Circus of the Damned abvh-3

by Laurell Hamilton

  “Gee, thanks, Sarge,” he muttered.

  I almost let it go, but I couldn’t. “I’m the only one with silver ammo. I should have point,” I said.

  “You’re a civvie, Anita,” Dolph said.

  “I haven’t been a civvie for years and you know it.”

  He looked at me for a long second, then nodded. “Take point, but if you get killed, my ass is grass.”

  I smiled. “I’ll try to remember that.”

  I stepped out in front, a little ahead of the others. They formed a rough circle behind me. Zerbrowski gave me a thumbs-up sign. It made me smile. Dolph gave the barest of nods. It was time to go inside. Time to stalk the monster.

  Chapter 17

  The walls were two-tone green. Dark khaki on the bottom, puke green on top. Institutional green, as charming as a sore tooth. Huge steam pipes, higher than my head, covered the walls. The pipes were painted green, too. They narrowed the hallway to a thin passageway.

  Electrical conduit pipes were a thinner silver shadow to the steam pipes. Hard to put electricity in a building never designed for it.

  The walls were lumpy where they’d been painted over without being scraped first. If you dug at the walls, layer after layer of different color would come up, like the strata in an archaeological dig. Each color had its own history, its own memories of pain.

  It was like being in the belly of a great ship. Except instead of the roar of engines, you had the beat of nearly perfect silence. There are some places where silence hangs in heavy folds. St. Louis City Hospital was one of those places.

  If I’d been superstitious, which I am not, I would have said the hospital was the perfect place for ghosts. There are different kinds of ghosts. The regular kind are spirits of the dead left behind when they should have gone to Heaven or Hell. Theologians had been arguing over what the existence of ghosts meant for God and the church for centuries. I don’t think God is particularly bothered by it, but the church is.

  Enough people had died in this place to make it thick with real ghosts, but I’d never seen any personally. Until a ghost wraps its cold arms around me, I’d just as soon not believe in it.

  But there is another kind of ghost. Psychic impressions, strong emotions, soak into the walls and floors of a building. It’s like an emotional tape recorder. Sometimes with video images, sometimes just sound, sometimes just a shiver down your spine when you walk over a certain spot.

  The old hospital was thick with shivery places. I personally had never seen or heard anything, but walking down the hallway you knew somewhere, near at hand, there was something. Something waiting just out of sight, just out of hearing, just out of reach. Tonight it was probably a vampire.

  The only sounds were the scrape of feet, the brush of cloth, us moving. There was no other sound. When it’s really quiet you start hearing things even if it’s just the buzz of your own blood pounding in your ears.

  The first corner loomed before me. I was point. I’d volunteered to be point. I had to go around the corner first. Whatever lay around the bend, it was mine. I hate it when I play hero.

  I went down on one knee, gun held in both hands, pointing up. It didn’t do any good to stick my gun around the corner first. I couldn’t shoot what I couldn’t see. There are a variety of ways to go around blind corners, none of them foolproof. It mostly matters whether you’re more afraid of getting shot or getting grabbed. Since this was a vampire I was more worried about being grabbed and having my throat ripped out.

  I pressed my right shoulder against the wall, took a deep breath, and threw myself forward. I didn’t do a neat shoulder roll into the hallway. I just sort of fell on my left side with the gun held two-handed out in front of me. Trust me, this is the fastest way to be able to aim around a corner. I wouldn’t necessarily advise it if the monsters were shooting back.

  I lay in the hallway, heart pounding in my ears. The good news was there was no vampire. The bad news was that there was a body.

  I came up to one knee, still searching the shadowed hallway for hints of movement. Sometimes with a vampire you don’t see anything, you don’t even hear it, you feel it in your shoulders and back, the fine hairs on the back of your neck. Your body responds to rhythms older than thought. In fact, thinking instead of doing can get you dead.

  “It’s clear,” I said. I was still kneeling in the middle of the hallway, gun out, ready for bear.

  “You through rolling around on the floor?” Dolph asked.

  I glanced at him, then back to the hallway. There was nothing there. It was all right. Really.

