by Rye Hart
There are other ways to meet my needs. I’ll see whatever happens with her tomorrow, and the day after. She really can’t go out in this storm, and it looks like it’s going to be a historic screamer. All I have to do until I can get her out of here is keep my mouth shut. She wants a story? I’ll invent one for her.
I realize that, whatever story she writes, if it gets published, people are going to know someone is out here. The folks down in Wahay already do, of course, but they respect privacy and there’s no way any of them are going to put people on my trail, not without my consent. Consent, which I am now basically giving this beauty by the name of Sam on a silver platter!
Again, I am a fucking idiot.
Before I knew it I’m wrapping my wrists, the old familiar criss-cross pattern that I have done a million times. I’m opening my door and heading down the hall, down the stairs, out onto the back porch in the rain where the heavy bag is hanging from the rafters.
I settle into the old violent rhythm, something I’ll never forget, even if I never threw another punch in my life. Boom, boom, boom. In time with the rain, the thunder, the tumult of the night. Within a minute I’m sweating so badly that I take off my shirt despite the cold.
There is always peace in familiarity. I’ve spent my whole life trying to find out what I should be doing - what I was born for. When I found fighting I knew that was it. Time to call off the search. Even now, I know it as my fists pummel the bag. I begin to mix it up, elbows, knees, shins, palm strikes. This is elegance and mastery of the most brutal sort. But, where I once practiced my art in front of thousands of screaming fans and attracted sponsorship offers like blood attracts sharks, I was now a shirtless no one in a forest, trying, forever trying, to drive the thoughts away.
Andrew stepping into the octagon for the first time, smiling as his name was introduced.
I punch faster and faster. My wrist wraps are coming undone and my wrists are going to be unsteady if I don’t ease up, but I can’t.
Andrew taking the center of the octagon as soon as the opening bell blew. We had prepared for nearly a year for his debut fight. He was more than ready.
I feint, bob, weave, and then slam a shin into the bag so hard that it swings up and nearly hits the rafter to which it is chained.
I can’t think about Andrew anymore. It never leads anywhere good, although it did lead me here to whatever this is...my so-called sanctuary. But I’m still haunted by it, every fucking bit of it. It is hard to find refuge from yourself …. unless you have someone to take you out of the shit hole you created for yourself.
Now this is a welcome train of thought. Sam. Upstairs in bed. I slowed my pace and focused on her. On the way her body had looked as she had twisted her way out of the poncho. On the delicate movement of her throat when she tipped the bottle back. On her insistent but somewhat unsure flirtiness, and how good it had felt to know that she was both interested in her story and in me.
I have everything I need. Money. A home. Solitude. Talent.
Almost everything.
She is so close and it has been so long.
A familiar urge overtakes me and suddenly I’m not hitting the bag anymore.
CHAPTER SEVEN: SAM WASHINGTON
The sound of thunder wakes me shortly after I fall asleep. Then it comes again, and again, but I realize it’s happening too quickly to be thunder. The entire house is shaking. A smattering of dust leaves the rafters and drifts down onto my upturned face. What in the world is going on?
It’s dark in the room and I have to struggle to remember where I am.
And to remember who is downstairs.
Boom. The house shakes again just as another bolt of lightning splits the sky outside the window. I go to the pane and look out, expecting to see nothing but darkness.
It’s Hugh. Downstairs on the back deck, pivoting and weaving as if he is a fighter. He’s throwing punches at nothing. No, in a new burst of light I see that it’s a heavy bag. His pale skin glows against the dark and even though I am the greenest novice when it comes to fighting, I can tell that this is a man well-practiced in his art. He hits the bag so hard that I wince with the impact. Then he backs up and throws a kick that lands near the top of the bag where it is fixed with a chain. That’s when the house rattles.
Good Lord, what a brute. I think of his books downstairs, of him throwing the ax, and the thoughts are all punctuated by the spectacle unfolding on the deck as his muscles ripple and flex. But this looks like more than a workout, more than blowing off steam, and more than simple practice.
