“I want to apologize to you about that…my-half-of-the-farm crap I spouted when I first got here. This is your farm. It was always yours and Mom’s. I came here to help you, Dad. Then you dug in your heels, and I, in turn, dug in my heels. I let old…hurts and memories take over. So, if you’re okay with Moss Farms working with the Seniors, I’ll stay on through the holidays and give it all I’ve got.”
Sam Moss could feel his insides start to shake. He knew how hard it was for his son to say what he’d just said. He nodded. He finally managed to get the words out. “I regret the things I’ve done, Gus—for so many things that went wrong. I was selfish. I wanted a chip off the old block. I wanted you to love this farm the way your mother and I loved it.”
Gus reached down to scratch Cyrus behind the ears. “I do love the farm, Dad. I just don’t want to farm it. There are other people who can do it better than I ever could. All I ever wanted was for you to be proud of me. You never ever, by thought, word, or deed, indicated that you were. Mom said you were, but I thought she was just saying what she knew I wanted to hear. I’m a damn good architect, Dad.”
“Come here, son,” Sam said, going into the living room. He opened a chest that served as a coffee table. Gus looked down and saw copies of all his awards, stacks of Architectural Digest where his designs were featured, piles and piles of newspapers that carried his picture and write-ups about him. “Does this answer your question, son?”
Gus was so stunned he didn’t know what to do or say. He knew in his gut this was as close as he was going to get to a real, gut-wrenching apology. The words “I’m sorry” simply were not in Sam Moss’s vocabulary. He decided he could accept that. “Yeah, Pop, except for one thing. If you were so damn proud of me, if you loved me, why did you chop down my tree and give it to the White House? Mom said an hour after I was born you planted my tree. Then you chopped it down and sent it away.”
Sam Moss dropped down on his knees to rummage in the bottom of the chest until he found an envelope. He held it out to Gus. Gus read his mother’s letter addressed to the White House and the reply that was sent to her accepting her offer of Gus’s tree for display during the Christmas season. “Why did you let me think…why didn’t you tell me…?”
“That’s where I am guilty, son. I wasn’t in a good mental place that year. Your mother and I were invited to the White House. Your mother wanted it to be a surprise for you. It was what she wanted. If it means anything to you at this point, I tried arguing her out of it. I dearly loved that old tree. Another year or so and it would have gotten straggly looking. Just so you know.”
And then his father said the magic words Gus had waited a lifetime to hear. “No father could be prouder of his son than I am of you. I’m sorry, son.”
Chapter Eleven
Operation Christmas Tree, as Gus referred to it, kicked into high gear the following Monday morning. His work crew, numbering twelve, arrived at the crack of dawn. Sam’s crew of Seniors arrived minutes later. Both Moss Senior and Moss Junior issued orders like the generals they pretended to be. OCT was under way.
Tillie stepped forward and led the Senior Ladies to the gift shop where they proceeded to set up shop opening box after box of ornaments, ribbons, Christmas toys, bells and everything else she had ordered at the last minute for opening day.
Amy arrived breathless, wearing sturdy work boots, tight-fitting jeans, a bomber jacket and a bright orange hat and scarf. Gus Moss fell in love all over again. When she waved her clipboard at him and winked, he thought he would go out of his mind. Suddenly, all he wanted to do was cuddle, to snuggle, to hold her hand, to whisper in her ear. What he didn’t want to do was go out in the tree fields and wield a chain saw. When she winked and waved again, he groaned and climbed into his truck.
Sam and Tillie poked each other and grinned at these goings-on.
“Seven days to Thanksgiving, then the fun starts,” Sam said happily. “It gets pretty wild around here, Tillie. Are you sure you’re up to it?”
“We’ll soon find out. Did you have anything in mind for Thanksgiving, Sam? If you don’t, I have an idea.”
“Let me hear it, little lady.”
