by K. T Fisher
"Yes, it was lovely Jax. Everything was lovely, you didn't have to do that."
"Yea I did. I was a dick for what I said to you. I'm sorry Kendal."
"It doesn't matter now, it's all forgotten. Lets be friends OK?"
"Sure. Friends."
We hug it out and I can't help but breath him in. He smells delicious, I don't want to be friends. I want to be with Jax again like we used to but I know that's not going to happen again. Once I tell him on Sunday he will hate me and won't want anything to do with me. We slowly walk our way back to the car, it's great we haven't seen anyone or at least sex wanting fans at least. He begins to say sorry for the newspaper this morning but I stop him. He can't control all of that. If I want to spend time with Jax this is what I've got to expect. I find out that Sophie told him where I work, I'll ring that little minx up later.
"Do they follow you everywhere?"
"Yea, it can get annoying but it comes with the whole package."
"I can't believe they were outside work."
"Oh shit I'm sorry I brought them there. They might start to appear there more often now. Fuck I didn't think of that."
"Hey! Jax, it's fine. I'll deal with it. If it means I have to put up with them to see you I'll get over it."
He grins that sexy smile and I tell myself over and over 'friends, friends, friends.' We reach his car but he doesn't unlock it straight away, instead he stops us walking a few steps away from the door and faces me. Immediately my mantra stops as Jax smiles down at me. He softly cups my cheek with his large hand and I can't help but lean into it.
"You'r a great girl Kendal, you know that?"
"I'm not that great."
"No you are. I've missed you so much babe."
He won't be thinking that on Sunday. He will think I'm a lying bitch.
"I've missed you to Jax."
He slowly leans into me and I don't know what to do. Do I? Don't I? Didn't I just say friends only ten minutes ago? Then flash stops Jax leaning in and he quickly guides me into his car and slams the door behind me. Jax is in his seat only seconds after I get pushed in and he quickly drives away.
"Fuck!"
"Jax it's fine."
"No it's not! You left me because you didn't want all this shit and it's everywhere."
I told him I couldn't trust him anymore and I didn't want to be involved in the attention they were getting then and in the future. It was a lie obviously because we all know why I did leave.
"It's OK, if they want to get a picture of when I'm in my work uniform then so be it."
I gesture to my black shorts and purple t-shirt.
"I think that uniform is pretty sexy actually."
I laugh, glad that his mood has gone.
"Really?"
"Fuck yea."
Well if didn't make my underwear wet again I don't know what would. Dam you Jax.
Chapter 21
~Jax~
As soon as I get back from taking Kendal back to work I get on the phone to one of our media managers. Now Kendal has had her photo snapped with me a few times I need to protect her name. Better to be safe than sorry, sometimes the media can turn nasty and people easily believe it. I give orders that Kendal is to be known as an ex girlfriend from before we got signed and we have been on and off for years. At least when we get back together we will be safe because I will get Kendal back.
Today when I watched her working I was so happy watching her doing what she loved. You could tell she loved hairdressing by just watching her face. Seeing her look happy with what she was doing wasn't my first thought though, my first thought was thinking about how fucking sexy she looked in her little uniform. Those little black shorts were showing of her sexy slim legs and her purple top clung to her curves and tits so I could see exactly what I had been missing. Kendal sure was shocked to see me and seeing my gifts in her work made me feel a little better for what I said to her. I was just popping to see what she thought of the letter and to make sure she forgave me but when her boss sneakily let me know she has an hour lunch break now I had to spend that hour with her. Nothing fancy, just something like what we used to do, Sometimes I go and sit on the benches right at the back of the park to just be by myself for a while so I knew that was the place to take Kendal. I soon had her laughing and happily chatting away like the good old times. Seeing her face come alive as she spoke about everyone was something I envied. I wish she looked like that when she spoke about me, I hope we can be how we used to be.
When we stood there face to face, I was going to ask her if I could meet her son. I would love to meet him, I bet his some awesome kid and a good looking kid too. His got to be with a mum like Kendal. I don't even want to think about the bastard who got her pregnant and left her. I don't care if Kendal chose to do this on her own, that's not the thing you do. You help the mother of your child and Finley doesn't even know his dad! Kendal told me during our bite to eat today that she's glad she had her guys and dad to help her with him. I want to help her with Finley, I would love to. Just before I was going to ask her I looked into her eyes and forgot what I was going to say because I just wanted to kiss her. I would have too if that fucking pap hadn't took a sneaky picture! I had to get her in the car and out of there. But thanks to me Kendal will probably have to get used to seeing them about now.
Tomorrow is the big wedding so tonight Rhys is at ours because the girls are over his with Sophie. Tomorrow night we're all staying at Rhys and Sophies because we don't know how long we will be partying for. Maybe I can get that kiss from Kendal tomorrow, anyway isn't that what weddings are for? I'm a best man, Kendal's a bridesmaid, I can't wait to see her in her dress.
