Beautiful Redemption (Maddox Brothers #2)

by Jamie McGuire

  Thomas’s self-loathing was difficult to watch, especially knowing there was no reprieve.

  “You didn’t do this just for a promotion. You might tell yourself that, but I don’t buy it.” I squeezed his hand. His misery was so heavy that even I could feel it. “And you didn’t force him to engage in illegal activity. You’re just trying to spare him the consequences of his actions.”

  “He’s a kid,” Thomas said, his voice faltering. “He’s just getting ready to turn twenty-one, for Christ’s sake. He’s a fucking kid, and I bailed on him. I left for California and didn’t look back, and now, he’s in some serious shit.”

  “Thomas, listen to me. You’ve got to get this straight in your head. If you don’t believe in the reasons for Travis’s recruitment, he sure as hell isn’t going to.”

  He cupped my hands in both of his. Then, he brought my fingers to his mouth and kissed them. My entire body leaned toward him a fraction of an inch as if by a gravitational pull I couldn’t control. As I watched his lips warm my skin, I felt jealous of my own hands.

  Never had I wanted to defy my own rules so ardently that my conscience was at war in my own head. Not even half of these conflicting emotions had existed the night I decided to leave Jackson. The effect Thomas had on me was wonderful and maddening and terrifying.

  “I remember the guy I met my first night here, the one without the pressure of running a field office or making the tough decision to protect his brother. No matter what you tell yourself, you’re a good person, Thomas.”

  He looked over at me and pulled his hand away from mine, indignant. “I’m no fucking saint. If I told you the story about Camille, you wouldn’t be looking at me like that.”

  “You mentioned that she’s Trent’s girlfriend. I can guess.”

  He shook his head. “It’s worse than you think.”

  “I’d say helping Travis avoid a prison sentence is atonement.”

  “Not even close.” He stood.

  I reached for him but missed. I didn’t want him to leave. I had an entire day and nothing to unpack. Now that Thomas was in my living room, he seemed to fill up the empty space. I was afraid it would feel lonely when he left.

  “We can do this, you know,” I said. “Travis will be free. He can stay home with his new wife, and he’ll have a good job. It’ll all work out.”

  “It’d better. God owes me one, more than one.”

  He wasn’t in my living room. He was miles away from me.

  “We just have to stay focused,” I said. “This has to be the best damn thing either of us has ever pulled off.”

  He nodded, considering my words.

  “And what about Camille?” I asked. “Do you have that handled?”

  Thomas walked toward the door, putting his hand on the knob. “Another time. I think we’ve had enough truth for one day.”

  When the door slammed, my shoulders flew up to my ears, and I closed my eyes. After the few decorations Sawyer had nailed to the walls the night before stopped rattling, I sat back against the couch cushions in a huff. Thomas was supposed to make it easier to hate him, and after what he’d shared with me, it was impossible.

  I wondered who at the Bureau knew about his personal conflicts—with his brother and the Vegas case, and keeping his career from his family—maybe Marks, likely the S.A.C., and definitely the director.

  Thomas had made me his partner on this. For whatever reason, he trusted me, and just as inexplicably, that made me want to work that much harder to wrap up this case.

  Val had said before that Thomas had a loyal circle and to be careful what I said. Now, I was part of that circle, and I was curious if it was because he needed to use my talents like he did Sawyer’s or if it was just that he needed me.

  I covered my face, thinking about his lips on my skin, and I knew that I was hoping for both.

  “ABSOLUTELY NOT,” I said to Agent Davies.

  She gritted her teeth, sitting stiffly in my office.

  “You’re not getting three million dollars of taxpayer money for some half-cocked scheme.”

  “It’s not a half-cocked scheme, Lindy. It’s right there in the file. If we wire three million to that account, we’ll have Vick’s trust.”

  “You know how much a middleman’s trust is worth to me?”

  “Three million?” Davies said, her big eyes only half hopeful.

  “No. Stop wasting my time.” I continued typing on my laptop, checking my schedule.

