by K. T Fisher
Rockstar
Daddy
written by K.T.Fisher
Rockstar Daddy
(Book 1 in the Decoy Series)
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Prologue
"Is it time yet?"
I look to my best friend Jessica, we're both sat on the edge of my bed. She checks her phone and nods her head slowly, yes it's time. I walk towards my little bathroom where I have left the pregnancy test on the edge of the bath. I couldn't sit in the same room with it just a touch away, it felt like it was screaming out at me. I feel sick, I can't believe I am doing this! I'm twenty years old, I'm too young to be a mum. On the plus side at least I know who the father of my baby is I suppose. I definitely know who my baby's daddy is and as wonderful of a man he is, that's the big problem here.
I have been with my boyfriend Jax for two years now, his amazing. His six foot tall, has big, broad shoulders, jet black messy hair and smokey gray eyes that can heat my body with the right look. He screams sex appeal with his smooth muscles and he has the sexy V on the bottom of his toned muscled stomach. I get horny just looking at him, sometimes just thinking of him does the trick. That's probably why I'm in this mess because we have so much fun enjoying each other's body's we can't seem to satisfy that need for each other. The only problem is that other girls also get flushed when there around Jax. A lot of girls throw themselves at him a lot of the time, even when I'm with him which can piss me off but it's all part of the deal because his in a rockband called Decoy.
The band is getting really popular and that means more attention from the girls. When his on that stage all sweaty and singing down to his crowd his all theres and they scream for him. He assures me he loves me and he doesn't want any other girl. I believe and trust him with all my heart but this is the beginning of his dream. Playing and singing to people who love his music and the band because all four of them are good looking men. They have quite allot of groupies already and his band mates Rhys, Leo and Max take good advantage of all the beautiful girls. I feel like I'm keeping Jax back but Jessica always tells me to shut up whenever I mention it. She's the only one out of my friends who actually like the band and the guys. It's not that I hate what Jax does, it's more that I don't want to keep him from living his dream 100% and having a girlfriend whilst in a rising to fame rockband can keep you from a lot of things. I love him so much and I feel like I'm keeping him back, crazy right? What kind of girl wants to dump her sexy rocker boyfriend so he can tour with his band and enjoy the life of groupies and sex? Oh yea. Me.
The guys Sam, Mark and James act like my big overprotective brothers and the fact my boyfriend is in a rockband doesn't go over well with them. Sam is the most pissed out of the three of them because I take Jessica to Decoy's gigs with me and Sam and Jessica are a couple. Sam doesn't like that I take Jess along to a rock concert with all types of people jumping around. I assure them that were perfectly safe and the guys look after us but I think that's one of the reasons Sam doesn't like Jessica there. All the guys in the band are seriously good looking, obviously I think Jax is the hottest but the other guys get just as much attention. Max, Leo and Rhys can be very flirtatious, they keep it to a minimum with me because I'm with there friend but there not really friends with Sam so they don't keep back where Jessica is concerned. So lately I have started to take along a girl I met at college, Tanya. She's pretty cool and loves their music, plus shes single so no jealous boyfriend on my back.
I reach for the pregnancy test and risk a glance. My heart sinks and my whole world stops. Two lines, that means It's positive! Shit, I can't be pregnant but I am fucking pregnant! I'm sure we were safe all the time. I mean I forgot my pill a couple of times but then I made sure Jax wrapped up or did the naughty pull out trick. I suppose that was dumb of us and didn't work because why else would I be standing here staring at two lines.
I walk out the bathroom and as soon as I lock eyes with my best friend of ten years I break down. She comes running over to me and I cry in her little arms for what feels like hours. She smooths my bright red hair out of my face and looks me right in the eyes.
"What are you gonna do Kendal?"
I know I can't have an abortion. That's just not me, I could never do that. My parents are going to kill me! Oh no I'm going to trap Jax. I have college to finish too!
"I'm keeping the baby Jess but I don't know what I'm going to do about Jax."
She scrunches up her nose in confusion.
"Jax? What do you mean? His the baby's dad."
"I can't do this to him Jess. He has his band, I've nearly finished college, I can get a job. Support me and the baby on my own."
"Kendal you can't do that. He has to know your pregnant. It's his baby too, it's his responsibility aswell. He will help you through all of this. It's not your fault, you both did this. Let him help you."
I shake my head, no. I know he will stand by me that's why I can't tell him. He will hate me for taking away his dream. I don't want to trap him and make him get a job he hates to just provide for me and our baby. I can do this, Jax doesn't need to know.
