by Dean Koontz
Those essential to the conduct of Mass were to attend and, after the service, were to make themselves available to the authorities to answer questions and to assist as needed.
Mass would be over at about 7:50. Breakfast, which is taken in silence, always begins at eight o’clock.
The abbot also excused those assisting the police from Terce, the third of seven periods of daily prayer. Terce is at 8:40 and lasts for about fifteen minutes. The fourth period in the Divine Office is Sext, at eleven-thirty, before lunch.
When most laymen learn that a monk’s life is so regimented and that the same routine is followed day after day, they grimace. They think this life must be boring, even tedious.
From my months among the monks, I had learned that, quite the contrary, these men are energized by worship and meditation. During the recreation hours, between dinner and Compline, which is the night prayer, they are a lively bunch, intellectually engaging and amusing.
Well, most of them are as I’ve described, but a handful are shy. And a couple are too pleased by their selfless offering of their lives to make the offering seem entirely selfless.
One of them, Brother Matthias, has such encyclopedic knowledge of—and such strong opinions about—the operettas of Gilbert and Sullivan that he can bore your ass off.
Monks are not necessarily holy by virtue of being monks. And they are always and entirely human.
At the end of the abbot’s remarks, many brothers hurried to the deputies waiting in the shelter of the cloister, eager to assist.
I became aware of one novice lingering in the courtyard, in the descending snow. Although his face was shadowed by his hood, I could see that he was staring at me.
This was Brother Leopold, who had finished his postulancy only in October and had worn the habit of a novice less than two months. He had a wholesome Midwestern face, with freckles and a winning smile.
Of the five current novices, I distrusted only him. My reason for not trusting him eluded me. It was a gut feeling, nothing more.
Brother Knuckles approached me, stopped, shook himself rather like a dog might, and cast the clinging snow from his habit. Pushing back his hood, he said softly, “Brother Timothy is missing.”
Brother Timothy, master of the mechanical systems that kept the abbey and school habitable, wasn’t one to arrive late for Matins, and certainly wasn’t a man who would run off for a secular adventure, in violation of his vows. His greatest weakness was Kit Kat bars.
“He must’ve been the one I nearly fell over last night, at the corner of the library. I have to speak to the police.”
“Not yet. Walk with me,” said Brother Knuckles. “We need a place don’t have a hundred ears.”
I glanced toward the courtyard. Brother Leopold had vanished.
With his fresh face and Midwestern directness, Leopold in no way seems calculating or sly, furtive or deceitful.
Yet he has an unsettling way of arriving and departing with a suddenness that sometimes reminds me of a ghost materializing and dematerializing. He is there, then isn’t. Isn’t, then is.
With Knuckles, I left the grand cloister and followed the stone passage to the guest cloister, from there through the oak door into the main parlor on the ground floor of the guesthouse.
We went to the fireplace at the north end of the room, though no fire was burning, and sat forward on armchairs, facing each other.
“After we talked last night,” Knuckles said, “I did a bed check. Don’t have no authority. Felt sneaky. But it seemed the right thing.”
“You made an executive decision.”
“That’s just what I done. Even back when I was dumb muscle and lost to God, I sometimes made executive decisions. Like, the boss sends me to break a guy’s legs, but the guy gets the point after I break one, so I don’t do the second. Things like that.”
“Sir, I’m just curious.… When you presented yourself as a postulant to the Brothers of St. Bartholomew, how long did your first confession last?”
“Father Reinhart says two hours ten minutes, but it felt like a month and a half.”
“I’ll bet it did.”
“Anyway, some brothers leave their doors part open, some don’t, but no room’s ever locked. I used a flashlight from each doorway to quick scope the bed. Nobody was missin’.”
“Anybody awake?”
“Brother Jeremiah suffers insomnia. Brother John Anthony had a gut full of acid from yesterday’s dinner.”
“The chile rellenos.”
“I told ’em I thought maybe I smelled somethin’ burnin’, I was just checkin’ around to be sure there weren’t no problem.”
