She said with gentleness, 'I'm out of Prague. There was a guy but it's long ago. Do you think you could get down there, Malachy, to Prague - God, I'm doing the running. Can't you help me? - and see me there?
Walk around a bit, eat a bit, sleep a bit. I'd said to myself, after tonight, that I'd go my way and you'd go yours. Doesn't have to be like that. I'm saying I'd like it, Malachy, if you came down to Prague . . . '
Maybe there was a wetness behind her spectacles, in her eyes. She had them off. He saw the dull white of her handkerchief and he sensed she wiped hard at her eyes and then her head turned away from him as if, even in darkness, she did not care to show her emotion.
He was gone, away. He had not needed to hit her.
He rolled, fast, clear of her, was on his knees, then pushed himself upright, stamped his shoes for grip and sand spat from under them. He threw the pistol behind him, towards her.
He was into the gully that cut past the crest of the dune.
He heard her. 'Damn you, you bastard! For God's sake, it's not about you. It's for hundreds of people.
You bastard, Malachy Kitchen. Didn't you hear what I said? The big picture?'
Up the gully, on to a path that was narrow enough for the thorn to catch his coat, Malachy ran.
'I found nothing.'
Ricky stumbled back and down into the sheltered hollow, then tripped on his own feet. Falling, arm out, he caught at a branch and tightened his fist, then squealed because he had hold of thorns. The pencil beam of the small torch approached him.
'You got the light, Dean. Don't know what I'm looking for - but I found nothing.'
He heard a murmur but could not make out what he was told. His ears rang, still, with the blast of the weapon's discharge - like he was goddamn deaf. The beam came close, then wavered and fell on the depth of the scrub. Bloodstains were on the ground below the canopy of leaves. From blundering in the thorn-bushes, Ricky's face and arms were scratched, his coat and the waterproof trousers ripped. The gun had been fired beside his face, inches from his ears. It had been so fast. Last thing he had heard was a twig, dry, breaking, and there had been the convulsion of movement beside him, then the hammer of the gun, and he had been heaved to his feet by a hand on his collar -
not able to make out the command given him. Had not known what he looked for, had found nothing. He gazed down at the blood, then the torch's beam veered away.
'Who was he? What did you see?'
No answer was given him that he could under-
stand. What was said was a whisper to him.
'No point staying quiet - you woke the damn dead.'
His hand was grabbed. For a moment he recoiled, then realized it. The grip on his hand was iron tight.
The panic was in him and he was about to lash out, because fear made fury, when he felt the smooth shape of the handle against his fingers. He clamped on it, took the weight of the radio in his hand.
'Right, you tell me, where is he?'
Again the whisper.
'Haven't you got it? I can't hear nothing.'
He stood and shivered, and the shape moved
around him as if he checked the ground for anything they had left there. The light came close again, a dull, narrow beam, and it showed the crushed grass, then shone on the barrel tip of the weapon, then started to move off. Ricky had to run two, three strides to catch the man. The radio's case banged against his knee and he swore, then raised his free arm and took hold of the shoulder in front of him.
'It wasn't bloody clever - I don't do mouthing off but it was not clever to fire that bloody gun. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a frightened man, but you could have brought all hell down on us, and that is not clever. Who was it creeping up on us? Did you see him? I'm asking, and I've the right to ask, what—'
He heard, in the clamour at his ears, a hiss of breath through teeth - as if he was shushed, like he was a kid talking out of turn. They were on a path and they climbed and the beam lit a jolting patch of ground in front of each of Dean's steps and the torch was held low down. If he had not held on to Dean's shoulder he would have spilled off the path and fallen into the scrub. For a moment the beam lifted and found a strip of torn cloth and there they had to push their way, him first and Ricky following, between thorns. He had pain, but the fear was worse.
When had Ricky Capel last known fear worse than pain? Couldn't bloody remember it. He saw the face.