  The body was wearing a pale blue uniform. A gold and black patch on the sleeve said “Security.” The man’s hair was white. Heavy jowls, a thick nose, his eyelashes like grey lace against his pale cheeks. His throat was just so much raw meat. The spine glistened wetly in the overhead lights. Blood splashed the green walls like a macabre Christmas card.

  There was a gun in the man’s right hand. I put my back to the left-hand wall and watched the corridor to either side until the corners cut my view. Let the police investigate the body. My job tonight was to keep us alive.

  Dolph crouched beside the body. He leaned forward, doing a sort of push-up to bring his face close to the gun. “It’s been fired.”

  “I don’t smell any powder near the body,” I said. I didn’t look at Dolph when I said it. I was too busy watching the corridor for movement.

  “The gun’s been fired,” he said. His voice sounded rough, clogged.

  I glanced down at him. His shoulders were stiff, his body rigid with some kind of pain.

  “You know him, don’t you?” I said.

  Dolph nodded. “Jimmy Dugan. He was my partner for a few months when I was younger than you are. He retired and couldn’t make it on the pension, so he got a job here.” Dolph shook his head. “Shit.”

  What could I say? “I’m sorry” didn’t cut it. “I’m sorry as hell” was a little better but it still wasn’t enough. Nothing I could think of to say was adequate. Nothing I could do would make it better. So I stood there in the blood-spattered hall and did nothing, said nothing.

  Zerbrowski knelt beside Dolph. He put a hand on his arm. Dolph looked up. There was a flash of some strong emotion in his eyes; anger, pain, sadness. All the above, none of the above. I stared down at the dead man, gun still clasped tight in his hand, and thought of something useful to say.

  “Do they give the guards here silver bullets?”

  Dolph glanced up at me. No guessing this time; it was anger. “Why?”

  “The guards should have silver bullets. One of you take it, and we’ll have two guns with silver bullets.”

  Dolph just stared at the gun. “Zerbrowski.”

  Zerbrowski took the gun gently, as if afraid of waking the man. But this vampire victim wasn’t going to rise. His head lolled to one side, muscles and tendons snapped. It looked like somebody had scooped out the meat and skin around his spine with a big spoon.

  Zerbrowski checked the cylinder. “Silver.” He rolled the cylinder into the revolver and stood up, gun in his right hand. The shotgun he held loosely in his left hand.

  “Extra ammo?” I asked.

  Zerbrowski started to kneel back down, but Dolph shook his head. He searched the dead man. His hands were candy-coated in blood when he was done. He tried to wipe the drying blood onto a white handkerchief but the blood stained the lines in his hands, gathered around his fingernails. Only soap and scrubbing would get it off.

  He said, softly, “Sorry, Jimmy.” He still didn’t cry. I would have cried. But then, women have more chemicals in their tear ducts. It makes us tear up easier than men. Honest.

  “No extra ammo. Guess Jimmy thought five’d be enough for some dumb-ass security job.” His voice was warm with anger. Anger was better than crying. If you can manage it.

  I kept checking the corridor, but my eyes kept going to the dead man. He was dead because I hadn’t done my job. If I hadn’t told the ambulance drivers that the
body was safe, they’d have put him in the vault, and Jimmy Dugan wouldn’t have died.

  I hate it when things are my fault.

  “Go,” Dolph said.

  I took the lead. There was another corner. I did my little kneel-and-roll routine again. I lay half on my side, gun pointed two-handed down the hallway. Nothing moved in the long, green hallway. There was something lying in the floor. I saw the lower part of the guard first. Legs in pale blue, blood drenched pants. A head with a long brown ponytail lay to one side of the body like a forgotten lump of meat.

  I got to my feet, gun still hovering, looking for something to aim at. Nothing moved except the blood that was still dripping down the walls. The blood dripped slowly like rain at the end of the day, thickening, congealing as it moved.

  “‘Jesus!” I wasn’t sure which uniform said it, but I agreed.

  The upper body had been ripped apart as if the vampire had plunged both hands into her chest and pulled. Her spine had shattered like Tinkertoys. Gobbets of flesh, blood, and bone sprinkled the hallway like gruesome flower petals.