"So how did it go this time?"
Rhys sits down beside me on the sofa in my private living room. No doubt escaping Leo and Max. Rhys and Sophie were not impressed with me when they came over this morning. They forgave me though when I told them what I had ordered Kendal and why I had acted like that in the first place.
"A lot better, fucking hell Rhys she looks so fucking sexy in her little uniform."
He laughs and smacks me on the shoulder.
"Was she OK?"
"Yea, amazingly she forgave me. I need her Rhys, I was going in to kiss her when a fucking pap snapped away."
He grimaced knowing all too well about that. The media are dying to get a better look at Sophie but Sophie doesn't want them to. She covers herself up and if she was out on her own nobody would know she was Rhys girlfriend. Where as I've met Kendal twice now and they have been caught on camera both times. Max and Leo walk in and thrust a beer in each of our faces.
"I don't wana be hung over on my wedding day Leo."
"You've only had one ya girl."
We spend the rest of the night playing on the Xbox and just fucking about, like what we usually do. It's nice to do this again, we haven't done this since we came back to London. Max and Leo try and give me tips to get Kendal's attention, like I can't do that by myself. I wish I had Kendal's number, I did ask Sophie but she told me no. If Kendal hadn't given it to me then she wasn't either. Tomorrows too long to wait to see her. I want to able to have her as mine 100% again. To possess her so no other fucker would touch her. She's so dam sexy and beautiful, why did I let her go four years ago? My biggest mistake was letting her walk away. Never again.
~Kendal~
"Are you sure you don't want to come buddy?"
I feel guilty as hell leaving Finley again. My mum was going to stay at mine but Finley wanted to go to there house because the playcentre in there garden. I don't want to leave him again but it's the night before the wedding and we're staying with Sophie. Sophie understands why it's probably not a good idea to take Finley to the wedding. I've had dinner with my little man and it's now his bedtime so I've read his bedtime story. Finley shakes his head dramatically.
"No way mummy. I going with Grandad to play with the band."
My dad used to be in a band, nothing big. Just local gigs but his band all sti
ll meet up and play and tomorrow my dads taking Finley. He loves going and his taking his little blue guitar I bought him.
"OK rockstar, be good OK?"
I give him a big kiss and he nods his head. Maybe it is best he stays here anyway. It's going to be a long day tomorrow and I don't want Jax seeing him before I tell him. When I leave Finley I pop home to change and pack some things to take to Sophies. Jessica has the photos we had printed for her and Tanya has the pole, we're not bringing those until tomorrow morning. I get in my car and go to Sophie's, it's weird now coming over when I know it's Rhys' house too. I can't wait to see Max and Leo tomorrow. Jax was my boyfriend and who I was in love with, still am. Rhys was my big older brother and good friend and Leo and Max were like my silly crazy best friends but who also had that protective brotherly streak. Most of the time they showed me there love in there own crazy way and we always had a fun crazy time together.
When I enter the house Tanya greets me and shoves todays paper in my hand. I take a look and groan.
"That's a fucking great picture."
I give Tanya a don't-start look. On the front of the paper is the picture what was snapped yesterday of me and Jax at the park. It is a good picture and we look totally in love. I have my eyes closed with my head leaning up, waiting for Jax to kiss me. Jax has his hands on my body in an intimate way, you tell we we're in a moment.
"If you think that's bad you probably won't want to see all the magazines and I looked this morning on the internet. You two are the shit on the gossip sites at the minute."
Oh perfect. Tanya just laughs and then leads me through the main entrance and towards the back of the house I stop amazed. Tomorrow everyone will enter the wedding by the back garden so there's not a lot of people walking through their new house. The doors leading to the main entrance will be blocked or locked to deny access to upstairs. From the main entrance are navy drapes to lead you to the garden if you were to walk into the house and the downstairs toilets. We follow the designed walkway and it leads you to an empty room where two double doors are open wide to the garden. I catch my breath when I see the outside. It's truly beautiful. Outside the double doors I notice a black flooring has been put down to cover the area designed for the wedding. It's a massive area and it still doesn't cover the whole grassy area. At least women in there heeled shoes won't sink into the grass. Directly in front of the doors is the walkway Sophie will walk down and either side are rows of chairs in white fitted covers and a navy sash tied in a big bow at the back. At the end of the walkway is a white archway covered in roses where Sophie and Rhys will be married. It's so classy and cute, so Sophie. On the far left of the garden is a huge marquee and I mean huge!
"Wow"
"Yea they have done great right? Sophie and Maisy are in there."
