"Listen, I had the greatest sexual experience of my life that night, other than you putting on my engagement ring while making love to me. If you're feeling guilty because you think you hurt me, please don't. It did hurt, but only for a second, then it brought out a side of me that I never knew existed. I loved every second of every part of what we did. Do you feel like what we did was wrong?"
"I don't know. Like I said, I loved doing it, I got lost in a cloud of lust and desire; I took it too far. I just want to be normal."
"Gavin Price, what exactly is classified as normal? Is normal holding in your sexual desires, pretending they aren't there in your mind? How about fucking the woman you love and being forced to hold back, to be someone you're not, is that normal? How long until you end up so miserable from hiding what you want that you don't even want to have sex anymore?"
"Claire, I just—"
"Don't butt in; I'm not done." I grabbed his hand and looked him in the eyes. "Let me tell you what normal is, Gavin. Normal is admitting what you feel and accepting what it is that makes you tic. You enjoy inflicting pain during sex, not in your daily routine. You aren't a woman beater or a rapist. You like extremely rough sex; there's not a damn thing wrong with that." I hated seeing him so torn up inside. "Baby, you were lucky enough to fall for a girl who enjoys receiving what you need to give in order to be fully satisfied. I'm new to all this, but there's no doubt in my mind that I'm going to want to do that again. You said we were made for one another, well this is proof. Biting, spanking, hair pulling, and some dirty talk, if that's part of our sex life then I'm a happy woman, but don't be afraid to do more to me because I fucking loved it. Our bond is unbreakable, Gav, and nobody has ever made me feel the way you do. Give me the pain that will take me to the same place in my mind I was that night, and by doing that, you'll bring yourself back to life."
"No love, you just brought me back to life. I want to…" My words disappeared and my mind clouded. She'd dropped to her knees and unzipped my pants.
"No more talking, I want my dessert! Just close your eyes, my love; I'm going to take my time. This is all about you. I'm gonna make you cum so hard you'll never question my desire for you again."
Moments ago, I was thinking that I was going to lose her and my past would scare her away, but now she is on her knees giving me the most amazing blow job I've ever gotten. I didn't even care that the neighbors might see. I leaned my head back and looked at the stars while the love of my life made love to me with her beautiful mouth.
CHAPTER 18
Claire
I woke up Sunday morning to a little nuzzle on my chest. Luckily, I'd put on a tank top and panties when I got up in the middle of the night because Miles had climbed into bed and made a pillow out of me. I rubbed his hair as he cuddled against me. "Good morning, love bug!"
"Good morning, Mommy!" He kissed my belly. "I wanted a little brother, but I'm going to have a little sister first."
"Miles, there's no baby in there yet."
"Yes there is. I dreamed it three times, and they were all the same. The pretty angel girl told me that I was going to be a big brother soon, and I needed to protect my baby sister, because that's what big brothers do. She said my baby sister was inside your belly. She was very pretty, she had blonde hair and smiled just like you."
"Well, Daddy and I would love that. Hopefully, it's true."
The bedroom door opened and Gavin and Calvin came in. I gave my dog some love. He was still adjusting to living here, but he had Miles to follow around and play with so he was happy. Gavin blew me a kiss. "Miles, I made your breakfast. It's down on the coffee table. Go ahead down and eat; I put on Disney for you."
"Okay Daddy! Come on, Calvin. Daddy wants to kiss Mommy."
I couldn't help but laugh. "Oh, my God, he's your boy!"
"Well, he's right; I do plan on kissing you. Did you know that breakfast is the most important meal of the day?" He shut and locked the bedroom door before crawling on top of me.
"Well, then, we better not skip it!" I ran my fingers through his gorgeous blond hair and gave him a heated, passionate kiss before nipping at his cheek. "What are you making me for breakfast?"
He had his lustful 'fuck me' face on. He flipped me onto my stomach and tore my panties off. I felt his teeth sink into my bottom on each side followed a hard smack. He massaged the cheeks of my ass and then I felt it, his soft tongue slowly preparing my body for what was next. He pulled on my hair to tilt my head back and put his lips to my ear. In a deep voice, he said, "Baby girl, I'll make you whatever you want after I ravage this beautiful behind."