“We always have a turkey dinner at Seniors’ headquarters, as you know. Adeline McPherson makes the best turkeys in the county. I’m sure you know that too. Let’s do the dinner out here at the farm. I know Addy would be more than happy to work in your kitchen and you have those two, big double ovens. We’ll invite everyone—Gus’s crew, their families, all the Seniors, and us. I think it would be a good incentive and a great way to kick things off. Everyone will be in the mood to give 100 percent on Friday morning when the trees go on sale. You’ll have to pay for it, Sam. Can you see your way clear to doing that?”
Sam beamed. It had been a long time since anyone asked for his opinion or for a donation to anything. Giving his trees away simply didn’t fit into this particular equation. “It would be my pleasure. You sounded like my Sara just then, Tillie.”
Tillie looked up at Sam, a stricken look on her face.
“What? What’s wrong? What did I say?” Sam asked anxiously.
“I’m not Sara, Sam. I’m me, Tillie. Please don’t compare or confuse us. I have to go now, the ladies need me. Lunch will be promptly at noon. We need to keep to a schedule.”
Sam ambled off, scratching his head. “That was kind of blunt, Mom, don’t you think?” Amy asked.
“Well…I just don’t…I wouldn’t want…Never mind. What’s on your agenda for today?”
Amy settled her knit cap more firmly on her head as the wind kicked up. “I’m going into town. I have appointments lined up through the whole day. My first stop is the local radio station. I already contacted the stations in the District, and one of them agreed to play my jingle and advertise for Moss Farms every hour on the hour. It’s all free, Mom. The station manager’s parents live in an assisted living facility, and she’s all for anything that benefits senior citizens. On Wednesday two billboards are going up where you can see them from I-95. I had to pay for those but got a 40 percent discount. Local TV is in the bag, all four channels. A new Christmas sign is going up at the entrance to the farm tomorrow. It’s an eye popper—bright red.
“Tomorrow I pick up the Christmas Stocking. For a hundred bucks the Canvas Shop made this twenty-foot stocking out of bright red canvas. It’s going to be weatherproof. We’ll hang it from the tree next to the gift shop. I’m going begging today, asking for donations to fill the stocking. Everyone who comes out here to buy a tree gets to fill out an entry form, and Sam or Gus will pick the winner at noon on Christmas Eve. We’re not actually going to put the donations in the stocking, but we will have a scroll next to the stocking so people can see which store donated what item. I think this is a biggie, Mom. It’s going to draw people like crazy. The radio and television stations will be announcing who gave what. Free advertising for the donors. Win–win!”
Tillie looked at her daughter in amazement. “Oh, Amy, that’s wonderful. In a million years I never could have come up with an idea like that. I am so proud of you. You’re right, it’s a biggie.” Impulsively, she reached out and hugged her daughter.
Amy grew light-headed. This was the closest her mother had ever come to showing any kind of affection toward her. She hugged her back, and suddenly her world was right side up. Feeling shy at this show of affection, she waved her arms about. “I think we make a good team. We’re going to make so much money for your Seniors they might be able to add that new wing to the building you were talking about.”
“Well, my dear, Sam and I can’t take credit for anything. It was you and Gus who brought all this together. Sam, me, the Seniors are just the elves. You two are Mr. and Mrs. Santa. I think he really likes you, Amy,” Tillie whispered.
“How…how can you tell?”
“Silly girl. Open your eyes. Good luck, honey. I’ll see you when I see you. Lunch is at noon if you make it back in time.”
Honey. Her mother had called he
r honey. Another first. She said Gus really liked her. Mothers never lied to their children. She wondered if that was a myth made up by some disgruntled mother who had lied to her child and then tried to salvage the lie. She discounted the thought immediately.
As Amy made her way to her car she knew, just knew, it was going to be a dynamite day.
Sam Moss was thinking the same thing as he chugged his way over the frozen fields in his battered pickup truck. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt this alive, this good. He looked down at the cell phone on the seat next to him. A gift from Gus, who had said, “You need to get with it, Dad. I’ll program it for you, and you just hit the button. It’s a new world out there, and you need to join it.” Sam snorted when he remembered Tillie telling him her daughter ran her cell phone under the faucet because it was growing out of her ear. Well, if his son said he needed a cell phone, then he needed a cell phone. He stopped the truck as he diddled and fiddled with the gadget in his hands. Finally, he simply called Information for the number to the butcher shop in town.
