“This is your job? To find Rico?”
“I just met with his mother, only an hour ago.”
Her sullenness dissipated. “Anyway,” she said, “we didn’t do this since one week ago. The police, they are concerned with Saturday night only. Saturday I am here.”
There was no hesitation, no interest in whether I believed her or not. She was, I believed, telling the truth. She was not the blonde Rico had dated the night he’d disappeared.
Oh.
I thought of the names on Rico’s wall, the girls he knew, the possibilities. It was exhausting to think about. And then I remembered something else on the wall. The . “Britta,” I said, “I guess you didn’t tell them about the—other thing.”
Her head snapped around. “What?”
“The drugs Rico was involved in. It’s common knowledge.”
She didn’t bat an eye at the mention of drugs. “What means that, common knowledge?”
“That means a lot of people know about it.”
She looked young now, like the monkey boys. “Really? I—I didn’t—”
“You’re right not to tell the police. You could get deported.”
Her eyes went wide. “But I did nothing. I told him no.”
No to what? “Then why didn’t you tell the police?” I asked.
She glanced at the boys, racing barefoot around the pool, armed with plastic machine guns. Their swim trunks were baggy and their ribs stuck out and they were happily blowing each other away. I could mention the agency, Glenda, Marty Otis, the secretary of state—
“The host family,” she said abruptly, “do not like the police to come, and park in the street where the neighbors see. But this is not my fault. Jeremy, what do you have there?” She stood. Across the lawn, the brothers had stopped shooting and were huddled over something.
“A frog!”
“You are not to murder it. Your mother says.” She settled back in her chair.
I stood. “They wouldn’t really murder it, would they?” Why couldn’t it be a snake or a fly? Why a frog?
“No murder!” Britta called out.
“It’s already dead, stupid!” one of the boys yelled.
Forget the frog, Ruta’s voice said. Talk to this girl like you are someone clever.
I sat. “Well, it all sounds horrible. But since you didn’t do it, why not just tell them he asked you to sell drugs?” I held my breath.
“Not to sell, only to carry in the luggage. How am I to say this? Then they will return and park in the street again and the neighbors will see.”
There it was: confirmation. How much further would she go? “What went through your mind when Rico asked you this?” I said.
“I said, Rico, I cannot. What if they will search my luggage, for example? At LAX. They search so many people. And also, Rico says it is not a problem to find a visa to come back once I am in Germany but it is not such an easy thing. Also, I am not living in Munich or Berlin, with university. In Wandlitz there is nothing and if I say to my father, ‘Now I am to move to Berlin’ just like that, what will he think?”
Not, apparently, that it was a good idea, his daughter moving to the city to enter the drug trade. Rico’s judgment must have been seriously impaired. Britta as a partner in crime? It would be like doing business with Winnie-the-Pooh. “When did you and Rico discuss this?”
“You know, last week. I asked him if he asked Annika also this, and he said we should not think about Annika.”
“That must have been hard for you, since she was your friend.”
“Yes, it was so hard. This is what no one will understand.” She sighed deeply.
“And it’s not fair. What exactly—is it the Euphoria he asked you to take to Germany?”
“Yes, because U4 is to be very popular, he says.”
We sat in silence, watching the boys.
“Did you ever . . . try it?” I said softly.
She chewed her lip, looking troubled. “I am frightened to. I have the asthma. But he thinks I take it, so I pretend and then he has his trip so he does not know because he is high.”
“Did Rico take it often?” I asked.
“Oh, no. He was not like that. For recreational purposes only. For example, to have sex. Never during class or doing business, he said. That was his rule.”
“I hear that U4 is really good. Better than Ecstasy.”
“Yes, Rico says it is more mellow. So the teeth do not clench and things like this.”
“Did you meet any of the others he worked with? His boss?”
“This is not a boss. Rico is to be full partner, he is to arrange it on the weekend and then we are to be rich. Only now he is disappeared.”
A partner? Did this mean Rico was Little Fish? Or a partner of Little Fish? “Did he tell you who the partner is?” I asked.
