I took one step backwards and fell on the small step leading down to the dance floor. Someone caught me before I hit the floor, strong arms around my waist, pressing me against the bare skin of a very masculine chest. I could feel that without looking. I was held effortlessly, feet dangling, and I knew those arms, the feel of that chest, the smell of his skin this close. I craned my head backwards and found myself staring at Richard.
5
I STOPPED BREATHING . To be suddenly inches away from him after all this time was too much. He leaned that painfully handsome face over mine, and the thick waves of his brown hair fell against my skin. His mouth hovered over mine, and I think I would have said, no, or moved, but two things happened at once. He tightened his one-armed hold around my waist, a movement that was almost painful. Then his newly free hand gripped my chin, held my face. The touch of his hands, the strength in them made me hesitate. One moment I was staring into his deep brown eyes, the next, his face was too close and he was kissing me.
I don’t know what I expected, a chaste kiss, I think. It wasn’t chaste. He kissed me hard enough to bruise, hard enough to force my mouth open, then he crawled inside, and I could feel the muscles in his mouth, his jaw, his neck working as he held me, explored me, possessed me. I should have been angry, pissed, but I wasn’t. If he hadn’t held me immobile I’d have turned in his arms, pressed the front of my body against his. But all I could do was taste his mouth, feel his lips, try to drink him down my throat, as if he were the finest of wines and I was dying of thirst.
He finally drew back from me, enough for me to see his face. I stared breathlessly at him, as if my eyes were hungry for the sight of those perfect cheekbones, the dimple that softened an utterly masculine face. There was nothing feminine about Richard. He was the ultimate male in so many ways. The electric lights caught strands of gold and copper, like metallic wire through the deep brown of his hair.
He lowered me slowly to the ground from his height of six one. His shoulders were broad, chest deep, waist tight and narrow, stomach flat, with a fine line of dark hair running down the middle of it and vanishing into the black vinyl pants he was wearing. More black vinyl! I was sensing a theme here, but my gaze traveled down his body just the same. Tracing the narrow hips, lingering where I shouldn’t have been, noticing things I wished I hadn’t, because we were in public, and I wasn’t planning on seeing him naked tonight. Knee-high leather boots completed his outfit. The only things he was wearing on his upper body were leather and metal-studded “bracelets” and a matching collar.
A hand touched my back, and I jumped and whirled around, turning so I could face them both, because I knew who was behind me. Jean-Claude stood there, eyes having bled back to normal.
I finally found my voice. “You called him.”
“We had an arrangement that whoever you called first would contact the other.”
“You should have told me,” I said.
Jean-Claude put his hands on his hips. “I am not taking the blame for this. He wished to be a surprise, against my wishes.”
I looked at Richard. “Is that true?”
Richard nodded. “Yes.”
“Why?”
“Because if I’d played fair I still wouldn’t have gotten a kiss. I couldn’t stand the thought of seeing you tonight and not touching you.”
It wasn’t so much his words as the look in his eyes, the heat in his face, that made me blush.
“I have played you fair tonight, ma petite, and yet I am punished, rather than rewarded.” Jean-Claude held out his hand to me. “Shall we begin with a kiss?”
I was suddenly aware that we were standing on the dance floor near the metal framework and the waiting “actors.” We had the audience’s attention, and I didn’t want that. I realized something I hadn’t with the stone shield in place. Almost everyone in the room was a shapeshifter. I could feel their energy like the brush of warm electric fur, and they could feel ours.
I nodded. I suddenly wanted the privacy that Jean-Claude had offered earlier. But staring from Jean-Claude to Richard, I realized I didn’t trust myself alone with them. If we had a room to ourselves I couldn’t guarantee that the sex would be merely metaphysical. Admitting that even to myself was embarrassing. As uncomfortable as it was to do what we had to do in public, it was still better than in private. Here I knew I’d say stop, anywhere else I just wasn’t sure. I wasn’t thinking about the wereleopards. I was thinking about how large and bare my skin felt. Shit.
“A kiss, why not?”
