What else explained the way women kept throwing themselves at him, despite his reputation for never staying with one woman longer than a couple of months?
Nothing. And she was little different, apparently. Renzo was a flame that she wanted to immolate herself in—even though she knew she shouldn’t. Pitiful. For all her professionalism, for all her belief that she alone would be immune to him, she was no different from the rest.
Faith threw the covers back and yanked on her robe. She owed him an explanation for the way she’d behaved, but it would have to wait until morning. She’d insulted him, and she hadn’t meant to do so. But she’d been confused, scared, and she’d said the first thing that had popped into her head.
The wrong thing.
From the beginning, Renzo had made it clear that the decisions about what she did were hers to make. The decision to go to the party at the Stein’s, though he’d cajoled pretty hard. The decision to come to Italy. Even the decisions about how to style her hair and what to wear, though he’d forced her into making the choices in the first place. He had not once told her how things would be, though he’d certainly pushed her into action.
Renzo might be her employer, but he would not ever expect it to give him access to her body. She knew better, and yet she’d implied he’d believed it did.
Faith’s stomach growled, and she realized she’d failed to eat at the party. She’d been nervous, waiting for Renzo to arrive, trying to hold her own with Niccolo Gavretti—who had refused to let her search for Renzo by herself. Well, now she knew why. No doubt he’d orchestrated that moment when he’d tried to kiss her precisely because he knew Renzo was watching.
Clearly, there was something more between them than simple rivalry—and she’d been the one caught in the middle of their feud tonight, the collateral damage as they waged their war against each other.
Faith slipped from her room, hesitating at Renzo’s door when she saw a light coming from underneath it, but continued down the hall and then down the marble staircase to the large kitchen at the back of the house.
She found a loaf of bread on the counter and some cheese in the fridge, and then dug around for a knife with which to slice them. Once she’d fixed a small plate, she turned to go back to her room, but stopped when a shadow moved outside the door. Her heart lodged in her throat and she wondered for a moment if she should scream, but then the door opened and a man stepped inside.
A man with a tiny, mewling bundle in his arms.
“Renzo?”
He looked up as if he’d just realized she was there. The kitten mewed again, such a sad, pitiful little sound, and Faith’s heart squeezed tight.
Renzo came toward her and set the kitten on the large island, blocking the tiny thing from escaping. “I kept hearing something outside my window,” he said. “I couldn’t find the mother, or any trace of other kittens. I think maybe she moved the litter and forgot one.”
“It’s so little. It can’t be more than a month old.”
Renzo picked the creature up again and held it out to her. “You know what to do with cats, si?”
She took the kitten, a lump forming in her throat as it shivered hard. “He—or she—probably needs milk,” Faith said. “But we have to warm it up. Cold milk won’t do. It’ll make his belly ache.”
Renzo moved to the refrigerator and took out the milk. Then he found a saucepan and poured some in before setting it on the stove and turning on the burner. His hair was disheveled, and she realized for the first time that he wasn’t wearing a shirt. His broad chest was muscled, firm, and she found her breath shortening as she watched him move.
He wore a pair of sleep pants with a drawstring tie that hung low on his hips, revealing the tight ridges of his abdomen and the arrow of dark hair that disappeared beneath the waist of his pants.
“He must have been terribly loud if you could hear him in your room,” she said, hugging the kitten close and stroking the silky fur. She’d missed having a cat since Mr. Darcy had died last year. The little body began to rumble with a purr instead of a shiver, and tears filled Faith’s eyes as she thought of the kitten lost and scared.
Renzo turned from the stove and leaned against the counter, crossing one leg over another as he stood there looking at her. “Si. I did not realize it was a cat at first, the whine was so high-pitched. He was in the bougainvillea beneath my windows. If I had not been standing on the balcony, I would not have heard him.”
“He’s lucky you went looking for him,” she said.
“I could not leave him there.”
“No.”
After a moment, Renzo turned and rummaged in a cabinet for a small bowl. Then he stuck his finger into the milk on the stove, testing it. Faith’s heart did a little skip at that sign of tenderness in such a hard man.
“It is ready,” he said, pouring the milk and bringing the bowl over to the island. Faith set the kitten down and he immediately began to drink. His purr grew louder, and she glanced at Renzo. They laughed together.
“He is as loud as the Viper,” Renzo said. “Perhaps we should call him that.”
Faith felt heat curling through her stomach, her limbs. “We don’t actually know it’s a he,” she pointed out. “He might be a she.”
“Ah, then we will have to call her Miss Viper.”
“You would keep this cat?” she asked.
“No,” he said softly. “I would give him—or her—to you. Because you miss having a cat.”
Her eyes were stinging. “I don’t have time for a pet,” she said. “I’m away from home too much, working… .” She let her voice trail off as the word brought back memories of earlier.
“I’m sorry,” he said, and she looked up again, met his gaze.
“For what?”
He shrugged. “For what happened in the car. I was…angry. I should not have kissed you like that.”