“No, he does not talk in real names. It is always pretend name, I forget how you call this.”
Something occurred to me. “Britta, when you didn’t take the U4, when he thought you did—do you still have it?”
“Yes, in my room.”
“Can I see it?”
“Why?”
“It’s something detectives do. You never know what’s important until you see it.”
She looked unconvinced. I imagined it was the only thing he’d ever given her. “It could help find Rico,” I said, then mentally crossed my fingers behind my back. “I’ll return it. And I won’t mention it to the police.”
She turned to the pool. “Joshua! Jeremy! Time to come in. If you hurry, I will give you M&M’s. But you must come right now. And leave the frog.” She looked at me. “To help Rico, of course I will do anything.”
Part of me wanted to tell her how misguided that was, how misplaced her devotion. But she’d learn that soon enough without me.
And anyway, I wanted that Euphoria.
33
I drove through the Valley with the Euphoria in a Tylenol bottle.
It was a twin of the pill Maizie had found under Annika’s bed. Bigger than an aspirin, round, and with a logo that was both strange and strangely familiar. Stopped at a red light just before the entrance ramp to the 210, I took it out of the plastic bottle and held it between my thumb and forefinger, gazing at it. A squiggle set into its surface, a piece of calligraphy.
This was the third time I’d come across it, and it gnawed at me like a song lyric gone astray: where had I seen it before? But it didn’t matter. What I’d just learned connected Rico to Little Fish. Rico had asked Annika to transport drugs. According to Simon, Little Fish had also tried to recruit her. It had to be the same operation. How many drug dealers were out there signing up au pairs? And this connection might not be news to the FBI, but it might be to the police, who were on a high-profile search for Rico. If I showed them this pill, pointed out Rico’s wall, and told them what Britta had told me, wouldn’t they expand their search to include Annika?
Should I tell Simon I was doing this? Wouldn’t he tell me to leave it to him? Yes.
My cell phone rang, startling me. I felt around on the passenger seat for it while making a left turn onto the freeway entrance ramp. In the process I dropped the pill. Damn.
Statistics on cell-phone use and traffic accidents jumped into my head. Ring! The car behind me honked. The entrance-ramp traffic was slow, which made people testy. I inched forward, closing the three-foot gap between me and the car in front of me. Ring! My hand located the phone in the Bermuda Triangle of my backpack; I found the answer button and said hello. When no one responded, I yelled, “Hello!”
“Wollie. Simon.”
“H—hello.”
“Everything okay?”
“Yes.” I cleared my throat. The car behind me honked again, nearly sending me through the roof. Again I closed the three-foot gap between me and the car ahead. “Annika’s alive,” I said. “She e-mailed me. And also, Rico Rodriguez—”
“Did she say where she is?”
“No. She—” I’d had all
day to plan this and still, I hesitated. Tell no one. Annika hadn’t said, Tell no one but the FBI. But what counted more: whom she trusted or whom I trusted?
Whom did I trust?
“Wollie? What did she say?”
The danger is so great and if you die too it will be so bad. I had it memorized. But this was not informative, only theatrical. “The gist of it was,” I said, “situation’s urgent. Time’s running out. Clock’s ticking. But listen to this: Rico Rodriguez asked Annika and another au pair to act as couriers for him, smuggling a drug called Euphoria into Germany. Rico was working with Little Fish, he could’ve met Little Fish through Annika.” I was now first in line to enter the freeway, waiting for the red light to turn green.
“You found out all this today, hungover?”
“Okay, I should explain that martinis—well, gin. Gin acts on me in ways that—tequila too—” The car behind me blared its horn. “Okay, it’s green, I see it, I’m going!” I shouted.
“Bad time to talk?”
“No, not at all. So what do you make of all this?”
“What? You trying to pin it on the martinis?”
“Pin what on the martinis?”
“The damage to my shirt.”
I searched my memory. Buttons. I remembered buttons. And cuff links. And a watch. An amazing silver— “What kind of watch do you wear?” I asked.
