by Lady Lissa
I didn’t mean for this fight to happen, but I couldn’t help it. She’s such a bitch. How could she claim that the two of them are just friends yesterday and today she’s wrapped up in my man’s arms? Friends my ass; they probably been fucking.
“Mandy, I’m sorry that you are taking your break up with my son hard. But, I won’t put up with your bullshit in my front yard. There’s a time and a place for this and this ain’t it,” his mom said.
What the fuck does she want from me? I already said I was sorry. Doesn’t she remember what it’s like to have your boyfriend break up with you? How inconsiderate is this shit?
“Onyx, are you going to talk to me or not?” I ask, trying once more to talk to him.
Starr is standing there with a smug look on her face, like she already knows he’s gonna say no. I wish I could just smack that stupid look off her damn face. She looks at me and flashes a quick smile my way. She is loving every minute of this shit; I can tell.
“I just don’t understand what we have to talk about. I’ve said everything I needed to say yesterday. I don’t even know why you’re here. Shouldn’t you be hanging with Josh and shit?”
“Ooohhhh, you sound jealous right now. If you’re jealous, that means you still have feelings for me,” I say.
“Of course I still have feelings for you; we just broke up. But nothing you can say or do will make me take you back at this point. We are done and you need to leave and don’t come back unless you’re invited,” he says to me.
“Fine, I’ll leave. But this is far from over,” I say as I turn and stomp back to my mom’s car. I can’t believe he was so ugly towards me. I know it’s because of that bitch Starr, but she will get hers. I’m not even worried about that shit.
I get back home and rush in the house, anxious to get to my room so I can be alone with my feelings. I throw my mom’s keys on the counter and head upstairs, bumping into my sister on the way.
“Uh, excuse you,” she says.
“You’re excused,” I say as I open my door and slam it behind me.
“Aaarrrrgggghhhhh!” I scream into a pillow. I am so frustrated that tears are running down my cheeks. I am also breathing as hard as bull getting ready to attack that red blanket. I am that mad.
I punch my pillows and kick the bean bag chair across the room. I have been in a relationship with Onyx for the last four years. I gave up my virginity to him. You know when you’re young and impressionable, you always think the man you give yourself to for the first time, will be the one you marry? Well, call me naïve but that’s what I thought would happen between Onyx and me. I thought that he would one day be my husband and now, he won’t even speak to me. And it’s all that little bitch, Starr’s fault.
I know that the happiness I felt with Onyx was real. It wasn’t just something I dreamed up; it was very real. I didn’t imagine our happiness. I didn’t dream that shit. When he made love to me, it’s like we were the only two people on this earth. I felt fireworks every single time, including yesterday after he said it was over. How the hell can something so perfect get messed up so damn fast?
“I hate you and I will get your ass bitch!”
I have kept my mouth shut about Onyx and that bitch for way too long. I refuse to keep quiet another moment about that shit. Onyx promised me when we first made love that he would never leave me. He said we were friends first and that nothing else mattered. I should have known not to trust him. The only thing trusting that nigga did was get me caught up in some bullshit. If it wasn’t for his “best friend”, Onyx would still be my man. She’s the real culprit in this damn story and I will deal with her ass.
CHAPTER SEVEN
Onyx
“Onyx, I don’t know what is going on between you three, but you better not let anything like this happen again, especially not in front my house!” My mom is waving her finger in my face and she is pissed.
“Mom, I didn’t even know that Starr was coming here,” I try to plead my case.
“Mr. and Mrs. Maxwell, I am so sorry for fighting in your yard. You know that I would have never stooped so low unless I was pushed. I’m just not that kind of person and I’m sorry,” Starr apologizes to my parents.
“What exactly happened between you and Mandy, Starr?”
“Onyx and I were shooting hoops when she pulled up. She just jumped out the car and started yelling profanity at us. She was blaming me for Onyx breaking up with her. Like I told her, Onyx and I are friends and if he broke up with her that had nothing to do with me. She got up in my face and pushed me so I defended myself. Again, I’m really sorry we had to fight here,” Starr says.
“I’ll accept your apology but next time you decide to kick someone’s ass, do it at your own house,” my mom says.
“Yes ma’am,” Starr says.
Her and my dad return to the house and I check Starr out to make sure she doesn’t have any bloody nose or black eyes. She looks pretty good to say she has been fighting since last night. I give her a hug and she pushes me back.
“What’s the matter with you?”
“Do you know I have never really gotten in any trouble before? And in less than 24 hours, I have gotten in not one but two fights because of you,” she says.
“Hold up now. The first time you and Mandy fought at the movies, was not my fault. I wasn’t even there and didn’t know you were going to fight her. You can’t put that on me. As a matter of fact, you can’t put any of that on me. I didn’t invite her over here and I certainly did not plan for the two of you to duke it out in my parent’s front yard. Do you know how crazy that sounds right now?”
“Are you calling me crazy?”
