I never want to disappoint her, not ever fucking again. I love her fucking crazy, and strong, and even pissed off. As a man, I really love the way she looks at me like I could and have solved the troubles in her life. Her eyes shining as she looks at me makes my smile spread wider, my heart swell with pride, and my dick twitches all at the same time. I want that back.
I won’t begin to understand why she felt like she wasn’t important after the other night, but that shit will be rectified tonight.
I look behind me to see she is walking into the kitchen of the bar.
“This is the last of the fruit.” She sets down the plastic containers then walks over to wash her hands. “If you don’t need anything—”
“I certainly fucking do.” I slam my fist on the stainless steel counter and then turn around.
She stands taller, sets her little fists on her hips, and scowls.
“When are you gonna stop acting all pissed off at me, Livi? What do I need to do to make you understand I was taking care of shit for my family?”
“What about me?” she yells. “What would have happened if something happened to you? You know what, it doesn’t matter. I let down the mask, and I never—”
“Don’t even finish that fucking sentence. Don’t you do that to us!”
She covers her face and starts to cry. No, not just cry, she is sobbing, and I fucking did that to her. I fucking did that to her!
I don’t need fucking consent anymore, so it takes me three steps to cross the room and scoop her up in my arms. Then, it takes three seconds before she is wrapped around me.
“Livi, like it or not, you’re my family. I’ll fight just as hard for you as I will them. Fuck, harder if I have to.” I set her ass on the stainless steel island and pull her hands away from her face. “Talk to me.”
“I don’t know what to say.” She wipes her eyes and takes in several quick breathes.
“This isn’t just about the other night, is it?”
She shakes her head and then nods, and I am instantly melting because of my crazy ass, little chick.
“You know I love your ass, right?”
She nods.
“And the rest of you, too. Talk to me.”
“I’ve had a bad few days, and when I said that, you said that’s not what you’re here for. I don’t know—”
“Hold up, Livi. I meant it’s not my intention to give you bad days.” She looks up at me and closes her eyes slowly. “Wait, you thought…? Holy shit, Livi, babe, come on, talk to me. Tell me that one little no-call while handling my brothers shit didn’t make you doubt everything I have said to you.”
She shakes her head, but I know it did.
“I went to the cemetery today and saw my mom for the first time. I told her about you—”
“I want to be closer to my father, Hendrix. I want to see him. I know—”
“So we look into places around here. Hell, move him into my place.”
“Not that close.” She laughs, and I smile.
“So we do it. After work tomorrow, we sit down and check out some places.”
“It’s ladies’ night.” She looks down.
“I hired a new guy.” I smirk. “My ass will be shaking for one set of eyes only.”
That makes her smile. “Your mom? I didn’t mean to interrupt; it just made me realize you never know how long you have to right wrongs.”
I grab the hem of her shirt and pull it up, and despite having been told I don’t need consent, I look at her, making sure. She lifts her arms so I can pull her shirt up. Then, her little feet start to kick slightly like a happy, little kid, and I laugh to myself.
She’s low maintenance, a worker, beautiful, greedy for my touch—like I am to her taste—and mine. My fucking crazy Livi.
“She said she left a legacy of good in a world of bad.” I reach behind her and unsnap her bra, kissing it off her shoulders one strap at a time. My mouth takes a tit while I use my hands to undo her jeans and pull them down, taking her shoes off before completing the job.
“You’re real good,” she moans as her hands rub up the back of my head.
“This is gonna be quick, and I swear I will make it up to you,” I say as I unbutton and shove my jeans down enough to free my cock from the denim cage.
“I need you, bad,” she says as I lift her up.
I line us up, hiss when my head hits her hot wet pussy, and she whimpers.
I lean back against the wall. “I have every intention of making you walk funny for a week.”
“Bring. It…” I slam into her, and she cries out, “On.”
“Brought,” I hiss as I pound into her over and over. “How does my cock feel, Livi?”
