by Lake, Brair
Exasperation has me rubbing my hand over my face. Shit. In defeat I hold my hands up in the air and take a step away from her. “What do you want me to say Cassie. To me, the whore’s gone. By the end of the week not only is she out of Tie Me Down. She’s also out of Comfort Springs.” Wariness causes me to hesitate with what I am about to say. I need Cassie to understand that I am being serious and not just saying the words.
“Cassie the issue here is more than the fact that I fucked up. It’s the baby thing and we need to discuss it.” For weeks Cassie has been avoiding the topic, and now Cassie’s body stiffens as she pulls herself up. Walking away from the picture of the two of us, she sits in my chair. Her eyes are large and lost in a face which has lost its color.
“I want a baby Cassie, and not as a bridging block. But because he or she would be a part of you” for once, I am glad there is this distance between us as I gather my thoughts together. To compose the words that I need to tell her.
When she opens her mouth, I interrupt. “No Cassie listen to me first. I was livid when the doctor said I had a low sperm count and it hurt, because I may not be able to give you little Cassies’ or Lincolns.” Although I am shaking inside, I carry on with my speech. “So we will do it. We will make another appointment to see the doctor. Look at and discuss the options that are in front of us.” As I finish talking. I make my way over to where the woman I love is sat, and kneel down next to her, taking her hands in mine. “I never meant to hurt you Cassie and I am sorry.”
Cassie guides my hand to her cheek. To rest against it, the gentle caress of her flesh is soothing against my hand. “I don’t know Linc. I refuse to have a fixer upper baby.”
This time, I am the one who places both of my hands on either side of Cassie’s face, “The baby will never be a fixer upper. We are having this baby because it’s someone we want. And we will love them.”
Cassie remains silent. Her gaze fixed on me. I can feel her eyes as they probe into my deep inner conscious. My smile may be weak but I hope it’s reassuring. “Give it a go Cassie.”
The smile she returns is tinged with sadness and somehow, does not quite reach her eyes. She is taking so long to answer, that I find myself getting more nervous by the moment.
“OK, we talk to the doctor.” Jubilant that Cassie is willing to meet me half way I want to shout my joy. Instead I settle for pulling Cassie up and in to my arms. Meanwhile, I am thinking ‘thank fuck, she has not thrown me out this time.’
My horniness of earlier has returned, and letting go of Cassie. I make my way over to the sports bag that I had dropped, and remove a couple of items. Eager to push my luck I hand the outfit over to Cassie.
“Seeing you on the stage made me really hard Babe. How about a private show?”
Cassie eyes the clothing skeptically, before hugging them to her chest “You’re pushing your luck mister.”
“Ha. That’s your fault for being so smoking hot. Now go get ready.”
After a moment’s hesitation Cassie gives me one of her smiles as she makes her way to the bedroom with the items that I have given her.
Once the house is secure I head for the bedroom where I find my Marilyn waiting for me and she is beautiful. In her costume, Cassie somehow manages to look demure, while her eyes scream fuck me now.
“Evening Mr Vice President” Fuck my cock has just gone from semi hard to rock hard.
“And what would the Vice President like me to do for him?”
I want the use of her mouth and without ceremony I push Cassie down to her knees. “Take my cock out of my pants and put it in your mouth Babe”
As much as I want her to, the seductress refuses to rush the act. Cassie’s penetrating stare refuses to move from mine. Little by little she undoes the belt before releasing the button. With the use of her mouth she pulls the zipper down, using my hips to maintain her balance. When the zipper is down, my cock springs free and bounces gently against her forehead.
With the expertise of doing this for years, Cassie, pushes her tongue out of her mouth and cups the head of my cock. To further antagonize me, she slowly leans back, causing my cock to slip from its haven. Cassie prolongs my punishment by letting the tip of my cock land on her tongue again. Kissing the end before she takes hold of it. The firm grasp of her hands sends shivers through my body. As a tremor runs over my body I spread my legs a little, giving me a firmer purchase, as she continues to stroke my cock.
Cassie’s caress begins at the base. Her fingers circling me before she glides up the hard shaft. This is Cassie’s way, slow to start. The touch almost not there. Then with each stoke her grips increases. Her hand pumping up, and rubbing down. The friction of her tight flesh against mine has me producing more pre-cum. Which she spreads over the head of my cock, leaning forward to lick my ball sacks.
“Fuck, Babe that’s good.”
After a short time, she has a steady rhythm going and opens her mouth, taking my thick hard cock inside. Her cheeks hollowing as she sucks me, pulling her head away, to lick the underside to the tip and over the top. Then back into her mouth, repeating her actions to suck me in and I hit the back of her throat. The hand at the base of my cock gives a tight twist before twisting back.
“That’s it Babe. Take me, take me all the way in.” My hips begins a steady thrust against her hand and mouth.
