"You need a change of scene and a good meal. Let's go down to the Inner Harbor," he suggested.
"Oh, I'm not in the mood for anything like that," Kara started to protest. But Matt would not take no for an answer. Before she knew it she found herself settled in the bucket seat of his Porsche as he threaded his way through traffic toward Baltimore's newly restored waterfront.
In less than fifteen minutes the striking glass and steel pavilions of Harborplace swung into view. And as Kara caught a glimpse of the street corner musicians and crowds of strollers taking in the harbor's red brick promenades, she felt her mood lighten. They joined the throngs of sightseers, stopping to admire the tall masts of the sailboats moored at the finger piers.
As Kara breathed in, she was astonished to catch the spicy scent of warm cinnamon on the light breeze ruffling the flags of the sailboats. "What's that delicious aroma?" she asked in surprise.
Matt grinned. "One of Baltimore's chief delights," he supplied, gesturing toward the creamy stucco building across the road. "The McCormick Spice Company is obviously grinding cinnamon today."
Delighted, Kara laughed for the first time in days as she took in another heady whiff of the marvelous scent. Matt smiled warmly down at her, squeezing her shoulder gently before he began to lead her toward the Light Street Pavilion, where he had made reservations at an Italian restaurant.
A few minutes later a maitre d' seated Kara and Matt next to a floor-to-ceiling window overlooking the harbor. The elegant dining room had a striking decor of white tile accented with touches of black and chrome. On each table there was a red carnation in a cut glass bud vase. Kara looked around appreciatively and then smiled shyly. Matt was right; she had been too caught up in her uncle's illness. This break was just what she needed, and she felt grateful to Matt for his thoughtfulness in suggesting it. But when she told him so, he only smiled and then changed the subject to food.
After they had ordered, they began talking about his campaign; she realized with a start that the primary was only a week away.
"How did you ever find the time to get away like this?" she questioned, realizing how hectic his schedule must be. He took her hand and squeezed it. "I'm learning how to make time for things that are really important," he told her with a meaningful smile. But before she could react, the waiter appeared with their dinners.
While they ate and sipped their wine, they watched the sunset. By the time they had finished their coffee, it was night and the harbor's lights were sending out glittering reflections over the rippled surface of the dark water.
When they left the restaurant, Matt took her hand and continued to hold it while they strolled once more along the promenade. On a whimsical impulse he stopped to buy her a shiny, heart-shaped balloon, giving it to her with a wry grin and laughing as she let it bob along behind her shoulder while they made their way back to the parking lot.
She was in a mellow mood as they pulled up to the white stucco town house, and so was Matt. The moment the front door was closed behind them, he took her in his arms.
"I've missed you," he whispered, his breath warm in her ear. And then, very carefully, he released the balloon's string from her fingers and let it float slowly to the ceiling.
As Matt's warm lips descended on hers, Kara too felt that she was floating. His lips slid from her mouth to her neck, tracking a path of fire along her throat as his hands massaged the small of her back and then pressed her even closer to the hard contours of his lean body. Earlier that afternoon she had told Matt that she was capable only of feeling, not thinking. And that was certainly true now. All rational thought submerged as she responded to the persuasion of Matt's sensitive caresses and skillful hands. She didn't even realize that he had unbuttoned her silky shirtwaist dress until she felt his warm fingers on her bared midriff. One hand moved possessively around her breast, stroking her nipple through the lacy material of her bra. As if from far away, she heard herself moaning with pleasure as she felt his touch.
He opened her lips to his probing tongue and then whispered in her ear, "We'll be more comfortable in my bed this time."
But far from the effect Matt had planned, the words jolted Kara back to reality. Last time, she reminded herself, after she had given herself to Matt, she heard him laughing about her the next morning with his campaign manager. Their lovemaking had meant nothing to him. He had made a fool of her then, but he wasn't going to do it again.
She stiffened, and Matt, feeling her change of mood, looked down into her set face, frowning. "What's wrong?" he demanded.
