You Drive Me Crazy

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by Mary D. Esselman


  And being diehard romantics despite our efforts to appear jaded and cynical, we hope that clarity does find you back in love or on your way there again. We hope you share the contentment of the speaker in Amy Lowell's “Decade,” who, ten years into her relationship, feels that her mate leaves her “completely nourished.”

  Actually, we hope for even more than that. Yes, it's very nice if your partner is like your “morning bread,” “smooth and pleasant.” It's very “Stability,” and stability is a fine place to be in love. But hey, come on, if he used to burn your mouth with his sweetness, if he used to taste like “red wine and honey,” well, wouldn't it be great to be nourished and to have all that rich flavor bursting back?

  Wouldn't it be even more wonderful to have that contented nourishment and the naughty, teasing, hungry deliciousness described in William Carlos Williams's “This Is Just to Say”? The speaker in that poem willy-nilly dares to eat his lover's luscious plums, even though he knows she is saving them for something practical, like breakfast. He doesn't care. He can't help himself. He wants those sweet, cold plums! (which, in case you can't tell, we think symbolize his lover's sexuality). And he knows she'll be charmed by his funny, careless “this is just to say” approach. This is the kind of mate we want after a decade (or longer, or less) of long-term commitment—someone who knows and cares for us intimately but not solemnly, someone who still remembers how to be playfully provocative.

  Yes, we're venturing back into ecstasy territory; we know it. Like the speaker in the Williams poem, we just can't help it. We want everyone to be happy in love, despite all its ups and downs or maybe even because of them. Real love can whirl you from the glory of ecstasy into the hell of misery and back again, but that's just how it goes in real life, and aren't we lucky to be part of that dance?

  So as you emerge from clarity, no matter where your heart is headed next, be grateful for the chance to love. As Wallace Stevens seems to be saying in his poem “Life Is Motion,” love gives life momentum, helps us move forward, and allows us to be both flesh and air—to be physically grounded on earth but emotionally lifted to the heavens. So get crazy in love. Let yourself swing around like Bonnie and Josie in Stevens's poem, crying, “‘Ohoyaho,/Ohoo’…/ Celebrating the marriage/Of flesh and air.”

  Mary Bly

  I sit here, doing nothing, alone, worn out by long winter.

  I feel the light breath of the newborn child.

  Her face is smooth as the side of an apricot,

  Eyes quick as her blond mother's hands.

  She has full, soft, red hair, and as she lies quiet

  In her tall mother's arms, her delicate hands

  Weave back and forth.

  I feel the seasons changing beneath me,

  Under the floor.

  She is braiding the waters of air into the plaited manes

  Of happy colts.

  They canter, without making a sound, along the shores

  Of melting snow.

  JAMES WRIGHT

  Excerpt from “The Ivy Crown”

  At our age the imagination

  across the sorry facts

  lifts us

  to make roses

  stand before thorns.

  Sure

  love is cruel

  and selfish

  and totally obtuse—

  at least, blinded by the light,

  young love is.

  But we are older,

  I to love

  and you to be loved,

  we have,

  no matter how,

  by our wills survived

  to keep

  the jeweled prize

  always

  at our finger tips.

  We will it so

  and so it is

  past all accident.

  WILLIAM CARLOS WILLIAMS

  Habitation

  Marriage is not

  a house or even a tent

  it is before that, and colder:

  the edge of the forest, the edge

  of the desert

  the unpainted stairs

  at the back where we squat

  outside, eating popcorn

  the edge of the receding glacier

  where painfully and with wonder

  at having survived even

  this far

  we are learning to make fire

  MARGARET ATWOOD

  Animals

  Have you forgotten what we were like then

  when we were still first rate

  and the day came fat with an apple in its mouth

  it's no use worrying about Time

  but we did have a few tricks up our sleeves

  and turned some sharp corners

  the whole pasture looked like our meal

  we didn't need speedometers

  we could manage cocktails out of ice and water

  I wouldn't want to be faster

  or greener than now if you were with me O you

  were the best of all my days

  FRANK O'HARA

  Earthly Love

  Conventions of the time

  held them together.