“I didn’t mind the kiss,” she said softly, dropping her gaze again as her blood fizzed in her veins at the memory of all that heat and passion. “Renzo, I…”
She stroked the kitten’s soft fur, unsure she could say the words she needed to say.
Renzo reached out and put his hand over hers, oh so lightly, and stroked the kitten with her for a moment. Then his hand dropped away, rested on the counter. “What is it, Faith?”
“I’m sorry, too,” she said, forcing herself to meet his gaze. “I shouldn’t have mentioned work. I know you wouldn’t—” She stopped, swallowed. “I know that you don’t expect me to sleep with you simply because I’m your PA.”
“No,” he said, “I don’t. If you sleep with me, Faith, it will be because you want to. Because you cannot imagine another day without giving in to this passion between us.”
“I don’t know what passion is,” she said hurriedly, before she lost her nerve. “I—I’ve never…” Her voice trailed off as her courage fizzled.
He tilted her chin up until she was looking at him, his blue gaze searching hers. “You have never what, Faith? Slept with someone you worked with?”
Her laugh was strangled. “No, that’s not it. I’ve never, um…slept…with anyone.”
He was utterly silent. The only sound in the room was the kitten purring and lapping milk. Her heart was thrumming hard, and a rush of heat climbed into her cheeks, bloomed between her breasts. She was hot, so hot, and she wanted to take off her robe and slip beneath a cool spray of water.
“You are untouched?”
Untouched. It was such a quaint word, and yet it was less shocking than the other word he could have used. Virgin.
Faith nodded.
Renzo slid a hand through his hair and swore softly. “You have stunned me, Faith Black, and I am not easily stunned.”
She tried to laugh it off. “I’m a preacher’s daughter. What did you expect?”
<
br /> “Yes, but you’ve been away from home for, presumably, eight years now. In all this time, you did not find someone you wanted to be with?”
Not until now.
Faith sighed. She was in so much trouble here. And not just because she was alone with a man she desperately wanted. No, it was worse. Much worse. Because she was at least half in love with him already.
He was kinder than she’d expected, more considerate, and he cared about tiny, helpless animals. It was more than she’d thought he was capable of just two weeks ago when she’d watched him leave the office with Katie Palmer on his arm. He’d been so remote then, so perfect and untouchable and polished. Not at all the kind of man who would warm milk for a kitten in the middle of the night.
Faith bit down on the inside of her lip. She wasn’t really in love with him—but she could be if he kept doing things that made her heart tighten in her chest.
“It’s not that simple,” she said.
“I don’t see why not.”
She picked the kitten up again because it had finished drinking and was starting to wander. “Because it’s different for a woman.”
He reached out, stroked the kitten’s head. “Do you know how to tell if it is a boy or a girl?”
Faith carried the kitten over to the window where a shaft of moonlight pooled over the kitchen sink. “Looks like a girl,” she said after she held it up to the light, relieved that Renzo had decided to talk about something else.
“Ah, so Miss Viper it is. But that is not so pretty, is it?” he said, frowning.
“It is a bit much for such a little one,” Faith replied.
“We could call her Piccolo.”
“What does that mean?” He’d said that word to her earlier today, and she’d wondered then.
“Little one.”
It was certainly appropriate, at least for the kitten. But still not quite right. Faith frowned, thinking. And then it hit her. “I think she is a Lola.”
Renzo smiled. “Si, Lola is perfect. What do you recommend we do with her now that she has eaten?”
“She’ll need a place to sleep,” Faith said. “She’ll need something to burrow into, and a small space where she can’t get into trouble.”
“Then we will find something for her.”
They hunted through the kitchen until Renzo found an empty wine crate in the pantry. Then he retrieved a blanket from a closet and mounded it in the center. After they found another small box to make into a litter pan, Renzo helped her carry everything up to her room. They put Lola into a small walk-in closet off the bathroom and closed the door.
She mewed for a few moments while they stood there looking at each other in silence, hoping she would settle down. She did, and they crept from the bathroom, closing the door behind them.
Moonlight slanted through the long windows, illuminating Renzo’s form as he stood in the center of her room. His skin looked warm, silky, and she realized with a jolt that she ached to touch him. To press her lips to his skin and see if he tasted as delicious as he looked.
“A virgin shouldn’t look at a man the way you’re looking at me,” he said, an edge of strain in his voice.
“I’m sorry,” she said automatically, ducking her head in embarrassment.
He closed the distance between them until he was standing so close that his heat enveloped her and her body began to soften and melt. It was novel. Her nipples were tingling, tightening, her sex aching with renewed want. If he spread her robe and slipped her gown off, she would be incapable of protest.
She wanted him to do it, and she feared he would at the same time.
Renzo lifted his fingers to her cheek, skimmed lightly over her flesh. “I’m sorry, too,” he said. “It seems as if I am filled with nothing but apologies tonight. But, Faith, I see now that it would be wrong to take you to my bed. If you were experienced…”
Disappointment filled her. And a thread of anger snagged through the disappointment, pulling the fabric of it taut. “I see,” she said primly, because she couldn’t make herself say anything else. How could she be angry when only a moment before she’d been afraid?