  I could taste bile at the back of my throat. I breathed through my mouth in deep, even breaths. Mistake. The air tasted like blood—thick, warm, faintly salty. There was an underlying sourness where the upper intestine and stomach had been broken open. Fresh death smells like a cross between a slaughterhouse and an outhouse. Shit and blood is what death smells like.

  Zerbrowski was scanning the hallway, borrowed gun in hand. He had four bullets. I had thirteen, plus an extra clip in my sport bag. Where was the second guard’s gun?

  “Where’s her gun?” I asked.

  Zerbrowski’s eyes flicked to me, then to the corpse, then back to scanning the hallway. “I don’t see it.”

  I’d never met a vampire that used a gun, but there was always a first time. “Dolph, where’s the guard’s gun?”

  Dolph knelt in the blood and tried to search the body. He moved the bloody flesh and pieces of cloth around, like you’d stir it with a spoon. Once the sight would have made me lose my lunch, but it didn’t anymore. Was it a bad sign that I didn’t throw up on the corpses anymore? Maybe.

  “Spread out, look for the gun,” Dolph said.

  The four uniforms spread out and searched. The blond was pasty and swallowed convulsively, but he was making it. Good for him. It was the tall one with the prominent Adam’s apple that broke first. He slid on a piece of meat that set him down hard on his butt in a pool of congealed blood. He scrambled to his knees and vomited against the wall.

  I was breathing quick, shallow breaths. The blood and carnage hadn’t been enough, but the sound of someone else throwing up just might be.

  I pressed my shoulders into the wall and moved towards the next corner. I will not throw up. I will not throw up. Oh, God, please don’t let me throw up. Have you ever tried to aim a gun while throwing your guts up? It’s damn near impossible. You’re helpless until you’re finished. After seeing the guards, I didn’t want to be helpless.

  The blond cop was leaning against the wall. His face was shiny with a sick sweat. He looked at me and I could read it in his eyes. “Don’t,” I whispered, “please don’t.”

  The rookie fell to his knees and that was it. I lost everything I’d eaten that day. At least I didn’t throw up on the corpse. I’d done that once, and Zerbrowski had never let me live it down. On that particular case, the complaint was that I’d tampered with evidence.

  If I’d been the vampire, I would have come then while half of us were vomiting our guts out. But nothing slithered around the corner. Nothing came screaming out of the darkness. Lucky us.

  “If you’re all done,” Dolph said, “we need to find her gun and what did this.”

  I wiped my mouth on the sleeve of my coveralls. I was sweating, but there hadn’t been time to take them off. My black Nikes stuck to the floor with little squeech sounds. There was blood on the bottom of my shoes. Maybe the coverall wasn’t such a bad idea.

  What I wanted was a cool cloth. What I got was to continue down the green hallway, making little bloody footprints behind me. I scanned the floor and there it was, footprints going away from the body, back down the hall towards the first guard.

  “Dolph?”

  “I see them,” he said.

  The faint footprints walked through the carnage and down the corner, away from us. Away sounded good, but I knew better. We were here to get up close and personal. Dammit.

  Dolph knelt by the largest piece of the body. “Anita.”

  I walked over to him, avoiding the bloody footprints. Never step on clues. The police don’t like it.

  Dolph pointed at a blackened piece of cloth. I knelt carefully, glad that I was still in my overalls. I could kneel in all the blood I wanted without messing my clothes. Always prepared, like a good Boy Scout.

  The woman’s shirt was charred and blackened. Dolph touched the material with the tip of his pencil. The cloth flaked in heavy layers, cracking like stale bread. Dolph poked a hole through one of the layers. It crumbled. A burst of ash and a sharp acrid smell came up from the body.

  “What the hell happened to her?” Dolph asked.

  I swallowed, still tasting vomit at the back of my throat. This wasn’t helping. “It’s not cloth.”

  “What is it, then?”

  “Flesh.”

  Dolph just looked at me. He held the pencil like it might break. “You’re serious.”

  “Third-degree burn,” I said.