Hugh looks as if he is trying to fight something he can’t see. Trying to get away from something that is chasing him.
That’s when I realize who he is. Holy shit!
I’m about to run downstairs and confront him with my microphone when he slows his pace and puts his hands on his hips. Just watching him breathe makes my heart race. A crazy thought comes to my mind. I think of Owen 2.0, nearby in my suitcase. Maybe if Hugh just stands there for a bit I have time to grab my trusty gadget and see if I can make it work even better than last time. This seems like it would be the perfect visual aid.
Or so I think until Hugh suddenly reaches below the waistband of his shorts and pulls them down slightly, exposing his cock. But the light was poor and I almost laughed at how disappointed I was in my poor view. I had never felt like this with Owen. It had been odd to tolerate his body, to have it on my own, inside me, but never to know what it was like to crave it.
I’m not sure I’ve ever craved anything the way I’m craving Hugh’s body. It’s making me feel like an animal, unmoored, uncaring, nothing but appetite and a burning need.
Obviously, it doesn’t help matters when he starts to stroke himself and I can almost literally see him getting harder and longer every second. I can’t stop myself. I open my suitcase, sacrificing the view for a few precious seconds so I can take Owen 2.0 out of the suitcase.
Back at the window, Hugh is still working on himself. I wonder what he’s thinking about and decide that it has to be me. Now there’s a story I couldn’t write. I pull down my flannel pajama pants and touch myself. I’m so wet that it surprises me. Again, something that I didn’t experience in the past.
Now it’s like I can’t touch myself hard enough, or fast enough. I grind myself against the vibrator, check the settings, and am surprised to see that it’s on the highest output. Still it’s not enough.
There is another flash of lightning and I can see the muscles standing out on Hugh’s neck. I start giggling, punctuating my gasps with little yips of laughter as I get closer and closer. Between the rain and my wetness and his hardness and the pane of glass out in the middle of nowhere between us, not to mention who I now know he is, it is impossibly hot and surreal. There is a feverish dreamlike quality to the whole thing. But when I start to climax, there is nothing dreamlike about it. It’s like an earthquake combined with a volcano. As I come, I fight to keep my eyes open so I can watch Hugh.
His back is arching with the power of his own orgasm. The tendons are standing out on the backs of his legs. His mouth opens as if he’s yelling, it is swallowed by another thunderclap.
When I finish, I fall backwards onto the floor. The vibrator hits the floor with a thump. I don’t know if I have ever felt so emptied out. A horrified thought crosses my mind.
What if he knew? What if he looked up and saw me when I wasn’t looking?
I don’t recognize this version of myself, but I laugh again when I realize that I wouldn’t be ashamed if that had been the case. Maybe tomorrow in the cleansing night of day. Maybe after the whiskey wore off.
But not tonight. Hell no.
Tonight has been filthy in the best way. I can’t wait to tell Lacey. But even more than that, part of me is hoping that I get a chance to share some of myself with Hugh.
But I’ll think about that tomorrow.
CHAPTER EIGHT: HUGH MADDOX
Ironically, since I had spent the night doing nothing but beati
ng off and punching a bag, I wake up this morning feeling like I’ve been in a fight and then gotten run over by a train. I came so hard that it nearly knocked my fillings loose, something I wouldn’t have been happy about. I take good care of my teeth, but the Wahay dental services are nothing to throw a parade about.
I also wake up hard. Less surprising, I mean, that’s the way it usually goes, but I’m harder than ever. Sam’s presence in the house has gotten me all stirred up in a way that is not at all surprising or unwelcome, but I’m not sure what to do about it. I’m glad she’s here but I have no idea what today is going to be like, or how things will have changed by the time the sun goes down tonight.
It’s still raining like mad, but maybe she left. That would make things simpler and saner. But also far less horny. And no one likes less horny, not even a pseudo-lumberjack brute like yours truly.
