by Anthology
Edwin’s eyes flicked back to Lefkowitz to acknowledge the doctor’s question, before he continued. “If the Corps still exists when the anomaly field generator is turned off, nothing happens. It will mean history did not change enough to wipe out the Corps. I’ll still exist because the future still exists. You’ll wave the guys with guns over and arrest me and tomorrow, you’ll probably come to whatever psych ward they put me in and we’ll chat about what was on the news tonight.”
Lefkowitz’s head had begun to throb, but he had to ask. “And if the Corps no longer exists?”
“It will mean that this had to happen for the world to be what it was. And I will simply disappear. And you’ll watch the news tonight and wish you had someone to talk to with about it tomorrow.” The tears started to flow again, but Edwin made no move to stem them or wipe them away. “It will mean that I betrayed history, that I betrayed the Corps, and that all I now know is lost. Perhaps I’m just weak, but I couldn’t do what they asked. I couldn’t make history occur the way it originally happened. It’s not right to ask. It’s not what I signed up for.”
Lefkowitz could tell he had pushed too hard. Something was about to happen. He tensed to signal the S.W.A.T. members to move in, but it was too late. Suddenly, Edwin raised the hand with the trigger, a serene calm coming over his face. He smiled at Lefkowitz.
“Before I was recruited,” he said in a quiet, clear voice, “I was a fireman, back in the day. I save people. I don’t kill them.”
Lefkowitz flinched, throwing himself to the floor both from instinct and training as Edwin let go of the trigger. Those watching ducked behind their shields and a sniper shot rang out from the top of the escalators, ricocheting noisily off the floor, shattering a window behind and to the right of where Edwin had been standing.
And when Lefkowitz looked up, Edwin was no longer there. Instead, a bevy of S.W.A.T. members were frantically searching the premises and the area outside the shattered window, cursing and looking embarrassed.
It took a while before the debriefing was done and the search was called off, but Lefkowitz still had time to vote, so he started to hustle over to the nearby taxi stand. When he exited the building, he turned back to the scene of the day’s bizarre events, where so much had happened, but really nothing had happened.
The twin towers of the World Trade Center gleamed bright and white against the blue sky of the crisp September day.
Standing still.
STAR BRIGHT
Mark Clifton
Friday, June 11th
At three years of age a little girl shouldn’t have enough functioning intelligence to cut out and paste together a Moebius strip.
Or, if she did it by accident, she surely shouldn’t have enough reasoning ability to pick up one of her crayons and carefully trace the continuous line to prove it has only one surface.
And if by some strange coincidence she did, and it was still just an accident, how can I account for this generally active daughter of mine—and I do mean active—sitting for a solid half hour with her chin cupped in her hand, staring off into space, thinking with such concentration that it was almost painful to watch?
I was in my reading chair, going over some work. Star was sitting on the floor, in the circle of my light, with her blunt-nosed scissors and her scraps of paper.
Her long silence made me glance down at her as she was taping the two ends of the paper together. At that point I thought it was an accident that she had given a half twist to the paper strip before joining the circle. I smiled to myself as she picked it up in her chubby fingers.
“A little child forms the enigma of the ages,” I mused.
But instead of throwing the strip aside, or tearing it apart as any other child would do, she carefully turned it over and around—studying it from all sides.
Then she picked up one of her crayons and began tracing the line. She did it as though she were substantiating a conclusion already reached!
It was a bitter confirmation for me. I had been refusing to face it for a long time, but I could ignore it no longer.
Star was a High I.Q.
For half an hour I watched her while she sat on the floor, one knee bent under her, her chin in her hand, unmoving. Her eyes were wide with wonderment, looking into the potentialities of the phenomenon she had found.
It had been a tough struggle, taking care of her since my wife’s death. Now this added problem. If only she could have been normally dull, like other children!
I had made up my mind while I watched her. If a child is afflicted, then let’s face it, she’s afflicted. A parent must teach her to compensate. At least she could be prepared for the bitterness I’d known. She could learn early to take it in stride.
I could use the measurements available, get the degree of intelligence, and in that way grasp the extent of my problem. A twenty-point jump in I.Q. creates an entirely different set of problems. The 140 child lives in a world nothing at all like that of the 100 child and a world which the 120 child can but vaguely sense. The problems which vex and challenge the 160 pass over the 140 as a bird flies over a field mouse. I must not make the mistake of posing the problems of one if she is the other. I must know. In the meantime I must treat it casually.
“That’s called the Moebius strip, Star,” I interrupted her thoughts.
She came out of her reveries with a start. I didn’t like the quick way her eyes sought mine—almost furtively, as though she had been caught doing something bad.
“Somebody already make it?” she disappointedly asked.
She knew what she had discovered! Something inside me spilled over with grief, and something else caught at me with dread.
I kept my voice casual. “A man by the name of Moebius. A long time ago. I’ll tell you about him sometime when you’re older.”
“Now. While I’m little,” she commanded with a frown. “And don’t tell. Read me.”
