“I just…I need to roll a few things around in my head, that’s all.” Kristin’s face was clouded with a slight unease. “I wouldn’t be terribly good company.”
“Okay. I understand.”
“I’d like to walk with you later, though. If you want to.”
Molly could feel her own smile light up her face. “That would be great. I’m going to hold you to it.”
“Good.” Kristin approached her and bent forward. She stopped several inches from Molly’s face and simply looked at her for a few long seconds. Molly held eye contact, reveling in the feeling of being Kristin’s sole focus, something she’d become very unused to. Kristin kissed her softly on the mouth. “I’ll be back soon.”
“Do me a favor?” Molly asked as Kristin moved toward the door.
“Sure.”
Nodding at the dresser, she said, “Take my cell phone?” At Kristin’s questioning look, she shrugged. “In case you fall on your head again.”
Kristin grinned. “Okay.” She clipped the phone to her jeans, waved, and left the room.
Molly lay in bed for a while longer, listening to the sounds of her friends and thinking about the previous day.
She still couldn’t believe Kristin had smashed her Blackberry, or “Crackberry,” as Molly liked to call it because of its addictive tendencies. It was her lifeline, her tie to her work, her boss, her clients. And now it was in several small chunks sitting in the wastebasket in Amy’s kitchen. Not to mention that it was Jack Reeves’s connection to Kristin. What would he do when he couldn’t reach her? When she didn’t return his calls or e-mails?
Molly, like the rest of the group, had no idea what to say after the meat mallet descended. They’d all stared at Kristin in stupefied silence and then had gone back to whatever activities they’d been a part of. It had been surreal. Molly had kept a watchful eye on Kristin for the remainder of the evening, but she did nothing more than stare expressionlessly into the fire. On their way to bed, Molly had asked if she was all right.
“I think maybe I will be,” was Kristin’s rather cryptic answer. And that’s all she’d said.
Now she was off wandering in the woods alone again and Molly wasn’t sure whether she should be worried or relieved by her behavior.
Downstairs, a short while later, everybody looked up as Molly approached, smiling hellos and offering coffee. The smell of bacon was mouth-watering.
“God, I’m going to be a blimp after this week,” she commented, grabbing a slice and nibbling on it with delight.
“That makes two of us,” Sophie said with a smile. “Maybe a gym membership should be my New Year’s resolution.”
“I’m a member of the club over on Panorama Trail and I love it,” Laura offered. “You should try there. They have so many different things that it never feels like a waste of money. There’s always something to do.”
“I’ve driven past there a million times,” Molly said, taking a seat at the table. “I know a lot of people who belong.”
“It’s great,” Laura went on. “If you don’t want to lift weights, you can swim. If you don’t want to swim, you can play racquetball. If you don’t want to play racquetball, you can shoot baskets. There are yoga classes and step classes and spin classes. It’s a great place.”
A small smile touched Molly’s lips at the way Sophie’s eyes lit up and she hung on every word Laura said. Molly recognized the beginnings of attraction blossoming and wondered if the two could put aside their differences long enough to see how good they’d be together. A tiny pang hit her chest as she recalled the initial zaps of attraction the day she’d first been introduced to Kristin. The crystal blue eyes and sparkling golden hair had mesmerized her. Molly had wanted nothing more than to reach out and touch Kristin’s face.
A voice in her ear startled her. “How was Kristin this morning?” Amy was behind her, her warm hands on Molly’s shoulders.
“Quiet. A little distant, but smiling.” She looked up at her dear friend as she tried to put her thoughts into words. “It’s weird. She seems…different somehow. In a good way. I think. Maybe she just needs a whack on the head more often.”
“Did you talk about yesterday?”
“No.” Before Amy could scold her, she rushed on. “She was tired and seemed so…inside her own mind. I just didn’t want to bother her, you know? I really get the feeling she’ll talk to me when she’s ready.”
Amy looked skeptical but dropped a kiss on the top of Molly’s dark head.
