“I hope most sincerely that it does not come to that, but I came with the leopards, and we will go with them, under whatever circumstances that leave-taking will be.”
“You have destroyed your people,” Jacob said.
Richard turned on him. “I am Ulfric here, Jacob, not you. I say what will be destroyed and what will not.”
“I meant no offense, Ulfric.” But his voice made the words a lie. “I meant only that if it comes to a fight the rats cannot defeat us. Perhaps their king would like to reconsider who he owes a debt of honor to.”
“A debt of honor exists whether you want it to or not,” Rafael said. “Richard understands what it means to owe an honor-debt. That is why I know that Richard will honor our treaty. I have no such assurances when it comes to other members of this pack.”
There, he’d said it. It was as close to saying, I don’t trust you, Jacob, as he could get. A spreading well of silence filled the clearing, so that the brush of cloth, the shift of a furred body was suddenly loud.
Richard’s hands tightened on the arms of his throne. I watched him, because he was shielding so tight against me that I couldn’t feel him, but I could watch, watch him think. “Are you saying that if I am no longer Ulfric that the treaty no longer holds?”
“Yes, that is what I’m saying.”
Richard and Rafael stared at each other for a long time, then the faintest of smiles played on Richard’s lips. “I have no plans to step down as Ulfric, so the treaty should be secure for a while, unless Jacob has other plans.”
That one statement sent a wave of unease through the waiting werewolves. You could feel it, see it spreading out through them, as if they smelled a trap of some kind.
Jacob looked surprised, shocked. He was a perfect stranger, but I watched the confusion play over his face, as he tried to think of what to say. If he said he had no designs on the throne, then he would be foresworn, and the shapeshifters were a little touchy about things like that.
Jacob was either going to have to lie or declare his intentions, and the look on his face said clearly he wasn’t ready to do that.
A woman’s voice came from the right, clear and ringing like she’d had stage training. “Aren’t we getting distracted from the business at hand? I for one am very interested in choosing the new lupa.”
The woman was tall, but built all of curves, voluptuous the way that movie stars in the fifties had been. She seemed soft, feminine, yet she stalked over the ground in a swaying glide, half sex on the hoof and half predatory, like she’d lure you in by playing victim, fuck you till you cried for mercy, then eat your face off.
She was even wearing a dress, one that clung to her curves and had a neckline so low that you knew she had to be wearing a bra. Breasts that size didn’t do perky without some help. She stalked barefoot, her deep red hair styled and perfect, falling just above her shoulders in a burnished shine.
“We’ll get around to choosing the new lupa,” Richard said.
She dropped to her knees in front of the throne, folding the dress under her thighs, very ladylike, though making sure to lean forward enough for Richard to look straight down her cleavage. I didn’t like her much.
“You can’t blame us for being eager, Ulfric. One of us,” and she hesitated, making it clear that the “us” was for politeness’ sake, “will be chosen lupa and become your mate all in one glorious night.” Her voice had dropped to a sultry murmur, still loud enough to be heard.
Nope, didn’t like her. I had no room to bitch with Micah standing beside me, but that didn’t matter. Logic had nothing to do with it. I wanted to grab a handful of that bottle-dyed red hair and hurt her. It wasn’t until Micah touched my arm that I realized I’d been caressing one of the knives in its wrist sheath. Sometimes I touch my weapons when I’m nervous; sometimes my body just betrays my thoughts. I forced my hands to be still, but I was so not happy.
“Go back with the other candidates, Paris,” Richard said. He was carefully not looking at her, as if he were afraid to. That didn’t make it better; it made it worse.
She leaned forward, putting a hand on his knee. He jumped. “You can’t blame us for being eager, Ulfric. We’ve all wanted you for so very long.”
Richard’s face had thinned down with anger. “Sylvie,” he said.
Sylvie smiled, and it was a smile of pure evil pleasure. She grabbed Paris’s wrist and dragged her, none too gently, to her feet. Paris was a good two inches taller, but Sylvie’s power, her beast, made her seem ten feet tall.