What did she mean by that? Oh, she must be simply paraphrasing me at those times in the past when I’ve wanted the facts and not garbled generalizations. It could only be that!
“Okay, young lady.” I lifted an eyebrow and glared at her in mock ferociousness, which usually sent her into gales of laughter. “I’ll slow you down!”
She remained completely sober.
I turned to the subject in a physics book. It’s not in simple language, by any means, and I read it as I could speak. My thought was to make her admit she didn’t understand it, so I could translate it into basic language.
Her reaction?
“You read too slow, Daddy,” she complained. She was childishly irritable about it. “You say a word. Then I think a long time. Then you say another word.”
I knew what she meant. I remember, when I was a child, my thoughts used to dart in and out among the slowly droning words of any adult. Whole patterns and universes would appear and disappear in those brief moments.
“So?” I asked.
“So,” she mocked me impishly. “You teach me to read. Then I can think quick as I want.”
“Quickly,” I corrected in a weak voice. “The word is ‘quickly,’ an adverb.”
She looked at me impatiently, as if she saw through this allegedly adult device to show up a younger’s ignorance. I felt like the dope!
September 1st
A great deal has happened in the past few months. I have tried a number of times to bring the conversation around to discuss Star’s affliction with her. But she is amazingly adroit at heading me off, as though she already knows what I am trying to say and isn’t concerned. Perhaps, in spite of her brilliance, she’s too young to realize the hostility of the world toward intelligence.
Some of the visiting neighbors have been amused to see her sit on the floor with an encyclopedia as big as she is, rapidly turning the pages. Only Star and I know she is reading the pages as rapidly as she can turn them. I’ve brushed away the neighbors’ comments with, “She likes to look at the pictures.”
They talk to
her in baby talk—and she answers in baby talk! How does she know enough to do that?
I have spent the months making an exhaustive record of her I.Q. measurements, aptitude speeds, reactions, tables, all the recommended paraphernalia for measuring something we know nothing about.
The tables are screwy, or Star is beyond all measurement.
All right, Pete Holmes, how are you going to pose those problems and combat them for her, when you have no conception of what they might be? But I must have a conception. I’ve got to be able to comprehend at least a little of what she may face. I simply couldn’t stand by and do nothing.
Easy, though. Nobody knows better than you the futility of trying to compete out of your class. How many students, workers, and employers have tried to compete with you? You’ve watched them and pitied them, comparing them to a donkey trying to run the Kentucky Derby.
How does it feel to be in the place of the donkey for a change? You’ve always blamed them for not realizing they shouldn’t try to compete.
But this is your own daughter! I must understand!
October 1st
Star is now four years old, and according to state law her mind has now developed enough so that she may attend nursery school. Again, I have tried to prepare her for what she might face. She listed through about two sentences and changed the subject. I can’t tell about Star. Does she already know the answers? Or does she not even realize there is a problem?
I was in a sweat of worry when I took her to her first day at school yesterday morning. Last night I was sitting in my chair, reading. After she had put her dolls away, she went to the bookshelves and brought down a book of fairy tales.
This is another peculiarity of hers. She has an immeasurably quick perception, yet she has all of the normal reactions of a little girl. She likes her dolls, fairy stories, playing grown up. No, she’s not a monster.
She brought the book of fairy tales over to me.
“Daddy, read me a story,” she asked quite seriously.
I looked at her in amazement. “Since when? Go read your own story.”
She lifted an eyebrow in imitation of my own characteristic gesture.
“Children of my age do not read,” she instructed pedantically. “I can’t learn to read until I am in the first grade. It is very hard to do and I am much too little.”
She had found the answer to her affliction—conformity! She had already learned to conceal her intelligence. So many of us break our hearts before we learn that.
But you don’t have to conceal it from me Star! Not from me!
Oh well, I could go along with the gag, if that was what she wanted.
“Did you like nursery school?” I asked the standard question.
“Oh yes,” she exclaimed enthusiastically. “It was fun.”
“And what did you learn today, little girl?”
She played it straight back to me. “Not much. I tried to cut out paper dolls, but the scissors kept slipping.” Was there an elfin deviltry back of her sober expression?
“Now look,” I cautioned, “don’t overdo it. That’s as bad as being too quick. The idea is that everybody has to be just about standard average. That’s the only thing we will tolerate. It is expected that a little girl of four should know how to cut out paper dolls properly.”
“Oh?” she questioned, and looked thoughtful. “I guess that’s the hard part, isn’t it, Daddy—to know how much you ought to know?”
“Yes, that’s the hard part,” I agreed fervently.
“But it’s all right,” she reassured me. “One of the Stupids showed me how to cut them out, so now that little girl likes me. She just took charge of me then and told the other kids they should like me too, so of course they did because she’s a leader. I think I did right, after all.”
“Oh, no!” I breathed to myself. She knew how to manipulate other people already. Then my thoughts whirled around another concept. It was the first time she had verbally classified normal people as “Stupids,” but it had slipped out so easily that I knew she’d been thinking to herself for a long time. Then my whirling thoughts hit a third implication.
