‘Any word?’ he demanded of Wys, as soon as he could get a word in.
‘Hmm?’ Wys raised her feathery eyebrow, the only tufts of hair on her head. ‘Oh, of your friend? Nothing. They’ve met a few Pelagists, but none that recently, and it’s not likely the news would be bandied about that freely. Don’t worry, they’ll find us.’ She smiled at him, obviously believing that she was being reassuring. ‘Nothing bad will have happened to him. He’s probably reached the Stations already.’
He remembered the darkness closing on him.
He remembered something lancing into his side, a feeling like burning, then fighting to breathe.
The surging, hanging bulk of Arkeuthys rolling forward in the water, like an angry cloud, tentacles reaching out but then suddenly recoiling.
Himself rushing upwards through the water, dragged by the thing in his side, into…
Stenwold remembered…
Light.
And woke to it, bright enough to claw at the edge of his eyelids. He lay on a yielding surface, and felt a dull ache in his side where something had pierced him. The light was so white, he could see it despite his closed eyes. White and bright and pure, like nothing he had seen since they took him away from the sun.
For a moment he thought… but he was not back on land. There was no fresh breeze, no open space. Around him the damp, neutral air reverberated to a soft, rhythmic sound, like a rush of water heard from three rooms away. A submersible, it must be…? But not like the jetting dart they had kidnapped him in, nor even Wys’s coiled home. There was motion evident in the padded surface beneath him, but it was different to the almost violent stop-start of siphons that Lej had shown him earlier.
He opened his eyes, or tried to. The light was just too bright. He was surrounded by glare. He raised a hand to blot it out, feeling his joints ache. Something in him was ready for a sharp stab of hurt in his side, but there was now only the distant and fading memory of pain.
Yet another strange place. Every time I ever try to understand.. . Chenni’s barque, then the oubliette, Wys’s vessel, the shell-house, the claustrophobic cabin behind the head of Gribbern’s poor sea monster… and now this. Where was this?
I hope Laszlo did better than this. I hope Teornis did, too, wherever he is. He felt that he would have kissed Teornis, to see him just then, enemy or not.
He finally risked peering through his fingers. Everything around him seemed to glow pale, as though he was sitting under the full moon. There were arching walls around him – no, a dome, a dome above. The walls kept undulating softly. He could make out grey shapes within them, worms and sacs and…
Like intestines. Those dim forms within the translucent walls were like the guts of some creature, and beyond them was…
The sea. The water. He spotted the darting forms of fish as they approached to butt at the light. He looked down.
Looking down was definitely a mistake. There was less light emanating from down there. The floor was nigh on transparent, and below was only sea – yet not only sea. There was a drifting trail there, too, like the forest of weeds but floating, hanging in the water, going on for ever and for ever until the white light could no longer penetrate. Strings and coils and glittering strands of jewels. Tentacles.
Not a submersible. He held himself very still. That there was air here, and not simply some kind of digestive juice, suggested he was now the guest of some other type of sea-kinden, but that failed to inspire him with any great confidence. He saw a fish darting in amongst those lazy strands. A single touch, a mere brush against the slimmest tendril and the creature was twitching, spasming and then still, stuck somehow on the near-invisible thread. Then the creature he was inside began to haul up the line, contracting and contracting again, as it dragged its victim in smoothly towards some hidden orifice.
Just like me? He remembered that lance of pain, that tug. How can they live like this? Why don’t they go mad with revulsion? Everything here is so hideous!
‘Tell me how you feel.’
His head moved automatically to find the source of the voice.
‘Oh,’ gaped Stenwold.
