The Lovely Reckless

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by Kami Garcia


  “It’s probably Lex.” I give Cujo a quick scratch behind the ears and start unlocking the deadbolt.

  “Frankie!” Dad shouts as if I’m a child about to run out into traffic.

  I turn around, searching for a sign of danger. Nothing looks out of place. “What’s wrong?”

  Dad points at the front door with a fierce look in his eyes. “Never open a door without checking to see who is on the other side.”

  It’s official. My father has crossed over from paranoid to crazy. “That’s the reason you yelled at me like I was about to set off a bomb?”

  “Depending on who is on the other side, you could’ve been.”

  I gesture at Cujo sitting next to me calmly, with his head cocked to the side. “Cujo isn’t growling. He always growls if there’s a stranger at the door.” A retired K-9 handler trained Cujo as a protection dog. He’s the definition of an intruder’s worst nightmare.

  “You can’t let anything lull you into a false sense of security. Letting your guard down one time is all it takes.”

  Does he think he’s telling me something I don’t know? I stifle a bitter laugh.

  “This isn’t funny, Frankie.”

  No, it’s painful and pathetic, and I live with it every day.

  Parents are supposed to understand their kids, or at least make an effort. Mine are clueless.

  The doorbell rings again.

  Crap. Lex is still standing in the hallway.

  I make a dramatic show of peering through the eyehole and turn to Dad. “Happy?”

  “These are critical life skills. As in, one day they might save your life,” he says as I open the door.

  Lex stands on the other side, smoothing a section of her choppy hair between her fingers. It’s dyed a lighter shade than her usual honey blond, except for an inch of brown roots where her natural color is growing in. The inch is deliberate, like the smudged charcoal eye liner that looks slept in and makes her blue eyes pop against her coppery-brown skin.

  Her eyes remind me of Noah’s.

  Thinking about him feels like standing in the ocean with my back to the waves. I never know when it’s coming or how hard it will hit me.

  “I was starting to wonder if you left without me.” Lex breezes past me. “Ready for your first day in the public school system, or, as my mom calls it, ‘the place where every child is left behind’?”

  We haven’t seen each other since the beginning of the summer, but Lex makes it feel like it’s only been days. I spent the last three months trying to leave the old Frankie behind, avoiding Lex and Abel, my closest friends, in the process.

  “How’s it going, Lex?” Dad asks.

  “Pretty good.” She yawns. “Please tell me you have coffee, Frankie. The line at Starbucks was insane.”

  “There’s a pot in the kitchen,” Dad offers.

  “Thanks, Mr. Devereux.” If she keeps acting this cheerful, Dad will think she’s high. We’ve known each other forever, but when Lex developed a gross crush on my dad in seventh grade, it almost resulted in best friend excommunication.

  “Don’t thank him yet,” I whisper. “His signature blend is burnt Maxwell House.”

  “I’d rather go without food for a week than caffeine for a day.” Lex pours herself a cup of liquid coffee grounds.

  Dad fishes a Velcro wallet out of his back pocket and lays two twenties on the table next to me. “Swing by the store after school and pick up some Diet Coke and anything else you want.”

  I leave the crumpled bills on the table. “I won’t have time. Community service starts at three thirty, right after classes let out.” Thanks to King Richard, I already have a probation officer and a community service assignment. He called in a favor at the district attorney’s office, and my case was bumped to the top of the pile. “Lex is dropping me off at the rec center and picking me up when I’m done.”

  I told Dad all this last night.

  “You don’t mind?” he asks Lex. “You’re already driving Frankie to school in the mornings. I would take her myself—”

  “But you can’t blow your cover. I totally get it.” She takes a sip of her coffee and cringes, but Dad doesn’t notice.

  “You can’t slip and make a comment like that at school.” Dad gives us his serious cop look. “You both understand that, right?”

  I ignore the question.

  “Absolutely,” Lex says. “I mean … I absolutely won’t say anything.”