  It was a period

  (very long) in which

  the heart once given freely

  was required, as a formal gesture,

  to forfeit liberty: a consecration

  at once moving and hopelessly doomed.

  As to ourselves:

  fortunately we diverged

  from these requirements,

  as I reminded myself

  when my life shattered.

  So that what we had for so long

  was, more or less,

  voluntary, alive.

  And only long afterward

  did I begin to think otherwise.

  We are all human—

  we protect ourselves

  as well as we can

  even to the point of denying

  clarity, the point

  of self-deception. As in

  the consecration to which I alluded.

  And yet, within this deception,

  true happiness occurred.

  So that I believe I would

  repeat these errors exactly.

  Nor does it seem to me

  crucial to know

  whether or not such happiness

  is built on illusion:

  it has its own reality.

  And in either case, it will end.

  LOUISE GLÜCK

  The Journey

  Anghiari is medieval, a sleeve sloping down

  A steep hill, suddenly sweeping out

  To the edge of a cliff, and dwindling.

  But far up the mountain, behind the town,

  We too were swept out, out by the wind,

  Alone with the Tuscan grass.

  Wind had been blowing across the hills

  For days, and everything now was graying gold

  With dust, everything we saw, even

  Some small children scampering along a road,

  Twittering Italian to a small caged bird.

  We sat beside them to rest in some brushwood,

  And I leaned down to rinse the dust from my face.

  I found the spider web there, whose hinges

  Reeled heavily and crazily with the dust,

  Whole mounds and cemeteries of it, sagging

  And scattering shadows among shells and wings.

  And then she stepped into the center of air

  Slender and fastidious, the golden hair

  Of daylight along her shoulders, she poised there,

  While ruins crumbled on every side of her.

  Free of the dust, as though a moment before

  She had stepped inside the earth, to bathe herself.

  I gazed, close to her, till at last she stepped

  Away in her own good time.

  Many men

  Have searched all over Tuscany and never found

  What I found there, the heart
of the light

  Itself shelled and leaved, balancing

  On filaments themselves falling. The secret

  Of this journey is to let the wind

  Blow its dust all over your body,

  To let it go on blowing, to step lightly, lightly

  All the way through your ruins, and not to lose

  Any sleep over the dead, who surely

  Will bury their own, don't worry.

  JAMES WRIGHT

  Three Times My Life Has Opened

  Three times my life has opened.

  Once, into darkness and rain.

  Once, into what the body carries at all times within it and starts

  to remember each time it enters the act of love.

  Once, to the fire that holds all.

  These three were not different.

  You will recognize what I am saying or you will not.

  But outside my window all day a maple has stepped from her leaves

  like a woman in love with winter, dropping the colored silks.

  Neither are we different in what we know.

  There is a door. It opens. Then it is closed. But a slip of light

  stays, like a scrap of unreadable paper left on the floor,

  or the one red leaf the snow releases in March.

  JANE HIRSHFIELD

  Decade

  When you came, you were like red wine and honey,

  And the taste of you burnt my mouth with its sweetness.

  Now you are like morning bread,

  Smooth and pleasant.

  I hardly taste you at all for I know your savour,

  But I am completely nourished.

  AMY LOWELL

  This Is Just to Say

  I have eaten

  the plums

  that were in

  the icebox

  and which

  you were probably

  saving

  for breakfast

  Forgive me

  they were delicious

  so sweet

  and so cold

  WILLIAM CARLOS WILLIAMS

  Life Is Motion

  In Oklahoma,

  Bonnie and Josie,

  Dressed in calico,

  Danced around a stump.

  They cried,

  ‘Ohoyaho,

  Ohoo’…

  Celebrating the marriage

  Of flesh and air.

  WALLACE STEVENS

  Biographies of Contributors

  ANNA AKHMATOVA (1889–1966): Russian lyric poet whose work includes Evening, Rosary, and White Flock.

