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by Wayne Harrison




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  For the beautiful women in my life: Caye, Sabrina, and Josie

  Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright Notice

  Dedication

  Prologue

  Part I

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Part II

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Part III

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Copyright

  I see us painting the shop together. I smell the sharp, gratifying blend of latex and gasoline. It’s 1985, and Nick has offered me a hundred dollars to stay and help. “Walls only, three coats,” he says, lugging eight gallons of platinum gray.

  Into the first bay we pile disassembled pegboard, fan belts, hoses, wire sets. Nick orders a Meaty Supreme from Vocelli’s, and when Mary Ann mentions beer I run out the side door to Lenny’s Liquor Locker on the corner. I’m seventeen but formidable in my button-down Dickies shirt and dungarees; Lenny Jr. serves me even as I drop a hill of ones on the counter sign that says NO ID NO SALE.

  We spread tarps, pry off lids, fill the roller trays. Nick spins on an extension pole and then rolls so fast a gray mist sprinkles his white Owner shirt. He overlaps where Mary Ann has edged and touches the ceiling a few times. Breathing hard, he drops the roller on the tarp and lights a cigarette, pondering the rest of the wall, the thirty feet of it left to paint.

  Mary Ann smooths over his lap marks, and it’s their quiet together that makes me feel safe. You hope for such assurance around your own parents, though mostly I remember my father’s light jabs, my mother’s retaliations, words that hook in and stay.

  “I thought you were good at everything,” Mary Ann says, on tiptoes stretching for the border tape.

  Nick sees where he’s gone over half the wall thermostat. He grins as when a random engine skip tries to outsmart him. “I get why Van Gogh cut his ear off.”

  “I like your ears,” Mary Ann says. “Let’s keep those. Maybe one of your big ugly hands.”

  And she doesn’t move even when his choking hands come around her throat.

  “Now you did it,” he says. “Now you’re in trouble.”

  When I look again at my own roller, fat gray drips have run down to the floor.

  * * *

  It’s almost midnight when we finish the first coat, and Nick wants to speed up the drying. The tank of the waste-oil heater has been empty since spring, and I roll over the thirty-gallon catch from the oil-change bay and pump it into the heater tank. But the walls are tacky even after the thermostat hits ninety degrees.

  “It’s baking,” Mary Ann says, fanning her face with a Motor Trend. “We’re all going to bake in here.” She gazes drowsily and finds the convertible Camaro that has been left for the weekend. “Well, hey there,” she says, and walks over to it.

  The Camaro is parked in the center bay, farthest from the wet walls, a rare ’67 Rally Sport with hideaway headlights and chrome rally wheels. It was a ground-up restoration, and under a buzzing light panel, the cobalt blue paint is like looking into the polished ice of a glacier. The other muscle car shop in town passed up the job—a collector’s car plagued by intermittent complaints—and I didn’t blame them. Most mechanics come to accept that some cars just aren’t fixable. But Nick’s mind is boundless in its capacity for learning and wonder, and he has yet to open the hood on an unfixable car. I’m still hanging on to wonder myself, and it hasn’t escaped my awareness that this is part of why Nick likes me.

  Mary Ann pushes her fingers in through the Camaro’s grille to pop the latch. She lifts the hood and unexpectedly turns to me. “Have you heard about the Pacific Coast Highway, Justin?”

  “I think so,” I say.

  “It’s where they make Porsche commercials,” Nick says. “A lot of cliffs and hairpins.”

  “If you take a woman there in a convertible, she’ll be putty in your hands.”

  “Sure,” I say. “That was out in Oregon, right?”

  “It’s worth the plane ticket, believe me.” She leans over the fender carefully, so that her tank-top shirt and jean rivets don’t touch the paint, a careful yoga-like bend. Nick doesn’t ask what she’s doing, so I don’t ask, and when he finishes his cigarette and walks up to the Camaro, I pace myself not to pass him. Together we look down just as she’s pulling the speedometer cable away from the transmission.

  “Voila,” she says, leaning back, and the car is set to drive with no miles recorded.

  * * *

  From the bay windows a pearly light blooms out into the rumpled dark of the city. Deep in the backseat vinyl, I can feel the wind on a windless night as Nick eases out of the parking lot with the top down.

  Wolcott Avenue opens to four lanes, and finding me in the rearview mirror Nick says what I’ve never heard him say before: “Buckle up.” I dig for the lap belt and send the tongue into the buckle with a fortifying click before I can breathe again. With the clutch in Nick revs the engine twice, a perfect machine-gunning of the valves he’s lapped and polished, and drops the shifter to second gear. When he dumps the clutch the sudden blast of air seems to be what throws me back, though of course it’s the g-force, that awesome multiplier of weight, and then we’re sideways, fishtailing. Nick chirps the tires in third gear and again in fourth. I know the police are out there, they’re just not here, and after all the cars he’s saved, Nick has surely earned immunity from traffic crimes. I whip around the backseat, anchored only by the waist, invulnerable and reeling with the sudden flush of complicity.