  “Good.” Dad nods and looks over at me. “I would never send you to Monroe if I thought it would be an issue. The high school and the rec center are in the Third District—the nicer part of the Downs. It’s nothing like the war zone where I work in the First District.”

  It’s weird to hear him describe any part of the Downs as nice. I guess it seems that way if you compare the run-down projects, abandoned buildings, and streets lined with liquor stores in Dad’s district with the neighborhoods near Monroe.

  “People in one-D think I’m a car thief. If anyone finds out I’m a cop, I’ll have to walk away from my open cases and transfer to a district outside the Downs.”

  Most people hear the word undercover and automatically think of DEA agents in movies—the ones who have to disappear without telling anyone where they’re going and move into crappy apartments so they can infiltrate the mob or the Hells Angels. But that’s not the way it works for regular undercover cops like Dad.

  Obviously, he doesn’t wear a T-shirt that says I’M A COP. But he also doesn’t have to lie to the whole world about his job—just people who hang out in, or near, his district.

  “Frankie? You understand, too, right?” He sounds irritated. That’s what I get for ignoring his question the first time.

  “I’ve never told anyone about your job except Lex, Abel, and Noah. Why would I start now? Maybe you should lecture Mom. She still bitches about it to all her friends.”

  Dad sighs. “I’m not trying to give you a hard time. I’m just reminding you to be careful what you say.”

  “Consider me reminded.” I glare at him, and Dad turns to Lex.

  “Your parents don’t mind you driving Frankie to the rec center?”

  “They’re fine with it.” They probably have no idea. Lex’s parents are never around unless they need her to pose for press photos.

  “Does your father still have family in the Downs?” Dad asks.

  “Nope. The Senator moved everyone out as soon as he could afford it.” Lex refuses to call her father Dad. Instead, she calls him the Senator because she says he cares more about being the first Puerto Rican–American senator in the United States than about being a father.

  “I don’t blame him,” Dad says in his cop tone. “There’s a lot of crime. It’s a tough place for honest people to live. Make sure to keep the car doors locked while you’re driving.”

  “We know, Dad.”

  He continues issuing instructions. “Remember to leave your purse in the car when you get to the rec center. Just take your phone and some money. And I got you something.” Dad opens the hall closet and fishes around in the pocket of his jacket. He returns with something pink in his hand. A flashlight? And two pieces of orange plastic?

  Dad hands me the pink thing.

  I take a closer look at the canister. “Pink pepper spray?”

  “I think it’s cute,” Lex says.

  “Then you can have it.”

  “It’s pepper gel,” Dad explains. “The spray can blow back at you, but this stuff shoots wherever you aim the nozzle. And the gel really sticks.”

  “I’m not carrying that around.” I try to hand the canister back to him, but he won’t take it. “What if I set it off accidentally? I’m sure there’s a rule against bringing tear-inducing toxins to school.”

  “It has a safety, so it won’t go off unless you want it to. Keep it in your bag.” Dad points at the small black shoulder bag that already feels like the wrong choice.

  I shove the pepper gel inside. Otherwise, he’ll never l
eave me alone.

  “And you both need one of these.” Dad offers us each an orange piece of plastic.

  Lex grabs one.

  “It’s a rape whistle,” Dad says proudly.

  I saw that coming.

  She scrunches up her nose. “Umm … thanks.”

  I take mine and toss it in my army-green backpack.

  He scratches his head as if he’s forgetting something. “Wait inside the building until Lex gets there to pick you up.”

  And I won’t take any candy from strangers.

  “I’ll be on time, even if I have to speed,” Lex teases.

  Dad misses the joke. “Do you have a clean driving record?”

  “Except for a few parking tickets, but everyone has some of those, right?” She flashes him the perfect smile that you only end up with after four years of braces.

  “I don’t.” Dad walks over to the sliding glass door that leads to the balcony, and he looks down at the parking lot. “Is your Fiat a stick shift?”

  “Automatic,” Lex says. “Frankie is the only person I know who can drive a stick.”

  Because my dad suffers from undercover-cop paranoia and he forced me to learn in case of emergency.

