by Beth Hoyer
I have been thirsty while sleeping. I figured I could get a drink of water from the bottle in my sleep instead of waking up and getting a drink of water.
Feeling Lousy,
Elizabeth
April 3, 2101
Dear Anne,
I woke up at 3am in the morning. I threw up in my wastebasket. Must be something I ate. Then I went back to sleep. I had a weird dream about me getting up to change clothes. It’s the second night in a row I had that dream. The clothes are summer clothes. What’s with the summer clothes? It is weird. I noticed one thing. I was in a room that had southwestern drawings on the wall. It's like Arizona or New Mexico. I recall looking out the window and seeing cactuses and plants as far as the eye could see. I also could see mountains out of rocks.
I dreamed I wrote the words "I'm in New Mexico."
Very weird, I want to complain some things about my job. The customers were nice but their messy. I’m getting sick of it. After work I think I’ll walk to the community center and ask Jayna about teaching a class. I hope she got news. I’m getting sick of the job. Sue is lucky she doesn’t have to work. I checked the schedule. I have two days in a row off. I’m glad. It’ll give me some time to rest my back. It hurts. After work I walked to the community center. Jayna was disgusted with me. I could tell by her face that she didn't want to help me. I asked her about Sue teaching a class in drawing or sign language. Jayna told me several people asked her about a sign language class. She added she’ll find out. I walked home. At home I found Sue asleep in her room. I asked the computer if she eaten or not. The computer confirmed she eaten. The computer is a nice invention. I like it. Victoria and Demeter are in the kitchen hanging around their food bowls. I checked the machine. It fed them at 7am. I went to ask Sue if she fed them but couldn’t because she was asleep. I fed the cats. They ate it fast. They must be hungry. The computer confirmed they weren’t fed at 12pm. Humph Sue. She must have forgotten.
I felt much better. My back felt a little sore. I went downstairs and found Sue on the videophone. She was talking to Sean. I ate my breakfast. Then I wandered in the basement. Victoria and Demeter came with me. I left the door open. They followed me in the basement. I watched them play in the empty boxes. They would sit and peer out at me. Cute. I feel like laughing. Haha. I looked through the boxes. Most were empty. I put the empty boxes in one corner of the basement room. The boxes that were filled with stuff I put in another corner. There were videos. Several boxes had items I didn’t recognize. I put them in another corner. Then I went upstairs. The kittens followed me upstairs. I found the basement door locked and had to pound on it. Sue opened it with a surprised look on her face but knowing her it was faked. Then I went to cook lunch. I had goo that tasted like French fries and fish sticks in the oven. I told Sue about them. She told me she wasn’t hungry. I told her she must eat for the baby. She rolled her eyes and seemed disgusted.
I recognized the look as if "Oh great she's telling me what to do."
When the goo was ready she ate with me. We ate in silence. Then she went to her room to draw. I watched a movie about the making of my favorite TV show. There’s a new series. I have been watching it nearly every night. I have videotapes of the series.
I went out for a walk and wound up in the hospital. Let me start at the beginning. I went out for a walk. I brought my journal in a small bag. I wanted to write out. I put on my cloak which was bright red. I couldn’t find my black cloak at all. Then I walked around the neighbor hood. I saw Jayna driving in her flying car. She aimed it at me. She tried to run me down. I hit the ground and rolled. I felt pain in my left arm or wrist like it was a needle shot. I hit the ground and stayed down. I watched Jayna drive away. Bruce came out of his house. He ran to me. He told me he videotaped Jayna shooting me and trying to run me down. The ambulance took me to the hospital. I was knocked out. I woke up with my left arm in a cast. A doctor with Lad interpreting told me I was shot with a bullet that entered my left arm around the wrist area. It aggravated an injury to the area. Bruce was there looking concerned. He was upset. The doctor left me. Bruce told me Jayna was arrested. She’ll be tried in court tomorrow. Lucky I still have my journal. A nurse came and told the Arkovs visiting hours was 4pm to 5pm and 7pm to 8pm.They left me. As for my diary I think someone may have read it. It looked a little used. I think my privacy was violated. I hope I go home tomorrow. I hate hospitals. The beds are uncomfortable and there’s no privacy from the nurses who keep coming in my room to shine a flashlight in my eyes. I hope Sue comes to visit me. I tried to sleep. A nurse came in my room and left the door open. The hallway light kept me awake. My eyes are light sensitive. I have to keep my room completely dark so I can sleep. I had to get up and close the door. My left arm hurts. It hurts badly. I can’t sleep. There’s no TV to watch. I got up and felt dizzy and decided to stay in bed. I’m glad I have my journal with me. I can record my thoughts. I think I’ll try to sleep now. Good night.