“No I’m not calling you crazy. I’m saying what you are thinking is crazy. You’re trying to blame me for your fights with Mandy when I had nothing to do with that. That’s not fair and surely if you take a step back to think this shit through, you will see that. We have been friends for way too long for you to let some crazy chick come between us behind some bullshit. Besides, have you forgotten what happened between us last night? Ain’t nobody thinking about Mandy’s ass,” I say as I pull her close to me.
She allows me to take her in my arms and asks, “What exactly is this?”
“What do you mean?”
“This between us, what is this?”
“What do you want it to be?”
“I don’t know. I do know that we’ve been friends for a really long time and I don’t want anything or anyone to come between us. I care about you way too much to mess things up,” she says.
“So you’re not even willing to give this a try?”
I know that we’ve been friends a long time, but shouldn’t that make the relationship better? Aren’t relationships, good solid relationships built on friendship first? Starr and I have been friends for the past eight years. We haven’t had any major fights, disagreements or huge blow ups that would cause our relationship to falter. Surely that fact would make us have a stronger relationship, if we decide to head in that direction.
“I can’t do that. I don’t want to mess up our friendship by getting involved sexually or on a more personal level. What would happen to us if we tried this and it failed? Who would I ball with, talk to, chill with? What kind of friendship or relationship would we have if I couldn’t come over here anymore because we fucked it up by trying to do something else? I don’t want that Onyx. I don’t want that at all,” she says.
“Who says that’s what’s gonna happen between us? I think you’re just getting way ahead of yourself. Just relax a little and let things happen the way they’re supposed to happen,” I say.
I have never seen her this afraid to try something new the whole time I’ve known her. What’s so different now? Why is she so scared to be with me?
“You think I should relax but I think I have the right to be concerned about this. I love you Onyx, you’re my best friend in the whole world. I care for you more than I care for my girls on the basketball team. This is somethi
ng that I don’t want to lose. Are you willing to risk how close we are just to get a new piece of ass?”
What the fuck did she just say to me? Is that really what this all boils down to? She’s afraid of the two of us getting together because she doesn’t wanna have sex?
“Is that why you’re acting like this? You’re scared to have sex?”
“No, I am not scared to have sex! You’re not even listening to me. I’m scared of losing my best friend after we have sex. Once we have sex, we can’t take that back. It’ll be too late to change things between us,” she says with a tear in her eye.
“Shows how much you know about me. This shit here,” I point from her to me, “between you and I ain’t about sex. I could care less whether we have sex or not. You wanna know why? Because I care about you too. You’re not one of those fly by night chicks who I can fuck at the snap of my fingers. You mean more to me than that, but if that’s what you think about me, I think we should just chill today,” I say.
“What do you mean? We’re already chillin’,” she says looking confused.
“No, I mean you chill over there,” I point to her house, “and I’ll chill over here. I’ll holla at you tomorrow.”
I turn and begin walking towards the garage. If she wants to act like that, she can just go to her house. I don’t have time for her bullshit and after being friends with her this long, I shouldn’t have to prove myself to her. She should already know what kind of dude I am. I shouldn’t have to prove myself to her like some other nigga because I ain’t them.
“So you’re just gon’ leave things like this?”
“What do you mean? You don’t trust me so I’m going home and you can go to your house. I’ll just talk to you tomorrow,” I tell her.
“Wait Onyx! I never said I didn’t trust you. I just don’t think we should mess up our friendship by taking it to another level,” she says looking sad.
“Fine, we won’t take it to another level. But I don’t feel like chillin’ anymore right now, so I’ll just see you later,” I say once again.
I turn towards my door once again and this time, I make it inside. I look outside and she’s walking across the yard to her house. I turn around and there’s my mom, all in my face.
“What mom?”
“What’s going on with you and Starr?”
Damn, she’s nosey. Ain’t she ever heard the saying ‘curiosity kills the cat’? I guess not, because she is really standing here waiting for me to answer her.
“Nothing mom,” I say trying to walk away from her and those piercing eyes of hers.
“Something must be going on between y’all. Why was she and Mandy fighting?”
“We already explained that to you,” I tell her.
“I don’t believe that. I do believe that those two girls were fighting over you,” she says, crossing her arms across her chest.
“They were not!”
“I believe they were and I bet so does everyone else who saw them going at it like they from the projects,” she says.
“Ain’t nobody was fighting over me mom. Mandy is just mad because I don’t want her anymore. She is taking it out on me and Starr when she should really be blaming herself,” I tell her.
“I also saw the exchange between you and Starr after Mandy left. Are the two of you dating now?”
“No mom,” I say in an exasperated breath.
“It looked like something was going on between y’all and it wasn’t just friends either,” she says.
“Leave him alone Renee. What you grilling the boy for like he finna get locked up or something?”
“I’m just trying to get to the bottom of what’s been going on Thomas. Two very nice girls just start fighting out in our front yard, from out of nowhere I might add, aren’t you the least bit curious?”
“That’s kid’s stuff and his business. Onyx has always been a very responsible and trustworthy kid. This doesn’t concern us,” my dad says.