"I can do it on my own. I will get my own place so I'm not under my parents feet. I can't do this to him Jess, I love him too much. I can't take away his dream."
Jessica lowers her head and sighs deeply.
"I think it's a very bad idea but it's not my choice to make. I will stand by you whatever you choose."
We hug and I cry some more. I have to end this with Jax tonight before I change my mind. Funny how just moments ago I felt like my world was falling apart and now I know exactly what I'm going to do.
Chapter 1
Four years later.....
"OK, let me take that. I think you've looked at it long enough."
Jessica snatches away the newspaper that I'm staring at on my kitchen table. It has a big picture of Decoy inside listing the awards they won at the music award show last night. None of them are in suits which is typical, Jax is looking delicious in tight black jeans, converse and a black tight t-shirt. She shoves it in her huge handbag away from my sight. Yeah, I guess I shouldn't be staring at it. Finley is due black from my parents anytime now and I need to be happy mummy, not sad mummy. My parents like to have him over every other Saturday which does give me a bit of peace of quiet every now and then. I feel a stab of pain in my heart from looking at the picture. His still unbelievably gorgeous and I've never gotten over him, I guess it's payback for leaving him and not telling I'm having his baby. I will never be able to move on.
"Yeah I know."
I take a big gulp of my tea wishing it was something stronger.
"Have you he
ard from Harley?"
She sits opposite me and takes a sip of her tea. Jessica has an olive skin tone that I've always been jealous of and dark brown hair, chocolate eyes.
"He text me yesterday asking how me and Finley were."
Harley is my ex, I ended it with him three months ago. His a great guy, he loved Finley and Finley seemed to really like him too. But I didn't have the same feelings he had for me, he asked me to move in with him and that came as a huge shock. We had been sort of seeing each other for a year and I just thought it was casual but I didn't realize it was more than that for Harley. I couldn't fall for Harley like that because Jax still owned my heart, so I did what I had to do and ended it with Harley. His a very sexy man, all muscles and tattoos but I suppose when you've been with someone like Jax other men just doesn't measure up. Jax had some tattoos when I was with him but over the years it looks like his added more to his rockstar image, along with a few more piercings. I didn't think it was possible but he looks even more delicious.
"His a good guy Kendal, you just need to let him in."
I shoot her with a are-you-kidding-me glare. She knows how I still feel about Jax.
"Alright, I get it. His not Jax."
Before I could answer her remark there's a loud bang and running footsteps in the hallway.
"I back mummmmy!"
Well that's my peace and quiet over, at least Jessica can stop talking about my love life now. I turn to look towards the doorway and my heart skips a beat. Finley is standing there in his black skinny jeans with converse and a red t-shirt. Hair all mad with a big smile on his face. How am I supposed to forget about Jax when I have mini version of him living with me? Finley jumps onto my knee and wraps his little arms around my neck and squeezes. God I love this kid, I just can't help feeling guilty that Jax is missing out.
~ Jax ~
As I wake up I wince as the killer hangover begins. My head feels tender as I run my hand through my hair. Last night was a crazy and eventful night. After we won our four awards we did what rockbands do best. Party. Hard. There's a certain part of last night where my memories go fuzzy and I can't remember anything. Must have been a good night. God only knows how I managed it back to my hotel room. Probably the works of one of our good friend and roadie, Steve. He helps out when were too drunk to function. I stop rubbing my hands over my face when the bed shifts next to me, I peak through my fingers which is difficult as the blinding light coming through the window makes my eyes close again. I guess I was too drunk to think to shut the dam curtains. When my eyes are able to focus I see a mass of blonde hair spawled out on the pillow next to mine. I silently groan in frustration. Fuck! I bought a girl back, fingers crossed she's not a groupie. Knowing my luck she will be one of the ones we like to call the crazies. There the worst kind of groupie, they have never met you but they think there in love with you and that your destined to be together. Get married and all that shit. There tough to get rid of which is were Steve is also useful.