“You lied, sir,” I said, just to tweak him.
“It ain’t a lie that’s gonna put me in the pit with Al Capone, but it’s one step on a slippery slope I been down before.”
His hand, so brutal-looking, invested the sign of the cross with a special poignancy, and called to mind the hymn “Amazing Grace.”
The brothers arise at five o’clock, wash, dress, and line up at 5:40 in the courtyard of the grand cloister, to proceed together into the church for Matins and Lauds. At two o’clock in the morning, therefore, they’re sacked out, not reading or playing a Game Boy.
“Did you go over to the novitiate wing, check on the novices?”
“No. You said the brother facedown in the yard was in black, you almost fell over him.”
In some orders, the novices wear habits similar to—or the same as—those worn by the brothers who have professed their final vows, but at St. Bartholomew’s, the novices wear gray, not black.
Knuckles said, “I figured the unconscious guy in the yard, he maybe came to, got up, went back to bed—or he was the abbot.”
“You checked on the abbot?”
“Son, I ain’t gonna try that smelled-somethin’-burnin’ routine on the abbot in his private quarters, him as smart as three of me. Besides, the guy in the yard was heavy, right? You said heavy. And Abbot Bernard, you gotta tie him down in a mild wind.”
“Fred Astaire.”
Knuckles winced. He pinched the lumpy bridge of his mushroom nose. “Wish you never told me that ‘Tea for Two’ thing. Can’t keep my mind on the abbot’s mornin’ address, just waitin’ for his soft-shoe.”
“When did they discover Brother Timothy was missing?”
“I seen he ain’t in line for Matins. By Lauds, he still don’t show, so I duck outta church to check his room. He’s just pillows.”
“Pillows?”
“The night before, what looked like Brother Timothy under the blanket, by flashlight from his doorway, was just extra pillows.”
“Why would he do that? There’s no rule about lights out. There’s no bed check.”
“Maybe Tim, he didn’t do it himself, somebody else faked it to buy time, keep us from realizin’ Tim was gone.”
“Time for what?”
“Don’t know. But if I’d seen he was gone last night, I would’ve known it was him you found in the yard, and I’d have woke the abbot.”
“He’s a little heavy, all right,” I said.
“Kit Kat belly. If a brother was missin’ when I did bed check, the cops would’ve been here hours ago, before the storm got so bad.”
“And now the search is harder,” I said. “He’s … dead, isn’t he?”
Knuckles looked into the fireplace, where no fire burned. “My professional opinion is, I kinda think so.”
I’d had too much of Death. I’d fled from Death to this haven, but of course in running from him, I had only run into his arms.
Life you can evade; death you cannot.
CHAPTER 11
The lamb of dawn became a morning lion with a sudden roar of wind that raked the parlor windows with ticking teeth of snow. A mere snowstorm swelled into a biting blizzard.
“I liked Brother Timothy,” I said.
“He was a sweet guy,” Knuckles agreed. “That amazing blush.”
I remembered the outer light
that revealed the inner brightness of the monk’s innocence. “Somebody put pillows under Tim’s blankets so he wouldn’t be missed till the storm could complicate things. The killer bought time to finish what he came here to do.”
“He who?” Knuckles asked.
“I told you, sir, I’m not psychic.”
“Ain’t askin’ for psychic. Thought you seen some clues.”
“I’m not Sherlock Holmes, either. I better talk to the police.”
“Maybe you should think on whether that’s smart.”
“But I should tell them what happened.”
“You gonna tell ’em about bodachs?”
In Pico Mundo, the chief of police, Wyatt Porter, was like a father to me. He had known about my gift since I was fifteen.
I didn’t relish sitting with the county sheriff and explaining that I saw dead people as well as demons, wolfish and swift.
“Chief Porter can call the sheriff here and vouch for me.”
Knuckles looked doubtful. “And how long might that take?”
“Maybe not long, if I can reach Wyatt quick.”
“I don’t mean how long for Chief Porter to tell the locals you’re real. I mean how long for the locals to believe it.”