“A Vacheron Constantine. You liked it.”
“Did we discuss why a civil servant is wearing a Vacheron Constantine?”
“Yes, I’m on the take. You really don’t remember a lot, do you?”
I made a note not to take so much as a decongestant in front of this man. I was so easily disoriented by things—this freeway, for instance. Where was Lake Avenue or Orange—oh. Because I was on the 210 East, not west. Heading to Arcadia, Azusa, Nebraska. “Oh, hell,” I said.
“It’s okay, we left a few things in the planning stages.”
I hoped he was referring to sex. “I’m sorry,” I said, “I’m talking to myself. I’m one of those people who shouldn’t drive and talk, drive and read, drive and trim my hair—”
“You’re scaring me. Good-bye.”
“No, wait. I need to ask you—”
“Call me when you get home.”
I hung up and found my way off the 210 East and onto the 210 West, fighting a sensation of well-being. How could I feel this way, with the day I’d had and all that had happened? Yet the sound of his voice made investigations, drugs, blondes, veal, plumbers, frogs, math, guns, e-mails, and mothers fade into the dust, like the city of San Marino.
It wasn’t until the 210 had become the 134 and then the 101 that I started to worry about what had happened to the pill.
I walked into my apartment to find Joey, Fredreeq, and my mother sitting in the kitchen. Joey was eating Sara Lee cheesecake. Prana, in a peach caftan, was laying out Tarot cards.
“Wollie,” Fredreeq said, “you never told us Prana is a regressionist. She says I was a courtesan in the Manchu dynasty, and Anne Boleyn.”
“Congratulations,” I said, going to the window. “I raised pigs in ancient Greece. Prana, any plumbers show up today?”
“No, dear.”
“Because if anyone tries to get in, if anything suspicious happens—”
“I won’t be here for it. Theo and I are attending the Dances of Universal Peace.”
“And we should hit the road,” Joey said. “Have fun, Prana. Thanks for the reading.”
“Joey, may you find peace in San Pedro.” Prana looked up and removed her glasses. “Wollie,” she said, “what on earth are you wearing?”
Twenty minutes later I was in black jeans, black sneakers, and a black hooded sweatshirt, in the passenger seat of Joey’s husband’s BMW, heading south. Fredreeq followed in her own car.
On the subject of Annika’s e-mail, Joey was unequivocal. “We can’t stop looking. Unless we find her, you’ll never stop wondering, and you won’t feel safe. If you don’t know the source of the danger, you’ll be paranoid around people you should trust, and trust people you shouldn’t.”
“Even if the FBI promised to look for her?”
Joey glanced at me, then back at the road. “Wollie, I don’t know any Feds besides my cousin Stewart in New York, but I’ve known my share of cops. They don’t have a high opinion of informants. That’s you. They pretend to care, if that’s what it takes, because what works for them is surveillance, torture, and informants, and torture’s frowned upon. I’m just saying a promise from them is not the same as a promise from you. If Annika’s vital to their case, they’ll find her. If she’s not . . .” She changed lanes. “The good news is, cousin Stewart’s heard of Simon Alexander. At least your guy’s the real deal.”
“You had him checked out?”
“Yeah, and the Bentley he drives was seized in a case last month. It’s his bu-car, in Fed-speak.” She looked at me. “Of course I checked, I was worried. It’s weird, someone recruiting you. You’re not ratlike enough.”
“Thanks,” I said, not liking anything about this conversation. “So what about tonight? Are we sure the agency’s even open?”
“Fredreeq checked. She has ways of getting calls returned you can’t imagine. They’re open the Friday after Thanksgiving because of their international business. Till five.”
“And we’ll be back for Biological Clock? I’m spying tonight.”
“Bing couldn’t get the location till midnight, so it’s a late start. You and I’ll be done long before that. In and out. A drive-through burglary. Sorry, did I say burglary? Borrowing.”
