by Jill Shalvis
Greg Olsen, his oldest friend in the world laughed. “He was the greatest dog. Except that he ran off with all our baseballs.”
Jarrad adjusted his shades against the neverending sunshine of L.A. He still missed real winters and, amazingly enough, he even missed the Vancouver rain. “So, what’s up? How’s cop business?”
Greg ignored the question. “I saw eChat Canada last night.”
“Since when do you watch entertainment porn?”
“Since your ex is making a fool of you with some seven-foot-tall ball jockey. She flashed a big engagement rock on TV.”
It wasn’t sadness or grief that made his teeth clench on his expensive dental work, it was the humiliation of being reminded he’d been that stupid. Dumb enough to fall for the face and body that were as fake as the nice-girl routine. “Don’t worry about it. I’m over her. And you never liked her.”
“Dude, nobody liked her.”
“Yeah, call it my L.A. phase, hang around movie stars, marry a swimsuit model, get a house with a pool, start—”
“I’m glad you said that,” his oldest friend interrupted. “L.A. was a phase. It’s not you.”
Even as he accepted that his friend was right, he wondered if he even knew what he was anymore. Or where he belonged.
“I need you to come home.”
“What are you talking about? Is somebody sick? In trouble?”
“No. But here’s the thing. I need you, man.”
“What, you’re gay now?”
“Funny. No. It’s the big league game.”
“Big league” only meant one thing to Jarrad. NHL. From which he was forever barred. He shook his head. His thinking was hardly ever muddled anymore. Mostly, the only effect of the career-ending hit he’d taken was that he’d lost his peripheral vision. He wasn’t Big J anymore. He was an unemployed thirty-five-year-old man who had no idea what he was going to do with the rest of his life apart from shaving in public on camera. “Big league?”
“The World Police and Firefighter Games hockey championship,” Greg said in a “duh” tone, as though there could be no other league of any importance.
“Right. Sure. Ah, if you want a ringer, I can’t play hockey anymore. You know that.”
“You can’t catch crooks or fight fires, either. I don’t want you on the team.”
“Then what do you want?”
Jarrad beeped open the doors of his overpriced luxury sports car.
“We’re the worst team in the league. It’s humiliating. We have this big rivalry going with Portland and what we need is a coach. They told me I was crazy to try, but me and the boys, well, we want you to coach us.”
Jarrad damned near dropped his fancy new phone. He’d thought shooting shaving cream commercials was as low as he was going to fall. But coaching a bunch of cops and firefighters for an amateur hockey league?
“I don’t know how to coach,” he said, playing for time.
“Sure you do. You can play, can’t you? So practice your coaching skills on us. We’re not paying you, so we can’t complain.”
“I don’t know. I’m pretty busy.”
“No, you’re not. You’re sitting around feeling sorry for yourself.”
He could argue the point, but Greg wouldn’t be fooled.
“I need to think about it.”
“Come home, do a good thing. Get your life back.”
“I can’t.”
“Think about it.”
“I’m heading out into traffic,” he lied. “Gotta go.” And he flipped shut the phone. Then he got slowly into the car, let the hum of the engine and the air-conditioning system—which constantly adjusted itself to his preferred temperature—soothe him.
As if he’d go home to his rain-soaked town and coach a bunch of amateurs. Home. He wasn’t sure if it was the images of Fred or the call from Greg, but suddenly he felt a twinge of homesickness. Which was weird. He used to go back a lot when his dad was alive, but Art McBride had died a couple of years back from a sudden heart attack. Shortly after that, his mom had moved to Vancouver Island. A nurse, she’d taken a demanding hospital position, which all the family understood was her way of dealing with the grief and loneliness.
Vancouver in February was cold, rainy and dreary, he reminded himself as the sun beat against his expensive shades and the engine purred obediently beneath him.
He headed out the coast road to his Malibu home. He’d grab a swim, call up a nice woman and go get some dinner. Enjoy the riches life had so generously given him. So he couldn’t play hockey anymore. Big deal. He’d figure out something to do with the time hanging heavy on his hands.
Sam, his younger sister by three years, was busy with her law practice. Even though she bugged him all the time to leave L.A. and move back home, she had a full life. It wasn’t as if she needed him.
And Taylor, the youngest McBride, was too busy trying to take the McBride spot in the NHL to have much time for his older, washed-up brother.
Be great to see them, though. Maybe he’d fly up for a quick weekend. See the family and a few old friends. Maybe when the weather was better.
But as his house came into view, he realized that his old buddy, Greg, wasn’t the only one who wondered how he was doing now that his ex-wife was engaged to a new victim.
Paparazzi clogged the gated entrance to his home like rats packing a sewer.
He swore under his breath. Didn’t stop to think. He swung the car around in a tight U and sped away from his own house cursing aloud.
A couple of miles down the road, he pulled over. Even in the perfectly controlled air-conditioning he was sweating. He knew from experience that for the few days he and his ex and her new guy were the love triangle du jour, he’d get no peace.
He didn’t want to answer questions.
He didn’t want to pretend everything was okay.