  “What caused this?”

  “Can I borrow your pencil?” I asked.

  He handed it to me without a word.

  I dug at what was left of her chest. The flesh was so badly fried that her shirt melted into it. I pushed the layers aside, digging downward with the pencil. The body felt horribly light, and crisp like the burned skin of a chicken. When I’d plunged half the length of the pencil into the burn, I touched something solid. I used the pencil to pry it upward. When it was almost at the surface I put fingers inside the hole and pulled a lump of twisted metal from the burned flesh.

  “What is it?” Dolph asked.

  “It’s what’s left of her cross.”

  “No,” he said.

  The lump of melted silver glinted through the black ash. “This was her cross, Dolph. It melted into her chest, caught her clothing on fire. What I don’t understand is why the vampire kept contact with the burning metal. The vampire should be nearly as burned as she is, but it’s not here.”

  “Explain that,” he said.

  “Animalistic vampires are like PCP addicts. They don’t feel pain. I think the vampire crushed her to his chest, the cross touched him, burst into flames. and the vampire stayed against her, tearing her apart while they burned. Against any normal vampire, she would have been safe.”

  “So crosses can’t stop this one,” he said.

  I stared at the lump of metal. “Apparently not.”

  The four uniforms were looking at the dim hallway, a little frantically. They hadn’t bargained on the crosses not working. Neither had I. The bit about not feeling pain had been a small footnote to one article. No one had theorized that that would mean crosses didn’t protect you. If I survived, I’d have to work up a little article for the Vampire Quarterly. Crosses melting into flesh, wowee.

  Dolph stood up. “Keep together, people.”

  “The crosses don’t work,” one uniform said. “We gotta go back and wait for special teams.”

  Dolph just looked at him. “You can go back if you want to.” He glanced down at the dead guard. “It’s volunteer only. The rest of you go back outside and wait for special teams.”

  The tall one nodded and touched his partner’s arm. His partner swallowed hard, his eyes flicking to Dolph, then to the guard’s crispy-crittered body. He let his partner drag him away down the hall. Back to safety and sanity. Wouldn’t it have been nice if we all could have gone? But we couldn’t let something like this escape. Even if I hadn’t had an order of execution. we woul
d have had to kill it, rather than take the risk of letting it get outside.

  “What about you and the rookie?” Dolph asked the black cop.

  “I’ve never run from the monsters. He’s free to go back with the others.”

  The blond shook his head, gun in hand, fingers mottled with tension. “I’m staying.”

  The black cop gave him a smile that meant more than words. He’d made a man’s choice. Or would that be a mature person’s choice? Whatever, he was staying.

  “One more corner and the vault should be in sight,” I said.

  Dolph glanced at the last corner. His eyes met mine and I shrugged. I didn’t know what was going to be around the corner. This vampire was doing things that I would have said were impossible. The rules had been changed, and not in our favor.

  I hesitated on the wall farthest from the corner. I pushed my back into the wall and slid slowly into sight, around the corner. I was staring down a short, straight hallway. There was a gun lying in the middle of the floor. The second guard’s gun? Maybe. On the left-hand wall there should have been a big steel door with crosses hanging on it. The steel had exploded outward in a twisted silver mess. They’d put the body in the vault after all. I hadn’t gotten the guards killed. They should have been safe. Nothing moved. There was no light in the vault. It was just a blasted darkness. If there was a vampire waiting in the room, I couldn’t see it. Of course, I wasn’t all that close, either. Close did not seem to be a good idea.

  “Clear, as far as I can see,” I said.

  “You don’t sound sure,” Dolph said.

  “I’m not,” I said. “Peek around the corner at what’s left of the vault.”

  He didn’t peek, but he looked. He let out a soft whistle. Zerbrowski said, “Je-sus.”

  I nodded. “Yeah.”

  “Is it in there?” Dolph asked.

  “I think so.”

  “You’re our expert. Why don’t you sound sure?” Dolph asked.

  “If you would have asked me if a vampire could plow through five feet of silver-steel with crosses hung all over the damn place, I’d have said no way.” I stared into the black hole. “But there it is.”