The face was on the pavement and the street light fell on it. He thought the face followed him, the face from Bevin Close - and now it tracked him . . . Three shots fired. Blood on the ground. No body. Not a scream and not a whimper. He thought the face laughed at him. Bad fear stalked Ricky Capel, like the face did.
He clung to the shoulder, hung on to it as a blind man would. Never before, not as a child had he felt bad fear . . . and he thought the man came after him, dripped blood and followed him. He strained to listen for the footfall behind him but in his ears was only the ring, the clamour, of the gunshots.
'I screwed up,' Polly said. 'I screwed up big.' She sat hunched, her chin on her knees and the phone pressed to her face. 'I can't believe it, how pathetic I was.'
The darkness enveloped her, clung round her. He'd answered her call, now Gaunt's silence echoed back at her.
'I gave him the party line. I called it the big picture.
What I'm saying, Freddie, is that I thought he'd accepted it. You know, his little concerns outweighed by the needs of the masses. He didn't argue. Three shots were fired somewhere out in this bloody place -
God knows where - but I'd given him the instruction.
No intervention. Sit, watch and report. He listened, seemed to swallow what I gave him, then quit on me.
I don't know where he is . . . Freddie, it is so damn dark here you can't see the end of your nose, and I don't know what he's going to do. I'd given him a gun
- pretty damn stupid, you don't have to tell me - but he chucked it back at me, like he wouldn't be needing it. What's in his mind? I just don't know.'
She was the daughter of schoolteachers. It had been drilled into Polly Wilkins that to admit failure, own up to error, won its own rewards in heaven. Most colleagues who had shared desks with her at Vauxhall Bridge Cross, she thought, would have wormed, wriggled, from admission of failure and error. The response in her ear was a long, measured sigh - she reckoned it not of anger but the sadness of disappointment.
'I will, of course, do what I can to give due warning of any pickup. I have to say that a lift off the beach will not be fun. It's a foul evening and it's not changing...
What's worst, Freddie, I miss him. It was sort of good having him here. What I realize, he's not missing me, just dumped me, a bloody used fag carton . . . I don't know where it's going . . . Nothing much else to say.'
'I won't be here myself, but calls to this number will be routed to the necessary people .. . Thank you, Wilco.'
He knew what she meant. Frederick Gaunt could empathize, knew what it felt to be a bloody used fag carton and dumped. He rang off, pressed the button that deactivated the phone's scrambler. He sensed that Gloria hovered behind him and thought her mouth would be slack with astonishment. It was, he believed, a defining moment of his adult life: I won't be here myself. He could have reflected on other such moments of importance that had fashioned his career and domestic existence - a loveless marriage, the bitter process of divorce, children taught to reject him, the first night of utter loneliness in an old man's bach-elor apartment - the initial occasion when the WMD
report had been smartly returned to his desk for re-appraisal, the meeting when he had been lectured on the requirement of politicians to find meat and not scrag ends in the Iraqi desert, the summons to an office on an upper floor, the averted eyes and barked voice telling him that Albania was his new area of interest, the last session in the pub with his old team before they were scattered to the winds. He could have reflected on any of them and could have claimed each of them as a defining mome
nt. Top of the heap, and he knew it, was telling pretty little Polly, frozen half to death on a God-awful beach, that calls to this number will be routed through to the necessary people.
He heard her clear her throat, a brief cough, to demand his attention.
'Did you mean that?'
He said peevishly, turning to face her, 'If I said it, Gloria, I expect that I meant it.'
Her face was wreathed in bewilderment. She stuttered, 'It's coming to an end . . . It's the last hours . . .
It's what you've worked for.'
'And it is not, my dear, in my hands.'
'You owe it to Polly to be here.'
'I owe very little, not even pocket change, to anyone.'
Lines creased her forehead and mouth. 'But the threat... What about the threat?'
He stared into the confusion of her eyes. 'Someone else's problem now. Polly's problem, a crisis committee's problem, but I fancy not mine . . . I have, Gloria, carried the problem of the bloody threat too damn long - it's been a lifetime of carrying it. Cold War threat, Irish threat, Iraq threat, al-Qaeda .threat.
