“Don’t thank me. You’re going to pay for it.”
His fingers moved down my waist and clamped over my bare, soaked pussy. I moaned and shifted on my feet, kicking off the jeans balled around my ankles as he stripped off my top. He tore his clothes off next, tossing them on the floor, exposing his broad chest, muscled legs, and enormous cock. When he pushed me down on the bed beside his suitcase, I welcomed his weight on top of me.
“Jesus. God. Open your fucking legs,” he said. “I need you right now.”
I loved to hear it, but I already knew. His body was hot and encompassing, and his thick cock poked between my pussy’s folds.
“Shit.” He reached to the side, going through his luggage to retrieve a box of condoms. He ripped it open, scattering the gold packages.
“You don’t have to wear one,” I said. “We’ve already gone without, and I can’t get pregnant.”
“You’re sure?”
I nodded and he swatted his suitcase to the floor, condoms and all. He grabbed my wrists and I made a noise of complaint, fighting him because it turned me on. “Let me fuck you,” he said. “Do you want me to fuck you or not?”
“Yes,” I cried, caught up in his force, his intent tone. “Yes, yes, please. Fuck me so hard it hurts.”
“There’s no other way to give it to someone like you. Lie back, you little slut.” He nudged me toward the pillows and held my hands over my head, pressing them against the padded headboard. My nails slid across the upholstery and my whole body came alive from his weight and force. I could feel his muscles tensing against my belly and chest.
“Oh God. Oh my God.” Over the past two years, in Italy, I’d mostly slept with other scientists—evolved nerds who were polite and deferent, who’d attracted me with some particularly insightful research hypothesis. They were way too polite for me in bed. When I’d wanted BDSM and pain play, I’d gone to Via Sofferenza and played with the locals, but rarely had I enjoyed sex and force together, not until Devin came into my life.
I needed both things now, with my sore ass hurting and my heart full of happiness that he was here, that he’d stayed. He let go of my wrists and reared back, forcing my legs even farther apart. Even without my glasses, I could see his magnificent cock standing up between us. He shoved a finger in my pussy, then slapped me between the legs. I moaned at the stinging pain, hating it, but loving it.
“You’re a sick little maso, aren’t you?” He smiled down at me. “You just got your ass beat, and you’re wet as all fuck.”
He spanked my pussy again, making my clit flare with heat as I stared up at him. He pressed two fingers in me, then three, then withdrew and positioned his cock at my entrance. My flailing legs were grasped, my ankles hiked over his shoulders, and then he surged into me, filling me with his oversized shaft. The stretch and sensation was delicious, raw and affirming in the aftermath of the hard belt session.
Tears leaked from my eyes, but I ignored them, losing myself in rough, active sex. He pounded me, holding my hips, making me take him deep while he whispered that I felt so good, so good. I couldn’t say anything. I reached for him and he collected my wrists, cinching them in one of his hands. A moment later, he growled and pulled out of me.
“Turn around,” he said. “I want to take you from behind.”
I fell sideways, losing my balance on the cushy hotel bed. He held my waist until I steadied myself, then grasped my hands and placed them on top of the headboard. When he had me posed the way he wanted, facing the headboard on my knees, he forced my thighs wider. When I arched my hips back, seeking his cock, wanting him to fuck me some more, he slapped my sore ass.
“I take you, you don’t take me. Understand?” Smack. Smack. “You’ll get my cock when I’m ready.”
Both cheeks sung with scarlet pain as I cried out, “Yes, Sir. I’m sorry.”
“Hold onto the headboard and keep your legs apart,” he ordered.
I maintained my position as he shoved his cock into my pussy. I didn’t think about why this was so exciting to me, why I liked to be posed and scolded and spanked, and forced to accommodate the hard thrusts of a thicker-than-normal cock. All I knew was that I was already close to coming, and I didn’t want this to end just yet.
“Oww, ow!” I squealed as he pinched my nipples.
“Oh, does that hurt?” he mocked. “If you don’t keep your voice down, I’ll hurt them worse.”
