There was nothing tentative or tender about the kiss. It was a bruising, punishing clash of wills and it sent a dark, throbbing, sensual thrill right through her, just as he'd promised. She thought she heard him groan, but then she was lost to the wildly provocative sensation of his tongue invading her mouth. For the first time in her life, she began to understand all the excitement about sex as an unfamiliar heat spread through her, tempting her beyond reason.
Then she remembered that the man making her feel this way didn't care about her, that this kiss meant nothing to him, that he was merely delivering what she'd asked for and she burned with humiliation. He had awakened her sexuality, but in the process the fragile flowering of her self-esteem was crushed.
Pushing him away, she retaliated with more anger and sarcasm.
"Tell grandfather he owes you extra for the kiss. I'm sure it's worth more than the fifty bucks he probably paid you for your time."
Sam couldn't have looked more stunned if she'd slapped him. He muttered an oath under his breath as he visibly tried to bring his temper under control.
"Okay, let's just wait a minute here," he began in a more placating tone.
By now, though, Penny was in no mood to listen. "No, you wait a minute, Mr. Smart Guy Roberts. I don't need any of your favors." She reached into her purse and snatched out a five-dollar bill and threw it at him. "That ought to cover the gas. As for you, your company isn't worth spit."
There was something gloriously energizing about releasing all her pent-up anger and frustration. She seized the opportunity to fling open the car door and leap out. She was halfway down the next block before he could get to her. He pulled alongside.
"Get back in here."
"Not if my life depended on it."
"Granddad is going to kill me if I show up without you."
"That's your problem, pal."
"Penny, look, I'm sorry. It's not what you think, I swear it."
The halfhearted apology came too late. She turned and drew herself up, realizing that in the past couple of hours she'd grown up more than she had in the previous sixteen years.
"Go to hell, Sam Roberts," she said in the quietest, most dignified voice she could muster.
And then she cut across a lawn where he couldn't follow and ran the rest of the way home.
Later, as she cried herself to sleep, she thought her heart was broken. It was several, miserable months later before she finally chalked the entire incident up to experience. At least she had learned at an early age that no matter how badly you wanted to, you couldn't make another person fall in love with you.
She'd also learned, or so she told herself repeatedly, that anyone as insensitive as Sam Roberts wasn't worth loving at all.
Sam watched Penny stalk away from him, her thin shoulders thrown back, her head held high, and thought he'd never met anyone quite so infuriating.
Or as fascinating, he added with regret. She was going to grow up to be a real hell-raiser and a real beauty on top of that. Even at sixteen there was something about her that made a man's blood race in an entirely inappropriate way. He never should have kissed her, but he hadn't been able to stop himself and it had only made matters worse. She was furious and he was hot and frustrated.
Hell, he'd wanted to kiss her from the first moment he'd set eyes on her, but he'd placed her off limits. With her privileged background, she was the kind of girl who deserved the best, and Sam Roberts hardly qualified. Everyone knew he was the kind of guy who'd break a girl's heart.
He thought of the hurt he'd seen in Penny's eyes when she'd realized that her grandfather had set up this movie thing and wondered if he'd made a terrible mistake in giving in to Brandon's coercion. Then he considered the way she'd battled back and decided that, hurt or not, Penny Hayden would always be able to take care of herself. Too bad he wasn't going to be around her to watch the fireworks.
Chapter 1
At first glance, primarily because of his size, the man lurking in the shadowy hallway of Penny Hayden's apartment building looked faintly alarming. Penny immediately tried to quiet the little tremor of fear that zigzagged down her spine. The man was standing in plain sight, after all, not hiding like a dangerous criminal.
He probably had a very good reason for being there, Penny decided. Maybe he was just locked out and waiting for the landlord to turn up with a key. Or maybe he was meeting someone and he'd arrived early. Those were certainly logical explanations, and she much preferred those to the violent scenarios that had flashed through her mind when she'd first spotted him.
Of course, she reminded herself as she moved down the hall with slightly more caution than usual, she did have a tendency to be entirely too trusting. It came from growing up with doting parents who'd always made her feel safe and protected. They had fueled her natural curiosity about the unknown, rather than instilling fear.
That, of course, was precisely the reason Brandon Halloran had insisted she take a self-defense class before moving from Los Angeles to Boston, where she'd be entirely on her own for the first time in her life. He'd determinedly tried to plant the idea in her head that every stranger represented danger, which was ridiculous, of course. Strangers were just people whose fascinating secrets she didn't know yet.
On the off chance that just this once her grandfather might be right, Penny drew in a deep breath and marched past the man without her usual sunny smile. She kept her gaze straight ahead, but alert for any sudden movement, even the slightest shift of his eyes in her direction.
Unfortunately, she had terrific peripheral vision. In addition to tracking his movements, she also noticed his well-muscled physique, emphasized by a tight, faded black T-shirt, and the shaggy blond haircut beneath a backward Red Sox cap. The look was scruffy, but definitely sexy.