  Val and I had a lunch meeting at Fuzzy’s, and then I had to ask Thomas if I could speak with the other language expert, Agent Grove, about some discrepancies I had found in his FD-302.

  Davies slapped my desk and stood up. “Just another goddamn bossy…” Her grumbling trailed off as she got closer to my door.

  “Agent Davies,” I called.

  She turned around, her long brown ponytail flipping as she did so. The annoyed expression on her face hardened when her eyes met mine.

  “You need to get one thing straight. I am not bossy. I’m the fucking boss.”

  Davies’s stern look softened, and she blinked. “Have a nice day, Agent Lindy.”

  “Likewise, Agent Davies.” I motioned for her to shut the door, and as it closed, I put on my headphones and listened to the digital file Thomas had sent me this morning.

  The file Agent Grove had translated a few days before was accurate, except for a few key elements. I’d meant to ask Thomas about it earlier, but something felt off. It was mostly a number here and there, but then Grove had listed a suspect by the wrong name and begun leaving things out altogether.

  I pulled off the headset and walked out into the squad room, noticing Grove wasn’t at his desk. “Val,” I called, “have you seen Maddox?”

  She walked over to me, holding a small bag of potato chips in one hand and licking the salt off the other. “He’s interviewing someone over at the Taliban Welcome Center.”

  I frowned. “Really? We’re really going to call it that?”

  “It’s what everyone calls it,” she said, shrugging.

  Val was referring to the million-dollar building that sat in front of our multimillion-dollar building. It served as a security checkpoint for visitors, and it was where we would question persons of interest. That way, if they or their friends attempted to bring explosives in, the main building wouldn’t be at risk.

  Someone had dubbed this checkpoint as the Taliban Welcome Center, and for some bizarre reason, the nickname had stuck.

  I flicked my ID badge—habit to make sure I had it on before I left—and I headed out. It was normally a nice jaunt across the parking lot to the checkpoint building, but low gray clouds were rumbling across the sky, and huge raindrops began to fall a few moments after I’d stepped onto the concrete.

  The air smelled metallic, and I breathed in deep. The last week had been spent mostly indoors. That was something I hadn’t prepared for. It was easy to work behind a desk in freezing Chicago temperatures. Working so much when it was downright balmy was proving to be more difficult as the gorgeous days came, one after another.

  I looked up at the sky, seeing flashes of lightning at the edge of the city. It would be easier to be at work in stormy weather.

  I pushed through the glass double doors, flicking my hands and spraying the carpet with rainwater. Despite being soaked, I was in a good mood.

  I looked to the agent at the desk with a broad smile. She wasn’t impressed with my positivity, my manners, or the fact that I’d walked that far in the rain.

  My smile fell away, and I cleared my throat. “Special Agent Maddox?”

  She took a long look at my badge and then nodded behind her. “He’s in interrogation room two.”

  “Thank you,” I said. I walked over to the security door and bent over a bit while holding my badge to the black box on the wall near the door. I felt ridiculous, and someday soon, I would have to find a retractable badge holder.

  The bolt lock clicked, and I pushed through. I walked d
own the hall and then through a door before seeing Thomas standing alone, watching Agent Grove question an unknown subject—also known as an unsub—a sullen, lanky Asian man in a bright track suit.

  “Agent Lindy,” Thomas said.

  I crossed my arms, aware that my white blouse was wet and I was cold. “How long has he been at it?”

  “Not long. The subject has been cooperating.”

  I listened to them conversing in Japanese. Immediately, I frowned.

  “What made you come this way?” Thomas asked.

  “I had some questions about a few of Grove’s transcriptions. I need your permission to speak with him.”

  “For the Yakuza case?”

  “Yes.”

  He hummed, unaffected. “Your function here is confidential.”

  “Someone left a stack of his reports on my door. I assumed Grove knew I was also a specialist and wanted me to look them over.”

  “Assumptions are dangerous, Liis. I put them there.”

  “Oh.”

  “Did you find anything?”

  “A lot of things.”

  I looked through the glass at the three people inside. Another agent was sitting in the corner, taking notes but otherwise looking extremely bored.