You name i t . . . Don't you understand that the threat has buckled me? Every day, every night, the threat is on my shoulders. Well, not any more.'
'I never thought I'd hear it, not from you.'
He grimaced, then shrugged. He saw her turn on her low heels and she clattered out. The door was slammed, which would not have been accidental. He went to the wardrobe against the wall, slipped off his jacket, unbuttoned his waistcoat and loosened his tie.
The man, Malachy Kitchen, was without corporate baggage and was not answerable to a crisis
committee, or to the 'party line' peddled by Polly
'Wilco' Wilkins. Gaunt dragged his laces undone and kicked off his shoes, dropped his waistcoat on to them, unhooked the braces and let his trousers fall. He opened the wardrobe's doors and took out a hanger -
which carried the name of a Singapore hotel from where he had appropriated it a dozen years before -
and put his suit on it. He took another hanger, from the Inter-Continental in Helsinki, for his shirt. He remembered what the old lady had said, as he had taken tea with her, of a man who did not boast and did not go after trophies, who faced challenges, each of them harder than the last, to claw back his self-respect, and she had said, If you ever see him, you give him my love, and he remembered what Bill, who had the rippled muscles of Special Forces training and who arrogantly wore a shapeless cabled sweater, had demanded of Wilco: And tell her to keep old White Feather clear - not that he sounds like a hero - right out of it. He realized he rooted more for the man, the free spirit, than for the big picture - and it was better he was gone, and soon. From an old rucksack on the wardrobe floor, he took a shirt, trousers and sweater -
all caked in dried mud - boots and a rainproof coat that had over-trousers folded into an inner pocket.
He dressed, hitched the rucksack on to his shoulder and went out through the darkened outer office, past Gloria's cleared desk - and past the phones from which Polly Wilkins's next message would be routed to the crisis folk. Gaunt had the look of a jobbing gardener on his way to an allotment plot as he made his way to the lift, and he imagined the pleasure ahead of him and did not know, or care, of chaos left behind him.
Oskar left behind him the ducks, his true friends, safe in the darkness from predators.
He crawled on the track. He had set himself a target that he must reach and the pain that had overcome the shock of numbness was alive in the three wounds on his body, but he welcomed it. If there had been no pain, only exhaustion and weakness, he would have felt a clinging urge to settle in the mud and reeds beside the pond and sleep, and if he slept he would not achieve his target... First he had lain in the scrub and had heard voices and crashing movement around him but a thin torchlight had not pierced the depths of the thorn bushes that had been his immediate refuge.
They had gone. They had blundered away, and then he had moved. Sometimes he had been on his
stomach, but a few times he had been able to stand, sway, stagger, and he had known that when he was on his feet he lost more blood, and with each step the pain was more acute.
He thought the pain was his penance. He thought the blood he lost was contaminated by an old atrocity.
He thought he deserved the pain for the evil done by a man whose blood he shared. He thought he had cleansed himself by breaking the light set in place by the strangers who had come and threatened paradise.
Oskar had no clarity of thought because the pain destroyed it.
He had told the ducks, in a reedy, bubbling whisper, that he would not be back.
Now he did not have the strength to stand, to walk.
He might have the strength, if God were with him, to crawl part of the way to his target on his knees and elbows, but first he would wriggle on his stomach and lever himself forward. He prayed that the strength, little of it left, would last him.
Above him the wind sighed and the rain spattered down and he writhed on the path, made slow, agonizing progress, and left behind a trail of poisoned blood.
Ahead was a distant light, his target if his strength lasted.
He sat on the bench in the cell. His belt and shoe laces had been taken from Timo Rahman. He sat because if he had stood and paced the cell he would have had to hold up his trousers or let them slump to his ankles. A light, protected by wire mesh, beamed down at him from the ceiling.