Across the table, Darby sat with a Coke and the business section of the paper. Molly caught her blue eyes as they darted up then dropped back to the paper just as quickly. Molly knew they should probably have a chat, not only about what happened between Darby and Kristin the previous day--Molly was sure something had been said, though she honestly wasn’t sure if she wanted to know exactly what--but also about that kiss behind the garage the previous morning. Despite the fact that it had felt so good at the time, Molly was appalled with herself now. The Catholic guilt was in full swing.
Of course, she wasn’t at all surprised that her butt remained fused to her chair and her legs did not force her to stand and cross the room to ask Darby if they could speak in private. Annoyed, but not surprised. She sipped her coffee instead and then reached for another slice of bacon.
Resolutions
By late morning, everybody was full and happy. Jo and Darby went outside to grab wood for the fire so nobody would have to go out later. Amy was in the kitchen working on hors d’oeuvres for the rest of the day and getting things ready for dinner later. She mixed a dip while Molly stood at the counter cutting vegetables to go with it.
“Sit, Ricky.” Laura stood before the terrier in the dining room, a small tidbit of bacon left over from breakfast held in her hand. “Can you sit?”
Ricky cocked his head and his furry brown tail wagged furiously. He continued to stand.
Laura squatted in front of him, held the bacon to his nose, and gently pushed down on his backside while simultaneously lifting the bacon, forcing his head up. His butt plopped to the ground. “Good!” Laura exclaimed, letting him have the bacon. “Good boy.”
Sophie watched from her seat at the table where her crossword puzzle sat in front of her, full of blank squares. “Nice job,” she commented.
“I think he’s really smart,” Laura said with delighted enthusiasm. “He’s going to learn fast.” She repeated the task a few more times with the remainder of the bacon. On the final try, Ricky sat on his own. After rewarding him, Laura swooped him up in her arms and allowed herself to be bathed in dog kisses.
Sophie laughed at the spectacle. “Do you have stuff at home for him?”
“What do you mean?”
“Bowls, toys, a crate. That sort of thing. Dog food?”
“I have nothing at all.” Laura grinned. “I guess I’ve got some shopping to do.”
“Well…I was thinking…” Sophie hesitated slightly before finding her nerve. “My good friend from college owns a pet store in the city. I’m sure they’re closed tomorrow, but I bet they’re open on Monday and, um, I’d be happy to go with you.”
“You would?” Laura was surprised and pleased at the same time.
“Sure.”
“I’d like that.”
Neither Sophie nor Laura saw Amy gently nudge Molly with an elbow and wink at her, nor did they see Molly’s responding grin.
The front door opened just then, a chilling burst of winter air whipping through the small cabin. Kristin stomped her feet on the mat and smiled. “Morning, all.”
“Hi, there,” Molly said as she abandoned her vegetables to help her wife out of her winter garb. “I was about to send out a search party.”
Kristin’s cheeks were winter-weather red and her eyes looked bright. “No falling on my head today. Just a great hike.” Looking into the kitchen, she said, “Amy, this place is beautiful. I was amazed. The sun was shining and the birds were singing and there was fresh snow on the g
round. Gorgeous.”
Amy smiled with pride. “Now you know why I love it here so much.”
“Absolutely.” She fished in the pocket of her ski jacket as Molly hung it on a hook. Withdrawing her hand, she said, “Here. I found something for you.”
Molly held out her hand and Kristin placed her treasure in Molly’s palm, suddenly feeling as shy as a schoolgirl.
When Molly looked down, there was a perfectly shaped heart resting in her hand. She looked more closely, seeing that it was actually a rock, but its shape was unmistakable. “Oh, wow,” she said, her own heart soaring. “Where’d you find this?”
“There’s a big stand of evergreens back a ways off the path and there’s no snow under a lot of them. That caught my eye and…I thought of you.” Kristin didn’t add that she’d felt inexplicably drawn to the spot, that she wasn’t really walking anywhere near the particular tree under which the rock was nestled.
“You did?”
Kristin nodded.
Molly reached up and wrapped her arms around Kristin’s neck, enveloping her in a warm hug. “Thank you,” she said softly. “I love it.” She tucked the rock into the pocket of her jeans. “I’m going to keep it with me all the time.”
The huge grin that split Kristin’s face was something Molly decided then and there she wanted to see more often, every day if she could help it.