“Fuck!” pulling my cock free, I find it covered with her saliva and a mixture of my pre-cum. Fascinated by her actions, I continue to watch as she slides me back in to her throat. The muscles relaxing when she takes me in further and further. I love the steady rhythm my baby has set. Although Cassie has her finger pressed at the base of my cock I know I am not going to last. It’s too soon for my release and I refuse to cum in her mouth.
“Lie on the bed Cassie and spread your legs for me.” Spread on the bed. I study my woman. She may be wearing the outfit from earlier. However, she is still my Cassie. Brown contacts watch me and as much as I love the dress she has on. It is hiding my prize. Although I cannot see her wet pussy. This does not hinder me from my goal, as I crawl between her legs to lay kisses against her thighs. Slowly I crawl my way to heaven. When I finally reach what I am looking for. I latch my lips on to my brand, and suck the flesh hard, sucking on my mark. Until it is hid by the deep purple bruise. Gently I soothe the tender flesh with my tongue, to ease the little pain I have caused.
Cassie’s whimper of pleasure confirms this woman is all mine. That she is with me all the way. Turning my mouth towards her pussy I find it is wet. Her cream is glistening on the edge of her pussy lips. With the tip of my tongue I take a taste and savor my girl on my lips. With ease, I take hold of her thighs and spread her legs further apart and soon I am swiping my tongue along the full length of her pussy, starting at the back and moving towards the front.
Unhindered, Cassie’s hips lift towards me. “Linc!” Again, I swipe my tongue along her tender flesh. To kiss her where her pussy opens “Fuck Linc!” This time, she pushes her hips into the mattress. The movement neither hampers me, nor stops me. I just follow. Then I let my tongue glide into her. My tongue licks the ripples of the muscles which will soon be holding my cock. The more I lick, the more they contract as the juice she produces coats my flesh. Her hips rises against me as I thrust in to her with my tongue. The deeper I thrust the more her body begins to vibrate. Cassie’s moans are becoming louder as she tries to attain her release.
“You want to cum Babe?”
“Please….”
“Yeah Baby come all over my tongue and let me taste your sweet cream.” And that’s all she needs. Her cream floods my tongue as I push it in further, loving the feel of her body clenching round me, as I keep her thighs apart. I am never too sure if it’s my tongue that gets her off. Or the vibrations of my voice against her pussy.
Pulling back from her, I do not give Cassie time to come down before I am thrusting my cock straight in to her. Hard and deep, needing to get as close as possible. Her pussy is gripping my cock, prote
sting when I pull out. When I push back, in the muscles of her pussy take a strangle hold of my cock. Cassie’s hips rise up as her legs lock round my back. The heels digging in to my ass as she grips on to the headboard.
“Oh Fuck, Babe, yeah that’s it, take me inside nice and deep.” When I thrust deep into her body, Cassie jerks up the bed. I need to grip her hips, to keep her in place as I continue to thrust.
“Shit, Babe I’m not going to last much longer.” My balls are tight, ready to release their cargo. Watching my baby and the way her body is starting to vibrate around mine, is all I need. “You ready again Babe.” My tone may be a little smug as I give my baby her second orgasm of the night. All my girl can do, is nod her head. “That’s it Baby, cum for, me.” And when her body shudders with her release, I let go with one final thrust “Fuck Cassie!”
Reluctant to let Cassie go. I remain joined inside her, removing the blonde wig to run my fingers in her toffee colored hair. “Fuck Cassie we did not undress.”
“Nothing new there Linc.” Tilting her head up. “You were fucking me Linc and not Marilyn.” My previous treatment of Cassie as had more of an effect on her than I had realized. To ease her fear, I take her face between my hands and kiss her hard and deep. Thrusting my tongue in to her mouth. When Cassie begins to moan again, I pull back to gaze directly in to her eyes.
“Always you Cass. You’re real. You understand don’t you? You’re a real woman. And much more. You‘re the woman who holds my heart. Marilyn is just an image, a fantasy that teenage boys grow up with, hoping they find their own. And that’s what I did with you Cassie.”
Planting another kiss on Cassie’s neck. I begin to remove her clothing, so that I can get to her tits. “I love you Cassie and I do not think I will ever get tired of telling you that”
“I love you Linc.”
Chapter 16
“Cassie it’s been a few weeks since we last mentioned the baby.” It was not as if I was hiding my head in the sand. The timing has just not being right to discuss it. Linc and I may be stronger as a couple than we have been. That did not mean we were ready to start a family.
I doubt think Linc has fully understood the concept of us dating. It’s supposed to have been a time which we spent apart. Each of us living in our own place and although Linc’s stuff is now at the apartment over the studio, he was practically living back home.
What had started as a night or two stay over, soon spread into practically every night. Linc would call over in the evening, we cooked dinner together, watch a movie and make love. The nights he was at the club, he would call in on the pretext of checking on me and this lead him to spending the night.
Then there was the problem of having the apartment above the studio. Linc would close his studio or leave it in the hands of one of his junior partners and we then spent an hour or two having sex in the apartment.