“You are angry,” he said. “I understand. But you’ve saved yourself for a reason, Faith, and you shouldn’t take that next step lightly.”
She hadn’t exactly saved herself so much as she’d had no opportunities. She hadn’t dated very much, because she didn’t trust men after Jason—and when she had dated, she’d inevitably broken the relationship off before they ever reached a point at which she might consider having sex. How did she know, if she got that far, that a man wouldn’t violate her trust again?
Maybe it was a good thing this was happening. Because she wouldn’t have to deal with the inevitable embarrassment and broken heart when Renzo grew tired of her.
“You’re wrong,” she said coolly, because she refused to let him see that he’d hurt her. “I’m not angry. I’m just tired. I think you’ve misread the situation entirely. I was not inviting you into my bed at all.”
His hand dropped away. Somehow, she managed not to whimper. Not to beg him to touch her again.
“Then I will leave you to your rest,” he said, his voice so cool it chilled her. Then he strode past her without another word and walked out the door.
After he was gone, Faith threw herself onto the bed in a dramatic maneuver worthy of generations of Southern women, and cried into her pillow. Angry tears, she told herself. Angry, frustrated, bitter tears.
CHAPTER EIGHT
RENZO COULD HARDLY wrap his head around the fact that his sexy PA was still a virgin. How was this possible when she was so passionate beneath the prim exterior? This was a woman who kissed with her whole body. She focused every bit of concentration she had on the meeting of lips and tongues, and the effect was exquisite.
Renzo shifted at his desk as his body began to react to the memory of kissing her last night in his car. She’d been like a living flame in his arms, and he’d wanted to burn himself up in her. When he’d encountered the damp evidence of her desire for him, it had been all he could do not to rip the thin silk from her body and bury himself inside her then and there.
Thankfully he had not, since she was a virgin. Not only would she likely not have appreciated such an introduction to lovemaking, but what if she took it too seriously? What if she thought that because they’d had sex, they had a future together?
Faith was serious, proper, a preacher’s daughter. She’d probably want to get married, have babies, do charity work, hostess parties and drag him to school functions.
He did not know that for a fact, but if it was true, he did not want to hurt her when she learned he wanted none of those things. He wasn’t against marriage or babies in principle, but he wasn’t quite sure he would ever take that step.
He liked his life the way it was. He liked the excitement of the track, the excitement of a new lover in his bed whenever he chose, and the excitement of creating something that would make him richer than he’d ever dreamed possible when he’d still been an angry teenager with a grudge against the world.
In short, he liked the freedom to do what he wished. He always made it clear to the women who got involved with him there was no future with him, and he didn’t see that changing anytime soon.
Faith said he’d misread her last night, but he was certain he had not. She’d wanted him, and if he’d swept her into his arms and carried her to the bed, he was fairly certain she would not have objected. If he’d done so, he could be buried inside her right now instead of sitting at his desk and fighting an erection that wouldn’t go away.
Renzo glanced down at the report that she’d handed him an hour ago, and then back up at where Faith sat at a desk nearby, clicking keys on her computer and generally ignoring him. He couldn’t seem to concentrate on anything other than her. I
t was quite annoying.
If he had sex with her, she would leave him—but perhaps that was the lesser of two evils at this point since he needed to turn his attention to the next few months on the circuit and couldn’t seem to do so.
He let his eyes skim down her form. Her hair was perfectly coiffed this morning, and she wore a cinnamon-
colored jacket and skirt that showed off her legs. Gone were the unfashionable short black heels; in their place was a pair of platform pumps in brown suede. Faith had her legs tucked to one side of her chair, one lovely leg crossed over the other.
Thank God she had not looked like this in New York.
He’d been insane to take her to a salon, even more insane to take her shopping afterward. He’d known she was beautiful beneath the ill-fitting suits and glasses and severe buns, but he’d made a mistake in showcasing that beauty for others to see.
For Niccolo Gavretti to see. Renzo’s grip tightened on the pen he was holding until he threw it down in disgust before it cracked. Gavretti had tried to kiss her and it had made him crazy. Crazy enough to mark her as his at a party attended by everyone who was anyone. Soon, the story would appear in the tabloids that regularly reported on his life. He had a feeling that Faith wouldn’t like that, but there wasn’t much he could do about it now.
She must have sensed he was looking at her because her head snapped up, her eyes meeting his evenly. But then she glanced down, just for a moment, and he knew she was still thinking about it, too.
“How is Lola this morning?” he asked, thinking of the tiny ball of fur that he’d found in the bougainvillea. The little thing had clawed him something fierce until she’d realized he wasn’t going to hurt her. He had scratch marks on his arms this morning, and one on his chest.
“She’s fine,” Faith said. “I think she’ll be able to eat kitten food if I can go and buy her some today.”
Renzo waved a hand. “Consider it done,” he said, picking up his mobile phone and calling Fabrizio, the household butler. “Anything else?” he asked while he still had the man on the phone.
The Change in Di Navarra's Plan Page 26
