by Carsen Taite
Greer wished she could take Ainsley for a ride in the Vette before she traded it in. She imagined Ainsley with her hair down, alternately laughing and screaming as they roared down the road. Ainsley would see a different Greer. Exciting and wild, and she would be so captivated by the risk, she would crave that Greer. Badly. Ainsley would reach across the gearshift and stroke Greer to a state of arousal. She would whip through the turns faster until the car seemed to lift off the ground, matching her hips lifting off the leather seat. Greer would max out the speed as she came, simultaneously in and out of control as she steered them both to safety.
Greer shrugged away the fantasy. Ainsley didn’t want wild and risky Greer. She wanted safe and simple Tray with her scruffy clothes and scary hair. She wanted sweet love, not wild pleasure. Greer knew Ainsley had been a little freaked out after the first night they made love. Greer knew it was because she had allowed her public persona to show through. Hard and dark, rough and raw. But she desperately wanted Ainsley to know she was a whole person, capable of being both tough and tender. Greer decided her fantasies would be better spent figuring out how to get Ainsley to see all of her. She had the whole day to come up with a strategy.
Her first stop was Pimentel and Sons Guitar Makers. Betty deserved the best, and Greer was determined to remedy the years of neglect starting now. She was thankful Albuquerque was home to a premier luthier. Miraculously, Betty seemed to have suffered little during the time she spent locked away, but Greer wanted a second opinion from someone she trusted.
Mr. Pimentel Sr. himself greeted her as she walked in the shop. He and his sons handcrafted guitars for those who appreciated excellent work and could afford to pay top dollar. To them, her rock-star status meant nothing. Greer was just another musician who loved her instrument. Betty would get the same master care as any other highly prized instrument that crossed their threshold.
“How long since you’ve played her?”
“Years. Lots.”
“She’s been here in New Mexico the whole time?”
“Yes. In the case, in plastic.” At least she’d remembered to provide some of the extra care a dry climate required.
His look told her he didn’t understand why she would let such a beautiful guitar lay silent. She met his stare. “I’m going to start playing her again. Now.”
He handed the guitar back to her. “You’re lucky, then. She could still use humidification, but it’s not necessary right now. You should also get a better case. One more resistant to the climate. I can make some recommendations. You may also want to have a new saddle made to adjust the action. I can match the ivory. Can you leave her with me for a few days?”
Greer nodded, but held Betty tight. Mr. Pimentel wrote out his notes while Greer worked herself up to leave Betty in his able hands. As she reluctantly handed the guitar to him, she kicked herself for all the years she’d wasted without her.
Greer’s second stop was the Apple store in ABQ Uptown. Midmorning on a Tuesday seemed to be a good time to shop. She and one other customer had the store to themselves. Greer couldn’t remember the last time she’d purchased a piece of electronic equipment for herself. She had her share of gadgets, but they all showed up magically unboxed and ready to use. She had a million questions for Walter, the attentive Apple employee. She wondered if his solicitousness was because he recognized her, but after listening to him drool over the “totally awesome” features of the tricked-out laptop she focused on, she decided he was more interested in gigabytes than superstars. He explained it would take about an hour to load all the programs she wanted, and he pointed out a nearby coffee shop where she could wait until he called her.
Greer decided instead to wait in the car. She’d nabbed a book from Drew’s room and welcomed indulging herself in someone else’s life story for a change. As she slid into the seat, she glanced at her reflection in the rearview mirror. Her dye job made her look like a beauty school reject and her eyes were constantly red from the contacts she wore. She decided she would have a better chance of regaining control of her life if she could at least recognize the person who looked back at her in the mirror. Besides, the scary-looking chick in the glass was as well-known by now as the real thing. She grabbed her phone and punched in a familiar number.
“Yeah?” Ethan’s voice was crusty with sleep.
“Yeah to you too. Wake up, I have a question.”
“Who is this?”
“It’s me, Greer.”
