"Kelly. I texted her when we were leaving the restaurant so she could light the candles without risking burning down the house."
"Oh."
Jared reaches for me, holding on to my hips and pulling me flush against him. "I know it's a cheesy romantic cliché, having the rose petals and jazz music and the room lit by candle light, but I want to be cheesy romantic with you. I want you to know just how special tonight is to me. To be with you, with absolutely no restraints, no worries that I could hurt you in some way, and finally getting to feel you... I've been nervous all night."
I place my hands on his chest and move them up his hard body until I'm caressing his shoulders. "I don’t know why you're nervous. This is child’s play for you."
"No, it isn't. I may have unprotected sex all the time, but I’ve never had unprotected sex with someone I love. Not even Coral."
His words comfort me and I tilt my head up towards him as his head lowers to meet mine. Our kiss is soft and intimate. Our lips are in sync and move at a slow pace, tasting each other's flavor. After a few seconds he breaks away from the kiss and turns me around gently. His hands come up to the back of my dress and land on my zipper. Jared slowly unzips my dress and lets the material slide down my body to a pile on the floor.
I step out of the dress and turn back around in his arms, revealing my strapless nude bra and panties. His eyes drag lazily over my body and I watch his tongue lick his lower lip sensuously. My hands come up to wrap around his neck and I drag my hands through the stubble of his shaved head.
"What made you shave off the fohawk?"
"I'm not sure. I was getting ready to shower, and when I looked in the mirror I had a huge impulse to get rid of it, so I did."
"Hmm," I rub my hands up and down his head.
"You don't like it?"
"No, I think it's sexy. I just wasn't sure why you did it." I drag my hands down the back of his head and lean forward to kiss the corner of his mouth.
"I want you... I need you so bad right now, babe," his hands move across my chest and he groans, squeezing my breasts. "I want to cherish you and every inch of your body."
His hands wrap around my back and he unfastens my bra, letting it drop to the floor. Then his hands come down and slip into the side of my panties, pulling them down my legs and I step out of them.
My hands come up to just below the collar of his shirt and I start to unbutton it with urgency. Jared stays still and watches my hands work on each button. I unbutton the last one and pull his shirt off his shoulders and down his arms, yanking it off his body. He pulls off the white t-shirt he's wearing underneath and then picks me up, carrying me to the rose covered bed.
Jared lays me down and looks at me adoringly, "Close your eyes."
I obey his command and lay with anticipation.
"Keep them closed." I do as he says and feel his lips as he kisses each of my eyelids. His hands slowly caress my arms as his lips leave kisses all over my body. I feel his lips on my temple, my cheek, my jaw, and then my neck. His tongue licks a trail to my shoulder and then he leaves open mouth kisses on my collarbone, then my breasts.
He's doing just as he said. He's cherishing me with his mouth, making every inch of my body feel loved. Every touch of his lips leaves a warm sensation on my body. I’ve never felt this way before. I feel as though Jared's lips could heal anything. They could cure me from any ailment, any heartache. All I need is Jared to survive.
His lips kiss a trail down my body, and when he gets to my hipbone he starts to kiss down my right leg. He makes his way down my thigh, spending extra time on my knee, and then down my calf. He kisses my instep before making his way back up my right leg and repeating his kisses on my left. On his way up my left leg, he pauses at my inner thigh and spreads my legs open. My eyelids flutter open and I can see him staring at me from between my legs.
"Close your eyes. I just want you to feel."
I do as he says and I feel his lips kiss the lips below my waist. He kisses me for several seconds and I feel euphoric. I moan as his tongue comes out and licks gently across my clit. He licks up and down, continuing this action as one of his hands comes up to tease my entrance.
He pushes two fingers inside me, making shallow thrusts inside my walls. I want him to push his fingers all the way inside me, to rub me just the way he knows how, but I can’t get the words out. I’m too focused on his tongue and the sensation it’s giving me. The tip of his tongue starts to make a circular motion around my clit and I moan in frustration. It feels so good, but it's not enough to make me come, and he knows this.
