Whitney bristled at his tone. “We are all your servants in this house. And I am the lowliest servant of all, for I’m nothing but a bondservant whom you purchased from the debtor’s block.”
“Don’t use that tone of voice with me,” he warned. “I’m not your father.”
“Of course you aren’t,” she mocked. “You’re my owner.”
In three long strides, Clayton closed the distance separating them. Furious that her anger was ricocheting off her stupid father onto him, he grasped her hard by the upper arms, longing to shake her until her teeth rattled. Beneath the harsh grip of his hands, he could feel her body tense, bracing for violence.
She lifted her head, and his anger slowly drained away. Although her glorious eyes were glaring defiance at him, they were sparkling with suppressed tears, shining with pain that he had caused. The translucent skin beneath them was smudged with dark shadows, and her normally glowing complexion was drained of color. Gazing down at her lovely, rebellious face, he asked quietly, “Does the mere thought of being my wife bring you such misery, little one?”
Whitney was shocked by his unexpected gentleness and, worse, completely at a loss as to how to answer. She wanted to appear haughty, coldly remote—anything but “miserable,” for that was tantamount to “weak” and “helpless.” On the other hand, she could scarcely say, No, the idea doesn’t make me miserable.
A discordant note of laughter echoed through the hall, followed by footsteps and chattering voices as three of the Stones’ houseguests passed the salon on their way to the dining room. “I want you to come outside with me,” Clayton said.
He didn’t ask, he stated, Whitney noted angrily. Outside, they crossed the drive and walked across the sloping front lawn toward the pond in the center. Beneath a graceful old elm near the edge of the pond, Clayton stopped. “At least we can hope for some privacy out here,” he said.
It was on the tip of Whitney’s tongue to retort that the last thing in the world she wanted was privacy with him, but she was in such an emotional turmoil that she couldn’t trust herself to speak.
Stripping off his jacket, he placed it on the grass beneath the tree. “I think we could discuss this better if we sat down,” he said, inclining his head toward the jacket.
“I prefer to stand,” Whitney said with cold hauteur.
“Sit!”
Infuriated by his imperious tone, Whitney sat—but not on his jacket. Instead, she dropped to the grass, curled her legs beneath her, and stared straight ahead at the pond.
“You’re quite right,” Clayton observed drily. “The damage to those rags you’re wearing is much less important than soiling one of my favorite jackets.” So saying, he picked up his jacket and put it round her stiff shoulders, then settled himself beside her.
“I’m not cold,” Whitney informed him, trying to shrug his jacket off.
“Excellent. Then we can dispense with this absurd cap you’re wearing.” He reached up and snatched the little mob cap from her hair, and Whitney’s temper ignited, sending a flush of hot color to the soft curve of her cheek. “You rude, overbearing . . .” She clamped her mouth closed in frustrated rage at the glint of laughter in his gray eyes.
“Do go on,” Clayton encouraged. “I believe you left off at ‘overbearing.’ ”
Whitney’s palm positively itched to slap that mocking grin from his face. She drew a long, rasping breath. “I wish I could find the right words to tell you just how much I loathe you, and everything you represent.”
“I’m sure you’ll go on trying until you do,” he remarked agreeably.
“Do you know,” Whitney said, staring fixedly at the pond, “I hated you from the first moment I met you at the masquerade, and the feeling has intensified with every encounter since then.”
Pulling his knee up, Clayton rested his wrist on it and studied her impassively for a long, silent moment. “I’m very sorry to hear that,” he said softly. “Because I thought that you were the loveliest, most enchanting creature God ever created.”
Whitney was so startled by the gentle caress in his voice that she snapped her head around and searched his face for signs of sarcasm.
Reaching out, he traced his forefinger along the curve of her cheek. “And there have been times, when you were in my arms, that you gave no sign of this hatred you insist you’ve always felt. In fact, you seemed to enjoy being there.”