We make our way over to the humongous white marquee, no actually its a tent, a circus tent. When we enter there's a scatter of circle tables with navy table cloths drapped over them with chairs the same as the ones outside around them. Sophie and Maisy are talking near a long table which is obviously the top table. Sophie runs over and hugs me tight. This is where we will be eating after the ceremony and once the reception starts this is where the DJ will be set up and be the main dancing area. We spend the night very much like when we spent the night before. Champagne and giggles. The girls question me over Jax obviously, Sophie and Maisy are still the romantic's and think tomorrow he will put on the moves. As much as that makes me giddy and hopeful I don't want him to make a move. I don't think that's a good idea.
After a lot of girly chatter all the excitement for tomorrow, face masks and a huge takeaway meal Sophie shows us to where we will be sleeping. She opens a door and it's all white apart from the pink sheets on the two double beds, we're staying in the same room. Which means we can all stay together tonight. On one side of the girly sleepover room are the four black dress bags with our names in italic pink writing. While the girls get ready for bed and unpack I go and call my dad to check up on Finley
"Hey kiddo."
I love hearing my dads deep voice, it makes me feel like I'm home.
"Hey dad, how's Fin?"
"Still asleep. How's it going over there?"
"A lot of fun."
"Listen, ya friends getting married to Rhys and me and ya mum have seen the papers angel. Just tell me the truth. Is it Decoy's Jax who is Finley's dad?"
Fucking hell, I knew I should have told them first. We shouldn't be doing this on the phone but his asked me for the truth.
"It's true dad, we was together when I was in college. I found out I was pregnant and decided not to tell him and leave him. I know it was a shit thing to do dad but I couldn't end his dream before it began. I rea-"
"Kendal stop."
I freeze my talking and wait for it.
"I can understand what ya did but it doesn't mean it was a good idea angel. Ya have to tell him Kendal, we will talk more when I see ya OK?"
"OK dad."
"Alright angel, I'll see ya when ya in the morning."
"Oh dad, I'm telling him on Sunday by the way."
"That's good angel. Bye."
I stare at my phone after I hang up and get ahold of myself. Now my mum and dad know exactly who Finley's dad is. My dad will definitely give me his disapproving eyes when I see him in the morning to see Finley before the wedding.
Chapter 22
"Remember my cake mummy."
I smile at me gorgeous son. I have just spent three hours at my parents house so I can see Finley before I have to start getting ready. I think his mentioned wedding cake about ten times since I've been here.
"I won't forget the cake Fin."
"Good mummy because I like cake."
After giving Finley about a thousand kisses I leave and get in my car and see I have a text from Jessica.
JESSICA: Remember 2 get pics from mine
Honestly the woman hasn't given me the chance to forget. She has sent me a text every hour. After getting the gifts for Sophie from Jessica's, which Sam wasn't happy with because I woke him early on a Saturday morning. When I walk into Sophies house Tanya grabs me by the arm and leads me upstairs.
"Thank god you're here, Sophie's a nervous wreck. She wants us all showered now."
I'm taken to a big room which is obviously the bridal room for today. Theres three white dressing tables along one wall, on the other side of the room are five floor length mirrors and theres chairs scattered around the room. Music is quietly playing as background noise, theres Champagne bottles on one of the dressing tables along with a huge bunch of flowers. Sophie walks in with her huge white dress bag as soon as her eyes land on me I see her relax a little, only slightly.
"Oh there you are!"
"Sorry, I went to go and see Finley."
She waves my apology away.
"Don't be silly, I understand. Now you two go shower and then we can all have some breakfast. Make sure you bring your dresses in here and anything else you need to get ready."
On our way back to the room we slept in we see Maisy and Jessica walking towards us, dress bags in hand. We smile at each other and say a quick 'hi' not bothering to stop. Sophie gave us her orders and we're going to obey. I think we're all a little scared if anything goes even slightly off plan or we're not on time with her schedule she might freak out on us.
After a very quick shower I wrap myself in a towel and dry my hair upside down style. I make sure my roots are dry and then dress in the white dressing gown Sophie supplied for us all in the bathroom. I grab my dress bag and gather my make up bag and everything I need for my hair. Tanya just beats me to the bridal room but Sophies not here yet.
"Kendal be a babe and dry my hair."
"You have been waiting for me to dry your hair?"
"What's the point of having a hairdresser friend when she won't do your hair on an important day like today?"
Maisy sits down at the dressing table next to her.
"Yea, come on Tan. Sophie did ask you
to do our hair."
Tanya scoffs.
"Yea style it not blow dry it. Lazy bitches."
We get to it anyway and by the time we have finished Sophie returns so she takes Jessica's place and I gladly dry her hair for her. Giving it plenty of volume and loose curls. Hair all dried we make our way down to the dining room and eagerly eat our late breakfast. I hear a low snuffle and look to my left, Sophie is wiping away a few tears.
"Ohhh Soph."
I wrap my arms around her and she laughs a little.
"Oh don't mind me. I'm just all emotional today."
Jessica grips her shoulder on her other side.
