by Amber Scott
“Sammie.” Whispering her name again and again, willing her to open her eyes and smile like nothing amiss had happened, he gathered her limp form to him as gently as he would a babe. He kissed her brow and searched for her wound. Sticky wetness covered her back.
Behind him, the mare groaned. Jesse couldn’t find Samantha’s wound, where the blood was coming from. Softly, he shook her. “Sammie. Open your eyes. Stay with me, Sammie.”
He rested his head on hers, rocking her, feeling for open holes in her back, for a place he could stanch the bleeding.
The mare nosed him, dripping snot on his neck. Tears burned in his eyes, but he refused to cry. “Sammie,” he said more forcibly. “Wake up. Do you hear me? Wake up!”
The mare’s muzzle rubbed his neck, leaving wet behind. So much that Jesse wiped it off, despite being so distraught and distracted.
He saw blood, felt the sticky warmth of it, and understood why he couldn’t find a hole in Sammie. He turned to the mare. The growing puddle was hers. The mare had lost a good bit of the red stuff, but it looked like a flesh wound to her neck. She’d be all right.
He patted the horse’s muzzle and returned his attention to Sammie. If she hadn’t been shot, she must have hit her head on the way down from the mare. Unless she broke her neck.
No. She was breathing, and though he was no doctor, he figured she wouldn’t be breathing with a broken neck. Surely, she would have died.
A breath shuddered out of his lungs. Relief. Sweet, pure, and delicious. Even though she might still be seriously injured, relief washed out of him.
His Sammie was alive.
Wait a minute. His Sammie? When had that happened?
Oh, hell. Probably the first night he laid eyes on her whimpering asleep in the grass under the moonlight. More than gently, he picked her up and carried her to his bedroom, stepping over Mick’s corpse and glancing back once at Joe, to make sure he hadn’t moved.
He hadn’t, and from Jesse’s perspective, he felt certain the man was also dead. From the looks of things, his own shot took out Joe, but not before Joe had managed to shoot his brother in the head while trying to kill Sammie. The bullet must have grazed the mare and went on to penetrate Mick’s thick skull.
Justice. Pure and simple.
As he laid her down, Sammie sighed. Finding no obvious lump anywhere on her head, he decided the best course of action was to wait and tend to her as best he could.
He wished for Ginny, but he couldn’t risk leaving Samantha alone. Ginny would probably be gone, anyway. As far as Jesse knew, Tommy hadn’t returned the night Mick and Joe came upon them. And Jesse had kept the duo away from Ginny’s house for a full day.
He wouldn’t have lasted much longer.
When Sammie had shown up, Mick had already beat the living shit out of him and was ready for round two. He could still hardly believe her luck in returning from wherever she’d gone, saving him in the nick of time and with such a display of courage.
This was an unusual position for him, feeling indebted to someone. All his life, he’d seen to himself and his sister, never letting anyone in and never, ever counting on another living soul for anything.
No charity.
No favors.
It felt awkward and fulfilling at the same time. He owed her his life. Man, had he gotten it all wrong. She cared for him. That meant that she must have told him the truth. Sure, he’d already mulled the matter, the conversation, over in his head. As he led Mick and Joe through the El Dorado forest on a false trail to a nonexistent treasure, his thoughts had kept him focused.
Jesse smoothed back the hair from Sammie’s brow. He bent his head and listened to her heart. It beat steady and strong against his ear. He couldn’t help but wonder who this woman was and marvel at what she had gone and done for him ... and to him.
She was inside him. More than under his skin. Deeper. In his bones. Like he’d known her all his life, but then, that didn’t make sense.
Worst of all, she couldn’t seem to wake up.
She might leave again—vanish like she had before—in the blink of an eye. What would he do then, left behind, as it were, without her?
His chest ached. “Sammie,” he whispered again and kissed her forehead. “Sammie, you’ve got to wake up. I’ve got things to say to you, words to tell you, and if you don’t wake up and hear them, you may never get to.” He wiped the sting from his eyes. “Do you hear me? You’ve got to wake up.”
