Nazarea N. Andrews
After the Fall Book 1
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Copyright © 2013 by Nazarea Andrews.
Edge of the Falls by Nazarea Andrews
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Summary: When Sabah, a social outcast finds out her guardian has been keeping secrets from her, she runs away with a ban-wolf who proves to be just as dangerous as the life she left.
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Nazarea N. Andrews
After the Fall Book 1
“Yes," said the Beast, "my heart is good, but still I am a monster."
"Among mankind," said Beauty, "there are many that deserve that name more than you.”
Part 1.
The Manor
Chapter 1
I’ve never questioned the Mistress’ need for starrbriars.
In the almost fourteen years I’ve lived under her roof, I’ve accepted it without thought. But as I pick my way across the cliff, searching the ever-present darkness for the small flowers, I wonder what is so important about them.
The wind picks up and I skid a little, the cliff icy from the spray of the waterfall. I step back as I glance into my bag—it’s almost empty. We’ve exhausted the easily gathered supply of flowers.
I feel someone’s gaze, and resist looking behind me. Instead, I crouch down, drawn by a stunted flower growing on the side of the precipice. I tug it free, and stare into the churning water, broken on the rocks far below me. Which child will be lowered into that this time? Who will risk their life at the whim of our Mistress?
A scream, haunting and primal, fills the air, rising above the roar of the waterfall and I jerk, losing my balance for a dizzying moment. My hands slip on the ice, sliding until I find a grip. For a long moment, I stay still, waiting for my heartbeat to steady. Then I crawl backwards, barely breathing as I edge away from the drop-off. I see blood on the rocks, and belatedly, I feel the sting on my palm.
Lilith is trudging through the ice-capped snow, the tip of her red nose poking out of her hood. She bends, inspecting something near the ground and I hold my breath, hoping. If she has found more starrbriars, we might be able to postpone the inevitable for a few more days.
She straightens and her eyes dart to me, questioning. I sigh. We have been harvesting the flowers for three weeks now and the supply on the cliff face is gone. I’ve been dreading this day. Tugging my woolen cloak closer and wishing it were somehow a stronger protection from the spray, I motion Lilith to follow me back to the Manor.
“Who will Mistress send?” she asks, as she falls into step beside me. Her voice is faint, hard to hear over the constant roar of water. I shiver. Last season, Cedric had gone for the flowers, but he has grown over the months since then—and still hasn’t completely recovered from the shattered leg. Gwen won’t let him go now, no matter what the Mistress wishes.
I force a smile for Lilith as we trudge back to the Manor. “We don’t question the Mistress, Lil.”
It isn’t an answer, and I feel her shudder, feel the question that hangs on the air around us, as tangible as the mist that has her shivering.
“Come on, little sister,” I say affectionately. “Let’s get you to the fire and see what Cook made for supper.”
We pick our way back to the Manor and again the screams of the ban-wolves fill the darkness. Beside me, Lilith stiffens, and our pace quickens as we retreat to the house. I glance over my shoulder as Lilith slips into the kitchen, and in the ever-present darkness, I can see the gleam of golden eyes, watching hungrily after us in the dark.
The eyes are familiar somehow. I wonder if it is the same ban-wolf that has been lingering around the Manor for the past week, seeming to watch us.
Ignoring the unfamiliar—and idiotic—urge to seek out the ban-wolf, I shut the door firmly and bolt it behind us.
The Mistress claims the ban-wolves protect us from the tigercats and dragons and the adventurous Keepers. Occasionally, in the dim graylight of morning, when Berg and I wander the grounds looking for nuts or herbs the Mistress has demanded, we will find a body. Sometimes, we can tell what it was by the fur. Other times, there is not enough left even to say if it was animal or human. Neither of us ever speaks of them, and we never tell the others we find them. Some things, you don’t share with young children. You carry the weight of them on your own.
“Sabah?”
I look up at the sound of my name. It is Cook’s sharp voice, reminding me that I am dripping, soaked to the bone from mist and ice. My hands clench on my cloak and pain flares in my hand. I hide my grimace and follow Lilith through the warm kitchen to the room where all of the girls sleep. Despite the fire, it is still cold in our room, and I shiver as I quickly strip out of my cloak, rough breeches and knit sweater. My undershirt clings to me, a thin layer of ice, and I consider the merits of leaving it on. Then I shrug and discard it as well, catching the long, formless dress Lilith throws to me, sighing in relief as I slip into it.
It isn’t much. Compared to the soft weave of the Mistress’ robes, it is rough and scratchy. It is warm and dry, and that matters more.
Lilith looks into her knapsack again while I wrap my hand neatly. “It’s not enough,” she murmurs, despondent.
“Lil,” I snap, my voice sharper than I intend. “You knew this was coming—that it always comes.”