Linc telling me he loves me on a regular basis is proving not to be enough. Since the incident at the club he has been more attentive and Tabby called in to confirm that the bitch had left Comfort Springs.
There was no need for him to call round. The day she left Baby Blu, and I had stood at the bus station, watching as she got on the bus. It had been Baby Blu who had informed me that Lacey was leaving that day. Lacey’s leaving had not proved to be an instant fix. There had been no revelation that all is forgiven just because she was leaving.
Slowly we were falling back into our old routine. Linc still has the power to set my body off. Just thinking of him is enough to make my panties wet. And I doubt if that would change for a very long time.
I am running scared. When we stopped using condoms that was my way of telling Linc I trust him. I doubt Linc would cheat on me again. However the thought of being left on my own with a baby, terrifies me.
If we carry on the way are, will Linc stay with me? I have the literature and I surfed the web and chatted with other people in the same situation. The cup of coffee Linc handed to me earlier is now cold, and I replace it on the table, turning my gaze to Linc. When our eyes clash, on pure reflex I turn away. Almost as if I am ashamed by my thoughts.
“Cassie are you going to answer?”
Fiddling with the spoon, I can no longer avoid the subject. “OK Linc. What do you want?”
“What I want Cassie is to return home to my family and to have a family.” Linc’s declaration saddens me, and I bring my gaze up to his face. Is he really ready for what lays ahead?
I have always thought of Linc as the rock of our unit. The strong one. Now I am uncertain. Before I answer Linc I take one of his large hands to hold between both mine. The hands of an artist and a lover. Hands that can be both gentle and caring when Linc needs them to be. They are also the hands of a violent man.
If I close my eyes, I can see a baby being gently and lovingly loved in these hands. Tenderness in the eyes of the baby’s father. A set of Indigo eyes staring loving down, while a replica set reflect back the trust they feel. Secure in the knowledge that the owner of the eyes watching over them, will always keep them safe.
“Linc…….”
“Cassie, we’re going to make this work and for that to happen you have got to meet me half way.”
I hate it when he’s right. Unfortunately he’s right about this. I do need to meet him half way. Still continuing to play with his fingers I refuse to look at Linc’s face. If I do, my resolve will dissolve and I need to be strong.
“OK.”
This time it’s Linc who frowns as he pulls his hand out of mine. “What do you mean? OK.”
“You’re right Linc we both have to work at the mistake you made. No more running.” Linc is no longer sat opposite me. Instead he has pulled his chair close to mine and now my hands are in his. Clasped tight in his firm grip.
“We will make an appointment to see the doctor and we go through the options available to us.” There is no way Linc is going to like what I am about to say. “However, you do not come home. Not yet.”
“When Cassie? When do I get to come the fuck home? So far we have done this your way.”
“After we speak to the doctors and the specialist. Then we discuss you coming home.”
“Why until then Cassie. This baby is a commitment to each other. One that I’m wanting to make.”
“Because Linc, if you back out after promising me. It will break me.” I have said it and its now out there. Linc still has the power to destroy me.
“Oh Cassie come here.” Linc has me in his arms and across his lap while he croons into my ear. “Cassie, you’re married to an idiot. An idiot who loves you.”
Linc telling me he loves me is not new. I know he loves me. However its trust, and Linc’s coping mechanism that I’m concerned about.
“Linc what happens the next time you get scared and do not like what you are being told?”
There is no immediate answer from Linc. The pulse of the tic in his lower jaw, draws my attention. The only clue I have that Linc is mulling over my question. His gaze is avoiding mine. Eventually his gaze returns to my face. His eyes are alight. The intensity from this glare has me wiggling uncomfortably on his knee.
“We talk Cassie. No more running, no more hiding.” I have to wait another moment before he carries on. Almost as if he has to think of his answer carefully. “You may not believe me Cass, but I learnt my lesson. These last few weeks away from home have been hard.”
“What has been hard about it Linc?” Since the separation, I feel as though I have seen more of Linc than when we were actually living together. Apart from not sleeping the whole night in my bed. And that has changed in the last couple of weeks. There has not been many nights which Linc does not spend here.
“Holding you Cass. And I do not mean physically.”
“You think I’m pulling away.” Have I, without conscious thought, put a divide between us. Maybe before we had started dating, this may have been true. But not now.
“Linc let’s talk to the doctor and then when you get back from
your next run we discuss you coming home.” I am not ready for Linc to come home just yet. We both need to understand what it entails in having this baby. However he is right. If we are to have a baby, no matter what choices we make. We need to do it as a couple.
DCMC
Until I mentioned it, I doubt Cassie was aware of how much of herself she was holding back. Yes, she’s been with me physically all the way. But I want more than that. I want the old Cassie back. The one I am scared I may have lost forever.
This new Cassie is much stronger, and this time my fear is not about the baby. It’s about this new Cassie. The one that appears not to need me. In the past she would ask for my help, my opinion. I was her guide through life. Now, she does what she wants. Cassie is growing up and is no longer the girl I knew and loved. Now she has become a strong independent woman.