I used to love Sherlock Holmes. What am I saying? I still do. Sherlock would have said, “Elementary, my dear idiot Hugh. Get downstairs, give her the story of a lifetime, and try to see if you can make yourself happy by doing something for someone else.”
I can try. That’s all I can do. Just see what happens. I get up, get dressed, note how sore my fists and feet are, and tiptoe past her door in case she’s still sleeping. She’s not. When I get to my kitchen Sam is in there rooting through the cupboards.
“I hope you don’t mind if I make breakfast. I’m starving from last night … I mean from all the hiking. It’s more than a city girl like me can handle,” she says over her shoulder with a grin, “but you don’t really have anything. Hope you like water.” She’s playful but she’s not exactly wrong. My kitchen isn’t packed with goodies. That doesn’t mean I don’t have them, she’s just not looking in the right place.
But she’s looking good, that’s for sure. She must have put on this pink nightgown after I left her last night. It’s modest but it fits her perfectly.
“Do you always wake up looking this good?” I say.
She snorts, and even that sounds becoming when it’s her doing it. “Nice try, Hugh. Seriously, is there no food in here?”
“Come on. I’ve got to show you something.”
She turns around and thinks for a moment. Maybe she thinks this is the moment where I show her the basement where I hold my captives. So close to telling my story - only to lose her life in the process.
“All right,” she says with a smile, tossing her hair over her shoulder. “But hurry. I’m starving. Blood sugar issues.”
She’s glowing. What happened to her last night? Moreover, why hadn’t I spent the night with her? I could have been the reason for her glow, but instead, I was out back jerking off like a doofus.
Enough. Get it together, Hugh. I take her out of the kitchen and show her the stairs leading downwards. To her credit, she goes first. Maybe it’s bluster, but I think she’s brave. Or maybe naive. I wouldn’t let someone who looked as intimidating as me take me down into a strange basement.
Happily, the staircase leads, not to a subterranean chamber of horrors, but to my pantry and what you might call my real living room.
“Wow,” she says. “This is more like it.”
“I honestly don’t spend that much time upstairs,” I say. “So I just keep everything down here for when I need it.”
One wall is completely taken up with provisions. Everything you’d ever want to make for breakfast is either on the shelves or in the deep freeze. There is an oven, a sink, and a dishwasher. “Sometimes the upper floors leak,” I say, “No matter how much I reinforce them. “But I had the workers do something special down here so there’s no way water can get in.”
She nods but she’s already looking at the food. “Okay, I’m making sausage, eggs, coffee, and...hmm, do you have anything for biscuits?”
“Yep. Up there. Top shelf to the left.” This is a great excuse to watch her raise up on her toes as she stretches to reach, which gives me a great view of her flexing legs and cheeks. She looks back at me and smiles. “What are you looking at?” She blushes at the same time and I feel myself getting hard again. This was an unsustainable situation.
“I think you know,” I say. “What are you looking at?”
She opens her mouth to say something playful, I’m guessing, but then she notices something over my shoulder and stops. “What’s behind that door?”
“Chamber of horrors,” I say. “That’s where your real story lies. But most of the time when I lock someone in there, they never get out.” We both know that I’m posturing; that I don’t want to talk about what’s behind that door. Or maybe I do.
“I believe it’s something you don’t want anyone to see,” she says. “But I doubt that it’s as bad as you think.”
A minute later the smell of sizzling breakfast permeates the entire basement. “So you’re really not going to tell me?” she says, putting a pout in her voice. For an obviously inexperienced woman, she’s certainly a natural when it comes to leading a man towards what she wants from him.
“I will tell you,” I say. “On one condition.”
“Anything,” she says in a halting voice, wondering if she may have offered too much. We’re both reminded that she doesn’t really know me.
“I want you to tell me who you’re running from. Or what, if that’s the case. And don’t tell me it’s Jarom. You could have knocked him senseless and then slept like a baby.”
