that in the sheltered past would have been as impossible as murder, the great tradition held fast. Lucy’s answer came with a sudden flare of shocked repudiation:
“He will be. There are priests and missionaries up there among the Indians. The first one we meet will marry us. It’s all right. He loves me and he’s promised.”
Nothing of her wild courage came to the other girl, no echo of the call of life and passion. It was a dark and dreadful fate, and Susan strained her closer as if to hold her back from it.
“It’s been fixed for two days. We had to wait till we got here and crossed the trail. We’re going right into the mountains and it’s summer, and there’s plenty of game.”
“The Indians?”
“We’ll be in the Crow’s country, and Zavier’s mother was a Crow.”
The words proved the completeness of her estrangement—the acceptance of the alien race as no longer alien.
“Oh, Lucy, don’t, don’t. Wait till we get to Fort Bridger and marry him there. Make him come to California with us. Don’t do such an awful thing—run away into the mountains with a half-breed.”
“I don’t care what he is. There’s no one else for me but him. He’s my man and I’ll go with him wherever he wants to take me.”
“Wait and tell Bella.”
“She wouldn’t let me go. There’d be nothing but fighting and misery. When you’ve made up your mind to do a thing you’ve got to do it yourself, not go by what other people think.”
There was a silence and they hung upon each other. Then Lucy put her face against her friend’s and kissed her.
“Good-by,” she whispered, loosening her arms.
“I can’t let you go. I won’t. It’ll kill you.”
“I must. He’s waiting.”
She struggled from the embrace, pulling away the clasping hands noiselessly, but with purpose. There was something of coldness, of the semblance but not the soul of affection, in the determined softness with which she sought release. She stole to the tent flap and peered out. Her thoughts were already outside, flown to the shape hiding in the shadow like birds darting from a cage. She did not turn at Susan’s strangled whisper.
“We’ll never see you again, Bella, nor I, nor the children.”
“Perhaps, some day, in California. He’s there. I must go.”
“Lucy!” She leaped after her. In the tent opening they once more clasped each other.
“I can’t let you go,” Susan moaned.
But Lucy’s kiss had not the fervor of hers. The strength of her being had gone to her lover. Friendship, home, family, all other claims hung loose about her, the broken trappings of her maidenhood. The great primal tie had claimed her.
A black figure against the pallor of the night, she turned for a last word.
“If you tell them and they come after us, Zavier’ll fight them. He’ll fight if he kills them. They’ll know to-morrow. Good-by,” and she was gone, a noiseless shadow, flitting toward the denser group of shadow where her heart was.
Susan, crouched at the tent flap, saw her melt into the waiting blackness, and then heard the muffled hoof beats growing thinner and fainter as the silence absorbed them.
She sat thus till the dawn came. Once or twice she started up to give the alarm, but fell back. Under the tumult of her thoughts a conviction lay that Lucy must follow her own wild way. In the welter of confused emotion it was all that was clear. It may have come from that sense of Lucy’s detachment, that consciousness of cords and feelers stretching out to a new life which commanded and held closer than the old had ever done. All she knew was that Lucy was obeying some instinct that was law to her, that was true for her to obey. If they caught her and brought her back it would twist her life into a broken form. Was it love? Was that what had drawn her over all obstacles, away from the established joys and comforts, drawn her like a magnet to such a desperate course? With wide eyes the girl saw the whiteness of the dawn, and sat gripped in her resolution of silence, fearful at the thought of what that mighty force must be.
CHAPTER V
The cross, drowsy bustle of the camp’s uprising was suddenly broken by a piercing cry. It came from Bella, who, standing by the mess chest, was revealed to her astonished companions with a buffalo skull in her hands, uttering as dolorous sounds as ever were emitted by that animal in the agony of its death throes. Her words were unintelligible, but on taking the skull from her the cause of her disturbance was made known. Upon the frontal bone were a few words scrawled in pencil—Lucy’s farewell.
It came upon them like a thunderbolt, and they took it in different ways—amazed silence, curses, angry questionings. The skull passed from hand to hand till Courant dropped it and kicked it to one side where Leff went after it, lifted it by the horns and stood spelling out the words with a grin. The children, at first rejoicing in the new excitement, soon recognized the note of dole, lifted up their voices and filled the air with cries for Lucy upon whom, in times at tribulation, they had come to look. Glen broke into savage anger, called down curses on his sister-in-law, applying to her certain terms of a scriptural simplicity till the doctor asked him to go afield and vent his passion in the seclusion of the sage. Bella, sunk in heavy, uncor
seted despair upon the mess chest, gripped her children to her knees as though an army of ravishers menaced the house of McMurdo. Her words flowed with her tears, both together in a choked and bitter flood of wrath, sorrow, and self-pity. She bewailed Lucy, not only as a vanished relative but as a necessary member of the McMurdo escort. And doubts of Zavier’s lawful intentions shook her from the abandon of her grief, to furious invective against the red man of all places and tribes whereso’er he be.
