He must have felt my laugh and looked up at me, a slight smile on his face.
“Given the situation that has just come to pass my self-esteem could probably take a nosedive from the fact that you’re laughing.” His eyes were clear blue and they had a slight crease at the outsides of each from the smile he was fighting. That made me laugh more.”
“No, I am not laughing over that. I’m laughing at the fact that just a few days ago you were as in control and infuriating and here we are, like this.” I didn’t really know how to sum up how we were this moment without sounding cheesy.
“Naked?” He said, lifting an eyebrow.
“Yes, that, but happy. Calm even,” I said. He kissed my throat and laid his head back down.
“You think I’m joking when I say that you have completely turned my world upside down. If I’m being honest I’ve imagined this moment many times since the time I had to kiss you. It is almost dream like to be here now. I cannot disguise how attracted to you I am.”
“Good, I don’t want you to,” I said.
“Be careful what you wish for Olivia. Because you have subdued me for now does not mean that I am tamed. I like to be in control, and I am still passionate about many things. I do not just go along with what you say now that we have crossed another line. I will always try to match wits with you, and I will continue to infuriate you. Whatever this is, or turns out to be, I don’t believe you and I will ever cease to bump heads.”
“Just as long as you stop brooding every time we get close to one another.” This caused his head to raise and he looked at me. His hair was messy in a very sexy way, his eyes were light and sparkling, I could see his skin from his head to his waist where the sheet began. It was an amazing sight.
“I have not done so this whole evening. I hope I don’t need to remind you that this was slightly more than a kiss.”
“I guess I have to give you the credit you deserve. I have not had to run after you and smooth things over yet.”
Cole pulled his arm from under the blanket and looked at his watch.
“It’s almost midnight,” he said.
“What time are you leaving?” I asked.
“We have to leave for the airport at six. Come on, I want to go to the beach.” He got out from beneath the sheet and slid on his suit pants from the previous night.
“I don’t have anything to wear. I don’t know if I really want to try to squeeze back into that dress.” He smiled at me.
“That dress is a sin Olivia. Here, put these on.” He opened a drawer in the armoire that was against the wall and threw me a T-Shirt and a pair of boxer shorts. I scolded myself for not wearing a bra under my dress even though I knew that would have been impossible. I pulled the shirt over my head and inhaled deeply, it smelled like him. I slid on the shorts and got out of bed. Cole slid his white shirt on as he opened the door.
It was pitch black out except for the light of the stars. We walked down the ramp to the dock and turned toward the beach. Cole held my hand the entire way. He finally stopped walking and sat down. He took me by the waist and pulled me down to sit on his lap. He wrapped his arms around me and rested his head on my shoulder.
“I never imagined this trip to end this way. I am usually overjoyed to return home, to a sense of normalcy. Here I am wishing I had longer because of you,” he said quietly.
“Whats the first thing you’re going to do when you get home?” I asked him.
“I have some things I need to take care of. Things that I need to set straight. Most of them things that you have had a profound effect on. I also have to go to work and prepare for our meeting. Though Jason and I will spend the time on the plane working.”
“Since I’m supposedly responsible, am I ever going to know what these things you have to take care of? Jason said the same thing, that you were changing things because of me.”
“What did Jason say to you?” His voice was tense now, almost frightened.
“Nothing really. He just said that you were taking on a lot for me and in not so many words, that I better be worth it.” I felt the muscles in his body stay tense. “I don’t think he approves of me.” I finished.
“He does. He approves of you as a person. He does not approve of what he thinks you have caused. He feels like you have changed me and are making me change things in my life. He doesn’t understand that I have kept you in the dark on purpose because I don’t want you involved in certain aspects of my life. He thinks that I am being hasty in my decision making which he is not accustomed to. You see, we have worked together for many years. We know each other better than anybody. He believes I’m being foolish in making some decisions I have made because of a woman I have only just met. He doesn’t understand how I feel about you, though he should as he is quite smitten with your friend.”
“I wish you’d just come out with it. Just tell me what’s wrong. You beat around the bush and that makes me nervous, like I’m doing something bad, stealing someone’s husband. I’m not am I? Please tell me you’re not married.” I got extremely nervous, thinking that was it.
“No Olivia, I am not married. I need you to stop concerning yourself with problems that are my own that I am willing to fix so that I can have you in my life.”
“Kids?” I asked.
“No children either. Please stop fretting. This is my problem, not yours.” His tone was slightly sharp so I decided to leave it alone for right now.
“Do you want to get married?” I figured it was as good a question as any.
“In the future, yes. And yourself?”
“Yes, I do. I feel like a life changing commitment is extremely important if you want to be with someone. I feel like it’s kind of cowardice to not marry someone. It’s like you’re making yourself a plan B, just in case. If you can commit to exclusivity, and you want nothing other than that person than you need to take that last step to prove it.” I didn’t think I was that passionate about it until I stopped speaking.
“Children?” He asked.
“Yes, but not for awhile. There are many things I want to do, but I do want to have children eventually.” I imagined he would respond right away, but he didn’t. “What about you?”