I rode to Au Pairs par Excellence with trepidation. Joey’s casual about things I care about, like physical safety and staying within the law. But Marie-Thérèse, Annika’s confidante, was still the most direct means of finding Annika. One phone number, an address, that’s all we needed, and we could be home free. Instinctively, I checked the rear window to see if we were being followed. We were. Half of California was on the 405 South.
“Relax, Wollie,” Joey said. “Even your mom approved this operation. By the way, who was she in a past life?”
“Everybody. She’s a very old soul.”
“Anyone I’d know?”
“Beethoven. Winston Churchill. Cleopatra’s stillborn child.”
Joey nodded. “It could be worse. She could be in the state pen and you’d feel compelled to go visit her every week. Or she could be dead. Of breast cancer, something you’d worry about inheriting and passing on to your daughters.”
“I’m not having any daughters. Or sons. Even if I’m still physically capable, I’m not mother material. I’m broke, uneducated, bad at long-term relationships, really bad at math, and I recently let a three-year-old eat six cupcakes in four minutes. Fredreeq’s still in shock.”
“Well, nobody’s perfect. You may not be the best judge of your maternal instincts; ask Ruby if you’d make a good mother.”
I couldn’t ask Ruby. She was in Asia. And I missed her.
“What my shrink would say,” Joey continued, “is that you’re childless because you fear turning into your mom. That’s what he tells me.”
I hadn’t realized Joey had baby issues. “What does he say to do about it?”
“Since I can’t change her, I have to take a stab at appreciating her so that turning into her doesn’t depress me. Realize I’d like her just fine if she weren’t my mom. Admit she loves me, however imperfectly. Acknowledge she’s not truly bad, she’s just offbeat—bad mothers leave their children alone in locked cars on hot summer days with the windows rolled up.”
“This is good, therapy by proxy,” I said. “Anything else you found out about me?”
“Yes. Your desire to find Annika is a way of wishing someone had rescued you at that age. When you were on your own in a big city, falling for bad men. This wish is unconscious. Consciously, you thought you were having a good time.”
I didn’t know what to say. Didn’t everyone live like that at ni
neteen?
The rest of the way to San Pedro we talked about Lauren Rodriguez. And Britta and the pill that connected her to Annika, pills Rico was apparently handing out right and left.
“Sounds like he was exporting this to Germany,” Joey said. “But the international drug trade—there are syndicates to go through. You don’t just hang out a shingle and take orders.”
No. You signed on with Vladimir Tcheiko and went global. Little Fish must’ve recruited Rico when he visited the set. Maybe Rico was eager to show some initiative, putting together his own team in preparation for the big merger.
“Joey,” I said, “if someone on the show is into drugs, would you know?”
Joey glanced in the rearview mirror. “Depends on what you mean by ‘into.’ I’ve done everything that doesn’t involve needles or aerosol cans, but I’ve never sold, even when I needed money. Little kink in my moral code. Other people deal them but don’t use. On B.C. I don’t know; I’m the producer, people don’t let their hair down around me. Production sucks.”
Joey circled the block so Fredreeq could precede us into the Au Pairs par Excellence lot. We parked too, and went into the Laundromat next to the agency, positioning ourselves near the window. If any coin-op customers found it odd that we’d come in to enjoy the view, they didn’t mention it.
Fredreeq got out of her Volvo, looked around, then approached a boxy orange vehicle next to her and slowly walked the length of it, touching it. “What’s she doing?” I whispered.
“Drawing a line with Wite-Out,” Joey whispered.
Fredreeq returned the Wite-Out to her purse and hurried into the agency, emerging seconds later with the secretary-receptionist we’d met the previous week. Joey and I slipped out of the Laundromat and into the empty agency.
File boxes were everywhere, as they’d been the week before. If anything, they’d reproduced. I checked under Marty Otis’s metal desk. Even there, boxes. “Joey?” I said.
“Go for it.”
“What about you?”
Before she could respond, we heard Fredreeq’s voice outside, unnaturally loud. I crawled under the desk, amid boxes, and pulled the desk chair in after me. I was as cramped as I’ve ever been, but I was hidden. I heard the door swing open and Fredreeq’s voice amplify.
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