He had a point. Even Wyatt Porter, an intelligent man, who knew my grandmother well and knew me, required convincing when I first took him information that solved a stalled murder investigation.
“Son, nobody but you sees bodachs. If the kids or all of us is gonna get slammed by somebody, by somethin’—you got the best chance of figurin’ out what-how-when, the best chance to stop it.”
On the mahogany floor lay a Persian-style carpet. In the figured world of wool between my feet, a dragon twisted, glaring.
“I don’t want that much responsibility. I can’t carry it.”
“God seems to think you can.”
“Nineteen dead,” I reminded him.
“When it might’ve been two hundred. Listen, son, don’t think the law is always like Wyatt Porter.”
“I know it’s not.”
“These days law thinks it’s about nothin’ but laws. Law don’t remember it was once handed down from somewhere, that it once meant not just no, but was a way to live and a reason to live that way. Law now thinks nobody but politicians made it or remake it, so maybe it ain’t a surprise some people don’t care anymore about law, and even some lawmen don’t understand the real reason for law. You pour your story out to a wrong kind of lawman, he’s never gonna see you’re on his side. Never gonna believe you’re gifted. A lawman like that, he thinks you’re what’s wrong with the world the way it used to be, the way he’s glad it ain’t anymore. He thinks you’re a psych case. He can’t trust you. He won’t. Suppose they take you in for observation, or even for suspicion if they find a body, what do we do then?”
I didn’t like the arrogant expression of the dragon in the woven wool, or the way bright threads lent violence to its eyes. I shifted my left foot to cover its face.
“Sir, maybe I don’t mention my gift or bodachs. I could just say I found a monk on the ground, then I was clubbed by someone.”
“What was you doin’ out at that hour? Where was you comin’ from, goin’ to, what was you up to? Why your funny name? You mean you’re the kid was a hero at the Green Moon Mall summer before last? How come trouble follows you, or is it maybe you yourself are trouble?”
He was playing the devil’s advocate.
I half believed I could feel the carpet dragon squirming under my foot.
“I don’t really have much to tell them that would be helpful,” I relented. “I guess we could wait until they find the body.”
“They won’t find it,” Brother Knuckles said. “They ain’t lookin’ for a Brother Tim who’s been murdered, the body hidden. What they’re lookin’ for is a Brother Tim somewhere who slashed his wrists or hung himself from a rafter.”
I stared at him, not fully comprehending.
“It’s only two years since Brother Constantine committed suicide,” he reminded me.
Constantine is the dead monk who lingers in this world, and sometimes manifests as an energetic poltergeist in unexpected ways.
For reasons no one understands, he climbed into the church tower one night, while his brothers slept, tied one end of a rope around the mechanism that turns the three-bell carillon, knotted the other end around his neck, climbed onto the tower parapet, and jumped, ringing awake the entire community of St. Bartholomew’s.
Among men of faith, perhaps self-destruction is the most damning of all transgressions. The effect on the brothers had been profound; time had not diminished it.
Knuckles said, “Sheriff thinks we’re a rough crew, he can’t trust us. He’s the kind believes albino-monk assassins live here in secret catacombs, goin’ out to murder in the night, all that old Ku Klux Klan anti-Catholic stuff, though maybe he don’t know it’s from the KKK. Funny how people that don’t believe in nothin’ are so quick to believe every crazy story about people like us.”
“So they expect that Brother Timothy killed himself.”
“Sheriff probably thinks we’ll all kill ourselves before we’re done. Like those Jim Jones Kool-Aid drinkers.”
I thought wistfully of Bing Crosby and Barry Fitzgerald. “Saw an old movie the other night—Going My Way.”
“That wasn’t just another time, son. That was another planet.”
The outer door of the parlor opened. A sheriff’s deputy and four monks entered. They had come to search the guesthouse, though it was not likely that a suicidal brother would have repaired to this wing to drink a quart of Clorox.