She was not hideous. She was anything but hideous, and he knew instantly what land-kinden her people must once have been cousin to. Those blank white eyes, that pale skin that shone softly, constantly brushed with muted sheens like mother-of-pearl. He remembered the girl that Salma had loved, who had once been known as Grief in Chains, and who had danced and been ethereally beautiful – somehow not fit for Stenwold’s or Salma’s world of blood and war. This woman was the same. She was more so. Her skin was so alabaster-pale that he dared not look too closely lest he discern her organs beneath it and, besides, her skin was all that she possessed, that and her long, pale hair that rippled and twitched as though it felt the sea current shifting beyond those filmy walls. She knelt, sitting on her heels, and stared at him with those huge, featureless eyes and no expression at all on her face.
‘What…?’ he managed. He felt as though he had been off-balance for days now, reeling from one incomprehensible sight to another, as though any moment he would be out in the water again, in a cell, or in the jaws of a monster. He was shaking and, as he noticed it, the shaking became worse and he could not stop it. All he could do was just stare bleakly back at this sea-kinden woman.
‘Tell me how you feel,’ she repeated.
He opened his mouth to frame an answer, but even posing the question to himself made it impossible to utter. Lost, he thought. I feel lost. And he was truly lost. No other son of Collegium had ever been so adrift, surely. I want to go home. Not because he was War Master Stenwold Maker, hero of Collegium, who would save his city from the Spiders as he had, somehow apparently, saved it from the Vekken and the Wasps. He wanted to go home for the same reason a wayward child cries for its mother. I want to see something familiar. Walls, doors, roofs, my friends. Not… The image of Gribbern’s death appeared abruptly in the front of his mind: the blindly mechanical apparatus of the crab’s mouthparts going about their delicate work of ripping a man to shreds and consuming him. As he recoiled from the thought, his mind’s straining seams finally sprang. They all came out, all the old faces. Tisamon, you bastard, where are you when I need you? Nero sketched slyly, he who had died hundreds of miles astray in Solarno… Salma, Totho, Tynisa… The dead and the lost.
Arianna. He relived her death, Danaen’s cruel blade separating her from her life’s last seconds with typical Mantis precision. Arianna who had betrayed him and betrayed for him and tried to kill a general for him, and who might even have loved him, in some brief moment between wars.
He was aware that he was falling sideways, but his arms were too busy trying to hold himself together. The surface that he fell on to rippled with alien life as he landed, and he wished it would swallow him up, absorb him, divide him from this killing ache of loss just as the Mantis blade had severed Arianna from him.
He felt her presence, then: delicate fingers trailing across the tattered clothing over his back, exploring textures tentatively, unsure quite what to do with him. When they touched skin they shrank away. She might almost have been floating in the air above him, as he shuddered with pent-up grief. Some instinct or memory had obviously touched her, for her arms were then around him, an encircling embrace only an inch from contact, head bent low so the fronds of her hair twined slowly, blindly about him. He shook and sobbed under her tentative guardianship, and at last, when it had all been wrung out of him, and sheer exhaustion triumphed over the draining wells of emotion, he slept.
He awoke to voices, and for a moment he was kicking frantically in Gribbern’s tiny cramped cabin, because it was the distant echo of Nemoctes drifting to him from far away… and when she answered, when his mysterious benefactress spoke, he recognized her voice from the ghosts that had haunted Gribbern, in those last headlong moments before he and his mount had died. ‘I am near,’ she had assured him, but she had not been quite near enough.
‘He returns to us,�
�� she said now, without looking round at him, somehow sensing even the opening of Stenwold’s eyes. She was sitting, her knees drawn close to her chin, facing away from him.
‘Stenwold Maker of the land-kinden, do you hear me?’ came the scratching sound that distance and their Art made of Nemoctes’s voice.
‘And if I do?’ Stenwold replied weakly.
‘He hears,’ the woman confirmed.
‘I am glad that you still live, land-kinden.’
‘I’m not sure I share that pleasure,’ Stenwold told the air. ‘What do you want?’
There was a pause after she had relayed his words, and then Nemoctes said, ‘I have told Lyess to bring you to the Hot Stations. We will meet there – with Heiracles and other loyalists if possible. Claeon will not dare act too openly for fear of the Man.’ That one word was spoken as a title of some weight. ‘I will find your friend, the other land-kinden. He will be brought to you there.’