  MARGARET ATWOOD (1939–): Canadian novelist and poet. Her second book of poetry, The Circle Game, won the Governor General's Award in 1966. She lives and writes in Toronto.

  BHARTRHARI (570–651): Hindu philosopher and poet-grammarian, author of the Vakyapadiya (“Words in a Sentence”), regarded as one of the most significant works on the philosophy of language.

  KATE BINGHAM: Her first novel, Mummy 's Legs, received an Eric Gregory Award from the Society of Authors. She lives in London.

  ELIZABETH BISHOP (1911–79): Highly regarded American poet who won every major poetry award in the United States, including the Pulitzer Prize and the National Book Award. She served as chancellor of the Academy of American Poets from 1966 until 1979.

  LOUISE BOGAN (1897–1970): Influential American poet who won the Bolligen Prize in 1955. She wrote poetry criticism for The New Yorker magazine for thirty-eight years.

  CAROLYN CREEDON (1969–): Creedon's poems have been included in the Best American Poetry series. She is currently an Ada Comstock Scholar at Smith College.

  E. E. CUMMINGS (1894–1962): Influential American poet know for his experimental, playful style.

  SILVIA CURBELO (1955–): Cuban-born poet who now lives in Tampa, Florida. She is the author of two collections of poetry, The Secret History of Water (Anhinga Press) and The Geography of Leaving ( S i l v e r f i s h Review Press).

  EMILY DICKINSON (1830–86): One of the nineteenth century's greatest poets, Dickinson lived quietly at home in Amherst, Massachusetts, with her lawyer father. Only seven of her approximately one thousand poems were published during her lifetime.

  JOHN DONNE (1572–1631): British author of religious poems and essays as well as erotic love poetry.

  MARK DOTY (1953–): Contemporary American poet who has won the National Book Critics Circle Award and the T. S. Eliot Prize. His most recent work is Murano: Poem. He lives in New York City.

  GAVIN EWART (1916–1995): British comic poet, his works include The Young Pebble's Guide to His Toes. He also edited the Penguin Book of Light Verse.

  LOUISE GLÜCK (1943–): Former poet laureate of the United States, whose collections have won both the Pulitzer Prize (1992) and the National Book Critics Circle Award (1985).

  DONALD HALL (1928–): Born in New Haven, Connecticut, Hall was a National Book Award Nominee in 1956 and 1979. He lives in New Hampshire.

  JANE HIRSHFIELD (1953–): American poet who studied at the San Francisco Zen Center for eight years. She has translated several collections of Japanese poetry. Her latest works include The October Palace, The Lives of the Heart, and Given Sugar, Given Salt.

  SAM HOLTZAPPLE (1965–) lives and writes in New York City.

  MARIE HOWE (1950–): American poet and editor who currently teaches at Columbia University. Her poetry collection The Good Thief (1988) was chosen for the National Poetry series by Margaret Atwood.

  LANGSTON HUGHES (1902–67): The most important writer of the Harlem Renaissance, he published ten books of poetry, including Montage of A Dream Deferred. He lived in New York City.

  JANE KENYON (1947–95): She published four volumes of poetry, including Constance (1993). She lived at Eagle Pond Farm in New Hampshire until she died of leukemia in 1995.

  ETHERIDGE KNIGHT (1931–1991): Knight began writing poetry while he was incarcerated at Indiana State Prison. His book Poems from Prison received great critical acclaim in the United States.

  KIM KONOPKA lives in New Mexico and France. Currently she is living in Bordeaux, where she works as an art model, repairs Harley Davidson motorcycles, and is writing her first novel.

  PHILIP LARKIN (1922–85): Highly influential British poet whose collections of poetry include The Less Deceived and High Window.

  JAMES LAUGHLIN (1914–1997): American poet and publisher. He founded the publishing house New Directions, through which he released some of the best experimental and avant-garde writing of the past fifty years.

