Only his hand.
Paul knew this because he no longer could see how Leto might manipulate the reins, could only recognize the inhuman consequences which Leto had accepted. And he thought: Here is the change for which I prayed. Why do I fear it? Because it's the Golden Path!
"I'm here to give purpose to evolution and, therefore, to give purpose to our lives," Leto said.
"Do you wish to live those thousands of years, changing as you now know you will change?"
Leto recognized that his father was not speaking about physical changes. Both of them knew the physical consequences: Leto would adapt and adapt; the skin-which-was-not-his-own would adapt and adapt. The evolutionary thrust of each part would melt into the other and a single transformation would emerge. When metamorphosis came, if it came, a thinking creature of awesome dimensions would emerge upon the universe--and that universe would worship him.
No ... Paul was referring to the inner changes, the thoughts and decisions which would inflict themselves upon the worshipers.
"Those who think you dead," Leto said, "you know what they say about your last words."
"Of course."
"Now I do what all life must do in the service of life," Leto said. "You never said that, but a Priest who thought you could never return and call him liar put those words into your mouth."
"I'd not call him liar." Paul took in a deep breath. "Those are good last words."
"Would you stay here or return to that hut in the basin of Shuloch?" Leto asked.
"This is your universe now," Paul said.
The words filled with defeat cut through Leto. Paul had tried to guide the last strands of a personal vision, a choice he'd made years before in Sietch Tabr. For that, he'd accepted his role as an instrument of revenge for the Cast Out, the remnants of Jacurutu. They had contaminated him, but he'd accepted this rather than his view of this universe which Leto had chosen.
The sadness in Leto was so great he could not speak for several minutes. When he could manage his voice, Leto said: "So you baited Alia, tempted her and confused her into inaction and the wrong decisions. And now she knows who you are."
"She knows ... Yes, she knows."
Paul's voice was old then and filled with hidden protests. There was a reserve of defiance in him, though. He said: "I'll take the vision away from you if I can."
"Thousands of peaceful years," Leto said. "That's what I'll give them."
"Dormancy! Stagnation!"
"Of course. And those forms of violence which I permit. It'll be a lesson which humankind will never forget."
"I spit on your lesson!" Paul said. "You think I've not seen a thing similar to what you choose?"
"You saw it," Leto agreed.
"Is your vision any better than mine?"
"Not one whit better. Worse, perhaps," Leto said.
"Then what can I do but resist you?" Paul demanded.
"Kill me, perhaps?"
"I'm not that innocent. I know what you've set in motion. I know about the broken qanats and the unrest."
"And now Assan Tariq will never return to Shuloch. You must go back with me or not at all because this is my vision now."
"I choose not to go back."
How old his voice sounds, Leto thought, and the thought was a wrenching pain. He said: "I've the hawk ring of the Atreides concealed in my dishdasha . Do you wish me to return it to you?"
"If I'd only died," Paul whispered. "I truly wanted to die when I went into the desert that night, but I knew I could not leave this world. I had to come back and--"
"Restore the legend," Leto said. "I know. And the jackals of Jacurutu were waiting for you that night as you knew they would be. They wanted your visions! You knew that."
"I refused. I never gave them one vision."
"But they contaminated you. They fed you spice essence and plied you with women and dreams. And you did have visions."
"Sometimes." How sly his voice sounded.
"Will you take back your hawk ring?" Leto asked.
Paul sat down suddenly on the sand, a dark blotch in the starlight. "No!"
So he knows the futility of that path, Leto thought. This revealed much, but not enough. The contest of the visions had moved from its delicate plane of choices down to a gross discarding of alternates. Paul knew he could not win, but he hoped yet to nullify that single vision to which Leto clung.
Presently Paul said: "Yes, I was contaminated by the Jacurutu. But you contaminate yourself."
"That's true," Leto admitted. "I am your son."
"And are you a good Fremen?"
"Yes."
"Will you permit a blind man to go into the desert finally? Will you let me find peace on my own terms?" He pounded the sand beside him.
"No, I'll not permit that," Leto said. "But it's your right to fall upon your knife if you insist upon it."
"And you would have my body!"
"True."
"No!"
And so he knows that path, Leto thought. The enshrining of Muad'Dib's body by his son could be contrived as a form of cement for Leto's vision.
"You never told them, did you, father?" Leto asked.
"I never told them."
"But I told them," Leto said. "I told Muriz. Kralizec, the Typhoon Struggle. "
Paul's shoulders sagged. "You cannot," he whispered. "You cannot."
"I am a creature of this desert now, father," Leto said. "Would you speak thus to a Coriolis storm?"
"You think me coward for refusing that path," Paul said, his voice husky and trembling. "Oh, I understand you well, son. Augury and haruspication have always been their own torments. But I was never lost in the possible futures because this one is unspeakable!"