‘Good,’ Stenwold responded, thinking that was the least they could do if they could not take him home. Then shame struck him, and he muttered, ‘I’m sorry about your friend.’
‘As am I,’ and so he was, for Nemoctes’s bitter sadness could be heard quite clearly. ‘Sorrier still as I am the cause, the one who has brought some of my fellow Pelagists into this conflict. I do not intend to see any more of my people slain – or any others under my care, yourself included.’
‘Then take me to the land,’ Stenwold demanded promptly. ‘Free me.’
He did not hear Nemoctes’s sigh, but his mind inserted it into the pause that followed. At last the unseen sea-kinden said, ‘If I was free myself to act, then I would hold no prisoners. Freedom is the life of a Pelagist, so I would never willingly deny it to any. I can only pledge that Heiracles and his people must advance some definite cause against you, or purpose for you, otherwise I shall return you to your people myself, and your friend also. No more waiting. No more holding you behind their backs in case of need.’
Perhaps that was fair, and a fine thing to promise, but Stenwould could not find it so. ‘Well,’ he said, without direction. ‘And what now?’
‘You shall be in the Hot Stations as soon as time and the currents allow,’ Nemoctes told him. ‘Until then, Lyess shall care for you. There are few dangers in the ocean likely to trouble her, I hope.’
Stenwold remembered how Arkeuthys had flinched back, stung by the tendrils of whatever sea-monster he was now travelling in. Under other circumstances, he would have wondered at how much more closely these sea-kinden lived with the creatures whose Art they bore, how much more they relied on them, and had been affected by them in turn. As it was he just felt the whole situation somehow vile. Then the woman – Lyess he assumed – turned about to stare at him again, milky arms wrapped about her knees.
‘I… suppose we are to be companions for a while, then,’ he said awkwardly. An answering expression came to her face, but it was one for which he had no name. It was not joy, certainly, at this prolonging of his company. It was closer to fear, perhaps, but a fear of something the land did not encompass. ‘How long is it to these Stations? You have supplies, I take it?’ He looked about the bell-shaped chamber, with its rippling walls, seeing there was no place that cargo might be stored. In fact he could see clean through to the sea, in all directions.
‘We will provide,’ she replied.
He guessed that ‘we’ included her creature, whose busy flesh surrounded them. The thought made him shudder and he shuffled forward, and at once she drew back from him, hands extended out a little, as though she was a Wasp who might sting. That wordless expression on her face intensified.
‘What?’ he asked her, having no reserves of patience to spare her feelings. ‘What is it?’
‘I have not borne one like you. I have not admitted one like you to this place. Ever.’
‘That’s hardly surprising,’ he said dismissively, ‘since, for some reason, we land-kinden don’t like to come down here very much…’
But she was already shaking her head. ‘I… have had no guests at all. I am not like Nemoctes, to have many dealings with the Obligists. I have only the voices of my peers. We travel far and deep, we Pelagists. There may be years without meeting any other. Some of us that drift in the furthest currents never meet another of their kinden – of any kinden. We are made to be solitary throughout the great width of the sea. I am not used to… not being alone. Even with other Pelagists we have met only briefly, before we have passed on our ways. Even my mother and my children… There are only the voices – the Far-speech of our Art. I have lived in a world of voices for so long. It is… difficult to know another face.’
There was a question in his mind ever since he had deciphered Gribbern’s mutterings, and he had never had the chance to ask it of poor Gribbern. ‘This Art of yours, it is through your creatures? Do they talk mind to mind at such a distance?’
‘No,’ she said simply. ‘You are thinking of Pserry, perhaps. Pserry had a mind, although only Gribbern and his kin could speak to it. That is a different Art, the speaking-with-beasts. My companion here,’ and her arm encompassed all that was around them, ‘has no voice, no mind. So we are a different partnership.’