Kara looked away, casting around for an excuse to get out of this situation. "I'm sorry Matt. I keep thinking about my uncle, and I'm just not in the mood."
Matt's frown deepened and his arms fell away. She watched as for a moment he visibly struggled with his emotions. When he had pulled himself together, a rueful smile crossed his face.
"All right, I understand. But I think I'd better go take a cold shower," he said with an attempt at lightness. Turning, he moved toward the stairs. But then he paused and looked at Kara over his shoulder. "Care to join me?" he asked hopefully. Kara smiled despite herself and then firmly shook her head.
When Kara awoke the next morning Matt had already left for campaign headquarters. But there was a note on the kitchen table signed with his slanting scrawl. "Meet you at the hospital this afternoon," it said.
After a hasty breakfast of toast and coffee, she donned the pale cream designer suit that she and Mrs. Jordan had bought at White Flint. Tying the bow on her delicately flowered blouse, she inspected herself in the mirror.
Even with the fancy designer label in her clothing, she definitely didn't look her best. The tension of the last few days and the worry over Uncle James had taken their toll. But when she arrived at the hospital she found her uncle's condition had improved enough so that he had been transferred to a private room. It was there that she had her first real conversation with him. Though he was still hooked up to IV's and had a special duty nurse, he was now free of the oxygen tent.
Later that morning, as Kara sat next to him, he opened his eyes and looked directly at her.
"Kara," he whispered, smiling and asking her to move closer. "Public relations is the wrong calling for you. You should have been a nurse."
Kara blushed and smiled shyly back at him. "I've been so worried about you," she volunteered.
"I've been worried about me, too," he said good naturedly, "but I'm feeling better now. I think I'm going to make it. But I want you to know that's partly your doing. Having you here like this has made a big difference. You're truly a fine person, and I'm proud of you. I'm sorry I haven't seen more of you."
Kara looked away in acute discomfort. Was he apologizing now for the past?
"I know we weren't close when you were a teen-ager," James went on. "I deeply regret that. When your parents died, I tried to be a substitute, but I had no real experience with children. And then this old heart of mine started to act up, so I didn't try to stop you from moving out."
"Oh, I wish you had told me," Kara exclaimed, "it would have made such a difference if I had known." She smiled at him through wet eyes. He had cared about her. She glowed with the thought. But as she beamed at him, she noticed that he was knitting his brow, looking at her with an expression of concern on his drawn, colorless face.
"Kara, there's something that's been bothering me deeply for the past few weeks. I can't tell you how guilty I feel about that marriage I forced you into," the old man said, squeezing her hand. "You must tell me how you really feel about it. If you're truly unhappy, I'll do all I can to find a way out of it for you."
Kara's eyelashes fluttered nervously, and she looked down at her lap. How did she feel about her marriage now? What were her feelings toward Matt? And more important, what were his feelings toward her? He still found her desirable; she knew that from last night. But he had given her no indication that his feelings went beyond a mere physical attraction. He hadn't said, "I love you,"
and she despaired that he ever would.
Uncertainty began to well up in her as she reflected on the unnerving twists and turns her life had taken in recent weeks. Yes, she was unhappy. But it was better to keep her turmoil hidden from her Uncle James. He looked too frail right now she decided.
Masking her unhappiness, she gave James a bright smile. "It's okay. Things will work themselves out eventually."
Then, hastily changing the subject, she said, "There's something I've been wanting to ask you. I've never understood your association with Matt. Why does a staunch party-supporter like you align himself with a crusading reformer like Matt?"
Unexpectedly, James grinned sheepishly. "You don't think much of my politics, do you?"
Kara blushed and looked embarrassed. The old man continued. "I had come to the conclusion that my longtime unquestioning support of machine politics was a mistake. I think it's time to clean out the stables, so to speak," he said to her with a rueful smile. "And I think Matt's the man to do it."