“Yes, maybe it was the right thing,” I conceded. “Where the little girl was concerned, that is. But don’t forget you were being observed by a grown-up teacher in the room. And she’s smarter.”
“You mean she’s older, Daddy,” Star corrected me.
“Smarter, too, maybe. You can’t tell.”
“I can.” She sighed. “She’s just older.”
I think it was growing fear which made me defensive.
“That’s good,” I said emphatically. “That’s very good. You can learn a lot from her then. It takes an awful lot of study to learn how to be stupid.”
My own troublesome business life came to mind and I thought to myself, “I sometimes think I’ll never learn it.”
I swear I didn’t say it aloud. But Star patted me consolingly and answered as though I’d spoken.
“That’s because you’re only fairly bright, Daddy. You’re a Tween, and that’s harder than being really bright.”
“A Tween? What’s a Tween?” I was bumbling to hide my confusion.
“That’s what I mean, Daddy,” she answered in exasperation. “You don’t grasp quickly. An In Between, of course. The other people are Stupids, I’m a Bright, and you’re a Tween. I made those names up when I was little.”
Good God! Besides being unmeasurably bright, she’s a telepath!
All right Pete, there you are. On reasoning processes you might stand a chance—but not in telepathy!
“Star,” I said on impulse, “can you read people’s minds?”
“Of course, Daddy,” she answered, as if I’d asked a foolishly obvious question.
“Can you teach me?”
She looked at me impishly. “You’re already learning it a little. But you’re so slow! You see, you didn’t even know you were learning.”
Her voice took on a wistful note, a tone of loneliness.
“I wish—” she said and paused.
“What do you wish?”
“You see what I mean, Daddy? You try, but you’re so slow.”
All the same, I knew. I knew she was already longing for a companion whose mind could match her own.
A father is prepared to lose his daughter eventually, Star, but not so soon.
Not so soon . . .
June again
Some new people have moved in next door. Star says their name is Howell—Bill and Ruth Howell. They have a son, Robert, who looks maybe a year older than Star, who will soon be five.
Star seems to have taken up with Robert right away. He is a well-mannered boy and good company for Star.
I’m worried, though. Star had something to do with their moving in next door. I’m convinced of that. I’m also convinced, even from the little I’ve seen of him, that Robert is a Bright and a telepath.
Could it be that, failing to find quick accord with my mind, Star has reached out and out until she made contact with a telepath companion?
No, that’s too fantastic. Even if it were so, how could she shape circumstances so she could bring Robert to live next door to her? The Howells came from another city. It just happened that the people who lived next door moved out and the house was put up for sale.
Just happened? How frequently do we find such abnormal Brights? What are the chances of one just happening to move in next door to another?
I know he is a telepath because, as I write this, I sense him reading it.
I even catch his thought. “Oh, pardon me, Mr. Holmes. I didn’t intend to peek. Really, I didn’t.”
Did I imagine that? Or is Star building a skill in my mind?
“It isn’t nice to look into another person’s mind unless you’re asked, Robert,” I thought back, rather severely. It was purely an experiment.
“I know it, Mr. Holmes. I apologize.” He is in bed in his house, across the driveway.
“No, Daddy, he really
didn’t mean to.” And Star is in her bed in this house.
It is impossible to write how I feel. There comes a time when words are empty husks. But mixed with my expectant dread is a thread of gratitude for having been taught to be even stumblingly telepathic.
Saturday, August 11th
I’ve thought of a gag. I haven’t seen Jim Pietre in a month of Sundays, not since he was awarded a research fellowship with the museum. It will be good to pull him out of his hole, and this little piece of advertising junk Star dropped should be just the thing.
Strange about the gadget. The Awful Secret Talisman of the Mystic Junior G-Men, no doubt. Still, it doesn’t have anything about crackles and pops printed on it. Merely an odd-looking coin, not even true round, bronze by the look of it. Crude. They must stamp them out by the million without ever changing a die.
But it is just the thing to send to Jim to get a rise out of him. He always could appreciate a good practical joke. Wonder how he’d feel to know he was only a Tween.
Monday, August 13th
Sitting here at my study desk, I’ve been staring into space for an hour. I don’t know what to think.
It was about noon today when Jim Pietre called the office on the phone.
“Now, look, Pete,” he started out. “What kind of gag are you pulling?”
I chortled to myself and pulled the dead pan on him.
“What do you mean, boy?” I asked back into the phone. “Gag? What kind of gag? What are you talking about?”
“A coin. A coin.” He was impatient. “You remember you sent me a coin in the mail?”
“Oh yeah, that.” I pretended to remember. “Look, you’re an important research analyst on metals—too damned important to keep in touch with your old friends—so I thought I’d make a bid for your attention thataway.”
“All right, give,” he said in a low voice. “Where did you get it?” He was serious.
“Come off it, Jim. Are you practicing to be a stuffed shirt? I admit it’s a rib. Something Star dropped the other day. A manufacturer’s idea of kid advertising, no doubt.”
