by AJ Tata
She hushed him, gentling her fingers through his hair. “They are looking for you. Matthew has whipped them up into a rage. He hates you. He always has and now he has an excuse for it. They are out of their minds with grief and loss, Judas. You can’t stay here or they will kill you for what you have done. You have to go.”
“There’s nowhere left to go, Mary, he’s seen to that. This is his revenge,” he laughed bitterly at that. “I should never . . . I am sorry. It wasn’t meant to end like this. All of this because, fool that I am, I couldn’t help but love you.”
“Our god is a jealous god,” she said. She sounded utterly spent. That emptiness in her voice cut deeper than any words could have. She was crying but there was no strength to her tears. “Please, go.”
“I can’t,” he said, and he knew that it was true. He needed to be found. He needed to feel their stones hit, he needed their anger to break his bones. He was finished with this life. The farmer was right, there was only God’s mercy left to him. But what kind of mercy was that? What mercy did a suicide have with the gates to the Kingdom closed to him? Judas’ mind was plagued with doubts and had been for days. His friend had known he would not be able to live with this blood on his hands, yet still he had begged for this betrayal. So perhaps this stoning was actually one final mercy?
“Please.”
“Let them come. I will face them and die with what little dignity is left to me.”
She wiped away the tears. “Please. If not for me, then for our son,” she took his hand and placed it flat against the gentle swell of her belly.
“Our son,” he repeated, falling to his knees before her. He kissed her hands and then her belly, crushing his face up against the coarse cloth of her dress. The Pharisee’s words rang in his head: Judas the Betrayer. What greater betrayal could there be? He pressed the torn leather pouch into her hands. “Please, take them, for the boy, for you.”
He saw the life he had lost reflected in Mary’s eyes. He knew she loved him, and he knew love was not enough. He couldn’t tell her how alone he felt at that moment.
She turned her back on him.
He left her, walking the long road to death. He had time to think, time to remember the promise he had made, and time to regret it. It was a walk filled with last things; he watched the sun sink down below the trees; he felt the wind in his face; he tasted the arid air on his tongue; he pulled off his robe and walked naked into the garden.
They were waiting for him.
He didn’t shy away from the hurt and hatred in their eyes. He did not try to justify himself. He stood naked before them.
“You killed him,” Matthew said, damning him. They were the last words Judas Iscariot heard. He held a rope in his hands. It was fashioned into a noose.
He welcomed the first stone from James as it struck his temple. He didn’t flinch. He didn’t feel it. Nor did he feel the second from Luke, or the third cast by John. The stones hit, one after another, each one thrown harder than the last until they drove Iscariot to his knees. All he felt was the agony of the garden. Matthew came forward with the rope and hooked it around Judas’ neck.
Judas wept.
NOW
Burn With Me
It was two minutes to three when the woman walked into Trafalgar Square.
Dressed in jeans and a loose-fitting yellow tee-shirt she looked like every other summer tourist come to pay homage to Landseer’s brooding lions. There was a smiley face plastered across her chest. The grin was stretched out of shape by the teardrop swell of her breasts. Only it wasn’t summer. The yellow tee-shirt set her apart from the maddening crowd because everyone else was wrapped up against the spring chill with scarves and gloves woolen hats.
She stood still, a single spot of calm amid the hectic hustle of London. She uncapped the plastic bottle she held and emptied it over her head and shoulders, working the syrupy liquid in to her scalp. In less than a minute her long blonde hair was tangled and thick with grease as though it hadn’t been washed in months. She smelled like the thick traffic fumes and fog of pollution that choked the city.
Pigeons landed around the feet of the man beside her as he scattered chunks of bread across the paving stones. He looked up and smiled at her. He had a gentle face. A kind smile. She wondered who loved him. Someone had to. He had the contentment of a loved man. And for a moment she pitied whoever he was about to leave behind.
Around her the tourists divided into groups: those out in search of culture headed toward the National Portrait Gallery, the thirsty ducked into the café on the corner, the royalists crossed over the road and disappeared beneath Admiralty Arch onto Whitehall, the hungry headed for Chandos Place and Covent Garden’s trendy eateries and those starved of entertainment wandered up St Martin’s Lane towards Leicester Square or Soho, depending upon their definition of entertainment. Businessmen in their off-the-rack suits marched in step like penguins, umbrella tips and blakeys and segs tapping out the rhythm of the day’s enterprise. Red buses crawled down Cockspur Street and around the corner toward The Strand and Charring Cross. The city was alive.
A young girl in bright red duffel coat ran toward her, giggling and flapping her arms to startle the feeding birds into flight. When she was right in the middle of them the pigeons exploded upwards in a madness of feathers. The girl doubled up in laughter, her delighted shrieks chasing the pigeons up into the sky. Her enjoyment was infectious. The man rummaged in his plastic bag for another slice of white bread to tear up. The woman couldn’t help but smile. She had chosen the yellow tee-shirt because it made her smile. It seemed important to her that today of all days she should smile.
She took the phone from her pocket and made the call.
“News desk,” the voice on the other end was too perky for its own good. That would change in less than a minute when the screaming began.
“There is a plague coming,” she said calmly. “For forty days and forty nights death shall savage the streets. Those steeped in sin shall burn. The dying begins now.”
“Who is this? Who am I talking to?”
“I don’t need to tell you my name. Before the day is through you will know everything there is to know about me apart from one important detail.”
“And what’s that?”
“Why I did it.”
She ruffled the young girl’s hair as she scattered another cluster of pigeons and burst into fits of giggles. The girl stopped, turned and looked up at the woman. “You smell funny.”
The women reached into her pocket for her lighter. She thumbed the wheel, grating it against the flint, and touched the naked flame to her hair. She dropped the phone and stumbled forward as the fire engulfed her.
All around her the city screamed.
Table of Contents
COPYRIGHT
DEDICATION
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER 1
CHAPTER 2
CHAPTER 3
CHAPTER 4
CHAPTER 5
CHAPTER 6
CHAPTER 7
CHAPTER 8
CHAPTER 9
CHAPTER 10
CHAPTER 11
CHAPTER 12
CHAPTER 13
CHAPTER 14
CHAPTER 15
CHAPTER 16
CHAPTER 17
CHAPTER 18
CHAPTER 19
CHAPTER 20
CHAPTER 21
CHAPTER 22
CHAPTER 23
CHAPTER 24
CHAPTER 25
CHAPTER 26
CHAPTER 27
CHAPTER 28
CHAPTER 29
CHAPTER 30
CHAPTER 31
CHAPTER 32
CHAPTER 33
CHAPTER 34
CHAPTER 35
CHAPTER 36
CHAPTER 37
CHAPTER 38
CHAPTER 39
CHAPTER 40
CHAPTER 41
CHAPTER 42
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CHAPTER 44
CHAPTER 45
CHAPTER 46