"Your Jihad will be a summer picnic on Caladan by comparison," Leto agreed. "I'll take you to Gurney Halleck now."
"Gurney! He serves the Sisterhood through my mother."
And now Leto understood the extent of his father's vision. "No, father. Gurney no longer serves anyone. I know the place to find him and I can take you there. It's time for the new legend to be created."
"I see that I cannot sway you. Let me touch you, then, for you are my son."
Leto held out his right hand to meet the groping fingers, felt their strength, matched it, and resisted every shift of Paul's arm. "Not even a poisoned knife will harm me now," Leto said. "I'm already a different chemistry."
Tears slipped from the sightless eyes and Paul released his grip, dropped his hand to his side. "If I'd chosen your way, I'd have become the bicouros of shaitan. What will you become?"
"For a time they'll call me the missionary of shaitan, too," Leto said.
"Then they'll begin to wonder and, finally, they'll understand. You didn't take your vision far enough, father. Your hands did good things and evil."
"But the evil was known after the event!"
"Which is the way of many great evils," Leto said. "You crossed over only into a part of my vision. Was your strength not enough?"
"You know I couldn't stay there. I could never do an evil act which was known before the act. I'm not Jacurutu." He clambered to his feet. "Do you think me one of those who laughs alone at night?"
"It is sad that you were never really Fremen," Leto said. "We Fremen know how to commission the arifa. Our judges can choose between evils. It's always been that way for us."
"Fremen, is it? Slaves of the fate you helped to make?" Paul stepped toward Leto, reached out in an oddly shy movement, touched Leto's sheathed arm, explored up it to where the membrane exposed an ear, then the cheek and, finally, the mouth. "Ahhhh, that is your own flesh yet," he said. "Where will that flesh take you?" He dropped his hand.
"Into a place where humans may create their futures from instant to instant. "
"So you say. An Abomination might say the same."
"I'm not Abomination, though I might've been," Leto said. "I saw how it goes with Alia. A demon lives in her, father. Ghani and I know that demon: it's the Baron, yo
ur grandfather."
Paul buried his face in his hands. His shoulders shook for a moment, then he lowered his hands and his mouth was set in a harsh line. "There is a curse upon our House. I prayed that you would throw that ring into the sand, that you'd deny me and run away to make ... another life. It was there for you."
"At what price?"
After a long silence, Paul said: "The end adjusts the path behind it. Just once I failed to fight for my principles. Just once. I accepted the Mahdinate. I did it for Chani, but it made me a bad leader."
Leto found he couldn't answer this. The memory of that decision was there within him.
"I cannot lie to you any more than I could lie to myself," Paul said. "I know this. Every man should have such an auditor. I will only ask this one thing: is the Typhoon Struggle necessary?"
"It's that or humans will be extinguished."
Paul heard the truth in Leto's words, spoke in a low voice which acknowledged the greater breadth of his son's vision. "I did not see that among the choices."
"I believe the Sisterhood suspects it," Leto said. "I cannot accept any other explanation of my grandmother's decision."
The night wind blew coldly around them then. It whipped Paul's robe around his legs. He trembled. Seeing this, Leto said: "You've a kit, father. I'll inflate the tent and we can spend this night in comfort."
But Paul could only shake his head, knowing he would have no comfort from this night or any other. Muad'Dib, The Hero, must be destroyed. He'd said it himself. Only The Preacher could go on now.
Fremen were the first humans to develop a conscious/unconscious symbology through which to experience the movements and relationships of their planetary system. They were the first people anywhere to express climate in terms of a semi-mathematic language whose written symbols embody (and internalize) the external relationships. The language itself was part of the system it described. Its written form carried the shape of what it described. The intimate local knowledge of what was available to support life was implicit in this development. One can measure the extent of this language/system interaction by the fact that Fremen accepted themselves as foraging and browsing animals.
--THE STORY OF LIET-KYNES BY HARQ AL-ADA
"Kaveh wahid," Stilgar said. Bring coffee. He signaled with a raised hand to an aide who stood at one side near the single door to the austere rock-walled room where he had spent this wakeful night. This was the place where the old Fremen Naib usually took his spartan breakfast, and it was almost breakfast time, but after such a night he did not feel hungry. He stood, stretching his muscles.
Duncan Idaho sat on a low cushion near the door, trying to suppress a yawn. He had just realized that, while they talked, he and Stilgar had gone through an entire night.
"Forgive me, Stil," he said. "I've kept you up all night."
"To stay awake all night adds a day to your life," Stilgar said, accepting the tray with coffee as it was passed in the door. He pushed a low bench in front of Idaho, placed the tray on it and sat across from his guest.
Both men wore the yellow robes of mourning, but Idaho's was a borrowed garment worn because the people of Tabr had resented the Atreides green of his working uniform.
Stilgar poured the dark brew from the fat copper carafe, sipped first, and lifted his cup as a signal to Idaho--the ancient Fremen custom: "It is safe; I have taken some of it."