A little stab of pride hit her as she heard his words. Yes, maybe Uncle James was right. Maybe Matt was the man to do it. She knew from personal experience, she thought ironically, that when Matt went after something he usually got it.
Just then the nurse came in and announced, "Mr. Barnett needs to rest now." Putting down a tray of medicine, she fluffed up his pillow. "Time for your yellow pills," she singsonged cheerfully. Grinning, Kara took her uncle's hand, squeezed it and then left the room.
As she closed the door she almost bumped into Monica. The slender blonde looked smart and professional in a crisp, white uniform. Kara felt embarrassed when she remembered that she had thought Monica was one of Uncle James' bedmates. How unjust she had been to both of them.
But Monica appeared unconscious of Kara's earlier prejudice, and gave the dark-haired young woman a friendly "How are you?"
"I'm fine now that my uncle is so much improved," Kara returned.
"Yes, I'm relieved too," the nurse agreed. "Now that your uncle's out of the ICU, where they don't allow private duty nurses, I'm back on the case. I feel as if I haven't been away at all. As soon as he sees me he'll probably start complaining about the hospital food and demanding his waterbed."
"His waterbed?" Kara asked in confusion.
"Yes, for his arthritic condition," Monica explained cheerfully, entering the room and leaving Kara in the hall, uncomfortable again at the thought of her assumptions.
As the door closed behind her, Kara rubbed her eyes and suddenly realized how tired she was. Even though her uncle now seemed out of danger, there was no denying that the past few days had been an ordeal, and she felt drained by it.
Heading toward the elevator, she pressed the down button. What she needed was a cup of coffee in the hospital cafeteria before Matt stopped in to see how her uncle was doing.
Quickly she purchased a cup of black coffee and brought it to a small, red formica table. Slumping with fatigue into the hard, plastic chair, she fell into a reverie. Unexpectedly she found herself looking forward to seeing Matt. Perhaps they could work things out yet.
But her daydreams were rudely blown away by the pair of hostile eyes she felt burning the back of her neck. She turned suddenly to see Vera Caldwell sitting at a table directly behind her, chain-smoking. A pile of used cigarettes littered the foil ashtray in front of the reporter, and cigarette smoke wreathed her brilliant red curls. Kara shuddered involuntarily. What was that woman doing staring at her like that?
Crushing out a half-smoked cigarette, Vera pushed back her chair with a scrape and moved toward Kara. Her stiletto heels made sharp, clicking noises on the shiny, tiled floor of the cafeteria.
Without asking, Vera pulled out a chair at the other side of the table and sat down, smoothing out the knife pleats of her black linen skirt. She was outfitted as usual in the height of fashion, and although Kara had dressed carefully that morning, she suddenly felt rumpled and grimy.
"I've been hoping to see you here," the redhead began in clipped tones as she eyed the young woman through long, mascaraed lashes.
"Oh," Kara replied blankly, wondering what the reporter could want with her.
"I'm waiting for an opportunity to interview your uncle, of course," Vera went on. "But I also want to talk to you."
"To me?" Kara questioned. "What about?"
"About Matt, what else?" the reporter retorted, watching Kara intently. Before continuing, Vera slowly lit another cigarette, inhaled and coolly blew out a thin cloud of grayish smoke.
Stifling a cough, Kara demanded, "What can you possibly have to say to me about Matt?"
"I have a great deal to say about him. Matt and I go way back," she said, her eyes narrowing as she looked the younger woman up and down critically. "We've known each other for a long time. We're old and dear friends and I hate to see his life ruined by a foolish marriage. You and I know that Matt was forced into this by your uncle. He would never have chosen to marry a naive little piece of baggage under other circumstances."
Kara gasped. She felt Vera's words pierce her heart. The reporter had said exactly what Kara had feared herself. How could someone as young and unsophisticated as herself ever hope to earn the love and respect of a polished man of the world like Matt? It was true, she thought, hating Vera for having said it out loud. Kara tried to lift the coffee cup to her lips but her fingers were shaking, so she quickly set it back on the table.