“The Ulfric told you to go back and stand with the other candidates. Do it.” She gave Paris a little shove towards the crowd. The woman stumbled, but regained her composure, smoothing the tight dress down over her thighs.
Sylvie had turned to walk back to her place at Richard’s side, when Paris said, “I heard you liked it rough.”
Sylvie froze, and I didn’t need to see her face to feel the instant rage that radiated from her. I knew before she turned, slowly, muscles tense, that her eyes had bled to wolf amber. “What did you say?”
“Sylvie,” Richard said, voice soft. It wasn’t a command, it was a request. I think if he’d made it a command, she’d have fought it, demanded some sort of satisfaction. But it was a request . . . She turned back to Richard.
“Yes, Ulfric.”
“Take your place, please.”
She went back to take her place as Freki on his right side. But the anger boiled around her like nearly visible heat off a summer road.
“I apologize to the swan king, for not recognizing him sooner, but we’ve only met once.”
“Yes,” Donovon Reece said, “I remember.”
“Welcome to our lupanar. I would give you safe passage among us, but I have to know why you are here before I can do that.”
“I am here because the Nimir-Ra rescued my swanmanes from the people that nearly killed her. She risked her life for them. I am here at her side tonight as an ally.”
“I can’t grant you safe passage, Donovan, because if things go badly it will be a fight. If you’re Anita’s ally, you’ll be in the middle of it.”
“She risked her life for my people, I can do no less.”
Richard nodded, and I watched an understanding pass between them. Birds of an honorable feather, so to speak.
“Does she save every shapeshifter she comes across in trouble?” Jacob asked, and he made it derisive.
Richard started to say something, and Sylvie stepped forward, touching his arm. He gave a small nod, and let her speak. “How many of us has Anita saved from torture or death?” She raised her own hand.
Jamil stepped out from around the throne and raised his own. All my leopards raised their hands like a small forest of gratitude. Rafael raised his hand. I finally spotted Louie, his lieutenant, and Ronnie’s boyfriend. He gave a small nod to me and raised his own hand.
Richard stood and raised his hand. There were other hands here and there. Then Irving Griswold, mild-mannered reporter—and werewolf—stepped forward. His glasses reflected the firelight so that he looked blind. He looked like a tall, slightly balding cherub with eyes of flame.
“What would have happened if Anita hadn’t saved Sylvie from the vampire council’s torture? Sylvie’s strong, but what if she had broken? She’s dominant enough to call most of us in, to have forced us to give ourselves over to the vampire council.” Irving raised his hand. “She saved us all.”
Hands went up among the werewolves until nearly half of them were holding a hand up. It made my throat tight, my eyes burn. I wasn’t going to cry, but if someone hugged me, I couldn’t be sure of that.
Louie stepped forward, small, dark, and handsome, with his short black hair cut neat. “Rafael is a strong king, so strong that if the vampire council had broken him, none of us could have refused his call. We would all have been at their mercy. You all saw what they did to him and how long it took him to heal. Anita saved all the rodere in this city.”
The rats raised thei
r hands—all of them.
Sylvie said, “Look around you, do you really want to lose Anita as our lupa? Most of you remember what it was like with Raina. Do you want to go back to that?”
“She’s not lukoi,” Jacob said.
A few others said the same thing, but not many. “If your only objection to her is that she’s not a werewolf,” Sylvie said, “then that’s a poor excuse for losing Anita.”
“Losing her,” Jacob said, “this is the first time I’ve ever seen her. I’ve been with this pack for five months and this is the first time I’ve set eyes on your precious lupa. We can’t lose something we never had.”
There was a lot of support for that, a lot of howls, cries of yeah, applause even. I couldn’t blame them on this one. I stepped forward, moving until I stood alone between my allies and the throne. Silence fell around the clearing, until you could hear the torches sizzling.
Richard stared down at me. I could meet his eyes now. I made sure my voice carried when I said, “Jacob’s right.”
