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I saw my mother standing before me. She held my hands in hers as she looked at me. "Star, my child, now try another time, this time when you feel anything, push it away. Do you understand? Take the feeling and place it in the back of your mind. Clear your mind, my child, then the path will be clear to you,"
I nod. Do not feel, she told me. So I tried it again and raised my hands above hers. I focused my emotion into my hands and pushing everything else I felt away, just like she told me. The black light grew much larger than it did just a few moments ago between my hands.
My mother nodded and whispered, "Very good, Star. Now hold this and release some of that compressed emotion slowly through your arms. Once you are able to do this, I believe you are ready,"
'Don't feel...'
'Ike...'
'I do not wish to push my emotions away anymore.'
My surroundings changed to a forest very familiar to me. I turned to see Ike standing there before me, within the shadow of that tree.
"You fell out of the sky 2 hours ago. I found you and waited for you to wake up,"
'Wait, that was the very first thing I ever heard him say to me... Ike, you are amazing. When I was alone, you watched over me. You trusted me, even when you knew nothing about me. I felt attracted to you right when I saw your deep blue eyes and fell in love with you. Nothing I did ever bothered you and nothing changed your mind about me. I could never stop thinking about you.
This feeling you bring to me, this emotion I feel when I think of you, it does not make me feel weak at all... I always thought this was one of those strong emotions my mother told me about to always conceal or it would control me... But it is a different type of strong emotion. I understand that now.’
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