There was something vaguely familiar about the lazy half smile that turned his expression into something far more dangerous than she'd first recognized. Intent on mayhem or not, men with smiles like that were lethal to the quiet, studious existence she'd promised herself for the next two years. They disrupted peace of mind without even trying, to say nothing of what they managed to do to pulse rates. Women were drawn to men like that the way moths were attracted to flames. She'd always figured the deadly futility in both instances wasn't an idle comparison. She steeled herself against becoming a victim.
"Don't you know you should beware of strange men who're just hanging around in dark hallways?" he inquired.
Penny's stomach clenched, more at the patronizing tone than out of fear. Her feminist hackles rose. Of course she knew that. Did the man think she was an inexperienced idiot? There were definite ways to correct that impression. She considered several of them, then dismissed them just as quickly. Maybe he hadn't meant to taunt her. Maybe he was like her grandfather, unable to resist any opportunity to give advice.
Penny flashed him a tentative smile. He responded by falling into step beside her. Warning signals began to flash and that prickle of unease she'd dismissed came back as a full-fledged case of panic. Just in case her grandfather knew more than she did about Boston's lowlifes, she tried to recall something--anything from those self-defense classes. For instance, exactly how and when should she make her self-protective move? It definitely should be before the guy followed her inside her apartment, which she was more and more certain was his destination.
She spent ten nerve-racking seconds considering her strategy, debating whether it was even called for, then decided it would be sheer stupidity to take any chances. She whirled, slammed one booted foot into his shin and aimed her denim-clad knee at his groin. It didn't exactly connect, but she was satisfied with having proven her point, anyway.
Filled with confidence and adrenaline, she reached for an arm, expecting to flip him onto his back as easily as she had her instructor. Big as he was, this guy wasn't nearly as beefy as Karate Todd. Her hand clamped around a wrist. Not two seconds later, she had one arm pinned behind her and she was locked against a body that was all male a
nd seemed to be shaking with indignation. Or was it laughter?
Penny listened and heard the telltale snicker. The creep was actually laughing at her. Fury replaced fear, along with the firm conviction that she could handle the situation, no matter how out of hand it seemed to have gotten. Grateful that she was wearing her Western boots, she raised a foot to crunch the daylights out of his instep, only to find herself unceremoniously tossed over his shoulder.
"Next time, don't pick on somebody bigger than you are, short stuff," he advised as he plucked her apartment key from her hand and headed unerringly for her door.
How the devil had he known which apartment was hers? she wondered. Had he been stalking her? She'd read about stuff like that. In Los Angeles it happened to celebrities all the time. Usually, though, the person being stalked was someone famous or at least had a passing acquaintance with the stalker. She'd never seen this idiot before in her life. She surely would have remembered anyone with a voice that reeked of smoky sensuality and unbridled amusement--a combination she found particularly irksome under the circumstances.
Of course, given her humiliating, upside-down position with all the blood rushing to her brain, it was a strain remembering her own name. She did manage to recall a prayer or two. Unfortunately, she had a hunch she was going to need more than prayers to get out of this. Even more unfortunately, every single thing she'd learned in that self-defense class had suddenly flown out of her head.
She was, however, thinking clearly enough to make one firm decision. She knew absolutely that she was not under any circumstances going into her apartment with this man, even if that meant she had to scream her head off to catch the attention of her brand-new neighbors. Which, now that she thought about it, was what she should have been doing long ago, instead of trying to convince herself that she was in no danger.
She opened her mouth and let out a bloodcurdling yell that would have done Tarzan proud. It was greeted by an equally vocal string of obscenities from her captor and the satisfying sound of doors opening up and down the corridor. She followed up with one more ear-shattering scream, just to prove that she meant business.
"You little twit," the man muttered, jamming the key into her lock and flinging open the door.
To her astonishment, he turned around, faced down all the neighbors and said, "Just a little lovers' quarrel. Don't mind us."
It didn't take much to imagine his smile and that amused, patronizing tone charming the daylights out of all of them. "It is not--" she screeched emphatically, only to have the words cut off by the slamming of the door behind them.
It took a supreme effort, but she convinced herself that no one could possibly be fooled by his lame remark, that even now police cars were speeding to her rescue.
Hopefully, he wouldn't kill her before they arrived, she thought just as she was dumped in a sprawling heap onto the sofa. She glanced up. Indeed, the expression in his eyes was filled with murderous intent. For the first time she stopped being mad and started to get just the teensiest bit nervous.
Maybe Brandon and everyone else had been right to worry about whether she knew what she was getting herself into by moving to Boston. She found the unfamiliar flash of self-doubt extremely irritating. No, dammit! A twenty-five-year-old woman had every right to follow her own dreams. If that meant burying herself in a stuffy laboratory at Harvard while she pursued a thesis for her Ph.D in English, she couldn't imagine why it was anyone else's concern.
Some women preferred to concentrate on intellectual pursuits that might one day make a difference in society. Some women just weren't cut out for romance. Look at her Aunt Kate. Well, that was a bad example. Aunt Kate had been a strong, independent, powerful lawyer. Now she carried a diaper bag in addition to her briefcase. Talk about ruining an image! Tough talk and baby talk were incompatible, it seemed to Penny. But the way Aunt Kate used to be...now there was a role model. Why couldn't her mother and especially her grandfather, Brandon Halloran, see that she wasn't burying herself in a lab because she was afraid of life?
