by Jim Sano
The Father’s Son
A Novel
By Jim Sano
Kindle Edition
Full Quiver Publishing
Pakenham, Ontario
This book is a work of fiction.
The characters and incidents are products of the author’s imagination.
The Father’s Son
copyright 2019
by James G. Sano
Published by Full Quiver Publishing
PO Box 244
Pakenham, Ontario K0A 2X0
ISBN Number of Print Edition: 978-1-987970-12-8
The Light (photo), by Michael R. McGlothlen, mike-mcglothlen.pixels.com
Cover design: James Hrkach
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Copyright 2019 James G. Sano
Published by FQ Publishing
A Division of Innate Productions
I would like to dedicate this book to:
My Irish mother, Rita Marie Doherty, and Italian father, Benjamin Joseph Sano, who taught us about love, dedication to family, faith and always seeing things from both sides.
My sisters, Florence and Cassie, and brothers, John and Jerry, whom I love dearly and have always been there for me in my life.
My two wonderful, precious, and beautiful daughters, Emily and Megan, who have been a blessing and a joy.
And most of all, my wife, Joanne, who has been my love and my life in the great adventure of marriage, friendship, and the journey of discovering ourselves and each other.
Thank you, God, for the precious gift of a loving family.
Table of Contents
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Acknowledgments
About the Author
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Chapter 1
Against his instincts, David entered the rear of the small wooden church and gazed beyond the vacant pews to the granite altar, the crucifix, and the Stations of the Cross depicted down each side. The silence of the empty church settled over him, and the dim glow of light entering through the multicolored stained-glass windows summoned an inner solace he struggled to resist. He breathed deeply and exhaled, letting go of the emotions of what he had to face.
The faint aroma of burnt wax candles drew his attention to the alcove to his left, to the very spot he had stood as a young boy, more than thirty years earlier. Now standing before the wood-carved statue of Mary, he could feel his eight-year-old hand securely in his father’s rough but gentle grip. He was looking at Mary’s gentle gaze as his father spoke to him. “David, whenever you are lost or need to be strong, always think of Mary. She trusted in God’s plan for her. She knew he would give her the guidance and strength she needed to follow it.”
He tensed. How had his father dared to lecture him about trust?
Anger shivered through him and shattered the church’s spell. With three long strides, he rushed outside, blinded momentarily by the intense afternoon sunlight.
He circled around to the front of the tiny church and stood atop the steep hill looking over the harbor and islands of the humble fishing village known as Stonington, Maine. The sight was nothing less than breathtaking with the rugged coastline, the silhouettes of Isle of Haut and countless smaller pine-treed islands dotting the ocean water in the distance. Nowadays, the harbor teemed with lobster boats and old schooners docked for the night in the calm waters of the protected inlet. Off in the distance, he could hear the foghorn from the Mark Island lighthouse. As he walked down the steep grade of the road, familiar sights flooded him with memories he had long ago buried deep inside. The smell of the ocean air, the clang of the rigging slapping against the aluminum masts of the sailboats, and the rhythmic sound of the waves lapping against the rocky shore made as much an impression on him now as they had each summer when he had come as a young boy to this small town for vacation, until that last year.
His father had taken him to the church before they were to travel home, and little did he know it would be one of the last times he would ever see him.
In the center of the village, he passed the local newspaper office, two art galleries, Bartlett’s grocery, the library where people were sitting on the small stoop, and a used book shop where he spotted his companion from his six-hour journey from Boston. With two gift bags in hand, she glanced up, and an infectiously big smile came over her face as she waved and shouted, “David!” In the late afternoon sunlight, her striking blonde hair and the brightly colored sundress that hugged her attractive figure made it clear that she was no town native.
Before Jillian could ask him whether he was successful with his mission, David placed his arm around her and kissed her. She was a worthy distraction for him and, for the moment, she forgot her question.
They stowed her packages in his car, spent the day together exploring the island, and the evening at the Inn on the Harbor in their room by a romantic fire and a stunning view of the quiet moonlit harbor. Jillian slept while David’s mind was racing all night until the morning hours as uninvited memories forced their way into his thoughts.
By eight o’clock, David was dressed in a finely tailored suit as Jillian wore an attractive but appropriate black dress for the occasion. They grabbed breakfast at the Harbor View Cafe across the street and then headed to the cemetery on the edge of town. Jillian stood stiffly at David’s side as he stared at the names on the gravestones. Next to his mother’s freshly dug plot was his mother’s twin sister, Marie. She’d died as a child, so he’d never met her, but his mother, Ann, had often talked about her. They were born on Easter Sunday, and Marie was the April Fools’ joke that year because no one was expecting twins. Unfortunately, Marie was born with a rare lung disease that often kept her home in bed when breathing was particularly difficult.