Brother Knuckles recited the last few lines of a prayer and made the sign of the cross, and I followed his example, as though we had retreated here to pray together for Brother Timothy’s safe return.
I don’t know if this deception qualified as a half-step down the slippery slope. I had no sensation of sliding. But of course we never notice the descent until we’re rocketing along at high velocity.
Knuckles had convinced me that I would find no friends among these authorities, that I must remain a free agent to discover the nature of the looming violence that drew the bodachs. Consequently, I preferred to avoid the deputies without appearing to be dodging them.
Brother Fletcher, the monastery’s cantor and music director, one of the four monks with the deputy, asked for permission to search my suite. I gave it without hesitation.
For the benefit of the deputy, whose eyes were compressed to slits by the weight of his suspicion, Knuckles asked me to help search the pantries and storerooms that were his domain, as cellarer.
When we stepped out of the parlor, into the guesthouse cloister, where wind blustered among the columns, Elvis was waiting for me.
In my previous two manuscripts, I have recounted my experiences with the lingering spirit of Elvis Presley in Pico Mundo. When I left that desert town for a mountain monastery, he had come with me.
Instead of haunting a place, especially an appropriate place like Graceland, he haunts me. He thinks that, through me, he will in time find the courage to move on to a higher place.
I suppose I should be glad that I’m being haunted by Elvis instead of, say, by a punker like Sid Vicious. The King is an easy spirit with a sense of humor and with concern for me, though once in a while he weeps uncontrollably. Silently, of course, but copiously.
Because the dead don’t talk or even carry text-messaging devices, I needed a long time to learn why Elvis hangs around our troubled world. At first I thought he was reluctant to leave here because this world had been so good to him.
The truth is, he’s desperate to see his mother, Gladys, in the next world, but he’s reluctant to cross over because he’s filled with anxiety about the reunion.
Few men have loved their mothers more than Elvis loved Gladys. She died young, and he grieved for her until his death.
He fears, however, that his use of drugs and his other personal failure
s in the years that followed her passage must have shamed her. He is embarrassed by his ignominious death—overdosed on prescription medications, facedown in vomit—though this seems to be the preferred exit scene for a significant percentage of rock-and-roll royalty.
I have often assured him that there can be no shame, no anger, no disappointment where Gladys waits, only love and understanding. I tell him that she will open her arms to him on the Other Side.
Thus far my assurances have not convinced him. Of course there is no reason why they should. Remember: In Chapter Six, I admitted that I don’t know anything.
So as we entered the passageway between the guest and the grand cloisters, I said to Brother Knuckles, “Elvis is here.”
“Yeah? What movie’s he in?”
This was Knuckles’s way of asking how the King was dressed.
Other lingering spirits manifest only in the clothes they were wearing when they died. Donny Mosquith, a former mayor of Pico Mundo, had a heart attack during vigorous and kinky intimacy with a young woman. Cross-dressing in spike heels and women’s underwear stimulated him. Hairy in lace, wobbling along the streets of a town that named a park after him when he was alive but later renamed it after a game-show host, Mayor Mosquith does not make a pretty ghost.
In death as in life, Elvis exudes cool. He appears in costumes from his movies and stage performances, as he chooses. Now he wore black boots, tight black tuxedo trousers, a tight and open black jacket that came only to the waistline, a red cummerbund, a ruffled white shirt, and an elaborate black foulard.
“It’s the flamenco-dancer outfit from Fun in Acapulco,” I told Knuckles.
“In a Sierra winter?”
“He can’t feel the cold.”
“Ain’t exactly suitable to a monastery, neither.”
“He didn’t make any monk movies.”
Walking at my side, as we neared the end of the passageway, Elvis put an arm around my shoulders, as though to comfort me. It felt no less substantial than the arm of a living person.
I do not know why ghosts feel solid to me, why their touch is warm instead of cold, yet they walk through walls or dematerialize at will. It’s a mystery that I most likely will never solve—like the popularity of aerosol cheese in a can or Mr. William Shatner’s brief post–Star Trek turn as a lounge singer.