Kristin kissed her quickly on the mouth. “I’m going to grab a shower.”
“Okay. I’ll be in the kitchen with Amy. Sadly, the vegetables won’t cut themselves.”
Back in the kitchen, Molly pulled the rock back out of her pocket and showed it to Amy, then to Sophie and Laura, who came to look. It was swirled gray in color, round and full, solid and weighty.
“That is so cool,” Laura breathed, touching the rock with one finger.
“How the hell did she manage to find a rock in the woods in the dead of winter?” Sophie asked.
Amy grinned smugly and when Molly noticed, she slapped playfully at her arm. “You’re not going to launch into a Magic Acre story, are you?”
“I wouldn’t dream of it,” Amy replied as she plunged a piece of celery into her dip and tasted it. She grinned as she chewed. “Besides, none of you would believe me.”
*
“Aunt Jo?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m sorry about yesterday.” Darby gave the apology while pulling logs from the pile and stacking them into the carrying sling. She was embarrassed and couldn’t bring herself to look her aunt in the eye. She hadn’t been scolded by Aunt Jo like she’d been the previous day since she was a preteen. She’d deserved it then, too.
Jo stopped what she was doing and stood up straight to regard her niece. Darby had been fairly quiet since their run-in the day before. Jo didn’t know how parents did it, how they scolded their kids and went on with their lives. Jo felt so bad, she had to catch herself on several occasions before she tried to sweet-talk Darby, to apologize, to make herself feel better and to wipe that hurt, chagrined look off her face. Her words had been harsh, but Darby had needed to hear them and it took all Jo’s strength to let it sit, to leave it alone. Now Darby had done the apologizing. Jo felt a sudden, fierce pride in her niece.
“It’s okay,” she said simply.
When Darby looked up, her blue eyes were troubled. She opened her mouth as if about to say something, then closed it again and reached for more wood.
“What?” Jo prodded gently.
“I just…” Darby took a deep breath and blew it out in frustration, the puff visible in the chilly air. “I’m so good at noncommitment.” She grimaced at Jo. “I’m good at the pick-up, I’m great at getting her home, but I suck at anything beyond that.”
Jo studied her niece. “Don’t you want more, Darby? Don’t you want more than just great sex? Not that there’s anything wrong with that,” she added with a wink. “But don’t you want somebody to wake up with? Somebody to come home to? Somebody to talk to or not talk to or a lap to rest your head in when you have a bad day?”
Darby answered honestly. “You know, I never did. I always thought what you and Aunt Amy have is really cool, but I also thought it just wasn’t for me. I never thought of myself as the settling-down type. I’m not good at it and I’ve never wanted it.” She sighed. “Until I met Molly.”
Jo nodded, surprised by the admission, but at the same time, not. She knew that the day would come eventually when her niece would meet a woman who would finally be The One—the person who got Darby to relinquish her hold on a life of one-night stands and weekend clubbing. What she hadn’t counted on was that person being one of Amy’s dearest friends, and married to boot.
“Molly’s in love with somebody else,” Jo said with tenderness, not wanting to hurt Darby but wanting to be sure she understood the score.
“I know that.”
“She’s been with Kristin since you were a senior in high school.”
“I know that, too.” Darby looked up at the bright blue of the winter sky. She didn’t want to hear these facts. She was aware of them, but having Aunt Jo say them out loud made them that much more real.
The wood was loaded and ready to be hauled into the house, but both women stood unmoving. Darby continued staring off into space. Jo watched her intently, wishing there was something she could do to help her niece through the confusion.
“I don’t know how this happened,” Darby said softly. “I don’t fall for women at the drop of a hat. It’s silly and it’s not me.”
“Things change.” It was the most fitting explanation Jo could think of. “Maybe it is you and you just didn’t know it.”
Darby snorted.
Trying a different tack, Jo suggested, “Maybe it is you now. And falling for somebody isn’t silly. Falling for somebody who’s spoken for is. And not knowing when to back off is even sillier.” Jo looked at Darby pointedly.
“Yeah. I know,” Darby agreed, her face coloring slightly. “You’re right. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck.”