“We can get a room,” Richard said, voice low.
I shook my head. “No, no rooms.”
He reached out as if to touch me, and one look was enough to make his hand drop. “You don’t trust us.”
“Or me,” I said, softly.
Jean-Claude held out his hand to me. “Come, ma petite, we delay their show.”
I stared at his hand for a space of heartbeats, then took it. I expected him to pull me in against his body, but he didn’t. He stopped with the width of a handspan between us. I looked a question at him, and he touched my face, gently, tentatively, fingers hovering on either side of my face, like hesitant butterflies, as if he were afraid to touch me. He lowered his face towards me, as his fingertips found my skin. His hands slid on either side of my face, cupping it like something delicate and breakable.
I’d never felt him so tentative around me, so unsure. Even as his lips hovered over mine I wondered if he was doing it this way on purpose to contrast with Richard’s forcefulness. Then his lips touched mine, and I stopped thinking. It was the barest of brushes, his mouth over mine. Then, softly, he kissed me. I kissed him back, being as tentative as he, my hands raising, covering his hands as they cradled my face. He’d thrown that surprisingly long black hair over one shoulder so that the right side of his face was bare to the lights and the hair didn’t get in the way of the kiss. I ran one hand down the side of his jaw, tracing the shape of his face, ever so gently, as we kissed. He shuddered under that light brush of my hand, and the feel of him trembling under my hand brought a soft sound from low in my throat. Jean-Claude’s mouth pressed against mine hard enough that I could feel the press of his fangs against my lip. I opened my mouth and let him inside me, ran my tongue between the delicate points. I’d learned how to French kiss a vampire, but it was a hazardous pleasure, one to be done with care, and I was out of practice.
In slipping my tongue between his fangs, I nicked myself. It was a quick, sharp pain, and Jean-Claude made a soft guttural sound, a heartbeat before I tasted blood.
His hands were suddenly at my back, pulling me against his body. The kiss never stopped, and the urgency of it grew, until it was as if he were feeding from my mouth, trying to drink me down.
I might have pulled away, I might not have, but the moment the front of our bodies touched, it was too late. There was no going back, no saying no, nothing but sensation. I felt that cool, shimmering wind that was his aura touch mine. For one trembling moment we were pressed together, our energy breathing against each other like the sides of two great beasts. Then the boundaries that held our auras in place gave way. Think of it as if you were making love and suddenly your skin slid away, spilling you against your partner, into your partner, giving you an intimacy that was never imagined, never planned, never wanted.
I screamed, and he echoed me. I felt us begin to fall to the floor, but Richard caught us, cradled us against his body, laid us gently on the floor. The power did not leap across to him, and I didn’t know why.
Jean-Claude’s body was on top of mine, pinning me to the floor, his groin pressed over mine. He drove his hips in against me, forcing my legs apart around the slick covering of his legs. I wanted him inside me, wanted him to ride me while the power rode us.
He struggled up on his arms, leaning up and away from me, forcing his lower body tighter against mine. And the power built in a skin-tingling rush, building, building, like that shining edge of orgasm when you can feel it growing
large and overwhelming but can’t quite reach it.
I saw Richard leaning over me like a dark shadow against the haze of the lights. I think I tried to say, no, don’t, but no sound came. He kissed me, and the power flared, but still he wasn’t part of it. He kissed my cheek, my chin, my neck, working lower, and I suddenly knew what he was doing. He was kissing his way down to the hole over my heart chakra, my energy center. Jean-Claude had already covered the one at my base, my groin. Richard’s chest stretched above me, smooth, firm, so temptingly close, and I raised my mouth to his skin, so that as he kissed down my body he drew his naked chest across my tongue. I licked a wet line down his body. He buried his mouth inside the halter top and touched over my heart, and my mouth found his heart at the same moment.
The power didn’t just build, it exploded. It was like lying at ground zero of a nuclear explosion, the shock waves shooting out, out, out into the room, while we melted together in the center. For one shining moment I felt both of them inside me, through me, as if they were wind, pure power, pouring through me, through us. Richard’s electric warmth buzzed over us; Jean-Claude’s cool power poured over and through like a chill wind; and I was something large and growing, holding the warmth of the living and the cold of the dead. I was both and neither. We were all and none.