Sylvie looked startled. So did Jacob. And there was movement behind me as people startled. “I haven’t been much of a lupa to the Thronnos Rokke Clan, but I didn’t know I was supposed to be. I was just the Ulfric’s girlfriend. I had my hands full with the wereleopards, and I trusted Richard to take care of the wolves. The leopards had no one but me.” I turned and faced the crowd. “I was human, not fit to be lupa, or Nimir-Ra.” The crowd’s murmur was louder this time.
“I don’t know if you’ve all heard, but there was an accident in the fight that saved the swanmanes. I may be Nimir-Ra for real in a few weeks. We won’t know for sure, but it seems likely.”
They were quiet now, watching me, human eyes, wolf eyes, rats, leopards, but every face held intelligence, a burning concentration. “There’s nothing I can do about that. We’ll just have to wait and see, but my leopard did not injure me on purpose. I will stake my word of honor on that. I’m told that Gregory stands accused of killing your lupa.” I raised my hands out from my body. “Here I stand, alive and well. If you lose me as your lupa, it won’t be because Gregory took me from you, it will be because you choose to let me go. If that’s what you want, fine. I don’t blame you. Until tonight, until just a few minutes ago, I didn’t think I was doing a very good job as Nimir-Ra, let alone trying to be human lupa. Now, I think maybe I was wrong. Maybe if I’d stayed around more, things would be better. I did what I thought was right at the time. If you don’t want me as lupa, that’s your right, but don’t punish a fellow shapeshifter for an accident that happened during a fight where he saved me from getting my heart dug out of my chest.”
“A pretty speech,” Jacob said, “but we’ve already voted, and your leopard has to pay the price, unless you’re shapeshifter enough to win him back.”
I looked back, not at Jacob, but at Richard. “Richard, please.”
He shook his head. “I can’t undo the vote, Anita. I would if I could.” He sounded tired.
I sighed. “Fine, how do I win Gregory back?”
“She needs to stop being lupa, before she can be Nimir-Ra.” This from Paris, who though back in the crowd, still managed to make her voice ring over the clearing.
“I thought you voted me out as lupa,” I said.
“They have,” Richard said, “but to make it official by our laws, there’s a ceremony that will sever your ties to us.”
“Is it a long ceremony?” I asked.
“It can be,” he said.
“Let me get Gregory out first, then I’ll do whatever lukoi ceremony you want me to do.”
“You have the right to refuse to step down,” Sylvie said.
I looked at Richard.
“You have that right.” His face, his voice, were neutral as he said it. I couldn’t tell if he was happy or sad about the idea.
“What happens if I refuse?”
“You’d have to defend your right to be lupa, either by one-on-one combat with any dominant that wants the job . . .” And he stopped there.
Sylvie looked at him, but it was Jacob who finished. “Or you can prove that you’re lupa enough to keep the job by annointing the throne.”
I just looked at him and shrugged. “Annointing the throne—what does that mean?”
“You fuck the Ulfric on the throne in front of all of us.”
I was already shaking my head. “Somehow I don’t think either Richard or I are up to public sex.”
“It’s a little more complicated than that,” Richard said. He looked at me, and there was so much in his eyes—anger, pain—that it hurt to hold his gaze.
“Sex alone isn’t enough. We’d have to have a mystical connection between our beasts.” He was quiet, and I thought he’d finished, but he hadn’t. “Like you have with your Nimir-Raj.”
We stared at each other. I couldn’t think of anything good to say, but I had to say something. “I’m sorry.” My voice came out soft, almost sad.
“Don’t apologize,” he said.
“Why not?”
“It’s not your fault, it’s mine.”
That made me widen my eyes at him. “How so?”
“I should have known you’d have that kind of bond with your mate. You’re more powerful as a human than most true lupas.”
I looked at him. “What are you saying, Richard? That you wish you’d made me one of you while you had the chance?”
He lowered his eyes as if he couldn’t bear for me to see his expression anymore. I stepped closer, close enough to touch him, close enough so that his vibrating energy spilled like a march of insects across my skin. It made me shiver. But I felt something else, something I’d never felt before, not with Richard.