That plural was beginning to make him feel uncomfortable. ‘But how can you direct it?’
‘We are joined, but there is only one “I”. I am Lyess, so we are Lyess. There is no other mind, only an echo. An echo within a great space of memory.’
‘I don’t understand.’
‘Mind is the enemy of memory, sometimes. There is a great memory, a memory of thousands of years. It speaks very faintly, so faintly that even Nemoctes’s voice – that we heard just now – would drown it out. There is no other voice, though, when I am here alone, and so, if I listen carefully, I can hear that memory. It is an ancient memory. Our kind are amongst the oldest, the very oldest of them all.’
Some vague ramblings of the less reputable Collegium philosophers were recalled to Stenwold: mutterings about insect race memories, of a great space of conjoined mind that the animals somehow existed in, or else what was it that people connected to, when they called upon their Art? Last generation’s crackpot theories… He looked into her face, pale and delicate and beautiful, as Grief in Chains had been beautiful, and could believe almost anything.
I feel that Rosander and Paladrya were like brother and sister to me in the face of this. ‘But how, then?’ he pressed on. ‘Art is from the beast, from the perfect and ideal concept of the beast – if you believe that. Fly-kinden can fly, because flies can fly.’ His words obviously bewildered her but he forged ahead. ‘How can you use this Far-speech? What could cause you to learn such powers?’
‘Loneliness, land-kinden,’ she told him. ‘Nothing but loneliness, here in the long dark night of the sea.’
Twenty-Six
‘How long to these Stations?’ Stenwold asked her, looking out at the passing sea that was lit only by the illumination from Lyess’s steed, the thing she called her companion.
‘Time,’ she said, and when he looked exasperated she just tilted her head to one side. ‘We shall take you there, land-kinden. We shall sleep and wake, and sleep and wake, and more… and we shall be there.’
‘What am I supposed to do before then?’ he asked her.
‘Rest,’ said Lyess simply. ‘Claeon shall not trouble you while you are in my care, nor shall Rosander’s bannermen find you. Rest, and watch the waters pass.’ Her voice became musical when she spoke at length, like a crystal chime. It seemed to reverberate about the chamber, as though arising from the substance of the creature that carried them.
‘Your waters give me no joy,’ he told her, brooding on them. A school of fish flurried past, each one with mirror-scaled sides that scattered the light back at him. He had no doubt that they would suffer their share of casualties once they encountered the deadly train beneath. The fact that their substance, peculiarly processed by Lyess’s creature, would later feed him made him feel ill.
‘That is sad,’ she told him, staring intently at him again. Sometimes she patrolled the circumference of the chamber, one outstretched hand leaving a ribbon of colour flowing along the wall wherever she touched it. Sometimes she just knelt as if she were meditating. She seldom blinked, and her eyes were almost always fixed on him. She did not know what to do with him, but sharing her domain plainly unsettled and fascinated her. She does not even care that I am from the land, Stenwold thought. She would stare at any of the sea-kinden just the same.
‘I am not meant to be in this place,’ he told her. ‘This…’ – his hand described the great emptiness about them, above and below and to all sides – ‘this just seems like a desert to me, a desert of water.’ Give me the spires of Collegium over this. Hammer and Tongs, give me a Wasp slave camp, even! A pair of legs and a quick mind might free him from the Wasps. Here the only way of escape was to drown.
‘There is much to see, if you but wait,’ she promised him. ‘There is beauty in many forms, and struggle also. But, most of all, there is calm. Calm is something you have experienced little of, I think.’
He could not help looking at her, as she spoke to him. Beauty, yes, but surely not to touch. She looked delicate as glass, ready to shatter in a man’s hands, but he remembered how she had put her arms about him, before, and he had sensed far more strength hovering there than he would have guessed from her looks. That had been a strange gesture for one who had known so little of society. Perhaps some instincts persisted despite all the degrees of separation the sea and a difference of kinden could impose.
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