He cupped her face in his hands, shook her head gently but firmly. Again, he kissed her forehead, her cheeks, and the tip of her nose. Her mouth.
She sighed against his lips. The response sent a rush of new hope through him.
“Sammie?”
“Jesse,” she said, her voice raspy. “What happened?” Her eyes fluttered open. Abruptly, she moved to sit up. “Jesse! Are you all right?” With a thud, her head collided with his.
“Ouch. Yes, I’m all right. Lie back down before you knock yourself out again.”
“What do you mean again? Where are we? Oh, God, look at you. What did they do to you?” She reached up and touched his face.
He likely looked a mess. Both eyes swollen, and his jaw probably broken. Worse, his ribs felt like a mule trampled them. Make that three mules.
“Shhh. They’re dead. You’re safe. We’re safe,” he said, and despite all his bodily pain, his soul lifted up. He felt buoyant, and for the first time, really understood what safe meant.
Jesse kissed her brow again. “Before you up and disappear on me again, there are some things that need saying.”
*
Samantha’s stomach tightened uncomfortably. She began to shake her head. Wasn’t it enough he was alive, that she was here with him? She didn’t want to face the rest of it yet. Because the rest resembled a science fiction movie she still hardly believed.
She didn’t want the fiction to come to an end. Not yet.
“I can explain,” she said but really was trying to stall. She wasn’t sure what he planned to say, but if was anything like before, she wasn’t sure she could hear it. “Let me explain.”
“You don’t have to.”
“I don’t?” She frowned.
“I won’t understand it even if you do. I know you won’t be here long, and I have to tell you something.”
Samantha’s belly went from tight to fluttery. “What?” She wasn’t sure she was ready to hear the words shining in his eyes.
“First, thank you. You saved my life in what may have been the stupidest, most reckless way. But you did. You saved me, and in saving me, you saved my family.”
She watched his face. It wasn’t easy for him, telling her as much. She could see he had more to say. Much more. The fluttering grew.
“You’ll be leaving here, and truth to tell, I have to leave, too. The law will be coming. I’m no friend of the law. Funny being on the right side of it for once in a very long time.”
Samantha kept silent, waiting to hear the words she hoped he would say. As he stroked her cheek, his hands spoke them, his smile showed them. Until he said them, she would stay quiet.
When she heard the words, maybe saying them herself, even thinking them, would feel less fantastic and more real. True and tangible.
Jesse paused a moment, seeming to search her face, maybe memorize it. “What I’m about to say may not seem like good manners after what you’ve done for me, what you risked, and who knows how you risked it.”
She swallowed. A lump formed in her throat, and it didn’t belong there. This was the moment, the happiness, the ride into the sunset of her life. If not her life, then at least this story.
However, his words didn’t sound like the script she’d envisioned.
He let out a shaky breath and scratched his nose. He glanced up at the ceiling and blinked. “This is harder than I thought it would be, but then, I’ve never had to do this, not since my daddy died.”
Do what? Samantha couldn’t speak the question, though she knew it showe
d on her face.
“Say good-bye.”
She shook her head “no” before he finished the short phrase that might as well have been a long sword. It hurt as much as one.
“No,” she said. “It doesn’t have to be good-bye.” She propped herself up on her elbows. “You can come with me.”
He quirked one brow. “Come with you?”
Samantha sat up the rest of the way, nodding. “Yes. I brought enough for both of us. I don’t know what’s in the whiskey, but my father left it for me, and it’s how I got here.” She pushed past him to get off the bed.
“Lay down,” he said in a tone that bore no argument.
“But Jesse, I have to get the mug.”
He shook his head, and she realized he meant it.
“I’ll get whatever you need. You hit your head hard enough to knock you out, and I can’t have you moving until a doctor sees to it.”