Just when I think I might die from the teasing, his two fingers penetrate me fully and start to rub against my g-spot.
"Yes..." I groan, gripping the sheets with both my hands as I arch my back up. Jared’s mouth covers my clit and he starts to suck my clit completely, as his tongue massages the bundle of nerves.
"Jared... yes... yes, baby."
His fingers start to pump inside me faster and I can feel my orgasm approaching.
"I'm going to... Oh... God... Yes, I'm coming..."
I explode, my insides pulsing, my body trembling. The complete feeling of ecstasy comes over my body and I feel high from happiness. As I come down from my orgasm I should feel sated, but all I can think about is having Jared inside me. I open my eyes as Jared is covering my body with his. He got rid of his slacks and is completely naked.
"I want to do so may things to you in so many different ways... but right now I just want to take you slow and make love to you."
I feel him slide his cock between my legs and he slowly pushes inside of me. He fills me completely and then slowly pulls out. Sex with Jared has always been incredible, but he feels impossibly better without anything between us. I groan as I feel him leaving my body just to push back inside me again. I open my eyes and see his face in front of me, his eyes focused on mine. I swear I can see through to his soul.
I wrap my arms around him in a tight embrace and his hands come down to hold me the best he can as he continues to thrust inside me, still keeping his eyes on mine. It's the most intimate moment in my life, almost too intimate. If it were anyone other than Jared I would feel uncomfortable holding eye contact for this long, but Jared makes everything perfect. His eyes show me he's feeling everything I'm feeling. He loves me and I love him.
His thrusts stay steady and slow and I start to feel a stirring deep in my core, building and building, ready for me to climb over the edge. My legs wrap around his waist as he continues to plunge forward.
"Kiss me," I whisper. His gray eyes leave mine and he looks down at my lips. I lick them in anticipation and he brings his lips to mine, his mouth sucking my lower lip inside. His teeth come out and bite my lip gently before he covers my mouth completely with his and we partake in a passionate kiss. His lips are what I need to push me over the edge and I start to come.
His lips release mine and his eyes open to watch me come undone, and with a few more thrusts he’s coming inside me. I feel him shoot his seed deep inside me, and knowing part of him is inside me gives me the most amazing sensation all over.
"I love you," I hum to him, coming down from the high.
"I love you, too. So much... so, so much. You'll never know how much, but I’ll continue to show you every day."
I smile up at him and kiss him deeply before teasingly pushing him. Jared rolls off me and onto his back and I follow, draping myself over his body, ready for sleep.
"Let's get you cleaned up."
"Could we... could we not do that tonight? I like the feeling of having you all over me and inside me. Does that make me sick?"
His hands brush my long blonde hair, "No, babe. It doesn't. I like knowing I'm all over you and inside you, claiming what's mine. I love that you like it, too."
"Mm..."
"We never drank the wine. Do you want some, babe?"
"Too sleepy," I mumble, cuddling in closer to him. Jared wraps me in his arms, kissing and caressing me to sleep.
> Chapter Seventeen
"Push your tits together and hug me in there tight," Jared commands and I do as he says. We've been in bed for the last hour and he's given me three amazing orgasms, and I'm about to bring him to climax.
Jared is straddling my stomach with his knees on each side of my body. I push my breasts up and together with my hands, surrounding his dick with my tits. My head tilts down and I watch as he slides his cock up and down between my breasts, as I lay flat on the bed. The piercing at the head of his cock brushes against my mouth with each thrust and I open up to take it between my lips.
"Ah... fuck," he grunts, thrusting faster between my breasts. "Open up, I'm going to come."
I open my mouth and he thrusts a few more times before he shoots his cum on my tongue. "Yes, that's it babe. Take it all."