  “One day you might need to drive a vehicle that isn’t an automatic,” he says.

  I know exactly where this conversation is going. “Enough, Dad.”

  “What if you’re alone and some lunatic grabs you off the street, and he drives a stick shift?” Dad asks, like it’s a perfectly normal question. “If there’s an opportunity to get away, you won’t be able to take advantage of it.”

  Lex stares at my father, dumbfounded. She has heard me recount enough of these stories to know he’s serious. Usually, he saves these questions for me.

  “You should learn,” Dad says. “If Frankie’s license wasn’t suspended, she could teach you.”

  My shoulders tense. I’m not letting him play his passive-aggressive games with me. “Is there something you want to say, Dad?”

  “Just stating a fact.” He stands his ground.

  “Why? So I won’t forget how badly I messed up my life?”

  Dad sighs. “I’m trying to help you, Frankie.” He isn’t apologizing or admitting he’s wrong.

  “I don’t want your help.” I push Lex toward the apartment door. Before I follow her out, I turn back to look him in the eye. “I’m sorry you lost your perfect daughter. But I’m the one you’re stuck with now.”

  CHAPTER 3

  LOT B

  Lex waves at Dad as she pulls out of the parking lot. “I know we’re angry at your father, but can I just say that he is still off-the-charts gorgeous?”

  “Are you serious right now?” I scrunch up my nose. “Because you’re one comment away from making me throw up in your car.”

  “What are best friends for if they don’t crush on your dad?”

  “Actually, I think your dad is pretty—”

  She pretends to gag. “Stop. New rule. Referring to the Senator as anything other than old and boring is a violation of BFC.”

  I’m surprised at how easily I fall back into my old routines with Lex. There’s something about knowing a person for most of your life that makes it impossible to un-know them. “You can’t pull Best Friend Code when you’re the one who brought up hot dads.”

  “Hot dad … singular. As in yours.” She flashes a mischievous smile. “Remind me again why your mom left him?”

  “Who knows why my mother does anything?”

  “I still can’t believe she went through with it and made you move in with your dad. She’s usually so full of crap.”

  Mom has always reigned supreme as the queen of empty threats … until now.

  I prop my feet on the glove compartment and hug my knees. “She even carried my bags up to Dad’s apartment. And Mom hates carrying things almost as much as she hates him.” I packed my stuff in black trash bags instead of suitcases to make her feel guilty, or at least to force my mother to haul around what looked like garbage. But it didn’t faze her. I’m not sure she noticed.

  I leave out that part of the story, and the lull in the conversation lasts too long.

  “Enough with the silence. I get plenty of that at home,” Lex says. “Back to your mom. How did she pull this off so fast? It’s only been a week since your DUI. Even the Senator would be impressed.”

  Fast is an understatement.

  It’s Wednesday morning. Seven days after I walked out of the police station with my parents and King Richard. The minute we got home, Mom told me to pack, like she couldn’t wait to get rid of me, while my piece-of-crap stepfather hovered in the hallway.

  Don’t get me wrong—I was happy to go. The Heights reminds me of Noah and my screwed-up memory.

  But Mom doesn’t know I feel that way. That would require an actual conversation—something she left to the army of doctors, shrinks, and hypnotists she hired to bring back the old Frankie. Recovering my memories so I could identify Noah’s killer and move on was never the real goal. Once I figured that out, I stopped talking to the shrinks. I’ll find a way to remember without her help.

  The next day, Mom drove me out of the Heights—our exclusive community in the Maryland suburbs outside Washington, DC—to Dad’s two-bedroom apartment in Westridge, a neighborhood full of townhouses and garden apartments, less than six miles away. But six miles feels like a hundred when a five-minute car ride can mean the difference between living in the Heights or in Section 8 housing.

  Mom left me on his doorstep with the garbage bags full of my stuff—like she had finally taken out the trash.

  “Frankie?” Lex sounds worried.