“So good,” she cries into my shoulder.
“I’m raw inside you, Livi.”
“Feels so—” She springs up and looks at me, shocked.
“I’m gonna knock you up and love you forever. Can you handle that?”
Tears well in her eyes, but she smiles and nods. “Forever?”
“Fuck, yes. You and me and a shit load of Caldwells.”
I see her look up like she’s trying to figure it out, and then she looks at me. “Four.”
“Four’s a start.” I smile back. “We’ll start by fucking one in you now.”
“Consent given.” She smiles, laughing until I thrust inside of her again.
“Babe, don’t laugh when my dick is in that pretty, little pussy of yours. Makes me want to bruise it.” I slam in again.
“I think I’d like that,” she says in a husky voice.
My mouth crashes over hers. Our tongues dance, our bodies’ rhythms are in sync, and my balls are on fire. I’m not about to stop fucking her against the kitchen wall. She told me to bring it, and bring it I will.
She comes three times and is limp in my arms when I finally fill her with my cum. I then slide down the wall with her on my lap as we both try to catch our breaths.
“I love you, Olivia.”
“I love you, Hendrix,” she moans sweetly.
I hear the door and groan, allowing my head to fall back and hit the wall.
She laughs. “I’d take care of it, but I don’t know if I can walk yet.”
“That just made me hard again.” I smile, but I’m not joking. I love her feeling me still. “Stay put. I’ll come back and bang you up some more.”
Chapter Twenty-Four
~Olivia~
Things are moving so fast, yet at a crawl at the same time. Hendrix is everything I could ever want and so much more. He says I’m crazy, and maybe I am. I have fallen head over heels in love with him in such a short time. More than that, I want to have his baby. Yes, I am completely nuts.
I put my forearm against my forehead. Nope, no fever. I’m not delirious unless it is deliriously in love.
Are we repeating our parents’ mistakes? My parents never married, nor did his.
I allow my mind to envision us five years from now with two kids. I don’t see myself without him. Hendrix completes me in so many ways. When I have problems, I can go to him, and he is there to hold my hand as I sort it all out. He is my partner. Heck, if I am real about it, he is my protector and my provider. He is everything my mother never had with my father.
Could she have had more with my dad? With the small conversation my dad had with Hendrix where he said my mother was better, I can’t help but wonder, what if? My mom is happily remarried now, but could my childhood have been different? If they had been different, if circumstances had been different, Bryce would have never been in my life.
Bryce. Even after all this time, it comes back to him.
I haven’t told my mother. Things have been so chaotic lately I have only made quick calls to update her on my dad’s progress. If I am going to have my dad come here, I need to have a serious conversation with my mother, though. It’s only fair since my dad knows. I blow out a breath. No time like the present.
“Hey, Livi,” she greets as she answers on the firs
t ring.
“Mom, how’s your day been?” I ask nonchalantly.
We aren’t close like some mothers and daughters, yet we are in our own way. My mom has supported me to the best of her ability. She has always worked. And although she made time for me, after things began with Bryce, I pulled away from her, from everyone. As a single mom for those first years, she struggled. Then, she married my stepdad, and we were better, although still only a middle-class family.
“Long day at work. Charlie still isn’t home. He’s doing overtime since Jason needs braces. Any updates on Darren?”
“He’s stable. He will need to have a private nurse or a long-term care facility. With the divorce from Victoria, he lives alone. Mom…” I sigh.
“What is it, Livi? Something is bothering you.”
“Would it bother you if Dad were to relocate to a facility here in Detroit? Would you feel left behind?” The balance of being a child with two homes; I don’t want her to feel like I am giving my dad more than her.
“Honey, you moving to Detroit was scary. You went so far from home, so far from me, from your dad. I know the teen years are hard. I know Victoria put a strain on your relationship with Darren for all those years. In some ways, I think I would feel better if Darren were closer. At least you would have someone. Not saying your friends aren’t enough, but family is everything, Livi.”