I close my lips over the head of his cock and suck until the rest of his juices are milked out of him. I swallow the salty liquid and smile up at him. He smiles back down at me and leans over to give me a kiss before getting off my body.
After our night of passion a month ago, the night Jared and I made sweet, slow love, we've been exploring each other's likes and dislikes. Since I've seen a few of his movies and watched him live before, I know the kind of things he did with those women and I wanted to try them with him. If he enjoyed it, I hoped to enjoy some of it, too. I want to please my man.
Jared fucking my breasts is surprisingly a huge turn on. It gives me so much confidence in the bedroom, knowing I can get him off with just my breasts. We've even experimented with ass play... and I like it. He hasn't fully penetrated me there yet. Jared says that takes time, but we're building up to that. It started with a finger, then two and three, we progressed to butt plugs and I'm now at the largest one. His dick will be the next step.
It's funny to me how manufacturers design their sex toys. The butt plug has a large diamond at the base of it and that's what Jared sees when he has sex with me. The diamond is obviously designed for a girl, so that she can feel feminine. What I don't get is why it's designed for the girl. I don't have to see the thing, he does. Jared will usually place it inside me during foreplay and it sets my ass ablaze. Then he'll have sex with my pussy while my backend is filled with the plug.
It's an amazingly delicious feeling to be filled at both ends. Everyone should try it.
I watch as Jared cleans himself up and gets dressed for the day. He walks into the bathroom and comes back with a washcloth for me. I sit up in bed and reach my hands out for the cloth towel, and he hands it to me, kissing me briefly on the cheek.
Once he's completely dressed he sits down next to me on the bed and I watch him mesmerized.
"Do you plan on getting dressed, Billy?"
"I do, I just like watching you get dressed more."
"Well, I like watching you get undressed," he says leaning in and peaking at my naked body under the sheets. "We've got to leave in twenty to get to the studio."
I grunt and lift the sheet over my head, hiding my face from him. "Can’t you go alone? I'll just meet up with you afterwards."
I feel him reach over and grab the edge of the sheet before the sheet is pulled off me swiftly.
"You said you still wanted to work for me, so that's what you need to do."
"What happened to the way things used to be? I did your work from home and Kelly went with you on set."
"Well... you changed that. I'm in love with you and I want you with me while I work. Kelly will be there for a little while, too. Plus, you keep me sane when one of the actors pisses me off."
Jared's been strictly directing since production started back up with his company. He amicably broke ties with the other online companies he used to shoot for, but he still directs for them every once in a while. Everyone in the industry was livid when he decided to "quit" porn. It actually made national news, which was funny to me because you never hear of porn stars in mainstream media.
I also didn't completely understand the reference to him quitting. He's still very much involved in the business; he's just no longer in front of the camera. I've asked him about this, about how long he thought he'd continue in the industry. He responded with raised eyebrows, like I had just asked the stupidest question ever.
I guess I'll never completely understand this business. I would have thought the HIV scare would have scared everyone out of the industry, but as soon as everyone was cleared it was business as usual. Jared says it's just the way things work and if he hadn't met me he'd be back in front of the camera, too. The one good thing that came out of this is Jared now has a line of safe sex porn. It's small, but he opted to have this option so performers could choose to have protected sex if they wanted to. It doesn't sell as well, but it still brings in a lot of cash.
I've become okay with Jared's decisions. It can make for awkward dinner conversation when someone asks me what my boyfriend does for a living, but I realize as long as I'm happy and love him, what he does for a living shouldn't matter. Unless he tells me he wants to start starring in porn again, that's a deal breaker.
"Alright, I'll be ready in twenty minutes." I stand up from the bed and Jared stands up with me, wrapping his arms around me. His hands come up to cover my breasts and his lips tickle my ear.
"I love you."
"Mm," I respond, leaning into his body. "I love you, too."
His hands lower from my breasts and he squeezes my torso tightly before releasing me and slapping me on the ass.