Samantha let him lay her back down. “I must have dropped it when I fell. Look on the porch. It’s a plastic travel mug.”
He frowned, confusion in his expression.
“It’s blue and silver. A cup with a handle and a lid on it.” Excitement bubbled up inside her, and she had difficulty staying put.
Jesse nodded curtly and left to retrieve the mug. She prayed for it to please be safe, but couldn’t help the horrid images that emerged of what could have befallen her cup of time-travel tonic. It had to be safe.
She was meant for him.
That meant he had to come back with her. It was the only way. Once he found the mug, she could convince him to come with her.
Yes, it would be a difficult transition. Probably harder for him in a lot of ways than it would be for her to stay here. Technology was difficult to wrap one’s head around even in her time, let alone when it’s condensed for massive and rapid consumption.
Oh, but she would get to show him so much. A car. A fast car. Television. The first man landing on the moon.
Samantha sat up, Jesse’s warning forgotten. She strained to peer around the corner, through the doorway, to catch a glimpse of him coming back in.
“Blue and silver,” he called.
A trill of anticipation ran down her throat. “Yes. A cup with a lid on it. Don’t take off the lid, just bring it to me. Please.”
His footsteps plunked up and down the wood porch, paused, scuffed. They entered the home and exited it, dragging something out. Samantha chewed her lower lip. He should have found the travel mug by now. Blue and silver. Samantha pictured it rolling off the porch and onto the grass, falling behind a step, between two slats.
She listened and peered.
She heard him walking about, looking. It shouldn’t be so difficult to find. Each minute ticking away felt more and more like a pendulum in the pit of her stomach, slicing her hopes and revealing her fears.
But she’d saved him. He wouldn’t be murdered by his partners. She’d stopped that. He was her destiny.
The mug had to have made it through the fall.
She’d dropped it at the point of impact. That was all.
Jesse’s boots hit each stair, down and back up. Slowly, he stepped back into the house and toward her. Samantha crossed her fingers and closed her eyes. The way he walked told her the awful truth.
When he stopped in front of her, she forced her eyes open. No sense living in denial.
Jesse held the mug open so she could see. Empty. Not even a drip of a drop was left?
“No,” Samantha said, the air in her lungs whooshing out on the word. “No. No, no, no ... Jesse.” He blinked and looked at her with confusion and empathy.
“I’m sorry,” he said.
She could see he truly was. Even though he couldn’t really know what she’d lost at the sight of the empty mug. Why had she put the last of the whiskey in it? Why hadn’t she left some behind in present time? Idiot! Now, she’d lose him forever.
At any moment, she could leave him.
Samantha looked up at him. He came to her without being asked or motioned, as if he felt it too. The pull. The desperation almost like panic.
She couldn’t let their story end.
~~~
Chapter Nineteen
He didn’t know what she’d wanted with that mug, but he’d found it fast as dawn was breaking over the hillside. The blood and the shock had to wait. He’d kicked his betrayers onto the porch and shut the door against the world.
Jesse had never allowed himself to hope what she’d claimed was possible. So it didn’t crush him in the same way as her. Or maybe he’d come to the same conclusion sooner than she. He went to her, wanting to erase the pain in those big, blue eyes. Their color and emotion could swallow him up, and he’d be happy to drown and die there.
He couldn’t lose himself in her. Not when she would need a strong shoulder to cry on, steady arms to see her through, to hold her and soothe her. He had to be her anchor right now. Once he saw her safely gone, he would be on his own. Not until then.
He loved her. Lord, he actually did.
It was enough to feel grateful. He might not be able to live that love, with her, but he could carry it with him. It would sustain him.
Jesse wiped the single tear from her cheek. “Shhh. No crying, Sammie. You’re not gone yet.”
She buried her face in his shoulder, and he held her head against him. Fresh pain stabbed through him, mixed bittersweet with the new joy he’d only just recognized.