He made good on his promise, twisting and pinching my hard buds as I struggled to be quiet, to keep the moans of pain inside. I braced my legs so his pounding wouldn’t force me against the headboard, but there was no escaping his onslaught. The more I squirmed and resisted, the harder he held my hips and fucked me, lifting my knees from the bed. I made sounds I’d never made before, strangled pleas, mumbled expletives that ran into each other. The words I choked out always ended with a whimper of harder, or more, please, more…
One of his hands left my breasts and slid to my pussy, slapping, probing through my folds, slapping again so my hips jerked back and forth. My fingers gripped the headboard, a white-knuckled clench, as the sustained pain triggered an orgasmic release. I pulsed around his cock, letting out a sob as he continued slapping my pussy, chanting yes, yes, yes.
He climaxed a moment later, even more violently. His arms locked around my waist as he surged into me, then he went still with a drawn-out groan. His fingers pressed into my skin, supporting me so I didn’t collapse, so I could let go of the headboard and touch him too. He put his stubbled cheek against mine and spoke in the low, sensual voice I remembered from Via Sofferenza. “That’s what you get, you naughty, bad girl.”
I gave a soft laugh-sob, turning my head. “Was that a punishment?”
“It was fun-ishment. But I can do punishment, too.”
I wiggled my ass against his hips. “I imagine so. I don’t think I’ve ever been spanked that hard.”
“Well, you should have been. And you will be again.” His tone made me shiver.
Then he paused and turned me to face him. “Unless you don’t want to be. Things between us have been moving…a little fast.”
I couldn’t read his expression, but I could hear the caution in his voice. “A little fast,” I agreed. “But it’s the circumstances.” I reached over to pick up my glasses and put them on. “I told you, you don’t have to worry. I’m not going to latch onto you because we’ve had some incredible sex.”
“I never said you would.”
“Because, you know, all of this is crazy and weird and—”
“And hot.” He pulled me down on the bed and stretched beside me. “You sure you don’t want to fall in love with me? I’m rich and handsome, and good in bed.”
“I’m sure.” I thought of my father’s drawn, pallid face as he wept at my mother’s funeral. I’d never seen a man cry before then, not like that, but my father had cried many times after. “Love can be a horribly destructive force,” I said. “Way worse than hard fucking, or a belt spanking.”
A shadow passed over his face. “That’s true. We can stay friends, though.” His expression brightened as he ran a finger up my breast and flicked my nipple. “We should keep playing together while you’re in New York.”
I turned on my side, trying not to give away how much that invitation interested me. “Sure, we can keep playing.”
“Try not to sound so excited about it,” he muttered, rolling his eyes.
“No, I mean, I enjoy playing with you. I want to check out your super sexy club in that clock tower, but…” I adjusted my glasses, retreating to my astrophysicist worldview, because it soothed me when life felt ruffled, and no one ruffled me more than him. “At the end of the day, it all seems so meaningless, you know? BDSM and power exchange, and relationships, and love, and whatever people do together. It seems pointless when I think about the vastness of the universe, and the slippability of life.”
“Slippability?”
“It’s not a great word. But you know what I mean.” I
ran my thumbs across my fingers, then opened my hands, trying to capture how nothing really stayed, or even really was. “There’s nothing in life we can control, and things change all the time, everywhere.”
“So…?” He looked amused, rather than concerned.
“So…that’s one of the reasons I prefer not to do relationships.”
“Okay,” he said, laughing. “You’ve got that point across. No strings attached, I get it.” He touched my hair, then gave it a yank. “I’m not a one-woman man either, Shorty, so don’t stress too hard about capturing my heart.”
There was something disingenuous about our conversation, something that felt like a lie, because we were together in bed, and he’d used a nickname for me, and his cum was leaking out of me from unprotected sex. Who fluid-bonded in two days? Who did any of the things we’d done in two days? I glanced over at him but he was looking away, his lips curved, his pale blue eyes fixed on some spot in the distance.