My beast spilled over my skin and reached out like a playful kitten to swat at Richard’s power. The energies sparked against each other, and I could almost see the play of colors in my head, like flint and steel being struck against one another, except in technicolor.
I heard Richard catch his breath; his eyes were very wide. His voice came hoarse, almost strangled. “Did you do that on purpose?”
I shook my head. I didn’t trust myself to speak. The sparks had quieted, and it was as if I were leaning against a nearly solid wall of power, his and mine, as if I could have leaned against that energy and it alone would have kept us from touching. I finally found my voice, but it was a whisper. “What’s happening?”
“The marriage of the marks, I think,” he said, voice almost equally soft.
I wanted so badly to reach through that power and touch him, to see if the beasts would roll through each other like they did for Micah and me. I knew it was silly, he was wolf, and apparently I was leopard, so our beasts wouldn’t recognize each other. But I’d loved Richard for so long, and we were bound to each other by Jean-Claude’s marks, and I carried a piece of his beast inside me. I had to know. I had to know if I could have with Richard what I had with Micah.
My hand moved through the power, and it was like shoving it into an electric socket. The energy was so strong, it bit along my skin. I was reaching for his shoulder, a nice neutral place to touch someone, when he rolled off the side of the throne and was suddenly standing beside it. He’d moved so fast I couldn’t follow with my eyes. I’d seen the beginning of the movement and the end, but the middle—I’d blinked and missed it.
“No, Anita,” he said, “no, if we can’t ever touch again, I don’t want to feel your beast. We may not be the same animal, but it will be more than anything we’ve ever had between us. I couldn’t bear it.”
I let my hand fall to my side and stepped back far enough from the throne for him to regain his seat. I wasn’t apologizing again, but I wanted to. I wanted to cry for both of us, or scream. I know the universe has a sense of irony, and sometimes you get reminded just how sadistic that can be.
I would finally have to accept his furry half, because I’d have one of my own. I could be Richard’s nearly perfect lover, at long last, and we could never touch each other again.
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RICHARD WAS SITTING on his throne again, and I was standing back far enough for him to feel safe. Rafael, Micah, and Reece had all moved up beside me, a half-circle of kings at my back. It should have made me feel secure. It didn’t. I was tired, so terribly tired, so terribly sad. Even with Micah at my back, I couldn’t stop looking at Richard, couldn’t stop wondering, what if. Oh, I knew, I’d never have allowed him to make me a werewolf on purpose, but a small part of me wondered. But I told that small part to shut up, and I got down to business.
“I want Gregory back unharmed. How do I do that, according to lukoi law?”
Richard said, “Jacob.” That one word sounded as tired as I felt.
Jacob stepped forward, obviously pleased with himself. “Your leopard is here on our land, and we’ve done nothing to hide his scent trail. If you can track him, you can take him home.”
I raised my eyebrows at him. “I have to follow a scent trail like a dog?”
“If you were a true shapeshifter, you could do it,” Jacob said.
“This isn’t a fair test,” Rafael said. “She hasn’t had her first change. Most of our secondary powers don’t appear until after our first full moon.”
“It doesn’t have to be scenting,” Richard said, “but it must be something that only a shapeshifter could do. Something that only a shifter powerful enough to truly be Nimir-Ra, or lupa, could do.” He was looking at me when he said it, and there was something in his eyes, something he was trying to tell me.
“That doesn’t sound very fair either,” Micah said.
Richard kept looking at me, willing me to understand him. I didn’t know why he didn’t just drop his shields and let me see his mind.
Almost as if Richard had read my mind, he said, “No werewolf or wererat or wereleopard, no one can aid you in finding your leopard. If anyone interferes in any way, then the test is invalid, and he’ll die.”
“Even if that help is metaphysical?” I asked.
Richard nodded. “Even if.”
I looked at him, studied his face, and frowned. I finally shook my head. I’d had a vision of where Gregory was, and under what circumstances, but it gave me no real clue. All I really needed to do was ask someone where a hole was with bones at the bottom. But I couldn’t ask anyone there. Then I had an idea.
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