“The dirty French-Indian,” she wailed, “to take her off where he knows fast enough there’s no way of marrying her.”
Courant tried to console her by telling her there was a good chance of the fugitives meeting a Catholic missionary, but that, instead of assuaging, intensified her woe.
“A Catholic!” she cried, raising a drenched face from her apron. “And ain’t that just as bad? My parents and hers were decent Presbyterians. Does their daughter have to stand up before a priest? Why don’t you say a Mormon elder at once?”
The McMurdos’ condition of grief and rage was so violent, that the doctor suggested following the runaways. Bella rose in glad assent to this. Catch Lucy and bring her back! She was cheered at the thought and shouted it to Glen, who had gone off in a sulky passion and stood by his oxen swearing to himself and kicking their hoofs. The men talked it over. They could lay off for a day and Courant, who knew the trails, could lead the search party. He was much against it, and Daddy John was with him. Too much time had been lost. Zavier was an experienced mountain man and his horses were good. Besides, what was the use of bringing them back? They’d chosen each other, they’d taken their own course. It wasn’t such a bad lookout for Lucy. Zavier was a first-rate fellow and he’d treat her well. What was the sense of interfering? Bella was furious, and shouted,
“The sense is to get her back here and keep her where it’s civilized, since she don’t seem to know enough to keep there herself.”
Daddy John, who had been listening, flashed out:
“It don’t seem to me so d—d civilized to half kill her with work.”
Then Bella wept and Glen swore, and the men had pulled up the picket stakes, cinched their girths tight and started off in Indian file toward the distant spurs of the hills.
Susan had said little. If it did not violate her conscience to keep silent, it did to pretend a surprise that was not hers. She sat at her tent door most of the day watching for the return of the search party. She was getting supper when she looked up and saw them, gave a low exclamation, and ran to the outskirts of the camp. Here she stood watching, heard Daddy John lounge up behind her and, turning, caught his hand.
“Is she there?” she said in an eager whisper.
“I can’t see her.”
They both scrutinized the figures, small as toy horsemen, loping over the leathern distance.
“Ain’t there only four?” he said. “You can see better’n I.”
“Yes,” she cried. “Four. I can count them. She isn’t there. Oh, I’m glad!”
The old man looked surprised:
“Glad! Why?”
“I don’t know. Oh, don’t tell, Daddy John, but I wanted her to get away. I don’t know why, I suppose it’s very wicked. But—but—it seemed so—so—as if she was a slave—so unfair to drag her away from her own life and make her lead some one else’s.”
Lucy gone, lost as by shipwreck in the gulfs and windings of the mountains, was a fact that had to be accepted. The train moved on, for on the Emigrant Trail there was no leisure for fruitless repining. Only immediate happenings could fill the minds of wanderers struggling across the world, their energies matched against its primal forces.
The way was growing harder, the animals less vigorous, and the strain of the journey beginning to tell. Tempers that had been easy in the long, bright days on the Platte now were showing sharp edges. Leff had become surly, Glen quarrelsome. One evening Susan saw him strike Bob a blow so savage that the child fell screaming in pain and terror. Bella rushed to her first born, gathered him in her arms and turned a crimsoned face of battle on her spouse. For a moment the storm was furious, and Susan was afraid that the blow would be repeated on the mother. She tried to pacify the enraged woman, and David and the doctor coaxed Glen away. The child had struck against an edge of stone and was bleeding, and after supper the father rocked him to sleep crooning over him in remorseful tenderness. But the incident left an ugly impression.
They were passing up the Sweetwater, a mountain stream of busy importance with a current that was snow-cold and snow-pure. It wound its hurrying way between rock walls, and then relaxed in lazy coils through meadows where the grass was thick and juicy and the air musical with the cool sound of water. These were the pleasant places. Where the rocks crowded close about the stream the road left it and sought the plain again, splinding away into the arid desolation. The wheels ground over myriads of crickets that caked in the loose soil. There was nothing to break the eye-sweep but the cones of rusted buttes, the nearer ones showing every crease and shadow thread, the farther floating detached in the faint, opal shimmer of the mirage.