Two days, in terms of relativity, could be a lifetime, or it could be no time at all.
Chapter Ten: Devin
As promised, I gave my relationship-phobic, flight-phobic archgenius hell for the next three days. Beltings, spankings, hair pulling, crawling, kneeling, rough sex, and bawling blowjobs where I jammed my cock in the back of her throat.
Whenever she begged for a break to put on her owlish glasses and do science stuff on her laptop, I granted her requests, and used the time to plan what I’d do to her next. I was stymied by the fact that we were thousands of miles from my home dungeon, where I kept all the things I needed to hurt her.
So I had to improvise, using the hotel’s Portuguese bible for a paddle, and stealing a stake from a lobby flowerpot to use as a cane. I bought plastic hair clips from the corner store to use as nipple clamps, because a pain slut like Ella needed them. Between her intense scientific reading and email sessions, I threatened her with science-themed taunts. Time has no meaning, does it? Then it won’t matter how long I leave these hair-clip nipple clamps on you. For hours a day, I was an asshole to her, and she lapped it up like cream.
But there were other hours too, hours we spent walking around the town of Ponta Delgada, and the green expanses surrounding it. The more we talked, the more I realized how quirky she was. Even when she wasn’t doing science, even when she took off her glasses and lay back on the ground to relax in the sun, she would talk to me about deep, existential thoughts.
It bothered me at first, then I realized I liked it more than the simpering flirtation I got from my submissives back home. Ella didn’t flirt. She was the anti-flirt, taking care not to create any romantic tension between us. When I tried to steal a kiss, she turned away. When I caressed her, she stiffened under my fingers. If she had her choice, I wouldn’t have been allowed to touch her in any romantic way, but I touched her as much as I wanted, because it was her fault I was stuck here. I made her sleep beside me because I liked the feel of her body—one of the perks of being the one in charge.
It amused me that she worried so much about the two of us falling in love. I was the original take-it-easy relationship guy. It had nothing to do with the “slippability” of life or the pointlessness of time, just my basic low-stress attitude. Relationships were complicated, and I didn’t like to think about things as much as she did.
At the same time, I enjoyed decoding her wacky thoughts and analyzing her neuroses. The anti-relationship thing was easy—she was laser-focused on her career. As for the masochism, pain was her escape, her way of quieting her spinning, theorizing brain for precious moments. Torment was her drug, and I was happy to give it to her. Now I just had to figure out how to get her on that plane.
Pain would have done it, but I doubted the Azorean air authorities would allow me to herd her onto the airplane with a whip. There were hidden types of discomfort I could use—tacks in her bra, or capsaicin cream rubbed into her freshly spanked ass cheeks, but if she had a phobic breakdown, those things would definitely make it worse.
There were sedatives that might help with her anxiety, available in any drug store, but she’d had a bad reaction the last time she took them before a flight. Then again, she’d been alone and scared. This time I’d be with her, and able to exert authority if she started to freak out. And if I kept her up most of the night before the flight, doing hurtful, depraved things to her various orifices, it would only take a low dose to knock her out.
I decided that was the best plan, and confirmed our tickets for Friday’s direct-to-New York flight. Whenever I fucked Ella, whenever I hurt her, I told her You’re going to New York with me. You don’t have a choice. I stared into her deep blue eyes, watching fear war with the desire to obey.
Her fear thrilled me, but I felt bad for her, too. I wanted to hold her and tell her I’d take care of her, that everything would be okay, but she’d bring up infinite possibilities, or slippabilities. She’d tremble and look past me, trying to weasel out of my embrace.
Chapter Eleven: Ella
The day of our flight arrived, as much as I didn’t want it to. While time as a concept was flexible, airport schedules were not. Devin kept me up most of our last night on the island, pinching me, choking me, fucking me hard, then holding me afterward, calming my racing heart and licking away tears of agonized orgasms.
“Don’t go to sleep,” he said, whenever I sagged against him. “I’m not done with you yet.”