"Have at it, big boy!" I gave him exactly what I know he loves.
We cuddled in bed for a few minutes but Miles was awake and alone downstairs. I stood up, and Gavin pulled me back down. "Thank you for breakfast, my dear. It was delicious."
"My pleasure, love."
We went downstairs for some couch cuddles and cartoons with Miles. I loved the family time before the craziness of the day.
I kept thinking about what Miles had said. Some people say little kids can see angels, talk to spirits. It was silly, but I wondered if he'd seen Audrey. Had she told him about a little sister? Did she help pick her little soul out? It was a comforting feeling that I wanted so badly to be true. It was too soon to tell, but I hoped we had a pretty princess growing inside me. I was pulled out of my trance when Tara called.
"Hey girlie, what's up?"
"I'm calling to figure out the plan for tonight."
"It starts at 7 o'clock but we need to be there at 6 o'clock. I think I'm just gonna have a late lunch. I'll be too nervous to eat dinner. Want to grab something with me at the diner around 2?"
"Sounds like a plan. What are you wearing?"
"I'm gonna dress up, more of a punk style though. I want to match the type of pictures I'm bringing."
"Good to know. I'll do the same thing. I'm out with Dylan so I gotta go, but I'll see you at 2."
"Later!"
"I'm going to hop in the shower. I'll see you gentlemen in a little bit. Oh, Miles, tell Daddy about your dreams."
"I'll be up in a few to take a shower, too."
I got in and let the hot water relax my muscles. As much as I tried, I couldn't stop wondering, hoping, even wishing Miles' prediction was true. I rubbed my belly and started talking out loud. "Are you in there little one? Did you meet your big sister? Did she help pick you out for us? Jesus, I sound crazy."
"No, you don't, sweetheart." Gavin was standing in the doorway with tears in his eyes. "Don't you for one second think that Audrey won't know the baby we'll have. Be it now or later, we'll be pregnant, and she will have been a part of it. She's your guardian angel, sweetheart, our guardian angel, and she's always with us."
My tears fell uncontrollably, so he stepped into the shower fully clothed and hugged me as I cried. "I never got to say goodbye. I just want to hold her one more time. Out of everything that happened, she's the one thing I can't get over." I was trying to catch my breath. "I just want my little girl back, Gavin. I want Audrey." We slid to the floor of the shower, and he cradled me, holding me tight until I ran out of tears.
He wrapped me in my bathrobe, picked me up, and carried me to the bedroom. He stripped off his wet clothes and climbed into bed with me. Pulling me next to him so we were face to face, he kissed my forehead. "You won't ever get over it. She's your daughter. All you can do is be strong and live with it, and you do a damn good job at that. Every once in a while you're entitled to a breakdown, and I'm always going to be here for you when it happens. I'm your safe place, Claire. Now close your eyes for a little bit, and I'll wake you up in time to get ready."
At 12:30, Gavin gently ran his fingers up and down my cheek to wake me up. I opened my eyes and smiled. "Thank you for taking care of me. I haven't had a breakdown like that in months."
"I'll always take care of you, baby girl!"
"I should get up and going so I can meet Tara." I kissed his fingers one by one. "D
o you know what might make my day get better?" I pulled him so he was sitting on the bed next to where I was lying.
"Why don't you tell me, and just maybe I can help you out."
I pulled him in for a kiss. "Will you eat my pussy, love? I want to cum all over that sexy face."
"Trust me, that's a request I'll never deny; I fucking love the way you taste. Lie down and relax, beautiful, I got this."
CHAPTER 19
Claire
I pulled into Ace's Diner a little after 2 o'clock and saw Tara's car there. I went in to meet her and was surprised to see her without Dylan. "Hey, sweetness, where's your other half?"
"I let him go play with Winston for a while. Between Tyler and me, their bromance has been struggling. I owe you big time for the intro!"