"Now go get ready, babe, or we'll be late."
I giggle and dash into the bathroom to get ready for the day.
★★★
Today's scene goes by rather quickly. I stand off on the sidelines in case Jared needs me for anything. I have my ear buds in, music blaring on my iPod, and a book in my hands.
I may have to be on set everyday, but that doesn't mean I have to watch. Especially today, when Jared's shooting a scene involving Tawny. Even though Tawny and I are close, I have no desire to see her having sex ever again.
Jared calls wrap and Tawny and the male porn star she shot with today go off to take showers. A few set hands clean up the set and start setting up for tomorrow's shoot. I wish this was the end of it for Jared, but before any of these scenes get put online or distributed to DVD, he has editing to do.
It's a little after one when we get back in his Mustang and hit the road. I'm unusually energetic today and I want to go do something to get that energy out. Usually when Jared and I have morning sessions in bed, I'm physically exhausted the rest of the day. The things we do usually wear me out so I want to take advantage of my newfound energy.
"Want to go hiking up in the canyons?"
"I’m not really dressed for hiking, babe."
I look him over and realize he's right. He's wearing jeans, a gray t-shirt that brings out his gray eyes, and his black chucks. Those shoes won't do anything for his feet if we go hiking.
"What about the beach?"
"We could do that," Jared says indifferently.
"Never mind, I want to do something we both want to do."
"Babe, the beach is fine. I just want to be with you."
His words melt my heart and I swoon for him all over again. "Let's keep driving until we figure out something else to do."
We drive around and neither of us can decide on an activity, which is funny since there is so much to do in Los Angeles. We pass another tattoo parlor and that's when I get an idea.
"Pull over."
"There's nothing around here, Billy."
"Just find a spot and pull over."
Jared shakes his head at me, but pulls over and parallel parks two blocks down from the tattoo parlor. I take his hand and pull him down the sidewalk with me, and he laughs at my urgency.
"I don't know what you're in such a fucking hurry for. The only thing I've seen of interest in the last mile is a sign for world famous fish tacos."
That does sound good, "We can stop there afterwards."
We get in front
of the tattoo parlor and I stop and grin at him. He looks around for a second and then his face goes pale.
"I don't know what you're up to, but I have no plans on getting new ink today. Believe it or not, all my tats are well thought out."
"Not for you, silly. I want one."
He does that thing where he drags his eyes up and down my body, stirring up the desire I have for him within.
"Jeez, babe. I'm slowly taking away your innocence and now you want ink? You're taking away any chance of your father meeting me and actually liking me. He's going to think I destroyed his little girl."
"First of all, as much as you like to think it, I wasn't innocent when we met."
"You were to me."
I shush him and place my pointer finger over his lips. "Second, I've thought about getting a tattoo for a while, way before I met you. I just never knew what I would get. Lastly... you have plans to meet my dad?"
"Yeah, I mean not in the immediate fucking future, but one day," he says flustered. He looks so cute in his obvious discomfort.
"I can't wait for you to meet him and my mom. Maybe not my sister, she might jump you. I told you she's a big fan."
"I'm down for some threesome sister action," he chuckles and I slap him across the shoulder.
"You better watch it, mister, or no sex for you," I laugh.
I open the door and walk into the tattoo parlor. It's fairly quiet, which makes sense because it's mid-afternoon on a weekday.
"You want a new tat?" A man sitting on a stool near the corner of the room asks. He can't be older than me. Every inch of exposed skin is covered in tattoos except for his face. He has huge open-faced plugs in his ears, a nose piercing, lip piercing, and a silver bar through his eyebrow. His long dark hair is pulled back in a ponytail. To most people he probably looks like a freak, but I see something oddly beautiful in him.
"Not me, man," Jared says from beside me. "My girl wants one."
The man looks over at me and eyes my exposed skin.
"Virgin skin?" He asks.
"Yeah, this will be her first."
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