Jo chuckled. “Sometimes, it does. Sometimes, it sucks a lot.” She picked up one of the canvas slings full of logs and studied her niece. “It’s the last day of the year, Darby. Tomorrow, you get to start fresh. Think about that.”
Darby watched as Jo walked toward the house. For the first time since she could remember, starting fresh actually sounded like a good idea.
*
At precisely eight o’clock, dinner was served and it smelled unbelievable. Amy had cooked the beef tenderloin to perfection—her love of red meat made her thank her lucky stars none of her present friends were vegetarians--and her guests oohed and ahhed as it was sliced before them. Jo circled the table, filling everybody’s glasses with a deep burgundy-colored Merlot that smelled almost as good as it tasted.
Laura pulled her nose out of her glass long enough to comment, “There’s nothing quite like a good red wine to warm you up in the winter.”
“Absolutely,” Sophie agreed, her glass already to her lips.
“Hey, wait,” Jo ordered. “We have to toast first.”
Sophie caught herself and lowered her glass, looking sheepish. Laura grinned at her.
Jo stood at the head of the table where Amy’s seat was, one hand on her wife’s shoulder. “First of all, I want to thank you all for being here. Amy and I feel there is no better way to spend the holidays than with those you love.”
Murmurs of agreement traveled around the table.
“I’d also like to say that friends like you are hard to come by and when you do find them, you need to hold on tight. So I stand before you and say, with all my heart—and I think my wife would agree—that our New Year’s resolution is to spend more time with all of you. You’re too important to us to let the everyday world of work and shopping and whatever keep us apart.”
From Jo’s right, Laura spoke up. “I’d like to add my own resolution to that. Starting with the New Year, I’m going to stop feeling guilty about things I’ve done i
n the past and promise to forgive myself.” Nods and words of encouragement filled the air. “And I’m going to be a good mommy to Ricky,” she added with a grin, smiling down at the terrier near her chair.
Sophie promptly raised her glass and said, “I’m going to stop wallowing in what was and start concentrating on what will be.”
Darby was next. With a glance at Jo, she stated simply in a quiet but assured voice, “I think I’m going to open my eyes this year.” Amy smiled up at Jo, both acknowledging the change in their niece this signaled.
Kristin studied her plate as she organized her thoughts. When she lifted her chin and spoke, her eyes sparkled, their color arresting. She placed a warm hand on Molly’s knee under the table. “I’m going to try to finally fix my whacked-out priorities and focus on what’s really important in my life.” She looked at Molly.
Molly’s eyes teared up and she laughed as she tried to wave the moist drops away, her friends awwing at her. Pulling herself together, she spoke softly. “I have a couple resolutions that I’m going to try my hardest to stick to. First, while Darby’s busy opening her eyes, I’m going to work on opening my mouth.” Gentle laughter rounded the table. “Second, I want to start thanking the people who help me grow.” At this statement, her eyes cut quickly to Darby and then away. “It’s not always easy to understand yourself. Even the simplest things can elude your grasp. When somebody helps you make a connection or put a puzzle piece in place, they deserve some gratitude.” Molly looked at Darby once again and mouthed a silent “Thank you.”
Kristin looked at Darby as well, but her face was expressionless and it actually freaked Darby out a bit. She averted her eyes and took a swig from her water glass.
“I’m all misty now,” Amy said, and her friends smiled at her. Holding up her wineglass, she waited for the others to follow. “I love you all and I’m so glad you’re here. Happy New Year, my friends.”
Seven glasses plinked together over the table filled with food. The women sipped, humming their overwhelming approval of the wine. Then they dug into the food, laughing and carrying on several conversations at once. Bowls were passed. Garlic mashed potatoes, green beans, squash, homemade rolls—the list of choices was endless. Amy had outdone herself, which surprised nobody. Ricky sat at Laura’s feet, watching closely, no doubt hoping some tantalizing morsel would slip from her plate and fall on his head. He eventually moved so he was between Laura’s chair and Sophie’s, once he realized that, of the two, Sophie was the bigger softie. Several small morsels of beef found their way to him throughout the course of the meal.
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