I giggle and snort. “I have a family here, Mom.” The words fly out of my mouth before I can take them back.
“Livi, honey, this boy, I’m sure he’s nice. I’m sure he tells you how beautiful you are and fills your head with so much, but, Livi, first love is rarely what you think it is.”
Anger hits me like a ton of bricks. “Mom, don’t tell me what love is or isn’t. You know what, Hendrix isn’t a boy; he’s a man, all man. He doesn’t tell me how beautiful I am; he shows me. Every single day, he shows me with his actions how much I mean to him. He and his brothers have been with me, backing me up, supporting me, and helping me with everything that seems to be crashing around me.” I am shaking from my need to defend Hendrix and what we share. “He gave me back what Bryce took from me all those years ago.” The words just tumble out in a mess of emotions.
That was not how I wanted this to come out. I was honestly hoping to get her to plan a visit, and then I would tell her in person. Only, the cat is out of the proverbial bag now.
“What did Bryce take from you, Livi?” my mother asks with fear lacing every word.
I breathe in and out heavily.
“Livi, tell me, please,” she begs as tears fill my eyes.
My hand reaches under me to rub my butt between the couch I am sitting on. ‘Own it, overcome it’ covers me today. How fitting my panties are as I battle to continue to overcome my past.
“It’s in the past, Mom.”
“Livi…”
“He feels bad about it,” I mumble.
I hear her sob. “Livi, my Livi.” She cries harder, and I feel worse for telling her. “I should’ve known. When you came home after the summer you were fourteen, you were different. I should’ve known. I should’ve been closer to you, pushed harder for you to talk to me. My God, Livi, I’m so sorry.”
As we both cry without me having to get into the details, Floyd comes over to me, licking my tears away. Finally, my mom sniffles, fighting to compose herself.
“Di—did…” She is stuttering. “Your dad, did he know?”
I wipe my face on one of Hendrix’s T-shirts that I am currently wearing. “Not back then.”
“How long, Livi?”
“Two years,” I whisper, fighting to keep the tears at bay.
She cries out into the phone, and then I hear the sound of her falling to the ground and banging her hand or something on the floor.
“No, no, no. I’m so sorry, Livi. My precious Olivia. I sent you there. I trusted Darren. I trusted Victoria. As rude as she always was, I still trusted her with you, my first born, my baby,” she sobs as she rambles to herself.
“Mom, please, Mom. It’s okay. I’m okay. You didn’t know. It’s not your fault. I saw Bryce when I went out there, and he apologized,” I try to calm her.
“He apologized. My goodness, Livi, he should do more than apologize. You faced him alone? You didn’t tell me about this when you went to the hospital. Darren was okay with having that scumbag in his hospital room? You … you…” she trails off, mumbling incoherently.
“I wasn’t alone. Hendrix was there. He’s good to me. He held me. Bryce feels guilty. He’s been in counseling, and he was abused. Victoria doesn’t believe him, but Dad does. What’s more, I believe him. I believe he is truly sorry. I’m moving past this, thanks to Hendrix. He’s freed me from my past, Mom. Don’t be mad, just be understanding, okay?”
“I don’t know how to do that, Livi. I failed as a mother.”
“You didn’t fail at anything as much as I didn’t do anything wrong, nor did Bryce when he was violated. It’s not easy, but we all have to move forward. I don’t wanna lose more time with my dad over this. I also don’t want secrets between us anymore, Mom. I love you. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you.”
She sobs. “Baby, don’t apologize. You have nothing to be sorry for. I love you, always.”
I hear Charlie in the background. “Darlene, baby, what’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
She sobs into my stepdad, muffling her sounds. He takes the phone.
“Livi, you okay? Do we need to come to Detroit?” he asks sincerely.
“I’m okay, Charlie. It’s all okay. Look, I need to get to bed. I have to work in the morning. Take care of Mom and tell her I’ll call in a few days. Love you both.”