“Do you know what time it is?”
“Ethan, it’s ten thirty.”
“A.M.? This is not the Greer I know. She would know not to wake her friends so rudely in the middle of the night.”
Greer laughed. She wasn’t the Greer she knew either. Up early for breakfast, out running errands, all before noon. I bet Ainsley has been at work for hours already. Willing herself to focus, she said, “Just lie there and answer my questions.”
“Okay,” he mumbled.
“I want to go back to being a blonde. What do I need to do?”
“Greer, are you okay?” He sounded more awake and genuinely concerned.
“I’m ready to get my old self back.” Or at least the looks part. “Seriously, Ethan, I need your help here.”
He spoke slowly as if she had a learning disability. “Take. Off. The. Wig.”
Oh, now she got it. No wonder he sounded like he was talking to the slow. “It’s not a wig.”
“Tell me you didn’t!”
She could hear the edge of panic in his voice. She forced herself to sound nonchalant. “I couldn’t keep wearing the wig. It kept slipping. I dyed it red to match. Used a color I picked up at the drugstore. I actually did a pretty good job, I don’t think anyone could tell the difference—”
“You used color from a box? What the hell were you thinking?”
Greer felt tears well up, and she leaned her head against the steering wheel. She hadn’t been thinking past the next moment for most of her life. She didn’t need her best friend to point out her biggest shortcoming. Or maybe she did. “Look, I made a mistake. I’ve made a ton of mistakes lately. I don’t need you to point out how stupid I am. Help me out here. What do I do?” Greer realized her question wasn’t about her hair any longer.
“I’m sorry, sweetie. You know how I am when I don’t get enough sleep.” Ethan yawned as if to demonstrate the sincerity of his remark. “Okay, hair first, then we’ll work on the rest of your life.” He asked her some pointed questions about her home color job and then clicked off, promising to call her back within five minutes.
He did. “You’re on Menual Boulevard? Great, you’re around the corner from Salon Bello. Dan Padilla is waiting for you. He’ll make you as blond as the day you were born, but it’s going to take several hours. Get over there now. I had to promise unspeakable things to get you this appointment.”
Greer didn’t ask questions. She knew that after years on the Phantom tour, Ethan knew someone “special” in every city on the circuit. “Thanks, Ethan.”
“Oh, you’re not off the hook yet, dear. Tell me about this luscious babe you’re smoochin’ there in the Land of Enchantment.”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“Not like you to kiss and not tell.”
“She’s special. Besides, it may be over. Too much exposure.”
“Wow, you finally found one who doesn’t crave the limelight? She sounds like a keeper. Does she know how special you are?”
“She doesn’t know anything about me.” Greer didn’t try to hide the bitter tone.
“Her loss, babe.”
Ethan was loyal to a fault. Greer didn’t bother refuting his assessment, but she knew she was the one losing out. She had to figure out a way to cut her losses.
*
Ainsley looked at her watch and sighed. Four o’clock was too early to start drinking. At least here at the hotel. She contemplated sneaking out and running down the block to a nearby bar, but she knew she wasn’t safe out there. Re
porters and news vans still lurked outside waiting for a glimpse of the woman who had captivated Greer Davis and taken her mind off the death of her lover Macy Rivers. Ainsley had given them no satisfaction, steadfastly refusing to leave the hotel since she had been smuggled in. She couldn’t help but follow the stories—tidbits about Greer Davis were everywhere in the hotel from magazine covers scattered throughout the lobby to televised reports blaring from all the flat-screen TVs Paul had insisted be installed in the bar. Someone who didn’t know would think Greer herself had died, the way the entertainment news droned on and on about her path to stardom.
“Has rock and roll’s favorite leather girl decided to quit the music biz? Our reporter in the field, Delia Gadsby, has been investigating. Don’t go away if you want to hear the rest of the story.”