He didn’t want to find himself stalked by cameras as he tried to go about his business.
Damn it, and damn Greg for knowing him so well. He wanted to go home.
He called his assistant to book him a flight to Vancouver and then he called Greg.
“I’ll be there Monday. Where do you practice and what time?”
2
“COME ON, IT’LL BE FUN,” Tamson insisted as Sierra Janssen hesitated on the brink of the ice rink.
“Fun for you, watching me fall on my butt in the cold. It’s seven in the morning on a Saturday, my day off. I should be sleeping in.”
“None of us are great skaters. Who cares? We get some exercise, laugh a lot and it turns out that there’s a team of firefighters and cops practicing in the next rink. Being here is much better than sitting around feeling sorry for yourself.”
But Sierra wasn’t sure that sitting around feeling sorry for herself wouldn’t, in fact, be more fun than attempting to play hockey when she hadn’t skated in years. It was cold in here and smelled like old sweat socks. Colorful pennants hung from the impossibly high rafters boasting of wins and league championships. She’d passed a glass case of trophies telling similar stories. For some reason the word league only reminded her of Michael, who had been so far out of her league she’d never had a chance. What had a successful, handsome brain surgeon wanted with a grade-two schoolteacher who, on her best days, could only be termed cute. A good day at work for Michael was bringing someone out of a coma, cutting tumors out of brains. Her idea of success was getting seven-year-olds to put up their hands before asking a question.
No wonder he’d left her for an intern. In her bitter moments she thought it would have been nice if he’d had the courtesy to dump her first and not leave her to find out he was cheating in the most humiliating way. He’d sent her the hottest email. A sexual scorcher that left her eyes bugged open, it was so unlike him. He’d even used a pet name he’d never called her before. It wasn’t until she’d read the email through a second time that she realized Jamie wasn’t a pet name. It was the actual name of another woman. Who was clearly a lot wilder in be
d than she would ever be.
The woman was training to be a doctor, scorching-hot in bed, a much better match for Michael.
She gritted her teeth. Okay, so her heart was broken. Tamson was right. She had to get out and embrace life, not sit around watching it happen to other people.
She’d loved skating when she was a kid. This would be fine. A fun league for women, no stress, she’d pick up her skating skills. Learn to play hockey. She’d played field hockey in high school and she’d been pretty darn good. What could be better?
She stepped a skate gingerly onto the ice. Hung on to the boards, stepped the other skate down.
Had the ice been this slippery when she was a child? Her ankles wobbled alarmingly in her rented skates and the padding she’d borrowed from her brother made her feel like the Michelin Man. On skates.
When she wobbled her way down the ice, holding her brother’s old hockey stick, since he wouldn’t trust her with his good one, joining the other women who were warming up, she realized that even here, in this fun hockey team for women, she was outclassed.
She was the only one who had to look at her skates to stay on the ice. And what she saw was that her legs were wide apart and she couldn’t help but hold her arms out wide to stop herself from falling.
Somebody blew a whistle. “Okay, girls. Gather round.”
* * *
JARRAD STOOD AT THE EDGE of the ice and realized his old buddy hadn’t lied about the team. These guys were all over the place. Sure, some of them could skate, and the men were all fit, but there was no sense of teamwork, no idea how to sense where the puck was headed and what to do about it.
Not for the first time, he wondered what he was even doing here.
He was observing, he reminded himself, only observing. And what he observed didn’t fill him with confidence in the team. He hadn’t agreed to coach yet, maybe he’d take a pass.
“I’m going for a walk,” he said to a grizzled old Norwegian who answered to Sig and was the closest thing to a coach the team currently had.
Sig nodded. “They’re good guys, you know?”
“Sure. Probably great cops and firefighters, too.” But any fool with functioning eyesight could see that getting this ragged bunch of men into shape as a team was going to take time, not to mention hard work and coaching skills Jarrad doubted he possessed. He wasn’t sure there was enough time before the big league play-offs to get them into shape.
He stuffed his hands in his jeans and wandered. He’d spent so much of his life inside hockey rinks that he probably felt more comfortable in one than anywhere else on earth. He loved everything about the rink. The way it smelled like the inside of a fridge, the sound of skate blades scraping across ice, putting the first groove into the perfect surface right after the Zamboni finished. The guys. The team.
But there weren’t skates on his feet now. And it wasn’t him on the ice.
His sneakers were soundless as he headed down the hallway. At the next rink over he stopped to peer through the glass doors, and what he saw made him smile, genuinely smile, for the first time in months.
Without thinking, he opened the door and slipped inside.
On the ice was a group of women, ranging, he guessed from their twenties to their forties, all clad in mismatched hockey gear and helmets. This group made his firefighters seem like the hottest team in the NHL.
“You’ve got a breakaway. Sierra. Go!”
And he watched as a puck made its lazy way up the ice, at about the speed of a curling rock, and a slim young woman skated straight over to the boards and started up the rink.
She had to guess the direction of the puck, since she never took her eyes off her skates.
He moved closer. Put a foot up on a bench to watch. The breakaway got way past the cutie near the boards, and the goalie managed to stop it.