I get off the phone, feeling relieved that I have no secrets with my mom. Guilt washes over me that I dropped all this on her now, though. I planned to take my secret to the grave until all this happened with my dad.
Looking up at the entertainment center, my eyes immediately land on one of the few pictures Hendrix has in his home.
Getting up, I pat Floyd on her head as I make my way to the photograph. Pulling it down, I walk back over to the couch, clutching it in my hands. Sitting down, I trace the woman’s face in front of me. Her three boys who are now grown men surround her in the picture.
There is sincerity in the eyes of Janis Caldwell. There is a silent strength in her features. She is a woman who owned her life, her problems, and overcame them. I rub my butt.
‘Own it, overcome it,’ I think to myself.
I continue to stare at the picture. Three boys. The woman in front of me raised three amazing boys into strong, loyal men.
Hendrix’s words replay in my head, “Livi, like it or not, you’re my family. I’ll fight just as hard for you as I will them. Fuck, harder if I have to.”
I’m his family. He will fight for me.
Tears slip down my face. Happy tears. I have found exactly where I belong.
I’m so lost in my thoughts I don’t hear the noise behind me. Before I can react, Hendrix is on his knees in front of the couch. He pushes Floyd aside with his knee as he cups my face, wiping my tears with his thumbs.
“Livi, what’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“She was beautiful, Hendrix.” I smile as a hiccup escapes me from crying.
His eyes move to the picture in my hand. “She was,” he replies, continuing to wipe my tears and eyeing me cautiously.
“I’m crazy, Hendrix.”
“Fuckin’ crazy, Livi,” he agrees as I smile at him.
“Your mom … she calms me. She comforts me. I like having this picture here.”
“Livi, babe, don’t take this wrong. I’m … um … glad my mom can comfort you when I’m not here. Could you maybe share with me what you needed comforting from, though, ‘cause my heart is beating out of my chest here, and I’m lost.”
He takes the picture and sets it on the coffee table behind him. Then, he moves to sit beside me on the couch and wraps his arms around me, pulling me onto his lap. I p
ut my hands on either side of his face. I drink him in. I memorize this moment.
“I love you, Hendrix Caldwell. You are strong, kind, loyal, and sexy. You are a good man, a man the woman in that picture loved, adored, and a man she would be proud of. You, Hendrix Caldwell, make me a better person, a stronger person.”
“Livi, I came home early, and you’re crying on the couch. My mom was the best—I’ll give you that—but why did you say she calms and comforts you? What happened while I was at the bar after you came home from work?”
I blow out a breath, knowing that I am, indeed, crazy. Fuckin’ crazy, as Hendrix would say. I giggle at the thought of the word.
“Babe, seriously, it’s not good for my ego to have you crying or laughing when you’re in my arms.”
“You make me smile. You make me happy.” I look at the love shining in his eyes for me.
“Good to know. What made you cry, Livi?”
“I told my mom about … you know … Bryce.”
“Good, now that the secret is out, it’s a weight lifted off you. I don’t want anything weighing my girl down.”
*.*.*.*
“We got ya covered, girl. Go get your dad settled and spend some time with Broody. Although, I don’t think he’s Broody anymore. He needs a new nickname.” Tabby laughs as Toni smiles at me.
Once Dad was stabilized, they sent him through rehabilitation while Hendrix helped me to research and find a home that would fit my dad and not be too far away from me. He is going to be transferred to a facility just outside of Detroit next week.
Hendrix and I have settled into our new routine. It’s been almost two months, and I am finally feeling like everything is solid.
Jagger and Morrison have stepped up at the bar, and as promised, Hendrix doesn’t work Thursdays anymore. He doesn’t want to shake it for anyone, but me, and I’m A-okay with that. He alternates Sundays so we can have a day together, and I am still at the bar on Tuesday, Friday, and Saturday nights, because it is a way to help Hendrix, earn tips, and still spend time with him.
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