One afternoon, in a deep-grassed meadow they came upon an encamped train outflung on the stream bank in wearied disarray. It was from Ohio, bound for California, and Glen and Bella decided to join it. This was what the doctor’s party had been hoping for, as the slow pace of the McMurdo oxen held them back. Bella was well and the doctor could conscientiously leave her. It was time to part.
Early in the morning the two trains rolled out under a heavy drizzle. Rain fell within the wagons even as it did without, Susan weeping among the sacks behind Daddy John and Bella with her children whimpering against her sides, stopping in her knitting to wipe away her tears with the long strip of stocking leg. They were to meet again in California—that everyone said. But California looked a long way off, and now.—For some reason or other it did not gleam so magically bright at the limit of their vision. Their minds had grown tired of dwelling on it and sank down wearied to each day’s hard setting.
By midday the doctor’s wagons had left the others far behind. The rain fell ceaselessly, a cold and penetrating flood. The crowding crowns and crests about them loomed through the blur, pale and slowly whitening with falling snow. Beyond, the greater masses veiled themselves in cloud. The road skirted the river, creeping through a series of gorges with black walls down which the moisture spread in a ripple-edged, glassy glaze. Twice masses of fallen rock blocked the way, and the horses had to be unhitched and the wagons dragged into the stream bed. It was heavy work, and when they camped, ferociously hungry, no fire could be kindled, and there was nothing for it but to eat the hard-tack damp and bacon raw. Leff cursed and threw his piece away. He had been unusually morose and ill-humored for the last week, and once, when obliged to do sentry duty on a wet night, had flown into a passion and threatened to leave them. No one would have been sorry. Under the stress of mountain faring, the farm boy was not developing well.
In the afternoon the rain increased to a deluge. The steady beat on the wagon hoods filled the interior with a hollow drumming vibration. Against the dimmed perspective the flanks of the horses undulated under a sleek coating of moisture. Back of the train, the horsemen rode, heads lowered against the vicious slant, shadowy forms like drooping, dispirited ghosts. The road wound into a gorge where the walls rose straight, the black and silver of the river curbed between them in glossy outspreadings and crisp, bubbling flashes. The place was full of echoes, held there and buffeted from wall to wall as if flying back and forth in a distracted effort to escape.
David was driving in the lead, Susan under cover beside him. The morning’s work had exhausted him and he felt ill, so she had promised to stay with him. She sat close at his back, a blanket drawn over her knees against the intruding wet, peering out at the darkling cleft. The wagon, creaking like a ship at sea, threw her this way and that. Once,
as she struck against him he heard her low laugh at his ear.
“It’s like a little earthquake,” she said, steadying herself with a grab at his coat.
“There must have been a big earthquake here once,” he answered. “Look at the rocks. They’ve been split as if a great force came up from underneath and burst them open.”
She craned her head forward to see and he looked back at her. Her face was close to his shoulder, glowing with the dampness. It shone against the shadowed interior rosily fresh as a child’s. Her eyes, clear black and white, were the one sharp note in its downy softness. He could see the clean upspringing of her dark lashes, the little whisps of hair against her temple and ear. He could not look away from her. The grinding and slipping of the horses’ hoofs did not reach his senses, held captive in a passionate observation.
“You don’t curl your hair any more?” he said, and the intimacy of this personal query added to his entrancement.
She glanced quickly at him and broke into shamefaced laughter. A sudden lurch threw her against him and she clutched his arm.
“Oh, David,” she said, gurgling at the memory. “Did you know that? I curled it for three nights on bits of paper that I tore out of the back of father’s diary. And now I don’t care what it looks like. See how I’ve changed!”
And she leaned against him, holding the arm and laughing at her past frivolity. His eyes slid back to the horses, but he did not see them. With a slight, listening smile he gave himself up to the intoxication of the moment, feeling the pressure of her body soft against his arm.
The reins which hung loose suddenly jerked through his fingers and the mare fell crashing to her knees. She was down before he knew it, head forward, and then with a quivering subsidence, prone in a tangle of torn harness. He urged her up with a jerked rein, she made a struggling effort, but fell back, and a groan, singularly human in its pain, burst from her. The wagon behind pounded almost on them, the mules crowding against each other. Daddy John’s voice rising in a cracked hail. Courant and Leff came up from the rear, splashing through the river.