Sammie pulled back, her cheeks wet, her eyes shiny. “You probably won’t believe me, but ...” She sniffed. “I love you, Jesse.”
Jesse shook his head. “Believe you?” He let his heart lead his body. He couldn’t have her for the rest of his life, but by God, he would have every last ounce of her now. “Of course, I believe you.”
Sammie reached up, raked her hands into his hair. Shivers tickled down his back. His whole body ached, but it didn’t matter, as though the pain felt good, and her touch contrasted with it all the more.
“Sammie,” he said against her mouth as she pressed her lips hungrily onto his. “Sammie.”
She whimpered, and he kissed her more. Her lips were heaven itself, her desire already evident, above the desperation, below the heartache. Her short breaths and shaky hands told him what he did to her more than his own reaction could. So much had happened. Death had whispered in his ear and thanks to her, had walked on by. Jesse closed his eyes and reveled in the scent of her hair, in the feel of her limbs wrapped around him.
*
She pushed away all thought of leaving, of never seeing him again as long as she lived. Right now, right then, he was here with her, living and breathing, feeding her soul.
Never let go. She wouldn’t. She couldn’t.
She let the tears fall and mingle in their kiss, but cried not out of sorrow or regret. Gratitude and love welled up in her so fully it seemed to spill forth. She kissed him with everything she had, as if she could take a part of him with her. As if she could memorize the details enough to last forever.
When she stopped, his face looked tortured with want. His gaze pleaded with her for more. More contact, more heaven. Not just the physical. She could see he longed to make their final moments last.
He joined her on the bed. Slowly, he undressed her and then himself. He began to make sweet, slow love to her and each time her body touched his, she tried to make it last forever. Would it have been the same between them if they hadn’t savored each other so intensely? She would never know.
She would have only memories. The scent of him, the feel of his male skin, rough yet smooth under her fingertips. The way he looked at her, as if he worshipped her.
No man would ever compare with him, and that was okay. She didn’t want any to. If she couldn’t have him, she didn’t want anyone. She realized then, looking up at him as he pulled her close and their bodies slid against each other, that she really didn’t need anyone else.
Millions of couples probably felt love that didn’t come as close as perf
ect to this. She did. Maybe it was God’s way of balancing things. She wouldn’t get years, but her hours were more brilliant than most people’s years.
“Lord what you do to me, Sammie,” Jesse said, his voice thick and hard.
Samantha smiled. She loved it when he called her Sammie. She was his Sammie. Her dad had given her this. This is what her inheritance really was, and for it, she was grateful. Her father really did love her deeply, despite his seeming inability to show her.
Jesse cupped her face and brought her mouth to his, his breath hot and scented with mint. She breathed it in and slanted her mouth against his.
She and Jesse got diamonds where others had gold. The quality of the exquisite experiences they’d had together made up for the quantity.
What would she do if she could stay with him like this ... forever? What would she give up? Anything. Everything.
Staying wasn’t possible. She had no one to make that bargain with and had to trust in the fate that had brought him to her or, more precisely, her to him. She had to have faith in events and decisions beyond her control.
As he pushed, twirled, and caressed her inner workings, Samantha stroked him. The soft, gentle pleasure soon became a torrent of need. She let herself fall into the current and be swept into pure sensation.
She held him; she touched him. Her mouth devoured his taste. She pushed and pulled into the vortex, letting go of the past and the future and all her fears. He loved her. She could feel it, see it in every nuance of his face as his mastery ruled her.
He slipped another finger into her and pressed the heel of his palm to her clitoris. She held his cock tighter, moaning into his kiss. He moved her hand away.
“You can’t do that, Sammie, or it’ll be over before we’ve begun. Your touch feels too damned good.”
She smiled against his lips and obeyed his command, moving her hand to his shoulder, relishing the tight muscles’ contour. He was like a sculpture. Better.
Jesse pulled his fingers free, and she immediately mourned the loss. She pouted and moved her body after his retreating hand.