So I guess I spent another night having drunken, meaningless sex. Yet another one night stand. It may be hard to believe but I don't want this, girl after girl. No strings, no future. It's not me anymore and I don't find it appealing at all. I stare at the blonde hair on the pillow and I wish it would turn into a different colour. Bright red actually. The colour that belongs to a girl who I haven't seen since she walked out on me four years ago. My heart still bleeds for that girl and I think about her every day. Kendal Moore. Even when I think of her name my dick twitches a little. She was so sexy. Cute little body that had the most sexiest of curves. She had gorgeous big blue eyes, creamy skin that was so smooth and her hair that showed her attitude. Her pretty face made you think she was an angel but let me tell you she could turn into a harsh little devil if you crossed her or the ones she loves. We had the most amazing sex and we would have it anywhere we could. We were crazy about each other and with Kendal it was never meaningless. Every time I thought it was better than the last and I fell that little bit more in love with her. Here I am four years later, she's not even here and my dick hardens at just the thought of her. Kendal Moore is the girl than got away, well actually she sort of ran away. She looked like she couldn't get out of my door quick enough. As soon as she told me she didn't want to be with me anymore I just stood there too shocked to move. What a dick! I should have ran after her, shouted her and told her she wasn't going anywhere but I didn't and here I am.
I will admit over the years I have tried to fill Kendal's absence with one night stands. The girls were all gorgeous, some groupies, some models and even some celebrities. I have even picked up a few girls in local bars when were in town and they have no idea who I am, they think I'm just a regular guy. But none of them made me forget, none of them compared to the beauty of Kendal. You would think I would be cold hearted towards Kendal and maybe even hate her but I could never think of her like that. I loved her and I think I still do, I've never moved on. She was real to me, the whole package. She never looked at me like other girls. All other women look at me as Jax, the front man of Decoy. Even more so now because the band is a lot more popular than when I was with Kendal. But Kendal wouldn't be bothered about all that. She was interested in me, she just wanted Jax Finley Parker. Me. That was what I thought anyway, I thought she loved me but if she did why would she leave me?
I did try and move on but that was a mistake I wish I never made. Her name is Cheryl Daniels and as soon as I saw her my jaw dropped. She's a stunning women, long black hair, slim body and chocolate brown eyes. She was kind and caring but she wasn't Kendal and no matter how many times we had sex and would have dates and hang out my feelings wouldn't appear for her and I really wished they did. As soon as she told me she loved me I had to call it quits. That was last year and I still see her from time to time and I see she wants me back. But I'm not interested because I now know she was using me for her carrier, me and her were just for publicity reasons. Take last night for example, whenever a camera was nearby she would hold onto my arm or kiss me, make it look like we were intimate.
Being caught up in my thoughts, I didn't realize I was still looking at the blonde. She flashes me a seductive smile which brings me back. I grimace, she looks rough as hell, I guess she had a lot to drink too. Her hair is a mess and her make up is smudged all over her face. She would probably be a pretty girl if she didn't smother her face in all that crap.
"Hey sexy."
She purrs and rolls onto her side, revealing her tits. I just nod at her, I really don't want to talk right now. I'm pissed at myself for getting so drunk and bringing a girl back. This shit has to stop. She reaches out a hand and places it on my bare chest.
"You wana go again? I'm free, we could spend all together. I'll let you do anything you like."
Yea I bet she would. She winks at me probably thinking she looks sexy as hell but she's really making me cringe. I feel dirty, I need a hot shower and get this smell off me. I can't be nice, charming Jax. I need to act like a dick so she will leave.
"Sorry babe, I have shit to do. Why don't you grab your stuff and head out yea?"
God I hate talking like that but desperate times and all that. She pouts her lips and scoots up a little closer to me. Her hand that was on my chest now slowly slides down south and takes hold of my dick.
"Ooooo someone's happy to see me."
Hasn't this girl heard of a morning glory? She quickly pulls a condom over my cock and straddles me. She pushes her huge tits in my face and then slides my dick inside her. Blondie sighs out loud but I don't even feel anything. She bounces on top of me making all sorts of noices and that's when I hold onto her hips.
"I have shit to do babe. Another time yea?"
She wines and does that annoying pouting again.
"Let's have some fun first."
"Look I need you to go so I can take a shower."
I grab her hips and pull her off my cock, reach for my phone from the bed side table and jump out of the bed. I walk to the bathroom giving
blondie a good view of my arse. Before I close the door I hear her shout behind me.
"I could join you in there?"
Can she not take rejection?
"That's unnecessary."
As soon as the door shuts behind me I look through the list of names in my phone until I find Steve. His one of the few roadies that have come back to London with us because he grew up here too. We decided that now the tour has finished we need a much needed break because in a few months we will be starting to write our new album so we decided to come back home and settle back down here. We have all missed our home town and me and Rhys are sick of not having a permanent home so we thought the first place we would like to buy a home would be in London. The phone rings twice before Steve answers.
"Jax?"
"Steve, I need your help bro."
I hear him laughing, I knew he would like this.
"Ahhh man, do you need rescuing?"
