by Kate Gallwey
I made my bed among the soft pine needles and slept without dreaming and went through entire years without speaking to anyone. I learnt to shut down my inner thoughts and became capable of being still on the inside as well as the out. The mental noise that nearly all sentient beings have was quiet for the first time, as the song goes ‘I’m looking inside and it’s not so bad….’
The Giant Redwoods protected me as I sat there and travelling within. I journeyed across time and space and found beings that lived there. I found friends and lovers that had passed beyond this life and they also were there in the brightness of the eternal Love and Light.
Bright Teachers of awesome power and insight sat with me for a while. I tuned into that cosmic heartbeat of the One Source that we are all connected to and am part of. That dark whirl of emotions and thoughts had no meaning there; all was washed away with a sense of joy and peace.
Time had no meaning and many months must have passed as I came back to myself again stronger and wholer, as if I had been born again, but covered in dust and debris from the forest.
I stood feeling the life force connection within me reach out and merge with everything that was alive in the forest. I could have fed off it all but chose to blend my Essence with the forest. Very like when Lucian and I achieve the harmony between us when we make love, we blend our Essences into one and become stronger for it. Now I did it with the Redwood forest in North America and I exploded with light as we combined and became one.
Gaia was there as I came back once again to my body; I was dazzled in the afterglow. I was sitting down again under the giant tree. I stared at her and saw for the first time the amazing energy corona around her and the links that she had to everything. She blazed like a Christmas tree, a blue and white one with a sparkling aura that was so beautiful that I wanted to sob with the wonder of it all. But looking with more care I saw great chunks taken out of her, she had known pain recently and all the emotional and spiritual layers of her were stained with the memory of it, the physical body looked whole perfect but someone had hurt her badly.
I blinked away the light show and I looked at her again, long ago she had stopped playing the roll of a child and had taken the form of a young woman, a very lovely one. She still had big brown eyes and long dark brown hair. She looked haunted as if she had received a great wound. She sat down and I took her hand.
“I’m sorry did I hurt you?”
“No no, it wasn’t you. You were hurt as well when I was away.” ”What happened, where did you go?”
“ I thought to go through one of the many rifts that opened up, like you did to warn the others about the Eaters.” She wouldn’t look at me and continued. “He caught me and hurt me. I fought back but wasn’t strong enough I..I… broke and….” she started to weep like she was tired of weeping, tired of hurting alone and I held her.
When she was still I asked? “You were hurt like a male can hurt a female?” “Yes, I was arrogant to think I had any power of my own outside my own sphere. Here my magic works, there nothing worked and I was powerless before him, he beat me and he made me feel a pain that seemed to go on forever and I wanted to die then he made me feel pleasure like I had never known before and I never wanted it to stop.” She paused and took a deep breath, “I had to agree to do many things before he would let me go, He shamed me and made me beg.”
“When He allowed me to leave and I went through his gate there was Lisele calling me to stop you bleeding to death, I had just set foot on my own world again when she called, He knew you see, He knew the future and Saw, the timing was too perfect to be otherwise.”
There was nothing I could say; I just rocked her in total understanding. Our paths in life are sometimes too hard for us to bear alone.
“How did you bear it? How did you remain strong enough to come back again for vengeance?” she asked.
“I don’t think I did, not under the type of pressure you are talking about I sort of run away mentally and just leave my body to it all. There is no magic formula that works every time, just a hope to survive long enough to runaway faster next time. We all crumble and break at some point but the true test of it all is getting back up again afterwards, when there are others relying on you don’t have the time to break, that is when you have to learn to roll.”
I thought about it some more and continued, “I think the main issue is not to become like them. My Creators are pure evil and I am of their creation but not quite yet of their persuasion. If I get near to that level of darkness I know I would rather be dead.”
“Yet you tried to die.” She insisted.Page 181 “I was just running away again, I didn’t want to die, I just couldn’t cope with the pain anymore.” There was a fine line between the two points but I think she understood.
She stood up and looked back down at me.
“I am going to have to do some things that you won’t be happy with. I am going to have to test you to see how close you are to you Makers, when this is through we might fight and I don’t want that.”
“Just not today.” I said as I rose up to stand. “I need some rest and some peace before you throw me into the fight again.”
“I can give you that, but I need you not to fight with Lucian anymore. Can you try that for me?”
“Lucian lost his temper, it was mostly my fault. Tuvak is where the problem lies. Can’t I just kill Tuvak? I said with a smile, I was joking. Well half joking anyway.
“He is your husband too.” She said gently, “In the Laws of his people when you wed Lucian you also wed Tuvak. They are sworn brothers and when you marry one you get both.”
I hadn’t known that. I should have for I had spent long enough on his world; Tuvak had actually told me something of this sort. But in sealing off those memories I had also lost some quite useful information as well.
I looked uncomfortable. Hellion males have drives that can make a human man look like a eunuch, they also have a strong testosterone levels that makes them fierce warriors and energetic lovers, but most of them are crude and uneducated rapists. Tuvak had always wanted me and I had ignored him, to him this must have been a form of torture. Tuvak had had the discipline to keep himself under control for centuries, which was a remarkable achievement, no wonder he had cracked but I didn’t feel for him what he felt for me. I just wish he had fixated on someone else.
I told Gaia about what I had just done by linking to the forest and sharing my energies and how I had found the most incredible truths and wisdoms by following the path within. She had felt where I was by the energy surge that had come from the forest and she knew what I was saying as that was how she had joined our energies when we arrived here, she had worked in harmony with our energy and we had blended, each adding to the pot and then coming away altered.
That was what I had done with the forest earlier; there was a way to gain energy this way that didn’t involve stealing it.
It needed some further study in a quiet peaceful place with no distractions.
CHA
PTER TWENTY
snOW healing
I headed north again and reached an area of the earth that was breathtaking in its scenery. The lakes and peaks were beautiful in their symmetry; I let their peace fill me and continued north.
I entered the snow line and climbed/’ported up the glacier breaks until I found what I was looking for. A pristine valley with towering white mountain peaks surrounding it, no distractions just a white uninterrupted view. I climbed the highest peak and hollowed it out with a spell. I created some sand and with a directed thought heated it to glass; I added some carbon and an indestructible spell and created a huge thick window to keep out the weather and to let in the view.
Inside I created a fireplace and a chimney, which is harder than it looks; the dynamics of a proper working chimney is a science unto its self. I smoothed down the rock floor with a thought and brought up some wood and created a beautiful wooden floor of a deep burnished monogamy. With a couple of rugs and soft furnishings, my large desk and
my library I was home.
I lit a roaring fire and sat back to contemplate the space I had created. I was going to stay away from other beings for a while and study again.
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