“I have never enjoyed your attentions! In fact I’ve always found them . . .” Whitney groped desperately for the right word, hampered by the knowledge that they both knew her traitorous body had responded to his caresses. “I’ve always found them—most disturbing!”
He slowly brushed his knuckles along her chin, up to her earlobe, sending shivers down her spine. “Those times were ‘disturbing’ for me as well, little one,” he murmured quietly.
“Yet you persisted in doing it, although I told you not to!” she blazed. “Even now, this very minute, I can tell you’re just waiting for another opportunity to—to pounce on me!”
“True,” he admitted with a throaty chuckle. “I’m drawn to you like a moth to a flame. Just as you are to me.”
Whitney thought she was going to explode. “Why you conceited bas—”
His forefinger pressed against her trembling lips, silencing her. Grinning, he shook his head. “It grieves me to deprive you of one of your epithets, but I have it on the best authority that there is no question of my legitimacy.”
Her life was in tatters and he was laughing! Flinging off his restraining hand, Whitney scrambled to her feet and said woodenly, “If you don’t mind, I’m tired. And I’m going inside. I can’t share your humor in all of this. I have been sold by my own father to a stranger, an arrogant, cold-hearted, selfish fiend, who, without a care for my feelings—”
Panther-quick, Clayton rolled to his feet, his hands locking like slave manacles on her arms as he pulled her around to face him. “Allow me to help you itemize my crimes against you, Whitney,” he said with cool calm. “I am so cold-hearted that I saved your father from debtor’s prison by paying all his debts. I am so selfish that I’ve stood by, watching you flirt with Sevarin, so arrogant that I let you sit next to him at that goddamned picnic and snipe at me, when the taste of your mouth was still warm on mine. And why have I done this? Because in my cruel, fiendish way, I want to give you the protection of my name, an unassailable position at the very pinnacle of society, and a pampered life replete with every luxury within my power to grant you.” He looked at her levelly. “For this, do you honestly think I deserve your bitterness and animosity?”
Whitney’s shoulders drooped. She swallowed and looked away, her spirit shattered. She felt confused and miserable, no longer entirely right—yet not completely wrong either. “I—I don’t know what you deserve.”
He tipped her chin up. “Then I’ll tell you,” he said quietly. “I deserve nothing—except to be spared the hatred and blame for your father’s drunken blundering last night. That’s all I ask of you for now.”
To Whitney’s mortification, tears welled up in her eyes. Brushing them away with her fingertips, she shook her head, declining his proferred handkerchief. “It’s only that I’m tired. I didn’t sleep very well last night.”
“Nor did I,” he said feelingly, escorting her back to the house. Sewell opened the front door, and from the salon came peals of laughter and loud, jesting remarks on the progress of the whist games apparently in progress. “We’ll ride tomorrow morning. But if we aren’t going to provide the main topic of conversation for your houseguests, I think it would be best if I met you down at the stables. At ten o’clock.”
In her room, Whitney untied the white apron and pulled off the ugly black dress. Even though it was not yet two, she felt limp and exhausted. She knew she should put in an appearance downstairs, but she recoiled from the thought of the false smile she would have to wear and the gay chatter she would have to listen to; besides, if just one person said so much as a word about th
e Duke of Claymore, she was positive she would have hysterics!
The gold coverlet had been neatly turned down, and the bed beckoned to her. A nap might restore her spirits and enable her to think more clearly, she decided. She slid between the cool covers, and, with a heavy sigh, she closed her eyes.
When next she awoke, the moon was riding high in a black velvet sky. She rolled over onto her stomach, seeking the peace of slumber before she lost it to wakefulness and the torturous thoughts that would surely come.
18
* * *
Clayton was leaning against the fence, laughing with Thomas when Whitney arrived at the stables the next morning. Whitney managed a smile for Thomas, but it died on her lips when she looked at the lazily relaxed man beside him.
When she didn’t reply to his “Good morning,” Clayton sighed resignedly and straightened. Tipping his head toward Khan, who was being led out of the stable, he said, “Your horse is ready.”