Marie and David’s mother were remarkably close, even for twins, and with no other siblings, they enjoyed each other’s companionship more than any friend from school. When Marie’s conditio
n worsened to the point that she could no longer attend school, his mother had carried her books home from school and taught her the lessons. By that summer, Marie’s condition had worsened. His mother had often dwelled on Marie’s final day, when she had sat with her in bed, promising that she would never leave her side, but before the sun had set, Marie had drawn her last breath. His grandmother had pulled his mother out of Marie’s room, tears streaming down her cheeks and body shaking. She’d often uttered the same thing she’d said to her mother that day: “How could God do this to Marie? She’s only twelve years old!” Over time, her sorrow had given way to anger and the inability to forgive God for not taking care of Marie. His mother told him she’d made a vow to be buried with her, to be with her always. That was one promise she had been determined to keep, and now David was making certain she did.
Jillian reached out to David, drawing him back to the present. “Are you okay, David?”
David nodded several times. “Yes. Yes. I’m sorry. I was just thinking about this being the one thing my mother always wanted.”
Other thoughts raged in his head. During his morning run, he had headed up a steep hill and picked a route that ran along the coastline which, with each turn, unburied another forgotten memory as he ran by homes and docks that had seemed barely altered by time. He had slowed to a standstill when he reached the house where his mother had grown up. He recalled spending hours sitting on the wraparound porch with his grandfather and his grandfather’s old, adopted bloodhound, “Duke.” Duke was named from the stories his grandfather, Pops, had recounted about the many years he’d spent on Captain John Duke’s schooner, the Annie and Ruben, hauling large blocks of granite from the local quarry to Boston, New York, and Washington used to build schools, museums, and government buildings. Pops had a profound regard for Captain John and would think of him when he sat beside his dog.
David remembered evenings out on that porch with Pops and his father lighting up cigars and occasions when the entire family gathered telling stories and laughing loud enough for anybody on the harbor shore to hear. His older brothers, Jimmy and Bobby, his sister, Abbie, Pops and Grammy, any cousins that dropped by, and his dad and mom had carried on for hours at a time. He could still envision his mother throwing back her head, giggling and smiling as she glanced over at him or put her arm around his dad. He had forgotten that beaming smile and distinct and infectious laugh of his mother. Until that moment, the picture in his mind of his mom was of a distant, serious and often beaten, bitter expression that had seemed to represent her life after that fateful October afternoon in 1971, back home in Boston, where everything in his life fell apart.
He shook the thoughts away and turned to look at Jillian, startled to realize how exceedingly beautiful her facial features were. There in the unlikeliest of places, he stopped to drink them in as she blushed under his attentive gaze.
He took her hand in his. “I really shouldn’t have asked you to come today. We hardly know each other, and I’ve dragged you six hours to a funeral for someone you’ve never met. I wasn’t thinking or being fair to you.”
“I’m honored that you asked me to come. I just want to be here for you.” She stroked his hand.
“I haven’t really talked about my mother to anyone. I don’t know exactly what to say.” He paused, embarrassed for what he was about to admit. “We may be the only ones that show up.”
“Didn’t you mention you have brothers and sisters?”
“My sister didn’t think burying our mom warranted the flight and hassle of coming out from Minnesota, and my brother didn’t return my calls or letters.” He didn’t tell her he hadn’t even broken the news of his mother’s death to his ex-wife or his two children, which had seemed like the best idea at the time, but now that the day was here, he was feeling differently about making the decision for them.
He pulled his hand away from her and shoved both of them in his pockets as he stared at the casket suspended over the covered grave. “Growing up, she took care of the three of us for years, working long hours at a job I know she hated but was glad to have. Then, she came home every evening to cook our meals, mend our clothes to get a few extra months out of them, and made sure we stayed in school and off the streets. I hardly ever saw her smile, and she rarely took the time for friends or fun. She took care of us in terms of physical needs, education, food, and shelter—and that was all she had to give. Emotionally she was not—” David paused, eyed the funeral attendants shuffling around by the limo, and said more softly, “I’m sorry, I’m going on too much.”
Jillian jumped in. “Please don’t apologize. You need someone to confide in about your feelings, or you just end up bottling them up—but never enough to stop them from coming back up.”
They stood there awkwardly for a few minutes until Jillian spotted a heavy-set woman approaching.