“The hell it doesn’t. These nice girls were fighting outside in our yard, for all the neighbors to see. It most definitely concerns us,” she says.
“Mom, this was a one-time incident that will never ever happen again. I’m sorry that it got out of hand today. I never meant for that to happen,” I apologize.
“I know that’s what you said, but you had to know messing around with both girls was going to get complicated,” my mom says. She is so sure she has all the answers.
“I was not messing with both of them mom. Mandy was my girlfriend but I broke up with her. Starr is my best friend and that’s it. She is always going to be my best friend and that’s it. Now, if you’re finish interrogating me, I’m going upstairs to my room,” I tell her, not waiting for a response.
I rush upstairs to my room and close the door behind me. I log into my Facebook account because there was something I forgot to do yesterday. I go on my profile page and edit my information. Where my relationship status once said “in a relationship” and with Mandy, it now says “single”. Then I decide to post a status: Ready to c what life has 2 offer now…
I know that this post will piss at least one person off but I don’t give a fuck. It’s time for me to concentrate on me from now on.
CHAPTER EIGHT
Starr
What the hell is Onyx’s problem? Why the hell is he acting this way? Sure we shared a few moments last night but surely he didn’t think that I was going to let things get out of hand between us. He’s my best friend and regardless of how hot and heavy things were between the two of us last night, it wasn’t hot enough to ruin our friendship over. Why would he want to ruin a perfectly good friendship messing around like that anyway? Once we cross that line, there’s no turning back from it.
I think back to all that went on between us last night and I have to admit, it felt really good. I have never been kissed like that before; I mean I have but I’ve never felt it like that before. Kissing Onyx actually made fireworks go off in my head. I had heard people say that about their relationships before, but never felt it for myself. Now that I know that kind of relationship is out there, how can I pursue it with my best friend? What if it was all in my head?
I know it’s not in my head because my heart still skips a beat when I think about it. He almost left me breathless with his kisses. I had to get out of there last night before things went too far with us. I almost allowed myself to let him make love to me; that’s how gone I was with his kisses. But when I thought about how much our friendship means to me, I couldn’t do it. I wish that Onyx understood.
I can’t believe I had to beat Mandy’s ass again. Didn’t that bitch learn her lesson the first time when I tapped her ass last night? I guess she didn’t because she thought she could take me again today. I did not mean to fight in front of Onyx’s parent’s house. I know his parents don’t play that shit, especially not Mrs. Renee. She sure was mad at me but that shit wasn’t my fault. If Mandy had never gotten in my face, none of that would have gone down the way that it did. She makes me so sick.
I walk in the house and my mom is waiting for me, “What the hell just happened out there?”
“That bitch Mandy came over to speak with Onyx because he broke up with her ass. She got all up in my face, blaming me for their break up. I asked her to get out my face and when she wouldn’t on her own, I made her.”
“What you mean you made her?”
“I beat her ass,” I said.
“Watch your language young lady. Didn’t you just fight that girl last night?”
“How do you know we fought last night?”
I know darn well I didn’t tell my mom that I got in a fight with Mandy last night. How the hell does she even know that?
“I’m your mom, that’s how I know. You came up in here with your hair standing all on your head. I knew it had to be because you got in a fight.”
“But how did you know it was with her?”
“Because you just told me,” she says.
Damn, my mom is
slick as fuck. Just like that, she knows I was in a fight with Mandy without me having even said the words.
“Mom, I swear that girl is trippin’. How can she blame me because Onyx broke up with her? Whatever went on in their relationship had nothing to do with me. I don’t understand how she can blame me. And then Mrs. Renee acts like it was my fault that I had a fight in her front yard. That wasn’t me. That was all Mandy; I was just defending myself,” I tell her.
“I’ll have a talk with Renee,” she says.
“No mom don’t. I already apologized to her and said that it will never happen again,” I say.
“So why is Melinda blaming you for her and Onyx’s break up?”
“Her name is Mandy mom and I don’t know. I guess she’s just looking to lash out at someone and since she wants him back, I’m the one she’s lashing out at. But I won’t be her little punching bag no matter how much she wants to blame me. I already never did like her ass, so if she wants to fight me, we can definitely do that.”
“Well she obviously thinks something is going on between you and Onyx. Is she wrong?”
“She is wrong mom. Nothing is going on between Onyx and I. We are friends and that’s all there is to it. Why can’t a boy and girl just be friends without people assuming something is going on between them? We’re just friends,” I say.
“Alright, alright. But I think there’s something more between y’all. I see the way you two look at each other. It ain’t the same way y’all used to look at each other when y’all were younger,” she says.
“We’re just friends,” I repeat.
“Okay, but I know darn well I saw the two of y’all hugging it up earlier,” she says.
“Mom, you are obviously delusional. We were not hugging it up,” I say.
Even though we were hugged up, it was only for a brief minute so she couldn’t have possibly seen very much. I don’t know what to say about my mom and everyone else who wants to be all nosey and up in my business.