They raced side by side across the rolling countryside. Soon the hell-for-leather speed and the fresh autumn breeze revived Whitney’s flagging spirits, making her feel more alive than she had in two days.
At the edge of the woods where the meadow sloped down to the stream, Clayton drew up and dismounted, then walked over to lift Whitney down from Khan. “The ride has done you good,” he said, noting the blooming color in her cheeks.
Whitney knew he was trying to break the ice and carry on a reasonably normal conversation with her. Sullenness was foreign to her nature, and she felt horribly churlish for remaining silent, yet it was impossibly awkward trying to talk to him. Finally she said, “I do feel better. I love riding.”
“I like watching you,” he said as they strolled over to the bank of the stream. “You are without question the finest horsewoman I have ever seen.”
“Thank you,” Whitney said, but her alarmed gaze was riveted on the old sycamore perched atop the knoll beside the stream, its ancient gnarled branches sheltering the very spot where she had lain in his arms the day of the picnic. It was the last place on earth she wished to be with him now. Clayton shrugged out of his jacket and started to put it on the grass, precisely where they had lain the last time. Hastily, she said. “I’d rather stand, if you don’t mind.” To illustrate her point, she retreated a step and leaned her shoulders against the sycamore’s trunk, as if it were the most comfortable place in the world to be.
With a noncommittal nod, Clayton straightened and walked two paces away, propping his booted foot upon a large rock beside the stream. Leaning his forearm on his bent knee, he studied her impassively, without speaking.
For the first time, it really penetrated Whitney’s bemused mind that this man was her affianced husband! But only for the time being, she told herself—just until Paul returned and they could carry through with the plan she had in mind. For now, all she could do was tread carefully and bide her time.
The bark of the tree dug into her shoulder blades, and Clayton’s unwavering gaze began to unnerve her. For lack of anything better to say, and anxious to break the tense silence, Whitney nodded toward the place where he had tied his chestnut stallion. “Why didn’t you ride that horse against me in the race? He’s much faster than the sorrel you rode.”
Her chosen topic of conversation seemed to amuse him as he glanced at the horses. “Your black stallion tired too easily when I rode him the day of the picnic. I rode the sorrel because he’s about equal in stamina and speed to your stallion, and I was trying to give you a fair chance to win. If I’d ridden this brute against you, you wouldn’t have had a prayer. On the other hand, if I’d ridden a vastly inferior horse against your stallion, you wouldn’t have enjoyed winning.”
Despite her dire predicament, Whitney’s lips twitched with laughter. “Oh yes, I would. I would have enjoyed beating you in that race, even if you were riding a goat!”
Chuckling, he shook his head. “In the three years I’ve known you, you’ve never failed to amuse me.”
Whitney’s eyes narrowed suspiciously. “Three years? How could that be? Three years ago, I’d only just made my come-out.”
“You were in a millinery shop with your aunt, the first time I saw you. The proprietress was attempting to foist off on you a hideous hat covered with little grapes and berries, by convincing you that if you wore it for a stroll in the park, the gentlemen would fall at your feet.”
“I don’t recall the time,” Whitney said uncertainly. “Did I buy the hat?”
“No. You informed her that if the gentlemen fell at your feet, they would only be trying to avoid the swarm of frenzied bees who were attracted by a fruit platter wearing a female.”
“That rather sounds like the things I say,” Whitney admitted, self-consciously toying with her gloves. She could almost believe there was tenderness in the way Clayton spoke of the incident, and it flustered her. “Is that when you decided you . . . ah . . . wanted to know me better?”
“Certainly not,” he teased. “I was relieved that the proprietress, and not I, had to withstand those flashing green eyes of yours.”
“What were you doing in a millinery shop?” Before the question was out, Whitney could have bitten her foolish tongue! What would he be doing there, except waiting for his current mistress?
“I can see from your expression that you’ve arrived at the answer to that,” he remarked blandly.