The cell stank of old faeces, urine and vomit. It was cold, bitterly so, because the high, barred window was open to the wind and rain dripped from its aperture on to the prisoner on the bench bed.
He was offered no respect, no deference.
His lawyer had sat beside him in the interview room. He had been shown a preliminary report from a police doctor that listed his wife's injuries on half of a single sheet of paper. The lawyer, German, gross and expensive, had read the report first and Timo had seen him wince. He had known then that the man - on his payroll for nine years - would have little stomach for a fight in his defence, and had not challenged the right of Konig to put his questions . . . only three of them. Had Timo Rahman, himself, attacked his wife?
If he had not, himself, attacked her, had he authorized the scraping-off of skin from her body? If he had not, himself, authorized the attack, did he know who was responsible for the assault? He had been told that his housekeeper and chauffeur were in custody and would subsequently be interviewed, and that their statements would be matched with his. He had not answered any of the three questions. If they had given him the respect that was due, he would have expected Johan Konig and the woman officer with him to demonstrate frustration, but the coldness he had seen at his home was still alive in their faces, and the contempt. His lawyer had fled the interview room after leaving him little hope of bail.
Isolation settled on him. Timo Rahman did not think of the island, or of the man he had been paid to ship across the water, or of Ricky Capel who, he now realized, had lied to him, a lie he had taken in, a lie that would destroy him. He thought of wolves.
In his mind were the wolves that came down, long ago, from the mountains. Emaciated, foul-breathed, bare to the skin at the haunches and tail from mange, and they circled a failing fire. Corralled inside the fence were goats with kids and ewes with lambs. He sat with his father beside the fire and darkness masked the high ground above the village near Shkodra. Across his knee, held tight, was a loaded single-barrel shotgun, and his father had an old German rifle, and they could hear the wolves and smell them. When the wolves were closest and the smell was bad, when they were boldest from the hunger pangs of winter, the wolves came right up against the fence and then his father would hurl at them the branch from the fire that burned brightest and they would scatter, but they would return.
Always a dog wolf led.
There had been a year when the high snows had lasted into spring and beyond the time that the kids and lambs were born, and starvation had been the enemy of t
he wolf pack. The pack leader had not been driven back by fire. His father had shot it, as it prepared to launch at the fence, with his Gewehr 98
Mauser rifle, and it had fallen dead with a head wound. The goats and ewes, the kids and lambs had stampeded and screamed with fear. His father had gripped his arm, had pointed to the downed pack-leader, face alive with excitement. Father and son they had watched. First the wolves had fled to the darkness, then had been emboldened, had circled in the shadows and scurried forward - many targets, but his father had not fired. The wolves had torn apart th(
carcass of their pack leader, had fought to eat, rip swallow, savage it. Timo, the boy, had watched power gone and when nothing was left on the ground beyond the fence - not a bone or a meat scrap, no fur not a morsel of skin - the wolves had retreated to the night's safety.
He had never forgotten the sight and sounds of the destruction of a fallen pack leader.
That evening they would be circling. Wolves would be abroad, would be coming near to a mansion in the Blankenese suburb, would be edging closer to casinoe and shops, bars and brothels in the Reeperbahn would be marching on more casinos and more shops more bars and more brothels in the Steindamm. He had done it himself. He, a leader of a wolf pack, had buried Germans and put Russians into the trunks of cars. Word would have spread. If it were tax evasion or the corruption of local officials, living from the rewards of vice or sex-trade trafficking, or involvement with an Islamic group for which he was
investigated, then his lawyer would have fought, tooth and claw, to win his freedom. But he was investigated for the peeling of live skin from his wife's body. Who would stand by him? Who would believe he could return to a pre-eminence of power? He saw wolves. Wolves were on a cell-block landing when he returned from exercise in the yard. Wolves moved into casinos and shops, bars and brothels. He seemed to feel the heat of wolves' breath and the smell of it -
because he had believed a lie. And they edged nearer and their teeth were bared.
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