“Elroy, Sam Moss. I want you to come out here and fill my three freezers. A whole side should see us through the holidays. On second thought, maybe a side and a hindquarter. And I want to order six fresh turkeys for Thanksgiving. Big turkeys, twenty-five pounds each. Go on that fancy computer of yours and send everything else times ten that Sara used to order.”
Sam listened to the voice on the other end of the phone. “Well, hells bells, Elroy, I want it now, like today. Why else do you think I called you? Be sure you come out here for your tree now. They go on sale the day after Thanksgiving. I just might throw it in for free if I don’t get voted down. I’m not really in charge anymore. My son, Gus, is issuing the orders these days.”
Sam listened again. “You’re right, Elroy, it’s the best feeling in the world.”
Sam pressed the Off button. He wished there was someone else to call, but he didn’t have many friends these days. Then again, he didn’t want the darn thing to grow out of his ear. He guffawed at the thought.
Sam blew the horn on the old truck, and waited. It took the golden streak two and a half minutes to arrive and hop into the truck. Cyrus barked happily as he tried to nuzzle Sam’s neck. Sam laughed all the way out to the Norway spruce field.
Life was suddenly so good he was scared.
Gus was waiting for him, the chain saw that he never seemed to be without in his hands. “Dad, I’ve been waiting for you.” He pointed to the narrow row of trees. “I think these particular trees can use another year of growth. What do you think? I don’t want to tag and cut them if they won’t sell. I say we tag them, let the buyers choose the ones they want, then cut them. Two hundred bucks for one of these beauties. By the way, I just got a call on my cell from someone at Super Giant. The supermarket chain wants to order a thousand Christmas wreaths and five hundred grave blankets for their different stores. Ten minutes ago a call came in from a Boy Scout troop asking to buy two hundred trees to sell for a fund-rasier. I said we’d donate them. You okay with that, Dad?”
His son wanted his opinion. Sam wondered if it was a test of some kind. “That’s pretty pricey for a tree, don’t you think? I don’t have a problem with the Scouts or the supermarkets. I just hope we can handle it.”
Sam rubbed the whiskers on his chin as he pondered the situation. “The only people willing to pay that kind of money are the Beltway’s politicos. I say we sock it to them good. Mark them at $250, and they’ll kill themselves trying to get one so they can brag about how much they paid for their Christmas trees. Good thinking, son.”
Gus looked at his father and burst out laughing. “Okay, Dad, you’re the boss.”
Sam thought he was going to black out at the kind words. He had to get past the moment and think about all this later. He could hardly wait to talk to Tillie and tell her. He had to think about that later, too. “You sweet on that little gal, Amy?”
A smart-ass retort rose to Gus’s lips, but he stifled it. “She’s okay, Dad. She’s got a good work ethic.”
“Well, that sure as hell doesn’t sound very romantic, son. Do I need to take you into the woodshed and explain the facts of life? I asked you if you were sweet on her. I’m kind of sweet on her momma. You wanna run with that one, son?”
Son of a gun! “Yeah, Dad, I am kind of sweet on that little gal. You want to run with that one?”
Sam threw his arm around his son. Father and son started to laugh like two lunatics as they slapped each other on the back.
“I’m going over to the balsam fir field. Is it okay if Cyrus goes with me?” Sam gasped as he wiped at his wet cheeks.
Gus nodded. Banner days like this were something he’d only dreamed of.
Chapter Twelve
Gus Moss hung up the dish towel just the way his mother had taught him. He looked around at the tidy kitchen. It was hard to believe they’d fed over seventy people today. Seventy happy people, who left the cleanup to Gus and Amy.
It was eight o’clock now, time to sit down with a nice glass of wine and stare into the fire. At least for a little while. Then the mad rush would begin in less than twelve hours. “Thanks for helping with the dishes. I don’t mind the dishes as much as the pots and pans.” Such a titillating conversation, Gus thought.