Someday, though, they'd be proud of her when she was off in Sweden or Switzerland or wherever it was that they handed out the Nobel prizes. She hadn't quite decided yet if she wanted the award to be for curing cancer or for literature. It occurred to her that quite possibly that was why her entire family was in such an uproar.
She could just imagine their reaction when they heard about some damnable man invading her apartment during her very first week in town. That thought gave her the bravado to launch another attack on the unsuspecting man, who was staring out the window, probably to make sure that the police weren't rolling in before he finished up whatever mayhem he intended.
Without hesitating to consider the consequences of riling him further, she bounded across the room. She leaped up, looped her legs around his waist and one arm around his neck in what she thought was a fairly effective choke hold. To her astonishment and regret, he shook her off as if she were no more than a pesky nuisance.
"Do that again and we're going to have one serious problem on our hands," he warned.
He muttered something more under his breath. Penny'd always been taught that whispering in the presence of others was downright rude, but she was relatively certain that she should be glad in this instance that she hadn't heard what he'd said. If the furious sparks in his eyes were anything to go by, she had a feeling he hadn't been welcoming her to Boston.
Sam Roberts stared pensively out the window and tried to get a grip on his temper. He had grown up tough, always lashing out furiously and without thought. It had kept him in hot water most of his adolescence. Raised by his sister, he'd rebelled against everything. It sometimes astonished him that Dana had put up with all his garbage--defending him, bailing him out of trouble, loving him. For her sake, he'd finally learned to control the temper that was currently being put to an extreme test.
He struggled to stay calm as he considered the promise that had gotten him into this fix, a promise made to Brandon Halloran, the man who'd really turned his life around. Granddad Brandon had treated him with the kind of respect that a man felt compelled to earn. He owed the old man. So when Brandon had called a few days earlier and asked just one thing of him--that he look out for Penny Hayden--Sam had no choice but to agree, even though his last experience with the kid hadn't ended so well.
The role of undercover cop-turned-babysitter didn't appeal to him, but a debt was a debt. He was beginning to see why Brandon had thought the brat needed someone to watch out for her. Apparently she thought she was invincible. She'd scrapped with him as if she considered it an even match. She didn't need a babysitter. She needed an armed guard.
Not that Sam entirely trusted Brandon's motives. The old man had a habit of meddling in the lives of everyone he cared about. He'd even been making noises about it being about time that Sam found himself a woman to smooth out his remaining rough edges. What twenty-eight-year-old Sam had told him was succinct and hopefully threatening enough to snuff out any matchmaking ideas the old man might have had.
But this thing with Penny had surfaced a little too conveniently for his liking. He would do it, though, because he'd learned one important lesson from the Hallorans: families always stuck together--and the Hallorans had made him one of their own from the instant Jason Halloran had married his sister. Today was the first time in a long while that he'd regretted the family ties.
Unfortunately, at the moment he had an even bigger regret. He hadn't noticed the precise instance when Penny's supreme self-confidence had slipped away. He'd never meant to scare her to death. In fact, he had actually thought she'd recognized him. That smile of hers had certainly been friendly enough. Not until she'd attacked him had he gotten the message that she'd panicked, thinking that a stranger was about to harm her.
Dammit all, as a cop who dealt with crime victims all the time he should have had better sense. He could have calmed her with a word or two, just by the mention of his name, in fact. Although, given the way their l
ast encounter so many years ago had turned out, she might have attacked him, anyway. Instead, though, he'd reacted as he would have in the old days, instinctively fighting back rather than being ruled by his head. His lack of sensitivity grated. Apparently he was doomed to getting it wrong whenever Penny was involved.
Just as he figured that the day had gotten just about as bad as it could get, he heard the sound of sirens and realized it was about to get worse. The guys at the station weren't going to let him live this down anytime soon.
Muttering another oath under his breath as they pounded up the steps, he strode over to let them in. He wished belatedly that he'd taken the time to clear up this misunderstanding before their arrival. Unfortunately he'd been afraid to open his mouth, fearful of what would come out.
He had to admit, though, that he took a sort of grim satisfaction in the prospect of watching Penny Hayden stumble all over herself to explain why she'd called the cops on her own relative, albeit one only distantly related by marriage,
The first cop up the stairs, taking them two at a time, gun drawn, was Ryan O'Casey. He was followed by his burly, African-American partner, Jefferson Kennedy Washington, who was called that only by someone who had a death wish. He was J.K. or Jake to his colleagues on the force.
Both men froze at the sight of Sam. "You just get here?" Ryan asked. "What's happening inside?"
"What's happening inside is that this cretin manhandled me, broke into my apartment and probably intended to kill me," an indignant voice said quite calmly from a point slightly above Sam's elbow.
Sam had forgotten exactly how tiny Penny Hayden was, or maybe it was his own belated spurt of growth and years of weight training that made her suddenly seem small. The way she'd taken him on in that hallway told him size wasn't something she worried about. He swore again and tried to ignore the amusement that immediately crowded the worry straight off both men's faces.
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