Here is the test. She’ll either back off or she’ll try to come clean. Maybe she needs to unburden herself in the same way I do.
“You got it,” she says, turning back to the stove and whistling something tuneless. “Now be quiet while I cook. I’m not a morning person.”
I have no idea what to make of this woman, so I’ll just try to enjoy it while it lasts. Soon we’re sitting at the table and she’s digging in like she’s been in the midst of a famine, drought, and new ice age. I’ve never seen such an appetite, not even guys after a hard sparring session or weight cut, and I wonder all over again just what happened to her last night.
“Ahhh…..,” she says, finally pushing her plate away and leaning back. “You give me two minutes to digest and I’ll tell you anything you want.”
“That’s quite an offer.”
“I know.” She closes her eyes and smiles. It’s all I can do not to pull her up out of the chair and lay her down on the table before I have my way with her. Something tells me she would love it. Something also tells me that, even if we get there, it’s not quite time yet.
“Do you think Jarom made it back safely?” she says with a cute laugh. She covers her mouth with her hands.
“Oh wow, that guy. What was that all about, anyway?”
She opens her eyes. “Well, that’s going to tie into the question you asked me. You know...the running away. I’ve been running, sort of, from someone and something. Jarom was a symptom, not a cause. He’s a photographer at The Inner Eye. He’s good, too, at photography. Not much in the social skills department. Or romance, for that matter. Not that I’m any sort of romantic prodigy, but Jarom needs some real help.”
“I find it hard to believe that you’re not a romantic genius. I mean...you carry yourself like you know what you’re doing.”
“Well, you flatter me, but you might be surprised. But Jarom...he had a crush on me forever. I knew it. Everyone knew it. I just couldn’t let it happen.”
“Why not? Nervous, frail men not your thing?”
“Ha! That might surprise you too. It wasn’t just that. Jarom was sweet until he got possessive. I noticed it in the beginning of our trip and it only grew. I never saw anything from him like the way he acted when you saw us. It was scary. But before our trip, he was just dorky and awkward. I can look past dorky and awkward. If you ever see my bookshelves you’ll see.”
Oh, I hope I get the chance, Sam.
“But I was with someone. Even if I had been interested in Jarom, I was with someone. It feels a little strange opening up to you about all of this since it’s b
een barely 24 hours since we met, but I guess something about this also feels a bit natural. Then again, that could also be last night’s drinks talking,” she said with a giggle.
Man, even her laugh is sexy.
“And this is who you’re running from?” Part of me wanted to hear that she was fleeing from a maniac who had threatened her. That I understood. And it would give me a great chance to track him down, punish him, win her heart, make him apologize, etc. But another part of me prayed that no one else had to get hurt by me.
“I’m running from me as much as from him, I think. He was okay.”
“Just okay? What was his name? Not another Jarom, I hope.”
She took a sip of coffee. “No, his name was Owen.”
“Like Owen Meany? From the John Irving novel?”
“Honestly, Owen Meany would have been easier to deal with.”
“Even with the visions and the size and health and everything?”
“Even with those. Owen’s greatest fault was that…” She covers her mouth again and starts laughing so hard she turns red. I wait. “He had a really big...coin collection.”
Now I’m laughing with her. If this is an innuendo, it’s a weird one. “So, he was into numismatics?”
Her eyes widen and she laughs harder than ever. It’s like magic and wind chimes in my life, which is feeling lonelier than ever.
“Oh boy. Oh, you have no idea how good that makes me feel.”
I notice that the rain sounds like it’s lightening up, which takes my heart in another, damper, more melancholy direction. This is going to end.
“Owen was my first,” she says. “My only, if I’m being totally honest. I got with him because I chose to settle with what felt…familiar. But it was just okay. Just...whatever.”
“Seriously, most relationships are just okay, until you find one that’s not.” I am talking out of my ass. I have burned through a ton of women, but until now I had no idea of what it felt like to be in a relationship with someone I could really click with - outside of carnal delights.