Her gray eyes are hurt when they come up to mine, and I bite back my sigh, force my tone to be calm as I say, “It will be okay, Lil. Mistress will see to it.”
She leans into me as I lead her back to the kitchen, and I let her. The younger girls all look to me for support and guidance—a role I have never been comfortable in, even though it has been mine for as many years as I have been in the Manor.
As we re-enter the kitchen, the smell of venison and nutty bread in the air, my eyes dart around to find him. Berg straightens from where he had half knelt next to Guin. A tightness in my chest eases; the tightness that is always there when he is out hunting.
His sky-dark eyes warm when he sees me, and I see the question in them, the one I have been dreading. Berg knows me well enough to read the answer instantly, in the set of my shoulders and arm around Lilith. A quiet sigh slips from him as the clamor of the children immerses me.
Kaida is sitting by the fire, reading, but I catch her eye as the girls sweep me into their conversation about the kitten they found in the greenhouse. I try not to flinch at the sight
of her big gray eyes, mirrors of my own, struggle not to think of what she will have to do soon.
Silence settles slowly, the children going still and tense as we wait for the Mistress. Cook stands by the firestove, muttering over the thick stew.
The Mistress enters the room like the mist over the rocks—creeping, quiet, with no fanfare or announcement. She is absent one moment, and the next, she sits at the head of the table. There is the familiar moment of hushed awe, before she claps once and Cook bustles to the table.
As the oldest, Berg and I sit directly across from each other, on either side of the Mistress. All of us wait as Cook serves her before I begin ladling out the venison stew and handing the bowls down to the younger children.
“How did you fare today, hunting?” the Mistress asks, accepting the nut bread slathered with honey that Berg offers.
He smiles, and I feel some relief that one of us was successful. “Two rabbits, a small goose and the bait lines were full.”
The Mistress smiles—she always enjoys fresh fish. Then her black eyes find mine, and I tremble as she arches a questioning eyebrow.
“The supply has been exhausted, Mistress. We found four briars. Two were stunted too badly to be of use,” I say, staring into my bowl. I flick a cautious look at her.
Her eyes tighten, unnoticeable to anyone who does not know to look. I do, and look down again, at the thick broth, cooling rapidly. Her fingers brush my arm, soft and icy and startling—my gaze jerks back to her and she smiles, tight but there. “It was coming, dear. We shall adjust.”
I nod mutely and begin to eat, not tasting the food as conversation swells around me, the comforting and familiar chatter of stories and lessons and work. The triangle that composes our life.
It isn’t a bad life—and since all of us were Gutterlings, left to the elements outside the Shield, it is more than we could have expected. Most Outsiders live a life far harder. We see them sometimes, Rover tribes who race the winds and acidstorms, and hope to avoid the more vicious predators. The children of those Outsiders are always dirty and feral, something hungry in their eyes as they watch me.
No, I know our life here in the shadow of the City is not a bad one. Sometimes, when the darklight lifts just enough, I can see across the expanse of air that separates us from the City. I can see the pinpricks of light that drive the ever-present night back and I wonder.
What would life be like, as a Citizen? Where no ban-wolves lurk outside the door? Without acidstorms making even the mildest storm a nightmare? I wonder what safety can be found in such a regulated life.
And—quite often—I wonder why the Mistress would choose to live outside that safety, so close and yet Exiled from her own people.
Chapter 2
“I don’t understand why we need to know this;” Alba complains, glaring at the holo I’m setting up.
I bite my lip to keep from snapping at her—she complains about everything, but I am not the one who decided that reviewing the mutations riots from Before was a good idea. I glance out the door, where I can hear the Mistress talking quietly to Berg.
They’re waiting on me.
“I think the mistakes of the past deserve our attention,” Spiro says softly. “Maybe then we won’t repeat them.”
Alba twists to scowl at him, and I clear my throat, silencing her before she can launch on another tirade. “The Mistress wants you to watch the histories. If you have a problem with it, I suggest you take it up with her.”
I let the challenge hang in the air as silence thickens in the room. Alba stares at me for a long moment before she slouches down. Satisfied, I start the holo.
The images of a time long gone, both foreign and familiar, fill the room. A deep voice speaks over the picture about the chaos that lit the fires of the cataclysm. I pause, glancing at Kaida, nestled between Guin and Cedric. A pang of unease goes through me—the holo is violent. Too violent for her.
I can feel the Mistress watching me, and I push the thoughts aside. The histories are familiar to all of us, something that Mistress drills into each of her children. Reviewing the bloody days before the Cataclysm will not damage Kaida.
I shake my skirt free of dust, and leave the study. The Mistress watches me, her dark eyes probing, and I meet her stare levelly. I wonder what she sees, when she looks at me like she can see my soul.