Amy flopped down on the couch. “You want to hear something, Gus? I’ve never been this tired in my whole life. I’d never admit it to my mother, though. Right now she thinks I walk on water. It’s such a good feeling, but, God, I am beat. Eating all that food sure didn’t help. Aren’t you tired?”
Gus grinned. “If I leaned up against the wall, I’d go right to sleep. The only thing that keeps me going is the same thing that drives you. I don’t want to disappoint my father. I can design houses in my sleep. I can’t swing a chain saw in my sleep.” He yawned to make his point.
“That’s a great fire. I use my fireplace every day during winter.” She yawned, then Gus yawned. A second later, they were both asleep, Amy’s head on Gus’s shoulder.
Sam Moss returned an hour later and covered up the couple with an afghan his wife had made one winter when the snow was so deep they were snowbound for over a week. If memory served him right, she’d made two afghans that week. He smiled at the sleeping couple, wondering what the future held in store for both of them. Gus lived and worked in California. Amy lived and worked in Philadelphia. No matter what he thought or wanted for them, he wasn’t about to stick his nose into his son’s affairs. He’d learned a bitter, hard lesson, and he wasn’t going there ever again.
In the kitchen, Sam poured the last of the coffee into a cup and cut a slice of pumpkin pie. He had no idea how he could still be hungry after all he’d eaten today. He needed to think, and he always thought best when he was eating, which just proved Sara had been right when she said that meant he could do two things at one time.
Sara. He’d promised himself that he was going to do some hard thinking. He wondered what Sara would think if she knew what he was feeling where Tillie Baran was concerned. He wondered if she was proud of him for the way things were turning out with Gus. He wished he knew.
“You had a nice turnout today, Sam.”
Sam whirled around, but no one was in the kitchen. He was so tired now he was hearing voices. A voice from beyond. Maybe I’ve overdone it. Time to go to bed.
“It’s time to move on, Sam. I want you to be as happy as our son is right now. Are you listening to me, Sam?”
Sam didn’t trust himself to speak. He nodded.
“Then clean up your mess and go to bed.”
“Are you sure it’s okay, Sara?” Sam whispered.
“It is very okay. I’m proud of you, Sam. Now, get on with your life.”
Sam jolted forward when he felt Cyrus stick his wet nose against his hand. “Thanks for waking me up, boy. I was dreaming there for a minute. Want some pie?” Cyrus woofed softly.
Sam moved by rote then as he washed his plate and cup. He could
n’t shake the feeling that he had spoken to his dead wife. He never dozed off while he was eating. Is it possible Sara just visited me? Or is it wishful thinking?
Sam stopped in the living room to check on his sleeping son. Out for the count. His chest puffed out with pride. A little late, but Sara had always said it was never too late to make things right.
As he climbed the stairs to the second floor he decided Sara had indeed visited him and told him to get on with his life. A tired smile lit up his face. She was proud of him. He knew in his old heart that it didn’t get any better than that.
The weather cooperated the following morning. The storm clouds of the day before had moved on. It was cold and brisk, with a hint of snow flurries to come, perhaps later in the day.
Gus woke first and wondered why he felt so cozy and warm. Then he saw Amy burrowed under his arm. A loud sigh escaped his lips, loud enough to wake Amy. She didn’t wake in stages either. She bolted wide awake, looked at him with wide eyes, and burst out laughing. “I hope you respect me this morning.”
“We didn’t…” Flushing a bright red, Gus jumped off the couch and held out his hand for her to grasp. He pulled her to him and kissed her the way she’d kissed him once before. When he finally broke free, he said, “If that didn’t make your teeth rattle, I have to tell you that was my best shot.”
Amy tweaked his cheek. “Oh, my teeth are rattling all right. But…I know you can do better. You know how I know this, Gus Moss?”
Somehow, Gus managed to get his tongue to work. He sounded like a bullfrog in acute distress. “How?”
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