Hurting,
Lizzie
April 4, 2101
Dear Anne,
I was waked up by a laughing nurse at an early hour. I didn’t sleep well due to that nurse who kept waking me up like it was a game. The bed was hard. The nurse checked my blood pressure. I got up and felt a little dizzy but I walked around. The hospital is like the hospital I visited Sue. I discovered I was in the depression ward. I asked a nurse why. The nurse told me in finger spelling that people who received bullet wounds get depressed. I don’t feel depressed. I feel angry. I had breakfast. A nurse gave me pills to take. I can’t wait to go home. I’m bored. I hope Sue will visit me. It’ll be nice to have company. I feel tired and dizzy. I went back to sleep. Bruce woke me up by kissing me on the lips. He brought me a bag of clothes. I was wearing a crew necked nightgown that I felt a gagging sensation. Bruce stayed with me well pass 5pm. A nurse had to tell him to go home. I had a hard time signing with my left arm. It hurts. I was happy to see Bruce. We talked about Jayna. She was found guilty of trying to run me down and shooting me. I was surprised about that because I didn't come in court to testify. I asked Bruce what the camera looks like. He told me he’d bring a camera with him to take pictures. I was sad to see Bruce leave. It was great to see him. A nurse came in my room and told me its dinnertime. I changed my clothes. Then I went to eat dinner. The TV doesn’t have closed captions. I felt a little dizzy so I went back to bed. I felt someone shaking me and waked me up. It was Sue who looked annoyed. She came in a wheelchair. It was great to see her. She brought along some books for me to read. The books were of the new series on TV. I liked them. She stayed for an hour. We talked about my hospital stay. My left arm hurt from signing. So we talked with Sue signing. She understands me very well. After that Sue wheeled herself out of my room. I have awhile before I go to bed. I’m feeling fine. I can’t wait to get out of the hospital. I hate it here. I guess I’ll probably miss work. I get free shampoo, brush, and toothpaste. I also got free towels. I hid my diary in my pillowcase. I came out to see a nurse reading it. It was very rude of her. She was practically laughing at what I wrote in the journal. She kept laughing as she handed it to me and left the room. I’m annoyed and embarrassed. I felt my privacy was violated. I can’t wait to get out of the hospital. I was going crazy here. I hope the nurse keep the door closed this time. I left a note on the door.
"Please keep door closed. I'm trying to sleep."
Violated,
Elizabeth
April 5, 2101
Dear Anne,
I did not having a good time sleeping. The nurse ignored my note on the door. I don’t have a roommate. I’m annoyed, I ‘m not sleeping well. I moved to the other bed near the window and I slept okay. I can’t wait to get out of the hospital. The nurse woke me up by shaking me. She told me it was time to get up and eat breakfast. I hid this diary in my tights. By the way the nurse wasn’t surprised to see me in the other bed. She suspected it. I hope I go home today. I’m sick of the hospital. I’m surprised that they have orange juic
e here. They don’t have a computer. I’m bored. The TV doesn’t have closed captions. I complained to a nurse. She had a look of disgust on her face. I think she’s a perfectionist. I can’t wait to go home. I asked the same nurse when I go home. She told me today. I can’t wait. I’m excited. I went to my room to take a nap. Bruce waked me up. He kissed me on the lips. I packed my stuff in a bag. Once again I was blindfolded and I was led what appeared to be an elevator that went up. Then through an area that had smoke which made me cough and some very hot heated areas. I feel like they were hallways. Then the blind fold was taken off and I was sitting in a flying car with Bruce driving us home with Lad in the front seat. Looking out the window there was the usual fog again too. At home it was great to see Sue. She looked bigger. She complained of feeling nausea. It was great to be home. I hugged the kittens. Victoria didn’t mind being held. Demeter didn’t like being held. I washed my clothes in the washing machine in the basement downstairs. I saw Sue. She was walking in the house getting some exercise. I went to the computer. I checked online my websites. I got nice comments from people in