  On Eden Avenue Mary Ann slides under Nick’s arm. When he presses in the clutch she shifts smoothly through the gear pattern, and we ride over narrow hilly streets whose neighborhoods arise as odors in the treeless air—hot, dusty fire escapes and cigarettes from people out this late smoking on them, steaming aluminum fins of little AC units. Farther north, where the buildings are cared for, smells of cut lawn as we approach the quiet and leafy Waterbury Green.

  I can hear the fountain before I see it, under the great brass horse, and above us the Basilica of the Immaculate Conception is spotlit from the ground. Mary Ann and Nick talk softly, their mellow tones a kind of tender anthem for the night. Then she kicks off her sandals, and as Nick slows the car she stands on the passenger seat, facing backwards—facing me. Her paint-speckled Sassons are threadbare at the knees, and his arm wraps around her thigh. Her face is radiant, her wind
-strained eyes searching the night as if from the bow of a ship. On the balmy sidewalks, anyone laying eyes on her might fall in love. I crane my head back and find the Big Dipper canted as if to spill its potion over the gothic spires of St. John’s on the Green.

  “You try it, Justin,” she says.

  The speedometer needle is lifeless at nine o’clock, and I guess our speed to be an easy twenty or twenty-five. Nick feathers the gas so that it is no harder to stand on the tucked vinyl than it would be standing on an airplane. And we’re aloft and banking softly. The air is cooling. We are in it and waiting for its slight gusts, and feeling the hum of the slow engine and driveshaft turning under our bare feet. Nick makes the loop again so easily we barely sway.

  “What do you think?” Mary Ann says.

  The word that comes to me bypasses my brain, is simply there from unthinking organs, and it is both for this ride and for the entirety of the summer.

  Glorious.

  But I’m shy with her and manage only a shrug. We take another lap with our eyes closed before Nick drifts us gently to the curb, and she floats down to kiss him.

  * * *

  The vision ends there, and I stay with it until the same bristle comes, the same bold dreams of transformation. I want to speak, to tell her the word she wanted, and to talk to them with the words I have now, as the husband, the father, the man at last. But the man can’t change the boy, and anything I tell them they couldn’t hear.

  PART ONE

  1.

  Road Rage magazine, in a commemorative issue that mourned the death of the American muscle car—killed by the Environmental Protection Agency—ran a feature on Nick Campbell in 1983. The article was two years old when I started my internship, and I liked to reread it, framed and dusty on the counter, as I stirred powdered creamer in my coffee. I almost had it memorized:

  Ten years after the EPA came down on Detroit like the church on Galileo, we still see no renaissance of horsepower on the showroom floor. With more repair shops catering to economy cars and imports, high-performance rebuilds and modification remain in the hands of a dedicated few. Recently, we sought out this dying breed of mechanic in the depressed factory town of Waterbury, Connecticut, and discovered one of the very best.

  The journalist hadn’t identified himself when he handed Nick the keys to a cherry ’68 Daytona. He asked for an overhaul that would boost factory output by thirty horsepower, a request that had gotten him laughed out the door at two previous shops.

  But Mr. Campbell dreamed through a full orchestra of internal combustion cause and effect: shaving the cylinder head this much meant boring a carburetor jet this much meant extending cam duration this much, meant swapping these pistons for those, this intake for that—all of it drawn to a final composition in his head before I even signed the estimate.

  The engines we saw were mostly small blocks, punctuated by a Tri-power GTO or a rat-motor Corvette—or, rarely, a true exotic like a Hemi Superbird. At seventeen, I was as dumbfounded as anyone to find myself touching these cars intimately, peering inside their complicated souls.

  After two years in vocational high school, I understood the general repair mechanic to be the perfect masculine blend of strength and intelligence. Real men had a natural respect for mechanics, primarily for specialty mechanics, which we all were. Ray Abbot, in his fifties, was the oldest. He was frank and cagey with customers, though he held a deep, wholesome respect for their high-compression engines. He lived alone, was estranged from his kids, and lumbered on irascibly, scorning potential friends.

  Bobby Stango had been hired on parole and was epitomized by a biker T-shirt he often wore in to work. TREAT ME GOOD, I’LL TREAT YOU BETTER, it said. TREAT ME BAD, I’LL TREAT YOU WORSE. With his pierced ear and handlebar mustache, he made even a starched-collar uniform look badass, pillows of tattooed muscle bulging against the chrome snaps. There was a willingness to fight that pervaded his words and gestures, even his laughter, and he gave you bear hugs if he liked you. I wondered if this were a natural disposition, or if prison had taught him what each day of freedom was worth.

  And then there was Nick Campbell, who prophesied the rebirth of American muscle cars. He thought that on-board computers would revolutionize horsepower technology, and in my eagerness he saw a certain capacity for imagination, which was enough for me to feel anointed, to covet his life and believe that I could one day receive it as my own.

  So when Nick’s jobs started coming back for warranty work a year later, in the summer of 1986, I couldn’t help feeling lost and forsaken.