Repressing her irrational annoyance over his being in the shop with another woman, Whitney asked, “Did we meet again after that—I mean, before the masquerade?”
“I saw you occasionally that spring, usually driving in the park. And then I saw you again a year later, quite grown up, at the DuPres’ ball.”
“Were you alone?” The question just seemed to pop out, and Whitney clenched her fists in self-disgust.
“I was not,” he admitted frankly. “But then, neither were you. In fact, you were surrounded by admirers—a snivelling lot, as I recall.” He chuckled at Whitney’s indignant glare. “There’s no reason to glower at me, my lady. You thought they were too. Later that evening, I overheard you telling one of them who was nearly killing himself with rapture over the scent of your gloves, that if the smell of soap affected him so, he was either deranged or very dirty.”
“I would never have been so rude,” Whitney protested, uneasily aware that he had called her “my lady” as if she were already his duchess. “He sounds only silly and not at all deserving of such a setdown, and . . .” Forgetting what she was about to say, she stared past Clayton, trying to bring a hazy recollection into focus. “Did he walk with absurd little mincing steps?”
“Since I was far more interested in your face than his feet, I wouldn’t know,” Clayton responded drily. “Why?”
“Because I do remember saying that now,” she breathed. “I remember watching him mince away, thinking how thoroughly I disliked him. Then I turned around and saw a tall, dark-haired man standing in the doorway, smiling as if the entire scene had amused him. It was you!” she gasped. “You were spying in that doorway!”
“Not spying,” Clayton corrected. “I was merely preparing to lend a hand to the poor besotted devil in case you drew blood with that razor tongue of yours.”
“You shouldn’t have bothered, for he more than deserved anything I said. I can’t recall his name, but I do remember that the evening before, he’d tried to kiss me, and that his hands had a nauseating tendency to wander.”
“A pity,” Clayton drawled icily, “that you can’t recall his name.”
Beneath demurely lowered lashes, Whitney stole a peek at his ominous expression and realized with satisfaction that now he, and not she, was the jealous one. It dawned on her then that if she could appear fickle, perhaps even a little fast, he might have second thoughts about wanting to marry her. “I think I ought to tell you that he wasn’t the only gentleman in Paris who tried to win my affections and became . . . overeager. I had dozens of serious suitors in Paris. I can’t even remember all their names.”
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p; “Then allow me to assist you,” Clayton offered calmly. While Whitney stared at him in shock, he rapped off the names of every man who had offered for her. “I left out DuVille,” he finished, “because he is still biding his time. But I suppose I ought to include Sevarin, since he is trying to offer for you. It appears to me, Madam,” he continued conversationally, again addressing her as if she were already a married woman, “that for a sensible young woman, you are extremely foolish about the men you allow to court you.”
To avoid discussing Paul, Whitney seized upon Clayton’s implied criticism of Nicki. “If you are referring to Nicolas DuVille, his family happens to be one of the oldest and most respected in France!”
“I am referring to Sevarin, and you know it,” he said in a coolly authoritative tone that Whitney particularly resented. “Of all the men I mentioned, Sevarin is the least suitable, yet if it had been left to you, he would be your choice. He is no match for your intelligence or your spirit or your temper. Nor,” he added meaningfully, “is he man enough to make a woman of you.”
“And just what do you mean by that remark?” Whitney demanded.
His glance slid meaningfully to the grassy spot near her feet where he had held her in his arms and taken bold liberties with her shameful cooperation. “I think you know precisely what I mean,” he said, watching the pink tint creeping up her cheeks.
Whitney wasn’t completely certain, but she did know it was not a subject she wished to pursue. She switched to an earlier, less inflammatory one. “If you were so ‘taken’ with me in France, why didn’t you do the proper thing and approach my uncle to make your offer?”
“So that he could fob me off with that nonsense about your being too young to marry, and your father not being ready to part with you yet?” he said with sardonic amusement. “Hardly!”
“What you really mean,” Whitney retorted, “is that it was beneath your exalted position in life to bother being introduced to me, and then to—”
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