“I’m not sure. I don’t believe I’d be a good father. I don’t think I will ever reach a point where I am not selfish about my time and my own freewill. A child means you are utterly selfless for at least eighteen years. I don’t know that I am willing to give that up.” I felt sad listening to him talk about children.
“You do not like that answer,” he said.
“It makes me sad for you.”
“Again, I do not want your pity. But why are you sad because of that answer?”
“Because, anytime things come down to love or loving someone you shy away. You chose money over love. I feel like you have control over money, you can make it do what you want. You can get it naturally, you’re good at it. Love isn’t guaranteed. That person doesn’t have to return it if they don’t want. If you enter into a deal with someone, they pay you. If you love someone they don’t have to pay you back. They can take it and run. It’s the same with kids, you can control so many things right now. You can be here now, you will be gone in a few hours. You don’t have anyone to answer to. Like you’re scared that a child will keep you from being happy rather than realizing that they could be the thing to make you happy.” I felt bad because this was all speculation. I was just trying to piece him together. He just shrugged his shoulders.
“I don’t know that it’s that deep. I am a selfish person Olivia, I know that about myself. I won’t try to hide that or not own up. It’s just who I am.”
“Listen, I don’t want you to put you on the spot or that I think that this is anything more than it is. I understand that we are just here together and have no idea where it’s going to go, but Charlotte gets married in two months. I was wondering if you’d consider going with me?” I shut my eyes tightly, almost embarrassed to have asked him.
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She is getting married where you live?” He asked.
“Yes, in August, she’s getting married the first week.”
“I’d be honored to come with you,” he replied.
“Really?” I was surprised. I felt like it was a big deal to ask for him to make a date almost two months in advance.
“Absolutely, why are you so surprised?”
“Because, I didn’t want you to get the wrong idea. I didn’t want you to think I was going overboard, making plans so far in advance, like I was too serious about whatever this is.”
“Are you not serious about whatever this is?” He asked in a tight voice.
“I don’t know. I don’t know what’s going to happen.” He didn’t respond. “I mean we don’t know what’s going to happen after you leave in a few hours,” I said, to clarify my point.
“I supposed that’s true.” His voice was low. I got off his lap and sat cross legged in the sand in front of him.
“Why do you sound like that?” I asked.
“I meant it when I said I will not stop looking until I’ve found you. I will be there knocking on every door in the city until you answer the knock. By the time you get home I want to see you again and I want to try to be with you. If you are not sure that is what you want I ask to know that information now.” His face was lined and he was looking at me intensely.
“It is what I want, I just didn’t want to push you into anything. I didn’t want it to seem like I was taking it too seriously. I’m not interested in anything waiting for me back home. I just don’t want to scare you away.” His face softened slightly and he rubbed my leg.
“I don’t think you can. I enjoy you and your company far too much. You make me realize what I’ve missed for many years. You challenge me and I enjoy every moment. It keeps me on my toes, which is good for me and my business.” He smiled and checked his watch.
“We need to go back to the boat and grab our things. They will be transporting it back to the lot for safe keeping soon.” He stood and pulled me up to him. Rather than walking away he wrapped his arms around my waist and gave me a small smile.
“I’ve never met anyone like you, I’m blessed by you,” he said and leaned in to kiss me softly. We walked back to the boat.
We cleaned up the room, collecting various pieces of clothing. I folded my dress carried my shoes as we walked to the top deck of the boat. The sky was starting to get slightly lighter. Time was flying by when all I wanted to do was to get it to stop completely. I felt my entire mood sour and I didn’t care. This was not going to be fun.
“Please do not begin to get upset. There’s nothing we can do, this has to happen, it is only for what, three weeks tops? Then you will be back on US soil and we’ll feel closer again. I cannot stand to watch you so upset. Especially not when I know that I am the cause.” The lines had returned to his face and he frowned.
“It’s not your fault. I understand you have to go. I’m just so used to having you here. I feel like we’ve finally reached this place where we understand each other and what happens if that disappears again?”
“It won’t. I will write you everyday if you’d like. It will be only weeks until I will be accompanying you to your friend’s wedding. I’ll be thinking about you every moment between now and then. I promise.” He hugged me tight and held me to him.
“Come on, you can come with me while I pack.” I followed him toward the condo.
When I stepped into the room I was amazed. Here I was blown away by the condo that Charlotte’s parents owned. I walked into the living room and was shocked at the vaulted ceilings. The living room was at least three times as large as ours and the kitchen was double the size. The furniture was all a light gray with light blue hues.
“Come on,” he whispered as we walked down a hallway. We turned into a bedroom and he closed the door. “I’m sure that Jason is sleeping so we’ll have to be quiet. It’s already past four in the morning. Hopefully he is resting so he can get something done on the plane and I can sleep. Go, sit down on the bed, relax,” he said as he went into the closet.
We didn’t say much as he packed his belongings that were hanging in the closet. It didn’t take long before his two suitcases were packed and zippered and sitting by the bedroom door. He climbed in bed next to me and put his arm around me. It wasn’t long and we both were fast asleep.