A whistle blew.
“Okay. Great work, ladies. See you all on Thursday.”
And they all headed off the rink.
Except the woman with the breakaway. None of the other women had noticed she was now clinging to the boards like a burr to a dog. He got the feeling she was scared.
He gave her a minute and when she still hadn’t budged, he stepped onto the ice.
Walked over to her.
“Hi,” he said. “You need a hand?”
When her face turned up he felt a kind of shock travel through his system. He was so used to tanned bombshells that he’d forgotten how soft and pretty a woman could look. Beneath the helmet she had big blue eyes and pale skin. Blond hair that had picked up some static from the cold and was levitating in places.
“I don’t think hockey’s for me,” she said.
He took the stick out of her hand and shot it across the ice toward the exit gate.
“Then you should probably get off the ice.”
“I’m thinking about it.”
He held out his hands, palms up. “Come on. Take my hand. I’ll get you out of here.”
She looked up at him. “What if we both fall?”
“I won’t let you fall.”
After thinking about it for a second, she gave him one hand.
“Your glove is too big,” he said, feeling the smallness of her hands inside the huge mitt.
“I know. I borrowed all this stuff from my brother. Except for the skates.”
“May I?” and without waiting for an answer, he pulled off her glove. And took her hand. Which was as small and soft as the rest of her seemed to be.
Once she knew he had her and he wasn’t about to take her down, she held out her other hand. He pulled off the other glove, sent the pair skidding to join the stick, and then while she hung on with a death grip, walked slowly backward, sliding her along with him. “That’s it.”
Her cheeks were pink with cold and he sensed that, like her hands in those gloves, her body inside the padding was much smaller. “You need some equipment that fits you.”
“No, I don’t. I am done with hockey.”
He laughed easily. Something he hadn’t done in so long he’d almost forgotten the sound.
“I’m a coach. I could help you.”
“That’s sweet of you, but—”
“And here’s your first lesson. Stop looking at your feet.”
“But—”
“It’s like dancing. You have to trust your body.”
She glanced up, took a deep breath and skated forward a little bit. He let go of one hand and stepped to the side. “Now, relax and think about how good that cup of coffee’s going to taste.”
“What cup of coffee?”
“The one I’m going to buy you when we get off the ice.”
She had dimples, he noticed when she smiled. “I don’t even know your name.”
He hesitated. It didn’t seem like she’d recognized him. Now he was going to give her his name and that would ruin the fun vibe between them. “Jarrad.”
She glanced up, and there wasn’t the slightest recognition. “Hi, Jarrad. I’m Sierra.”
“Pretty name. You’re doing great, Sierra.”
“It’s easier when you hold me up.”
“All you need is practice.” As they reached the edge of the rink he was almost sorry. “And here we are.” He helped her step off the ice, then went back to collect the gloves and stick.
When he returned, she was unlacing skates that in his opinion should be in the garbage. “Well? Can I buy you a coffee?”
She glanced at him, as though trying to divine his intention, which would be tough since he didn’t know what his intentions were himself. Only that he liked the look of this woman and didn’t want to say goodbye quite yet.
“All right.”
Once she had her street shoes back on and the padding off, he realized he’d been correct. She had a sweet little body.
The coffee shop in the ice sports complex was quiet. He got them both a coffee and brought the steaming cups to the small table in the corner where he figured no hockey fans would spot hi
m right away. Especially since he made sure to sit with his back to the room.
“You’re tanned,” she said. “Did you just get back from Hawaii or something?”
“California.”
“Nice.”
They sipped coffee and he realized he didn’t have much practice anymore in talking to regular women who weren’t either famous themselves or involved with celebrities.
While he racked his brain for something to say, she said, “What team do you coach?”
“Honestly, I’m not sure I’m going to coach them. It’s the fire and police team, but I came here today as an observer and what I observed is there’s no teamwork. No sense of a common goal. They’re like a bunch of little kids, all trying to grab the glory.”
A smile lit up her face. “Ah, maybe I can help. I know a lot about organizing little kids.”
3
HE WAS SO CUTE, SIERRA thought, gazing at the earnest expression in the green eyes across from her. He had sun-streaked brown hair and a craggy face that was more appealing because it was so imperfect.
His nose had obviously been broken at least once and there was a toughness to his body that she liked. He had a scar that started at his left cheekbone, a little too close to the eye for her comfort in imagining what injury might have caused it, that jagged its way down an inch or so into his cheek. When he smiled, the scar creased like an overenthusiastic laugh line. She found it fascinating.
She’d never felt so comfortable with a man so quickly. It was as though she already knew him.
“I teach grade two. When the boys aren’t getting along on the playing field, or aren’t working together, you know what I do?”
He seemed absolutely fascinated. He leaned forward and cupped his chin in his hand. “What do you do?”
“You see, boys are very visual, and they’re competitive. It’s simply in their nature. So I tell them to imagine they are building a big fort. If each of them only looks out for himself, then there will be a bunch of little forts, none of them strong enough. But if they work together, they can build something stronger and better.”
“And does it work?”