  I force a smile. “Sorry, I spaced. Dad is all over Project Reform Frankie, and it’s stressing me out. If things had worked out the way he planned, I would’ve started school yesterday. But according to Dad, a Dolly Parton look-alike in the office at Monroe refused to call Woodley for my immunization records. She told him to drive over there and get them himself.”

  “That’s Mrs. Lane. She doesn’t take crap from anybody. Couldn’t your dad get you out of community service?”

  If hell froze over.

  “In Dad’s universe, rules don’t bend. Everything is black or white. There is no gray.”

  Lex glances at my hands locked tight around my legs. “Nervous about your first day?”

  Anything is better than going back to Woodley. Not that it was an option. Mom met with the headmaster and begged him not to expel me and ruin my chance at getting into Stanford. But she wasn’t persuasive enough. Knowing Mom, she’s probably devastated.

  I’m relieved.

  The Stanford dream belonged to the old Frankie—a girl who learned how to spin the straw she was given into the gold everyone else wanted.

  The old Frankie played up her cute features with makeup tricks, hunted for jeans that made her boyish figure appear curvier, and adopted the style of her favorite fashion bloggers because she didn’t trust her own. At parties, lots of fake giggling and bathroom trips to flush vodka shots down the toilet allowed her to act cool without doing anything that could jeopardize the Plan. A nothing-special-but-cute-enough girl who landed the captain of the lacrosse team because he’d had a crush on her since they were kids.

  It’s hard to believe I was ever that girl.

  I lean against the headrest. “Monroe has to be an improvement.”

  “Was the first day at Woodley really that bad?”

  “It was basically the seventh circle of hell. People taped notes and cards all over Noah’s locker and left flowers and teddy bears on the floor in front of it.”

  “Woodley is full of attention whores. Getting kicked out of that place was a relief.” Lex has been expelled from four private schools in two years, beginning with Woodley—not easy to pull off when you’re the daughter of a senator. Lex takes pride in her academic rap sheet because every expulsion embarrasses her mother with her socialite friends.

  She turns onto Bellflower Parkway,
where the garden apartment complexes end and the nicest of the low-income developments in the Downs begin. Tan brick buildings with barred windows line the street, identical except for the collections of plastic high chairs, toys, and tricycles piled on the balconies.

  Monroe High is only a few blocks away, in the good section of a bad neighborhood. But barred windows are barred windows.

  Lex rakes her fingers through her hair, messing it up a little. “At least we’re finally at the same school again.”

  A few months ago I would’ve loved the idea. But now I just want to start over. As much as I love Lex, that’s harder to do with her around.

  She glances at me, her lips pressed together.

  Crap. That was my cue to act excited. I suck. “I know you have other friends at Monroe, Lex. I don’t expect you to hang out with me all the time.”

  A hint of disappointment flickers across her face. “If you keep dressing like that, I won’t. Your shirt looks like it came from the donation pile at the Salvation Army.”

  I used to waste hours shopping. Not anymore. “Think of it as my attempt to fit in.”

  She eyes my frayed white button-down and faded skinny jeans. “With who? Meth heads? Are you trying to ruin my carefully crafted image at Monroe?”

  Lex reinvents herself whenever she switches schools. Judging by her smudged eye liner and the combo of skinny jeans and kitten heels, she has rocker chic nailed.

  “So what did you go with this time?” I ask. “Rich and Misunderstood Hottie? Or Unattainable New Girl Who Doesn’t Give a Shit?”

  She gives me a mischievous smile. “Scandalous Bad Girl with a Secret. A triple threat.”

  “I guess that makes me Screwed-Up Girl with Secrets She Can’t Remember.”

  Her smile vanishes. “You can’t change the past.”

  Not if you can’t remember it.

  Lex pulls into the parking lot. “A new school is a clean slate.”

  “I hope so.”

  Instead of tennis courts and a swimming pool, Monroe has DRUG-FREE ZONE signs posted every ten feet and temporary classrooms that look like orange shipping containers on the front lawn.

  “Are you ready for this?” Lex asks.

 

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