I understood he was doing this on purpose, exhausting me with sex so I’d be too tired to freak out about our flight, because I had to get on that airplane. Leo had sent me a threatening email, telling me he’d needed me in New York days ago, and Devin still had to be interviewed by the NTSB about the plane he’d crash-landed. I wondered if he’d get in trouble. He wasn’t supposed to be part of the crew that day, but with Captain Ross mid-heart attack…
Everyone else was already back in the states: Ross, who was healing after heart surgery, Ayal, and the flight attendants who’d sat behind me during our crash landing. I had to go back too, so Devin could go back. I understood that he wasn’t going to leave without me, and the longer we stayed…
Well, the longer we stayed, the more danger I’d get tangled up in something I couldn’t untangle myself from. My sadistic lover was a force of nature, a giver of pleasure that could so easily become an addiction. The fact that he enjoyed hurting me as much as I enjoyed being hurt was both wonderful and dangerous. I was entering a pivotal growth phase of my career. I needed to prove myself to the point that I’d be untouchable, that Leo’s blackmail photos couldn’t ruin me. I couldn’t allow him to derail my life—and he so easily could.
So I went to the airport and waited at the gate with Devin, shifting in my seat because of the welts he’d left on my ass over the last few days. “Time to take this,” he said, holding out a pill. “It’s going to make you sleepy, but I’ll be with you the whole time. I don’t want you to worry about anything.”
“That’s easier said than done.”
“Take the fucking pill.”
He handed me a bottle of water and I swallowed the small blue capsule. “Just one?” I asked. “Last time I took three.”
“That explains a lot. Are you ready to board?”
His manner was polite, but no-nonsense. He was going to make me get on the plane. My heart thudded faster as we walked down the jet way. None of the people around us knew we’d almost died in a plane crash earlier this week.
Well, we hadn’t almost died. Devin had handled things, and that’s probably the only reason I was able to put one foot in front of the other in the midst of my terror—because he was holding my hand.
When we reached the end of the jet way, he led me onto the plane. No introductions to the captain or co-pilot this time, no smiling flight attendants who were aware I was afraid. This wasn’t my special charter flight from Europe, but a hop across the ocean for wealthy New Yorkers who vacationed in the Azores.
We sat in coach, over the wings, in the row with the emergency door. Dev
in told me that was the safest place to be on a plane, but that was probably made-up. I was too tired to argue. The sedative was having an effect.
“Wow,” I said, settling into my middle seat. “I feel weird. Spacy.”
Devin sat by the window. “You haven’t slept in a while, and you just took a sedative. Don’t fight it, Ella. Close your eyes.”
I did, but then some hiss started up in the cabin, and they popped open again.
“Pressurization,” he said. “Totally normal.”
His eyes looked red, because we both lacked sleep, but his expression was also unusually strained. “Are you afraid too?” I blurted out, too tired to be delicate about it.
“I’m a pilot,” he replied, like I was ridiculous. “Flying doesn’t scare me. I’m more worried about you.”
“Don’t worry about me. And don’t like me,” I said, because he was looking at me like he liked me. I had to force the words out, because the sedative made it hard to talk.
“You’re being a little loud, Ella.”
“I don’t care. I might die in this plane crash anyway.”
He looked around when some heads turned. “Can you lower your voice, please? Close your eyes.”
“Don’t want to close my eyes.” I remembered this feeling from the last time I took the sedatives. Anger, annoyance, the need to tell someone off.
“Talk to me about your research,” he said, his voice calming and quiet. “Teach me everything you know. That way if I survive this flight and you don’t, I can carry on your work.”
I shifted closer to him. “There’s a lot to tell.”
“Then you’d better get started.”
“The basis of my work is…” I took a deep breath. “I study space and time. Time moves both ways. Isn’t that interesting? Time is relative and flexible. Or, it’s more accurate to say, the line between past and future is an illusion. When we talk about how large the universe is, we’re naming numbers because of our human needs for constructs, but right now, on the edges of another galaxy, it’s a thousand years ago right now.”
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