Vera's green eyes watched Kara's trembling hands with satisfaction. "You know what I'm saying is the truth," she pressed her advantage. "You're not the right woman for Matt and you never will be. At best, he'll only tolerate you and seek consolation in the arms of another woman," Vera added with a knowing smile.
Kara felt another twinge of pain. She feared that Matt had already done that. In fact, she wondered if the sleek journalist before her was the woman. She remembered the image of Matt's dark head next to the reporter's red curls at the reception. And then there were those television news broadcasts showing Matt and Vera deep in discussions on Maryland politics. What had they discussed, she wondered, when they were not on film? Or had they wasted time on words at all?
Vera's voice interrupted her thoughts. "I don't know what your plans are, but I recommend you divorce Matt immediately after the election. I know that's what he wants."
"How could you possibly know?" Kara parried, mustering every bit of courage she could.
"Because," said the reporter smiling triumphantly at her victim, "Matt told me so." Kara stiffened while Vera twisted the knife a little deeper. "Matt has told me that your marriage is nothing more than a joke and that he wishes he'd never set eyes on your uncle's cabin. He feels trapped," she said with a haughty air, "but I intend to set him free. If you don't agree to a divorce after the election, I'll make sure the details of your little plot to entrap him are leaked to the press. You and your uncle will be the laughing stocks of the whole state."
"If you write a scandalous story about Matt, he'll hate you," Kara countered, trying to rally.
"Oh," said Vera with a complacent smirk, "I wouldn't be that stupid. Do you think I'd write the story myself? All I have to do is drop a hint in the right ear and someone else will do it for me. You're the one Matt will blame, not me."
"But I'd let him know who was behind all the gossip."
Vera laughed. "He'd never believe you." Crushing out her cigarette, the redhead stood up and looked down at the tiny brunette. "Just think it over," was her parting shot as she turned and walked out, the sounds of her thin heels echoing on the hard floor.
Kara's mind was in a whirl. What could she do? she wondered in desperation.
Chapter Eleven
Kara huddled in the hard, plastic cafeteria chair. Vera's threat kept echoing in her mind. Had Matt confided in Vera about their marriage? It certainly sounded as if he had. And that meant Vera's statement must be true. He must have no real feeling for me, Kara told herself hopelessly. The reality of that was a crushing blow. In the back of he
r mind she had allowed herself to hope that Matt was beginning to care for her. It had been something she had clung to, she realized, in the face of all evidence to the contrary. But now there could be no more doubt. There was no reason even to hope.
She didn't know what to do next. What I need is someone to talk to, Kara told herself. Could she unburden herself to Uncle James? No. She dismissed the idea at once. Even though he was making good progress, he was still too sick to worry about her problems.
Well then, what about Matt's mother? Kara eliminated that option too. She needed someone who would be impartial. And Mrs. Jordan was too involved in the situation for that.
The only alternative was Jill. Perhaps she could go down to Georgetown and have a long talk with her old roommate. Maybe she could even stay with Jill, she reasoned. The idea lifted her spirits. It would be just like old times when they used to exchange girlish confidences into the wee hours of the morning. And, anyway, there was no way she could think clearly with Matt around, that was for sure.
Kara glanced at her watch. It was one o'clock. Matt would be at the hospital soon. She didn't want to meet him, didn't want to be confused by his magnetic virility.
After she had told her uncle she would be away for a few days, Kara hastily scribbled a note for Matt, explaining that she had to get away and think. She left it at the nurse's station, with instructions to deliver it to her husband when he arrived.
The ride from downtown Baltimore to Georgetown took almost two hours. And Kara's nerves were on edge when she parked her yellow hatchback in front of the red brick town house she shared with Jill.
Thank goodness I still have my key, she thought, as she opened the door and stepped into the small living room.
The room was dark. Kara realized Jill would still be at work. Maybe I'd better call Jill and warn her I'm here, she thought. Picking up the phone, she dialed the office.
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