"So did you hop on the magic stick? Inquiring minds want to know."
"Really Claire, the 'magic stick'? What is he? 50 Cent?" She was laughing. "I haven't heard that song in forever! The answer is no, I haven't. He's tried a few times to get really hot and heavy, but I just can't. I really like being around him, and he's beyond sexy, but realistically speaking, I've only known the guy for two weeks. It's crazy that I have a Pinterest file titled YUMMY and ninety percent of the pictures are of him, yet I can't bring myself to do more than kiss him. Explain that to me."
The waiter came to take our order. He'd heard us talking because he looked Tara up and down and smiled. "My stick is very magical, so if it doesn't work out with Mr. Yummy then let me know."
"I'm flattered, but the man has me hooked!"
"He's a lucky man; you're like a decorated version of Snow White. Flawless beauty with just enough punk rock to make a skater boy swoon."
"Wow, you know how to make a girl blush. I just might send my little sister in here. We have different dads. Hers is Native American so she's a decorated Pocahontas."
We both ordered french toast with bacon and as we sat and ate we continued our talk about her and Dylan.
"So how serious is this? Are we talking fun with a friend or meet the parents?"
"I'm not sure really. I know I'm really into him, and I think he's on the same page, I hope so anyway." She made a worried face and sipped her coffee. "What if I'm just a way to kill time? I've heard he can be quite the ladies' man and never has a girlfriend. How can I tell? What happens when some beauty queen spreads her legs? I just can't be that girl, you know, the one who fucks him just because he's Dylan Cross. That might just be what ends whatever this is."
"It's not really my place to say it, but since you're so upset, I'm going to as long as it doesn't leave this table. I know for a fact he's way into you. Winston told me you've clipped his balls. You're the only girl he's ever programed into his phone, and you have your own ringtone. He also said the only people with special ringtones are Dylan's mom and sisters. Yours is "Smile" by Uncle Kracker. Stop stressing, honey; this is something real, and it will happen in your own time." I squeezed her hand for reassurance. "I need to thank Detective Dickhead for being a perv. If he hadn't fondled me in Starbucks, I wouldn't have met them."
"We can send him a pair of your panties!"
I couldn't help but laugh. "I'm sure Gavin would love that! Actually, he probably would if they were post ejaculation panties; he's big on marking his territory. What better way to piss off the man who's obsessed with your girl than to send him her thong soaked in your semen?"
"That's pretty gangstah! It's pretty fucking gross, too."
"I settled on two different pictures of you, the one where you're spread eagled and the Frankenstein tattoo one. I'm using the 50s style zombie picture we took here last year, the Thriller dance from the party, the picture of Gavin and Tyler dressed in Freddy and Jason costumes fighting each other, and the one of Miles dressed as the kid from Pet Cemetery."
"I love that one. That kid is too much. I remember he carried Beth's poor cat around the whole day. That cat really does look like the one from the movie. It's creepy."
"I made a bunch of prints and business cards for KC's also. Oh, I forgot to mention the owner wants to keep one of you to hang in the gallery."
"Shut up!"
"For real. This all seems too good to be true. I have everything I could wish for. It's about time life dealt me a good hand!" I debated whether to tell her what happened earlier, but decided against it. "Did you hear Ty and Winston are official? It's so soon, but I guess sometimes you just know you've found the one."
"I heard about it, and I have to say I'm a little envious that I'm not there with Dylan, but I'm totally happy for them. I'll settle for the fact that I've been with him every day since we met, and he calls me beautiful more than he uses my name. Pet names are fun to have." She raised an eyebrow at me. "So what's this I hear about a certain threesome that took place?"
"Wow, who told you?"
"I'll never tell!"
"It just happened. Gavin and I had some hard-core fuckage the night before that left a lot of bite marks on me. Ty saw them the next morning when she came into my room and bugged out on him. She started touching and kissing them and then got up to leave. He pulled her back down, and before I knew it, there was a lot of touching, sucking, and fucking followed by a sexy cum-shared kiss. It's the craziest thing I've ever done, but I loved every second of it."