“And if you don’t want to hear the rest of the story?” Ainsley answered her own question by clicking the remote till she found a local news channel to replace the insipid entertainment drivel on TMZ. She became thoroughly engrossed in a story about a local adoption agency when she heard a light knock on the door.
Greer Davis stood in her doorway, and she was smoking hot. Denim, leather, and spiked blond hair. She leaned against the door frame with her arms crossed. Everything about her appearance shouted confidence, and Ainsley felt her own drain quickly away. She met Greer’s cool blue eyes for the very first time and gasped at the icy wave of want coursing through her. Greer answered with a hint of a smile before she entered the office and locked the door behind her.
“What are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be hiding out from the press?” Ainsley made no effort to conceal her anger, but she suspected the source of her passionate tone couldn’t be exclusively linked to fury. She felt magnetized by the brilliant color of Greer’s eyes. I should’ve known I was falling for my usual type, blue-eyed blonde. Ainsley brushed away resistance to the conclusion she’d fallen at all and tried to reconcile Greer Davis, rock star, with the brown-eyed redhead who lurked in her thoughts.
Greer slid into the chair across from her desk and crossed her legs, acting like she owned the place. Well, Ainsley thought, up until a few weeks ago her family did. And, she recalled, Greer had worked here while she was in high school. She found herself wondering if Greer had enjoyed this business, if it was in her blood the way it was in Ainsley’s and Drew’s. Obviously not or she wouldn’t have left. She left to become a rock star, silly. She was supposed to stick around and deal with the day-to-day grind of running a hotel when she could travel the world with hordes of screaming fans in her wake?
Ainsley realized she didn’t think what Greer did for a living was real work. She didn’t have regular hours. If an emergency happened, she called or made her agent call one of her many minions to handle it. Greer never worked overtime because someone else didn’t show up. She had no responsibilities. Not even her own. Nope, rock star did not equal real job. Ainsley felt the acid burn of resentment wind its way down her throat and she snapped, “What are you doing here?”
“I got your message, but when I called they said you were in a meeting. I came to apologize.”
“Not necessary,” Ainsley lied. She did want an apology. Remorse was a sign Greer wasn’t callous. Yet she found herself unable to ask for what she really wanted because she knew it wasn’t possible. She wanted a do-over. She wanted to go back to meeting Greer on the plane and figure out if the feelings she felt for her were real, not colored by shades of gray.
Greer wasn’t easily dissuaded. “I get that you don’t like Greer Davis, but you don’t really know her. You liked her when you thought she was someone else. Didn’t you?”
Ainsley tried to follow, but Greer talking about herself in the third person merely added to the confusion already fueled by her proximity. Would it feel as good to run her hands through those blond spikes as it had to caress the red ones? And those warm lapis eyes? Was it her imagination or did they seem to see right through her? She hoped not because if so, Greer was witnessing a powerful struggle between heart and mind.
“I’m not sure the person I met exists.”
“Come on, Ainsley, you did more than meet her.” Greer was up now, coming around the desk. Words rushed from her brain to protest the affront, but they dissolved on Ainsley’s tongue. Greer was behind her now, spinning her chair around, leaving no barriers between them. She slid a hand along Ainsley’s face, cupping her chin, stroking her lips with her thumb. “I never meant to hurt you, to lie to you. Take all the time you want to tell me how angry you are with me, but don’t throw me out. Let me have equal time to tell you how I feel. I promise, I can explain why I did the things I did.”
Ainsley felt her lips betray her resolve and part against the gentle pressure of Greer’s touch. Her mind no longer controlled her physical actions. She could only watch as Greer leaned forward and traced the path of her fingers with soft lips. She opened to the touch and her tongue invited Greer inside. Greer didn’t vary the intensity of their touch, but added slow and steady strokes of her tongue to the intimate dance. Ainsley’s arms joined her unfaithful lips and circled Greer’s waist to pull her in. The kiss wasn’t enough. She yearned to be closer. Greer balanced on the arms of her chair and Ainsley took advantage of the forward movement to hold each of her breasts. The groan she elicited from Greer made Ainsley come up out of her seat.