  DORIANNE LAUX (1952–): Born in Augusta, Maine, Laux has been widely anthologized and received the Pushcart Prize in 1986. She lives in Eugene, Oregon, where she teaches creative writing at the University of Oregon.

  LI-YOUNG LEE (1944–): Chinese American poet who was born in Indonesia. He is the author of The City in Which I Love You and Book of My Nights.

  ROBERT LOPEZ (1975–) and JEFF MARX (1970–): New York composers and lyricists who rocketed to fame for their Tony Award–winning Broadway musical, Avenue Q.

  AMY LOWELL (1874–1925): Born in Brookline, Massachusetts, into a prominent New England family. A collection of Lowell's work, published posthumously as What's O'clock?, was awarded the Pulitzer Prize for poetry.

  KATHARYN HOWD MACHAN (1952–): Prolific poet whose work has appeared in numerous literary publications and more than fifty anthologies and textbooks. A teacher of creative writing and women's studies at Ithaca College, she lives in Ithaca, New York, with her husband, the poet Eric Machan Howd, and their two children.

  KATHERINE MANSFIELD (1888–1923): New Zealand writer who became a member of the Bloomsbury literary group in London. Known for her brilliant short stories, she also wrote poetry.

  CHARLOTTE MATTHEWS (1966–): Matthews's chapbook, A Kind of Devotion, is forthcoming from Palanquin Press. Her poems have appeared in the Mississippi Review, Tar River Poetr y, Sou'wester, Meridian, Poet Lore, Potomac Review, and Eclipse. Her manuscript Green Stars was named
a finalist in the National Poetry series competition. She lives in Charlottesville, Virginia.

  MARK MCMORRIS (1960–) has published in many journals, and his poetry has been widely anthologized. His latest book is The Blaze of Poui. He is currently an assistant professor of English at George town University in Washington, D.C.

  PABLO NERUDA (1904–73): Nobel Prize–winning Chilean poet. He received the Lenin Peace Prize in 1953.

  FRANK O'HARA (1926–1966): O'Hara worked at the Museum of Modern Art in New York for most of his life. He published his first volume of poems, A City in Winter and Other Poems, in 1952, and over the course of his life he published five more collections.

  SHARON OLDS (1942–): Often described as a confessional poet, Olds won the National Book Critics Circle Award for The Dead and the Living in 1983. She teaches poetry at New York University and Goldwater Hospital.

  DOROTHY PARKER (1893–1967): Journalist, humorist, and a founding member of the famous Algonquin Round Table. Her collections of poetry include Enough Rope, Sunset Gun, and Death and Taxes.

  LINDA PASTAN (1932–): Her collection PM/AM: New and Selected Poems was nominated for an American Book Award in 1983. She lives and works in Potomac, Maryland.

  JÁNOS PILINSZKY (1921–1981): Influential Hungarian poet whose work deals with religious and metaphysical themes. During World War II he spent time as a soldier and prisoner of war. He was awarded the Kossuth Prize in 1980.

  SYLVIA PLATH (1932–1963): Poet and writer born in Boston. Her most famous works include “Ariel” and the novel The Bell Jar. Her work has been widely anthologized and taught in universities.

  JACQUES PRÉVERT (1900–1977): Popular and influential French poet whose works include Paroles (1946) and Spectacle (1951).

  RUMI (1207–1273): Thirteenth-century Persian poet.

  WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE (1564–1616): Believed by many to be the greatest writer in the English language, he acted, lived, and wrote in London and Stratford.

  ELEANOR STANFORD (1976–) was a Henry Hoyns Fellow at the University of Virginia, 2003–4. She has an MA in English from the University of Wisconsin and spent two years in the Peace Corps in the Cape Verde Islands. Her poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Poetry, Ploughshares, Callaloo, the Indiana Review, and other journals.

  WALLACE STEVENS (1879–1955): A poet and insurance executive who lived in Hartford, Connecticut, his collections of poetry include Harmonium and Collected Poems.

  ELIZABETH ASH VÉLEZ (1945–): A journalist and writer, Vélez teaches at Georgetown University.

 

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