  The first few rechecks were only mildly incriminating. A cracked spark plug that might or might not have been factory defective, a missing screw that might or might not have been tightened. I convinced high-paying customers that they were normal breaking-in glitches, rather than shoddy work. But as word of Nick’s unreliability began to spread, some of our formerly docile customers turned difficult. One morning a Ram Air Firebird, whose 400 engine Nick had beefed up with racing pistons, pulled right into the bays without a ticket. The owner was a fat, ruddy Italian named Mimo. In a black turtleneck and paperboy cap, he tried to promote a rumor that one of his relatives was connected, though instead of a cold-blooded mobster Mimo looked more like Dom DeLuise.

  Nick, Ray, and I left our cars and approached the Firebird from different angles. Ray stopped to stretch with a fist in his spine, Nick lit a cigarette, and I tried to exude the same lack of urgency while Mimo got out and felt around in the grille for the hood latch. He stirred into the petroleum smell a sweet cologne that you couldn’t get off all day if he shook your hand. “Something’s leaking,” he said. “I got oil drips all over my garage.”

  Instead of putting the Firebird up on the lift, Ray kicked over a creeper and rolled under the front end with a droplight. At this point we could still think that Nick’s work wasn’t to blame, that maybe it was condensation from the air conditioner and Mimo couldn’t tell oil from water. We still had options. But when Ray pushed out from under the bumper he looked stricken, flat on his back and gaping at the chain-hung fluorescent light.

  “What?” Nick said.

  Ray sat forward and considered the blackened steel toes of his Wolverines. “Drain plug,” he said, softly. Nick looked at him with such puzzlement that Ray began to repeat himself, but Nick interrupted, “I heard what you said.” He smoked his cigarette and sort of glazed over until, after a moment, even I hardly recognized him as the man who believed that cars could be great again one day.

  “What’s wrong with the drain plug?” Mimo said. “He didn’t cross-thread it, did he?”

  Ray bucked off the creeper on his way to the toolbox that Mimo had the misfortune to be standing next to. When I saw the chrome flash of a wrench I thought for a panicked moment that Ray might use it to crack open Mimo’s head. “Hey Mimo,” he said. “You got any naked pictures of your wife?”

  “What?” Mimo said. “What?” His jowls flushed and he wadded his fat hands down in his pockets. “No, I don’t. Jesus.”

  “You want to buy some?”

  Mimo dropped his head and glared for a long second at a slick of tranny fluid in the next bay. “What is your problem, man?”

  “My problem is a guy who pulls in here like he owns the place. A guy always coming in for more cam, more carb, more this, more that, thinking it’s gonna make his dick bigger, and then don’t want to pay.”

  “What’s wrong with the drain plug?” Nick said.

  Ray rubbed his oil-wet fingertips. “It’s loose a little bit,” he said, and as quick as I’d ever seen him do anything, he went back under the car with the wrench. Nick neglecting something so basic was inconceivable. Imagine leaving the house without putting on your right shoe.

  Nick collapsed into a steel chair as Mary Ann approached with a bookkeeping binder pressed to her slender waist. By this point she and Nick had been on the rocks for six months, and I expected her to trudge past in her usual sad distraction, but the eerie quiet coming from t
hree mechanics in the same bay woke her from her trance. She stopped short of the lobby door and turned. “What’s wrong?”

  Nick didn’t answer, and I watched her helplessly, a look of rejection, or maybe resignation, in her eyes that I felt in my own stomach. Just as she was walking away, Nick said, “Do me a favor. Take Mimo out front and give him his money back.”

  “Whoa,” Mimo said, a flattered, guilt-ridden knot of emotion now. “Hey, that’s twelve hundred bucks. I’m happy with a discount.”

  “I don’t give a damn what you’re happy with,” Nick said. He got up and threw his cigarette in the trash can, where any number of things could have gone up in flames.

  2.

  I first met Nick in the summer of 1985 through an internship program with Northwest Vo/Ag High School. My shop teacher, Mr. Harper, wasn’t happy to find that I was the only one who applied. He wanted to send Nick one of the engine wizards of Northwest, but those guys either didn’t have the academic grades or they were constrained to family farms in the summers, and I was it.

  One evening at home, there was a knock on the door as I was sitting down to dinner with Mom and April. Mr. Harper had come by with a blown Ford 302 in the back of his truck and a bucket of tools. I was supposed to tear the engine down and reassemble it as many times as I could before June.

  That winter and spring, swaddled in thermals and knit hats, I rebuilt the engine twice in our garage. I didn’t have the money for a gasket and bearing kit to actually get it running, but when I spun the flywheel around, the lifters rode the camshaft lobes, the crankshaft pushed the pistons, everything sliding and rocking exactly as it should. I still didn’t fully understand the engine, but I was gratified by the deep and complicated way it operated—imagining the unfathomable timing of spark and valves, the constant grip of vacuum, all of it contained in a seven-hundred-pound box whose sole function was to convert fuel and air into speed. I fell in love with the math of physical mechanics, the order, the predictability—always this effect to that cause—that was lacking from my everyday life.

 

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