“We had our very own Greer Davis sighting this afternoon. Coronado Mall was overrun with news vans as Ms. Davis made her way through the shops, outfitting herself with a new wardrobe. But it was our very own Linda Thomas who got an exclusive from the rock star herself. Linda?”
“Good reporters look for stories wherever they happen to be. Well, today I was sitting in a chair at the Salon Bello, when who should walk in and sit down next to me but the recently elusive Greer Davis herself.”
“Did you get to talk to her?”
“I certainly did, Tom. She asked me to pass her a copy of People magazine. Can you imagine that? I struck up a conversation, and we whiled away the afternoon under the heat lamps.”
“Did she have any insight to the recent events in Chicago or anything to say about Macy Rivers?”
“She did, Tom. She said—”
Ainsley’s abrupt exit from her chair nearly toppled them both to the ground. She ignored Greer’s surprised look and moved out of her reach, grabbing the remote and killing the power to the television. Shopping? Greer spent the afternoon shopping? Oh, wait, she hadn’t shopped the whole time; she had also found time to visit a salon and chat with reporters. Any residual sympathy she felt for all the supposedly unwanted attention heaped on Greer was apparently unwarranted. Greer was whoring herself out for the reporters. She deserved whatever she got in return. She started to tell Greer what she could do with herself, but the look on her face paralyzed her. She looked at the now-silent TV and her expression was wistful, shy almost. Ainsley realized she was catching a glimpse of the woman she’d met on the plane. A sweet, shy woman whose uncle had cancer, whose parents had abandoned her, and whose cousin was prickly at best. A piece of her wanted to pull Greer into her arms, stroke her head, and murmur endearments.
For God’s sake, Ainsley, she’s not a puppy. You can’t let her flash those hangdog eyes at you and melt your heart. Everything she’s ever told you is a lie. Have a spine, for crying out loud!
Her thoughts swept her feelings aside, and Ainsley pulled back. She didn’t meet Greer’s eyes as she spoke. “I’d like it if you left.” It wasn’t what she would like, but she didn’t trust what pleased her to be a proper guide.
“Baby, are you sure? I think we have a real connection. I know I owe you an explanation—” Greer moved closer and the proximity was dangerous.
“You spent the day shopping?”
Greer was confused. Why was the mention of her shopping trip a catalyst for Ainsley to dismiss her? It had to be something else. “I had to get a few things. Oh, and have my hair restored to its natural color.” She smiled, hoping to lighten the tensio
n swirling in the room. “Do you like it?”
Ainsley did. She liked everything she saw, but she wasn’t sure she could trust her eyes. She wanted to curl back up in Greer’s arms, but she wasn’t sure she could trust her instincts either. “Let me get something straight. Why did you adopt an alternate identity in the first place?”
Greer was relieved for the opening. “You know what happened in Chicago, right?” Ainsley nodded. “Well, you can’t imagine what a scene it was. My hotel was covered in protestors. People toting signs accusing me of killing Macy. A guy tried to kidnap me to rescue me from my wayward life. Reporters were everywhere. I had to get out of there and the only way to do it was to totally change how I looked, who I was.”
“I see. And today you suddenly decided talking to reporters was a good idea.” Ainsley hoped her sarcasm was a clear message. Greer obviously craved the attention she had missed while hiding out.
“I didn’t plan on giving an interview. I was at the hair salon and one of the other customers turned out to be Linda Thomas. She’s an anchor on one of the local stations. You wouldn’t know her, but back when she was a field reporter, she interviewed me for my very first TV appearance.” Greer heard her own voice. She was babbling, but with purpose. As long as they were talking, she was still here, inches from Ainsley and her warm embrace.
“And you couldn’t resist the chance to be back in the spotlight?”
“I wish you’d listened to the whole interview.”