  “Who’s that?” I asked.

  “Pittman. He wrecked his third vehicle. He’s on desk duty for a while.”

  I looked to Thomas. He was unreadable.

  “You don’t seem surprised that I found some discrepancies,” I said, watching Grove through the one-way mirror. I pointed. “There. He just translated that eleven former members of Yakuza are living in a building that also houses other subjects of Bureau investigations.”

  “So?”

  “The unsub relayed that the members are in fact current members of Yakuza, and their number is eighteen, not eleven. Grove’s omitting. He’s either shit at Japanese, or he’s unreliable.”

  Agent Grove stood and then left the unsub in the room alone with the transcribing agent. He slowly walked out before closing the door behind him. When he saw the two of us, he startled but quickly recovered.

  “Agent Maddox,” he said in a nasal tone.

  Anyone else might have missed the slight trembling in his fingers when he pushed up his glasses. He was a pudgy man with copper skin. His eyes were so dark that they were nearly black, and his wiry mustache twitched when he spoke.

  Thomas gestured to me with the same hand that held his coffee. “This is Agent Lindy, the new supervisor for Squad Five.”

  “I’ve heard the name,” Grove said, eyeing me. “From Chicago?”

  “Born and raised.”

  Grove had the look I’d seen often right before a person asked me if I was Korean, Japanese, or Chinese. He was trying to decide if I could speak the language he had been incorrectly translating.

  “Maybe you should come in here and help. He’s got a weird accent. Keeps tripping me up,” Grove said.

  I shrugged. “Me? I don’t speak Japanese. I’ve been thinking of taking lessons though.”

  Thomas spoke up, “Maybe you could work with her, Grove?”

  “Like I have time for that,” he grumbled, mindlessly rubbing his sweaty palms against each other.

  “Just a thought,” Thomas said.

  “I’m grabbing coffee. I’ll see you around.”

  Thomas lifted his chin once, waiting until Agent Grove left the room.

  “Good call,” Thomas said, watching Pittman doodle.

  “How long have you known?” I asked.

  “I’ve had my suspicions for at least three months. I was sure when I missed an arrest after walking in on an empty room that I knew had been crawling with Yakuza two days prior.”

  I raised an eyebrow.

  Thomas shrugged. “I was going to bring him in to translate the Title Threes we’d gotten on Benny’s guys in Vegas, but after that missed arrest, I thought better of it. Instead, I wanted to bring in someone new, someone better.”

  “Someone who wasn’t a double agent?”

  Thomas turned to me with the smallest hint of a smile. “Why do you think I brought you here?”

  “Will you arrest him?” I asked. “What will you do?”

  He shrugged. “I doubt we’ll keep using him as a translator.”

  I made a face. “I’m serious.”

  “Me, too.”

  Thomas walked with me down the hall and out to the parking lot, tossing his coffee and opening an umbrella. “You should invest in one of these, Liis. It’s spring, you know.”

  He hadn’t said my name as acerbically as before. He’d spoken it softly, his tongue caressing each letter, and I found myself glad that we had the excuse of the rain to keep close.

  I dodged puddles, inwardly enjoying it when Thomas struggled to keep the umbrella over my head. Finally, he resorted to putting his free hand around my waist and squeezing me to his side. If we came upon a puddle, he could simply and effortlessly lift me over it.

  “I have never liked the rain,” Thomas said as we stopped in front of the lobby doors while he shook off his umbrella. “But I might have changed my mind.”

  I grinned up at him, trying my best not to make obvious the ridiculous giddiness I felt over his innocent flirtation.

  Once inside the lobby of the main building, Thomas was back to his typical ASAC demeanor. “I’ll need a FD-three-oh-two on your findings by the end of the day. I’m going to need to report this to the S.A.C.”

  “On it,” I said, turning for the elevator.

  “Liis?”

  “Yes?”

  “Will you be working out today?”

  “Not today. I’m having lunch with Val.”

  “Oh.”

  I relished the flicker of disappointment in his eyes. “I’ll be there tomorrow.”