I was startled awake at a loud, shrilling sound. Cole rolled over and immediately stuffed his hand in his pocket and pulled out his cell.
“Hello?” He answered groggily. “Yes, I’m here…I’ll be down in a few minutes…No, just haven’t slept all night…not quite…see you in a minute.” He hung up and put the phone back in his pocket.
“Jason is wondering why I am not already downstairs. Our car will be here momentarily. We’ve got to get up.” He rose out of bed and stretched. The light from outside was just starting to shine in the windows and I begrudgingly got up. He started wheeling his bags down the hallway to the front door. I stood in the living room, watching him move quickly.
“You shouldn’t be up. You’re exhausted, look at you.” He hugged me briefly and kissed my cheek. “You need to go straight to bed, come, I’ll walk you to your room first.” I shook my head.
“I’ll come down with you.” His face fell and he gave me a disapproving look.
“Is that wise?”
“No, but I don’t care.” I held the door for him as he brought his bags out of the room. We stood almost on separate sides of the elevator as we waited to reach the ground floor. When the doors opened Jason was standing in the middle of the lobby looking none too happy. He gave Cole a stern look and became almost annoyed when he saw me.
“No wonder you’re late.” He growled as he rolled one of the bags toward the car. I followed the two men just outside the lobby doors.
“You literally have two minutes and then we’re leaving whether you’re in the car or not.” I heard Jason say as he got into the car. Cole walked over to me and grabbed both of my hands, he gave me a small smile.
“Pity me now, for he is always this cranky in the morning.” I smiled but could not bring it to reach my eyes.
“I don’t have but a few minutes. I’ll send you an e-mail when I touch down in LA. It will be later today. Please do not worry, this is temporary. There is not going to be a single moment that you are not on my mind. I will replay the night at the bar, the beach, the boat in that indulgent dress, the lower deck of the boat. Every moment has been ingrained in my mind. I cannot express how truly amazing you are. No matter if I am right here or not, you are not far from me. I’ve been so conflicted over my feelings for you. I have fought so hard to keep you at a safe distance, not just for myself but for you. I can’t fight it anymore. I will not deny what you mean to me any longer. I’m completely captivated by you and I refuse to lose you. I need you to promise me that you will have fun with your friends until you leave. Once you get home then you and I will talk about our next step. Please promise me you will have fun, but not too much please. I hate the thought of leaving you here, with that.” His head nodded to the dress in my hand. I gave him a soft smile. I couldn’t help it. Tears started escaping my eyes. His hands quickly began brushing them off of my face.
“No, no, no. Stop that. You will hear from me this evening, check your e-mail. Have fun, promise me.”
“I promise,” I said in a hoarse whisper.
“Go up and get some sleep. You’ve been up nearly 24 hours. Get some sleep, you’ll feel better and by then I will have landed and you can continue your vacation.” He started walking towards the car and waved the whole way. I wrapped my arms around my chest as I watched him open the door and get inside. The tears were beyond my control at this point as I stood and cried as the car pulled out of the parking lot.
Chapter 12
To: Olivia Adamson
From: Cole Cooper
Subject: Safety
Date: June 12th 2012 1:03 PM
Olivia,
I�
�ve arrived safely. I’m on my way back to the house. I hope you took my advice and went to bed. You looked exhausted, but still beautiful. The weather here is not quite as nice as Mexico. Like I said, I have not stopped thinking of you. I really do want you to have fun. I would never forgive myself if I messed up your trip with your friends. Do not be too sad Olivia, all will be well. If you still want me when you get home I will be waiting. Until then I will be standing by, counting down the days until we are both in the same country. Always thinking of you.
C.C.
To: Cole Cooper
From: Olivia Adamson
Subject: One Day
Date: June 13th 2012 9:48 AM
Cole,
One whole day down and one begun. I miss you. I am having fun still. The girls and I spent our day by the pool, just the three of us. You were quite the topic of discussion. Adrian loves you. Whatever you said to her the night of your dinner made her adore you. I still don’t think Jason has the same feelings about me. Should I be worried he’s going to change your mind? Is this going to be some star-crossed lovers story about a best friend who interferes? I miss your voice and your conversation. I imagine you still that first night, too calm and too cool and a little bit of an ass. You were infuriating. You still are. I’m still curious about what you’re doing now that you’re back. Can you fill me in at all? I miss you.
Olivia
To: Olivia Adamson
From: Cole Cooper
Subject: Re:One Day
Date: June 13th 2012 10:32 PM
Olivia,
You are still breathing I trust and will now understand that I will be waiting for you to come back to the states. I am quite interested in what was said about me. I have always been an extremely vain person (arrogance and vanity and two vastly different things, do not forget that). I simply told your friend that you were the most amazing woman I’ver set eyes on. I told her that you are stubborn, nosy, enchanting, sexy, accosting, maddening, great in bed, hot, emotional and intelligent. More so than any other female I’ve known in those capacities.
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