I don’t know if I passed out or if I just lost time for some metaphysical reason. All I remembered was that I was suddenly lying on the floor with Richard collapsed beside me, pinning one of my arms, his body curled around my chest and head, his legs touching down the other side of my body. Jean-Claude was collapsed on top of me, his body pressing the length of mine, with his head to one side resting on Richard’s leg. They both had their eyes closed, their breath coming in ragged pants, just like mine.
It took me two tries to say a breathless, “Get off me.”
Jean-Claude rolled to one side without ever opening his eyes. The fall of his body forced Richard’s legs to move a little farther out, so that Jean-Claude and I both lay in the semicircle of Richard’s body.
The room was so quiet I thought we were the only ones left in it. As if all the others had fled in terror of what we’d done. Then the room thundered in applause and howling and other animal noises that I didn’t have words for. The noise was deafening, beating against my body in waves as if I had nerves in places where I’d never had nerves before.
Asher was suddenly standing over us. He knelt beside me, touching the pulse in my neck. “Blink if you can hear me, Anita.”
I blinked.
“Can you speak?”
“Yes.”
He nodded and touched Jean-Claude next, stroking a hand down his cheek. Jean-Claude opened his eyes at the touch. He gave a smile that seemed to mean more to Asher than to me, because it made Asher laugh. The laugh was a very masculine one, as if they’d shared some dirty joke that I didn’t understand. Asher crawled around me until he was kneeling by Richard’s head. He lifted a handful of thick hair so he could see Richard’s face clearly. Richard blinked at him, but didn’t seem to be focusing.
Asher bent low over Richard, and I heard him say, “Can you hear me, mon ami?”
Richard swallowed, coughed, and said, “Yes.”
“Bon, bon.”
It took me two tries but I had a smart-aleck comment, and I was going to make it. “Now, everyone who can stand, raise their hands.” None of us moved. I felt distant, floating, my body too heavy to move. Or maybe my mind was too overwhelmed to make it move.
“Have no fears, ma cherie, we will attend you.” Asher stood, and it was as if it were a signal. Figures moved out of the crowd. I recognized three of them. Jamil’s waist length cornrows looked right at home with his black leather outfit. He was Richard’s lead enforcer, or Sko¨ff. Shang-Da didn’t look comfortable in black leather, but the six-foot-plus Chinese never looked comfortable outside of nice dress clothes with polished wing tips. Shang-Da was the other enforcer for the pack, the Hati. Sylvie knelt beside me, looking splendid in vinyl, her short brown hair touched with burgundy highlights. Though it looked good, I knew she was conservative enough that it was probably a temporary color. She sold insurance when she wasn’t being Richard’s second in command, his Freki, and insurance salespeople didn’t have hair the color of a good red wine.
She smiled at me, wearing more makeup than I’d ever seen her in. It looked great, but it didn’t really look like Sylvie. For the first time I thought how pretty she was, and that she was almost as delicate-looking as me.
“I owed you a rescue,” she said. Once upon a time a bunch of nasty vampires had come to town to teach Jean-Claude, Richard, and me a lesson. They’d taken prisoners along the way. Sylvie had been one of them. I’d gotten her out, and I’d kept my promise to see everyone who touched her dead. She did the actual killing, but I delivered them up to her for punishment. She kept a few bones as souvenirs. Sylvie would never complain that I was too violent. Maybe she could be my new best friend.
The werewolves took up positions around us, facing outward like good bodyguards. None of them were as physically imposing as Narcissus’s bodyguards had been, but I’d seen the wolves fight, and muscles aren’t everything. Skill counts, and a certain level of ruthlessness.