  “Yeah, okay,” he said, trying to play off the small blow to his ego.

  If he looked any unhappier, I wouldn’t be able to thwart the smile threatening to break out across my face.

  Once inside the elevator, when the thrill wore off, I was thoroughly annoyed with myself. I’d essentially kicked him out of my bedroom the night we met because I was sure I would be too busy enjoying my freedom. Being with Jackson had been suffocating, and a transfer had seemed like the perfect solution.

  Why in the hell do I feel this way about Thomas? Despite my feelings about starting a new relationship and considering his temper and emotional baggage, what is it about him that makes me lose my ability to reason?

  Whatever it was, I needed to get a handle on it. We had to focus on getting through our assignment in St. Thomas, and something messy like feelings wouldn’t help anyone.

  The elevator opened to reveal Val smiling brightly in the hallway. After taking in the sight of me, her good mood vanished. “Haven’t you heard of an umbrella, Liis? Jesus.”

  I rolled my eyes. “You act as if I’m covered in dog shit. It’s rain.”

  She followed me to my office and sat in one of the twin chairs in front of my desk. She crossed her legs and arms and glared at me. “Spill it.”

  “What are you talking about?” I said, kicking off my heels and placing them next to each other by the floor vent.

  “Really?” She tucked her chin. “Don’t be that girl. Chicks before dicks.”

  I sat down and laced my fingers together on top of my desk. “Just tell me what you want to know, Val. I have things to do. I think I just got Agent Grove fired—or arrested.”

  “What?” Her eyebrows shot up for half a second, and then she was frowning again. “You might be an ace at diversion, but I know when someone’s not telling me something, and you, Liis, have a secret.”

  I covered my eyes with my hand. “How can you tell? I’ve got to get better at this.”

  “What do you mean, how can I tell? Do you know how many interrogations I’ve sat in on? I just know. I’d say I’m psychic, but that’s stupid, so I’ll just say, ‘Thank you, Dad, for being a cheating bastard and heightening my bullshit-o-mete
r.’”

  I pulled my hand away and gave her a look.

  “What? I tell the truth—unlike you, you…fake, foul friend.”

  I wrinkled my nose. “That was harsh.”

  “So is knowing that your friend doesn’t trust you.”

  “It’s not that I don’t trust you, Val. It’s just none of your business.”

  Val stood and walked around the club chair, placing her hands on the back. “Quite frankly, I’d rather you not trust me. And…you’re no longer invited to Fuzzy’s.”

  “What?” I shrieked. “C’mon!”

  “No. No Fuzzy’s for you. And they love me, Liis. Do you know what that means? No Fuzzy’s for lunch. No Fuzzy’s forever.” She emphasized every syllable of the last word. Then, she widened her eyes and turned on her heels before shutting the door behind her.

  I crossed my arms and pouted.

  Five seconds later, my landline rang, and I picked up the phone. “Lindy,” I snapped.

  “Hurry up. I’m hungry.”

  I smiled, grabbed my purse and shoes, and hurried to the hall.

  “SO,” VAL SAID AS SHE CHEWED, wiping the mixture of mayo and mustard from the corner of her mouth, “you have a date with Maddox in three weeks. Is that what you’re telling me?”

  I frowned. “No. It was what you pulled out of me.”

  She smiled, pursing her lips to keep the large bite of BLT from tumbling out.

  I rested my chin on my fist, pouting. “Why can’t you just leave things alone, Val? I need him to trust me.”

  She swallowed. “How many times have I told you? There are no secrets in the Bureau. Maddox should have assumed that I’d find out eventually. He’s acutely aware of my talents.”

  “What is that supposed to mean?”

  “Curb the jealousy, O.J. I mean that Maddox knows we’re friends, and he knows I can sniff out any secret better than a coon dog.”

  “A coon dog? Who are you right now?”

  “My grandparents live in Oklahoma. I used to visit every summer,” she said dismissively. “Listen, you’re doing a crackerjack job as supervisor. The S.A.C. clearly has an eye on you. You’re going to be at Quantico before you can say office affair.”