All of us are quiet as she leads us through the Manor’s silent halls, past the ballroom where most of our free time is spent—what little we have. I barely note the empty rooms we pass. The Manor is so familiar that I sometimes forget its beauty. I trail my fingers over the scrolling edges of wood worked Before that survived Longest Night.
There is a formality about the Mistress that makes me nervous, a quiet tension that is reflected in Berg. I frown, watching them from the corner of my eye as she settles into her chair in the kitchen. Cook is absent for once, and I dip bowls of warm broth for the three of us as Berg slices sharp cheese, bread, and two of the last apples.
“I need Kaida,” she says, her eyes on Berg. I see him hesitate, his knife resting on the bread for a moment too long before he slices down and nods.
“She’s too young, Mistress,” I protest, suppressing a shiver when her gaze, cold and hard, finds me.
“I need more starrbriars,” she says quietly, and despite knowing this is coming, it hits me hard.
“Maybe we should wait, Mistress,” Berg ventures. I feel a flash of gratitude, and hold my breath, waiting for her response.
“How long do you suppose the fire-lizards will wait?” she asks tartly.
And that quickly, hope fades. She offers us life, education, security, and, in exchange, we risk our lives for her. All of us know her price.
“I want Kaida to go. She’s smarter than Guin—he’ll be ready when Kaida is too big, I think,” the Mistress continues, startling me—she never explains herself. I wonder why she does now.
“I’ll go,” I blurt, and her eyes come up from her bowl of broth, disbelieving.
“You?” A short laugh bursts from her. “Sabah, you know you can’t. You are far too big.”
It’s true. I am. I’m three inches shorter than Lilith, small for my age, but much too large to fit in the tunnel behind the waterfall. I shudder at the thought that Kaida will soon be crawling through hordes of fire-lizards and snakes.
“She’s too young,” I say again, my voice sharp. “It’s cruel to force it on her. Cedric still hasn’t recovered, and probably never will.” Anger swamps me, and I drop my spoon with a clatter. “If you’re going to keep demanding this, keep risking their lives, I won’t raise them. I won’t raise them for you to sacrifice.”
“Sabah!” Berg snaps and I glare at him.
The Mistress leans back, her eyes as sharp as a carrion hawk’s as she studies me. “This is my price, Sabah,” she says. “You know that. They know. Why are you fighting me?”
Terror chills my anger. What if she turns me out? I am an Exile, a girl with no Insurance or Quota—the City will never accept me. They never wanted me in the first place. I will not survive Outside for long, certainly not without one of the Roving tribes.
But the children—they have no one to speak for them. “Your price is too high, Mistress. You demand everything and give us no answers. No promise of a future. Nothing but a roof and food—we aren’t your slaves. Yet your control over our lives is like the Commission.”
Her eyes narrow dangerously, and I almost back down. Before I can say anything, Berg steps between us. “She’s just tired, Mistress. You know Sabah and I are loyal to you.”
“Stop that,” I shout, and both of them jerk, looking at me. “I’m not a child you can order around. And I’m not asking you to make excuses for me,” I tell Berg. “I’m tired of watching my children die!”
There’s a long moment of quiet. I can feel their eyes on me, pressing and demanding. My emotions are raging, words I can’t say bubbling in my throat, so I choke them down and storm out of the room.
T
he cold bites at my face as I stalk away from the house. Mlena glows, brilliant against the darkness, setting my temper off even further. With the wind biting at me, I stalk along the edge of the river, away from the Manor and the City and everything that I can’t face right now. The wind is wild and fierce against my skin, teasing my hair from my bun.
It’s savage out here. A few steps away from my home, away from the shadow of Mlena, the darkness swallows me. I could vanish out here. For a long, cold moment, I consider it: walking until I am taken by a predator, or found by a tribe. Living my life racing the winds. Living free.
Walking away from the Mistress and Berg and… the children. That makes my steps falter, and I look back. Can I really leave my children? Kadia, Cedric, Guin, and the tiny twins? Spiro?
I close my eyes, and finally, turn back.
**
The holo is still on when I return to the study, the dark vista of Genesis Fields spread out as a Commission puppet drones on about the dangers Outside. I can just see the distortion of the City’s shield in the darkness before it pans out to show a pack of ban-wolves running away from a unit of Keepers.
I clear my throat, and all of them turn to me. Young eyes, bitter eyes, curious—all in varying shades of gray, and all looking to me for something. I used to wonder why. Why did all of the strays the Mistress sheltered look to me for guidance? Was it because the Mistress was too distant to fill that role, or was it my age, or that I was the one who took them to their rooms and settled them into this life, after Berg found them and brought them to the Manor? Perhaps it was a mix of all three.
Eventually, I quit worrying about it. The fact was they did—for whatever reason. It falls to me to mother these orphans, and I do my best. Even when I want to fall apart.
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