Two vampires came to stand with Asher and the wolves. I didn’t recognize either of them. The woman was Asian, with shining black hair that fell barely to her shoulders. The hair was nearly the same color and brilliance as the vinyl cat suit that clung to nearly every inch of her body. The suit made sure you were aware of her high, tight breasts, her tiny waist, the swell of her shapely hips. She gave me an unfriendly look with her dark eyes, before she turned her back on me and stood, hands at her side, waiting. Waiting for what, I wasn’t sure.
The second vampire was male, not much taller than the woman, with thick brown hair that had been shaved close to his head, except for a layer left on top that came about halfway to his eyes, shining and straight. He gazed down on me with a smile, eyes the color of new pennies, as if his brown eyes held just a trace of blood in them.
He turned his attention outward, arms crossed over the black leather of his chest. They too faced outward like good bodyguards, letting the crowd know that even though we couldn’t stand up, we weren’t helpless. Comforting, I guess.
Jason crawled in between their legs, head hanging down, as if he were almost too tired to move. He raised his blue eyes to me, and the look was almost as unfocused as I felt.
He gave a pale version of his usual grin and said, “Was it good for you?”
I was feeling better enough to try and sit up, but failed. Jean-Claude said, “Lie a little longer, ma petite.”
Since I had no choice, I did what he suggested. I lay staring up at the dark, distant ceiling with its rows of lights. They’d turned off most of them, so that the club was nearly dark. Like the soft gloom that comes when you close the drapes during the day.
I felt Jason lay down on the other side of me, head resting on my thigh. Not long ago I’d have made him move, but I’d spent my time away learning how to be comfortable being close with the wereleopards. It had made me more tolerant of everyone, apparently. “Why are you tired?”
He rolled his head up to look at me without raising it from my leg, one hand curving over my calf as if to keep his balance. “You spill sex and magic through the whole club and you ask why I’m tired? You are such a tease.”
I frowned at him. “One more comment like that and you’ll have to move.”
He snuggled his head on my hose. “I can see that your underwear matches.”
“Get off of me, Jason.”
He slid to the floor without being told twice. He could never leave well enough alone, our Jason. He always had to get the last joke, the last comment, that one bit too many. I worried that someday with someone else that little quirk might get him hurt, or worse.
Richard propped himself up on one elbow, moving slowly as if he wasn’t sure everything was working. “I don’t know if that felt better th
an anything else we’ve ever done, or worse.”
“It feels like a combination of a hangover and mild flu to me,” I said.
“And yet it feels good,” Jean-Claude said.
I finally got upright and found that they both had a hand at my back to support me, as if their movements had been simultaneous.
I actually leaned in against their hands, rather than telling them to move. One, I was still shaky; two, I just didn’t find the physical contact unpleasant. All these months of trying to forge the wereleopards into a cohesive, friendly unit, and it was me that had learned to be cohesive and friendly. Me that had learned that not every helping hand is a threat to my independence. Me that had learned that not every offer of physical closeness is a trap or a lie.
Richard sat up first, slowly, keeping his hand on my back. Then Jean-Claude sat up, keeping his hand very still against me. I felt them exchange glances. This was the moment that I usually pulled away. We’d have some fantastic sex, metaphysical or otherwise, and that was my cue to close down, hide. We were in public, all the more reason to do it.
I didn’t pull away. Richard’s arm slid cautiously up my back, over my shoulders. Jean-Claude’s arm moved lower around my waist. They both pulled me into the curve of their bodies as if they were some huge, warm vinyl-covered chair with a pulse.
Some say that that moment during sex when you both have an orgasm your auras drop, you blend your energies, yourselves together. You share so much more than just your body during sex, it’s one of the reasons you should be careful who you do it with. Just sitting there on the floor with them was like that. I could feel their energies moving through me, like a low-level current, a distant hum. In time I was pretty sure it would become white noise—something you can ignore, like psychic shielding when you no longer have to concentrate on it. But now it was like we would always walk, move, through that dreamy afterglow where you were still connected, still not quite back in your own skin. I didn’t push them away, because I didn’t want to. Pushing them away would have been redundant. We didn’t need to touch to breach the barriers anymore. And that should have scared me more than anything else, but it didn’t.
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