The woman lumbered over to them, out of breath and wiping her forehead with a napkin. “You must be Annie’s son.”
David looked her up and down with no idea who she was. “Yes, I’m David Kelly.”
“David John Kelly,” the woman added before he could say anything more. “I guess you’re wonderin’ who I am.” She paused to catch her breath. “Emma Brown. I was a close friend of your mom and her sister, Marie, and grew up next door to them in Green Head. I felt like a third sister to them and grieved with Annie when Marie died so young. You probably don’t remember my coming over to visit with your mom and family on your grandpa’s porch, but I remember you, the youngest of Annie’s clan. I feel like I know you better than my very own. Your mother used to write me—oh, once or twice a month—and I would read all about you and Abbie and Bobby, and poor Jimmy. She was so heartbroken after the tragedy. I think it sadly opened the wounds from Marie’s death too wide to heal. I kept telling her she had to be strong for you kids, but I constantly worried about her.” Emma turned to Jillian and stretched out her hand. “It’s so nice of you to come with David.”
Jillian smiled. “I’m pleased to meet you too. I’m Jillian Miller.”
David spotted John Colby, the funeral director, approaching them.
John patted David’s back, shook his hand, and greeted him in a distinctive Maine accent with the hushed voice people reserve for sleeping babies and funerals. “David, I hope things have been set up to your satisfaction.” Without waiting for a reply, he waved toward a huge spray of flowers. “Did you notice? From your friends at IMS.”
David glanced at Jillian, knowing she’d shared the location with his secretary to ensure they would send something. She returned a half-guilty smile.
David collected himself. “Thank you, John.”
After a brief welcome to the two women, John glanced around at the empty landscape, as if to check for anyone else climbing the hill to the funeral, then stepped up to the casket, cleared his throat, and stood more erectly—a sure sign he was ready to begin.
David had left the ceremony plans for the funeral home. Because his mother had long ago abandoned religion and God, as she had believed they both turned their back on her sister and herself, he had decided against anything tied to the Church. John read a short meditation on her behalf, and then David read a poem called “Remember Me” that was recited at Marie Kelly’s funeral, one she had picked out before she died.
After the readings, David turned to the casket. “Mom, you can finally rest from all your years of sweat and heartache. You can be with your sister again, the one you loved most in this world and lost without ever knowing what the purpose was.”
As they lowered the casket into the grave, he tossed a clump of soil and a rose on top then turned and walked away.
While Jillian stood by the gravesite deep in thought, Emma caught up with David under a honey locust tree. “David, I want you to know your Aunt Marie’s life did have meaning and purpose, at least to me. I admired your aunt’s strength and her incredibly positive spirit. Others would’ve been mired in lamenting that life was being robbed from them, but not
Marie. She took the smallest things, and not only made us appreciate them but also realize how important they were: a smile when someone entered the room, the tiniest wildflowers along the path we would walk to pick blueberries or sitting to gaze at the view of the harbor from the hilltop. She would ask how I was, even when she was obviously having a difficult day herself or would help out the family down the road because she knew they had so little.
“Marie believed she had a purpose no matter how compromised or shortened her life would be, and she loved your mom more than herself until the end. Well, when I grew up and thought about what my life was going to be about, I thought of Marie. Her example made quite an impression on me. She is the reason I’ve spent the past fifty years helping to build a network of support shelters in Maine and several in Burundi and Nigeria, Africa. I’m not telling you this for egotistical reasons, but to let you know how much your aunt’s life impacted mine. I cherished and loved Marie almost as much as your mom did.”
He watched Emma’s eyes as she spoke and surprised himself with how differently he viewed his mother as Emma’s words unfolded.
Emma continued, “I also loved your mother like a true sister. She wrote to me as if I were the only one with whom she could share her struggles and feelings. Losing Marie was like losing half of her heart. Then losing her firstborn so tragically was plainly too much to bear. But your mom knew she had a job to do, to take care of and raise all you kids the best she could. She desperately wanted all three of you to have a better life, and she believed you, especially, had the strongest chance to fulfill that wish.”
Emma gave David a hug and then pulled a tissue from her purse to wipe the tears from her face as Jillian approached. Emma said, “It was so good to see you again, and I do pray your mom is smiling once more with Marie.” She turned to Jillian. “It was so very good to meet you too, Jillian. Maybe you’ll come back this way someday under happier circumstances.” Emma leaned in to whisper in Jillian’s ear, “And your mate here may be a looker, but I believe deep down there’s something there that would make him a keeper.” She hugged Jillian, and then David, before turning to walk back to the funeral home for her car.