The coffee was Harah's work, done just as Stilgar preferred it: the beans roasted to a rose-brown, ground to a fine powder in a stone mortar while still hot, and boiled immediately; a pinch of melange added.
Idaho inhaled the spice-rich aroma, sipped carefully but noisily. He still did not know if he had convinced Stilgar. His mentat faculties had begun to work sluggishly in the early hours of the morning, all of his computations confronted at last by the inescapable datum supplied in the message from Gurney Halleck.
Alia had known about Leto! She'd known.
And Javid had to be a part of that knowing.
"I must be freed of your restraints," Idaho said at last, taking up the arguments once more.
Stilgar stood his ground. "The agreement of neutrality requires me to make hard judgments. Ghani is safe here. You and Irulan are safe here. But you may not send messages. Receive messages, yes, but you may not send them. I've given my word."
"This is not the treatment usually accorded a guest and an old friend who has shared your dangers," Idaho said, knowing he'd used this argument before.
Stilgar put down his cup, setting it carefully into its place on the tray and keeping his attention on it as he spoke. "We Fremen don't feel guilt for the same things that arouse such feelings in others," he said. He raised his attention to Idaho's face.
He must be made to take Ghani and flee this place, Idaho thought. He said: "It was not my intention to raise a storm of guilt."
"I understand that," Stilgar said. "I raise the question to impress upon you our Fremen attitude, because that is what we are dealing with: Fremen. Even Alia thinks Fremen."
"And the Priests?"
"They are another matter," Stilgar said. "They want the people to swallow the grey wind of sin, taking that into the everlasting. This is a great blotch by which they seek to know their own piety." He spoke in a level voice, but Idaho heard the bitterness and wondered why that bitterness could not sway Stilgar.
"It's an old, old trick of autocratic rule," Idaho said. "Alia knows it well. Good subjects must feel guilty. The guilt begins as a feeling of failure. The good autocrat provides many opportunities for failure in the populace."
"I've noticed." Stilgar spoke dryly. "But you must forgive me if I mention to you once more that this is your wife of whom you speak. It is the sister of Muad'Dib."
"She's possessed, I tell you!"
"Many say it. She will have to undergo the test one day. Meanwhile there are other considerations more important."
Idaho shook his head sadly. "Everything I've told you can be verified. The communication with Jacurutu was always through Alia's Temple. The plot against the twins had accomplices there. Money for the sale of worms off-planet goes there. All of the strings lead to Alia's office, to the Regency."
Stilgar shook his head, drew in a deep breath. "This is neutral territory. I've given my word."
"Things can't go on this way!" Idaho protested.
"I agree." Stilgar nodded. "Alia's caught inside the circle and every day the circle grows smaller. It's like our old custom of having many wives. This pinpoints male sterility." He bent a questioning gaze on Idaho. "You say she deceived you with other men--'using her sex as a weapon' is the way I believe you've expressed it. Then you have a perfectly legal avenue available to you. Javid's here in Tabr with messages from Alia. You have only to--"
"On your neutral territory?"
"No, but outside in the desert... ."
"And if I took that opportunity to escape?"
"You'll not be given such an opportunity."
"Still, I swear to you, Alia's possessed. What do I have to do to convince you of--"
"A difficult thing to prove," Stilgar said. It was the argument he'd used many times during the night.
Idaho recalled Jessica's words, said: "But you've ways of proving it."
"A way, yes," Stilgar said. Again he shook his head. "Painful, irrevocable. That is why I remind you about our attitude toward guilt. We can free ourselves from guilts which might destroy us in everything except the Trial of Possession. For that, the tribunal, which is all of the people, accepts complete responsibility."
"You've done it before, haven't you?"
"I'm sure the Reverend Mother didn't omit our history in her recital," Stilgar said. "You well know we've done it before."
Idaho responded to the irritation in Stilgar's voice. "I wasn't trying to trap you in a falsehood. It's just--"
"It's the long night and the questions without answers," Stilgar said. "And now it's morning."
"I must be allowed to send a message to Jessica,"
Idaho said.
"That would be a message to Salusa," Stilgar said. "I don't make evening promises. My word is meant to be kept; that is why Tabr's neutral territory. I will hold you in silence. I have pledged this for my entire household."
"Alia must be brought to your Trial!"
"Perhaps. First, we must find out if there are extenuating circumstances. A failure of authority, possibly. Or even bad luck. It could be a case of that natural bad tendency which all humans share, and not possession at all."
"You want to be sure I'm not just the husband wronged, seeking others to execute his revenge," Idaho said.
"The thought has occurred to others, not to me," Stilgar said. He smiled to take the sting out of his words. "We Fremen have our science of tradition, our hadith. When we fear a mentat or a Reverend Mother, we revert to the hadith. It is said that the only fear we cannot correct is the fear of our own mistakes."
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