"Sounds pretty hot! I've seen you two kissing before, but that kiss would have been fun to watch!"
"I didn't know you were into girls."
"It's been a long time, but I've had my share of pretty ladies. I had a steady girlfriend in college for about a year, and then I was a dick and fucked her brother. Let's just say that didn't end well. The shitty thing is she was way more fun in bed."
"Holy shit! I never would have pegged you for the asshole in a break-up. My sweet little Tara is a cheater."
"Shut it, woman! Let's get out of here. Lunch is on me."
We left the diner, and when I got to my car, I saw the words "HE'S MINE" keyed into the side of my car and all four of my tires slashed. My hands started shaking; I'm not sure if it was anger or fear.
"Tara, wait!" I knew I had screamed for her but couldn't hear my own words because of the thumping in my head.
"Jesus Christ, who the fuck did this? You call Gavin, and I'll call the cops."
Gavin got there before the cops did. "Holy shit! Who the hell—"
I cut him off. "You tell me. You know you're the only man in my life, so who else would this crazy ass bitch be referring to? Just tell me the fucking truth, Gavin. Who were you fucking before we were official? I know there's nobody else now, but who did you cut off last week? It's got to be the same chick who left that picture under my door." I was screaming so loud they must have heard me across town.
"I told you before, I haven't touched another girl since the day I met you. That's the truth, and you better fucking believe me." He ran his fingers through his hair in frustration. He looked like he was going to cry. "Because if you don't believe me, then we don't have the bond I thought we did. I never once lied to you, and I never will."
Tears poured down my cheeks. "I'm sorry, Gavin. I believe you. I'm just scared and angry. I'm so mixed up."
"It's okay, honey. We gotta figure out who's gone all stalker before someone gets hurt."
The cops pulled up in in a black SUV, and I wondered why it wasn't just a patrol car. The doors opened, and of course, Cole and Morgan got out of the car.
Gavin threw his hands in the air. "Wonderful, just fucking fantastic. Of all the cops in Acceta, we get you two LA dickheads."
Cole came up and hugged me. "Are you all right? I was at the Acceta station when the call came in. I told them you were family, and they let us take it."
Gavin looked furious. "She'll be just fine if you keep your hands off of her. You can do your job without touching my fiancée!"
"I'm okay, Cole. I just want to figure this out before anything really bad happens. A picture of Gavin and me was pushed under the door to the shop the other day. I didn't take it ser
iously, but now, I wish I had."
Cole turned to Gavin with a serious look on his face. "I want you to put aside your hatred for me and look at it like this: we both love her and would do anything to protect her. I lost her because I allowed myself to become a piece of shit woman beater who'd fuck any whore who'd spread her legs. I was too dumb and drunk to realize all I needed was the goddess I married. I let alcohol ruin my life, and by the time I changed my ways, I was too late, she loves you. I'll never get a second chance. You won, so stop dick measuring."
Morgan just stood there for a minute then looked at Gavin. "If I don't help you, Grammy will disown me."
Cole focused on Gavin. "Is there anyone who comes to mind that could have done this? Any ex-girlfriends or women you rejected? Were you sleeping with anyone else?"
"No. I have an ex-wife who is somewhere in NYC, but she left me five years ago. I've been trying like hell to get Claire for the last two years, so there's nobody. There's that Sasha girl though, but I doubt she'd do this. She's just a chick who tried to get me to sleep with her, but I shot her down."
"I'm going to want to speak to her anyway."
I chimed in on their conversation. "She's an immature young girl, but she's also a single mom. She's not going to get in trouble with the law because she got shot down for a booty call. I really need to get going though. I have to get ready for the expo. Can we finish all this tomorrow?"
"Yeah, I'll call you tomorrow. Leave me your car keys. I'll text you the info on when and where you can get pick it up." He kissed his thumb and pressed it to my cheek. "I'm going to figure this out. I promise I will." He looked at Gavin. "You won, be good to our girl."
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